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I looked over at Bucky as we laid on his bed. He had fallen asleep at least an hour ago, and I was still wide awake looking at the light fixture that hung over our heads. I sighed and quietly got out of bed. I walked into the small bathroom and looked out in the window as the traffic passed by below... the traffic never completely disappeared in New York. I glanced at myself in the mirror as the large bruise stuck out against my pale skin. I couldn't recognize myself anymore. I was back out in the field as a handler and I felt so new again. I sighed as I heard Bucky move and glanced out at him. He had rolled over in his sleep as the sheet rode low on his hips, and his metal arm was shielding his eyes.

I couldn't believe that I had let myself like him like that. I had denied how I felt for weeks now, and he finally broke me down. He was like Steve, but not at the same time... he was vunerable in different ways. Why did I have to fall for super soldiers? I thought to myself as I ran my hand through my hair and winced as a few tangles pulled apart. Bucky had told me exactly how he felt tonight, and I had opened myself to him. I stopped us before anything went too far, because I wasn't ready for that. I sighed as I walked out to see Bucky sitting up on the side of the bed.

"I thought you had slipped out." he said and I shook my head as I sat next to him.

"No, you asked me to stay, and I did." I said and he nodded as he moved some hair out of my face.

"You haven't slept yet." he stated and I nodded. I wasn't going to hide it... not from him. He could tell anyways.

"Are you hurting?" he asked me and I was a little, but that wasn't why I couldn't sleep. I shook my head no and he kissed my forehead. He pulled away and searched my face.

"Did I upset you tonight?" he asked me and I looked at him in surprise when he asked that.

"No, you told the truth." I finally said and he nodded.

"Do you miss him? Because I do." he admitted and I nodded my head. I would always miss Steve, even if our relationship didn't end on a good note. He would always be special to me.

"I miss him and I hate him at the same time." he said and I looked at him surprised.

"Why?" I finally asked him.

"Because I came back for him, and he left... he wanted to go be with her, but I felt like I was forgotten. We were best friends. He was all I really knew. We looked out for each other most our lives, and he just leaves me. I guess in a way I'm glad he's gone though because if he were here I doubt he would have stopped until he had you. Steve might have been nice, but he had a jealous streak." he said and I chuckled. I wasn't surprised to hear that because I had seen Steve have moments. I thought he was going to rip one guys hand off when he touched me at a restaurant one time.

"I can believe that. I saw that side on him on rare occasions. He could be... well like you at times." I admitted and Bucky looked at me with a raised eyebrow, but nodded. I guess Steve really did hide his dark side from everyone. He got ready to say something when my phone rang. I found it and saw that it was Sam calling. I answered it and put it on speaker phone.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey, I'm not disturbing anything right?" he asked me and I looked at Bucky with a raised eyebrow and he blushed slightly... he had told Sam he liked me. I ran my hand over my face and shook my head.

"No, what's up?" I answered and Bucky hand his hand through his hair.

"Strange reached out to me... he said something weird is going on in the universe." he said as Bucky and I looked at each other with a confused expression.

"Have you told Fury?" I asked him.

"Yeah, he wants us to meet tomorrow morning so we can talk to Strange." he said and I heard giggling in the background. I smirked because I knew it was Chelsea.

"See you tomorrow morning at 8, and tell Chelsea hi for me." I said and he chuckled as Bucky smirked.

"Night guys." he said.

"Bye." I said and hung up as I looked at Bucky.

"I don't know if I can deal with stupid shit and Walker right now." I said and he smirked. I put my phone down and he pulled me to him as I went to sit back down. I was now sitting in Bucky's lap as he held me, and I wrapped my arms around his neck. I had to admit that I felt much more comfortable around him after we got everything out in the open in Europe. I just hoped that I wasn't being an idiot for thinking that I could like him.

"You need some sleep." he said and I moaned as I laid my head on his shoulder.

"Fine, come on." he said and stood up while holding me. He sat me on my feet and started to grab clothes.

"Get ready, we are going for a walk." he said and I glanced at the clock it was past midnight, and I knew that I wouldn't be sleeping tonight anyways. We got clothes on and stepped out into the warm air. Bucky took my hand as we started to walk down the sidewalk. I followed him wordlessly as we walked towards some destination he had. We didn't pass many people because most sane people were sleeping or doing something in doors. I looked around and realized we were going towards Prospect park. We got there as a security guard walked up to close it. He looked at Bucky and smiled.

"You want to go in?" he asked him and Bucky nodded.

"Thanks, George." he said and patted the man on the back. The man smiled at me as we walked past.

"You know how to get out." he said to Bucky as he closed us in and Bucky gave him a wave.

"You do this a lot?" I asked him and he nodded.

"Someone told me I needed a spot that was just my own... that I could think and be myself." he said as he looked at me. I smirked and shook my head. I had told him that when I was trying to get him to open up before I let myself get to know the real James Barnes. We walked past the carousel, past the zoo, and came to stop near the small lake in the park. I could hear the animals moving around in the zoo, traffic outside the walls, and animals in the trees around us.

"I wanted to bring you hear there think. I come here when I need to shut everything out." he said as he pulled me over to a bench. We sat down as he kept our fingers intertwined and he kissed the back of my hand. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I listened to myself for a second as Bucky's thumb rubbed small circles over the back of my hand.

"Why do you want to date me?" I finally asked him because in reality that was what had been keeping me awake...why? And more importantly how would this work?


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