I Own Nothing not even the song Love Don't Run by Steve Holy I just borrowed it.
AN: Okay this is a fix it for the end of season 2. I have multiple ones of these that I'll post.
AN2: I got an awesome job I love, but I'm always tired so sorry if I'm not posting as much.
Summary: Victor sings a love letter like with the song Love Don't Run to Benji at open mic night.
Title: Love Don't Run
All week Victor had been miserable. His heart was broken and he knew he had screwed it up this time. He felt like his life wasn't going to be okay again. He missed Benji and the pain inside of him wasn't going away. He knew that he'd made sure they didn't have a shift together. He wanted to curl up in a ball and cry yet again. After the day and night off with Rahim he'd spent the rest of that night on the couch crying against his mom's shoulder. She'd finally come around and now he couldn't even have what he wanted. Though he was hoping to fix that now.
It was open mic night and he knew for a fact that Benji was working it. They'd both been scheduled to work it. He'd been going to cover while Benji and his band played a couple of songs near the end of the night. He was terrified of what he was going to do, but after the week he'd had he really wanted to make things right. He'd spent the last two days after he'd seen the flyer for tonight working on a song. Felix had finally given him the best one out of the ones he'd had. There were two he had ended up with and he loved them both, but Felix had said that the second one would work the best right now. Maybe he could do the other as a back up.
Victor was trying to stay hidden until he was supposed to go on stage. Felix had helped him slip in when Benji had been busy so he wouldn't notice. He'd gotten in one of the corners and was holding onto the hope that he had a chance of making this right. He had been shocked when his mom had helped him, but he shouldn't have been. After all she had finally come around to him being with Benji. He took a breath trying not to throw up because this was kind of scary even if he'd been on a stage in a gay bar the week before and in New York. This was different because he was singing it to the man he loved hoping he'd forgive him.
He never should have opened his mouth about anything. He hated his self for it and he had to fix it. He didn't blame Benji for not trusting him, he wouldn't trust his own self after what he did. He'd sing the song and go from there. He had swallowed holding onto the guitar that he'd borrowed just for this. He had spent the last two days working on it and hoped that he didn't butcher it. He saw Benji which was the first time they'd been in the place together since the morning after his birthday when Benji walked out, besides school.
He hoped to hell that Benji didn't see him until after he was on the stage, but at the moment he was talking to one of his band mates. Victor watched the latest person leave the stage. He knew it was now or never because it was getting closer to closing and the last ones were going to be Benji and the band so he got up. He walked over to the stage noticing that Benji was facing away from him. He swallowed the lump in his throat before he opened his mouth.
"Hey everyone I'm Victor as most of you know. I work here and I wanted to do this song. It took me two days to figure out which one I wanted to do for this." Victor said and he did his best not to look where he knew Benji was standing at. He couldn't until after he started singing or he'd lose his nerve and runaway. "It's a cover of Love Don't Run." He added before he started playing. Benji had been teaching him how to play the guitar, but they hadn't gotten farther than a few cords. It was why he'd practiced like crazy the last two days.
~VB BV~
This is gonna hurt, this is gonna hurt like hell
This is gonna damn near kill me, sometimes the truth ain't easy
I know that you're scared of telling me something
I don't wanna hear, but baby believe that
I'm not leaving, you couldn't give me one good reason
Victor thought about the birthday dinner where Benji had kept trying to get his mom to not say what she had. The fact he was a year sober. He never had gotten to tell him he was proud of him. He hated his self for that part because he didn't know if Benji knew that he thought he was strong as hell for not letting the addiction win. He loved him even if he couldn't have anything to drink. He loved him because he was special and sweet in his book. He could only hope that he'd have the time to tell him.
Love don't run, love don't hide
It won't turn away or back down from a fight
Baby I'm right here and I ain't going anywhere
Love's too tough it wont give up no not on us
Baby Love don't run
Victor finally made his self open his eyes and when he'd sung that part he'd looked right at Benji. He needed to get it out and being a chicken by not looking at him wasn't going to help. He loved looking in those eyes. He wished he could wake up to them all the time. He didn't care if someone thought that was crazy since he was sixteen. He knew what he wanted. He wanted Benji in his life for the end of time like he'd said when he'd hired him.
Let's lay it on the line, I don't care if it takes all night 'cause
This is gonna make us stronger, it's gonna make forever longer
I know it'd be easier walking away but what we got is real
And I wanna save us, baby we can do it, Baby we'll get through it cause
Victor swallowed not wanting to sing the part about walking away, but it was part of the song. They were on a break so in a way Benji had walked away, but he kept going. He put everything he felt into the song. He wanted Benji to see that he loved him and cared about him. He would do anything for him and that he knew he'd messed up. He'd destroyed Benji's trust in him. The one thing he never had wanted to do. He never took his eyes off of Benji and he could see the look in his boyfriend's eyes. He never wanted to hurt him like his ex had done. He only wanted to make Benji happy and protect him from everything horrible. He was the best and they were being tested right now. He remembered what his mom had said once about relationships having struggles. If you were with the right one then it worked out. He felt like everything inside of him screamed Benji was that one. He didn't want to be his parents, he wanted to be better than them.
Love don't run, love don't hide
It won't turn away or back down from a fight
Baby I'm right here and I ain't going anywhere
Love's too tough, it wont give up no not on us
Baby Love don't run
Baby love don't run
Victor knew that the song was almost over and he hadn't planned on what to do afterwards. He hadn't thought that far ahead however, he kept going. There was so many other things he wanted to say too. He didn't know if he'd get the chance to do it after the song. He finished off the chorus again and it felt like no one else was there right now. He had been scared he'd freeze since this was kind of a love letter deal. He'd come out at the school earlier in the year telling everyone he was with Benji, this was deeper though. It had more meaning, but no one except for the two of them knew what it meant. He hadn't told Felix what he'd done. He hadn't even told his mom everything. He hadn't even talked to Rahim since that night they'd dropped him off. The only person he wanted to understand the entire meaning behind what he was doing was the person he loved with everything inside of him. He decided at the last second he was also going to add a line of his own.
So come over here and lay down in my arms
Baby tell me everything that's on your heart
(I want to protect that heart and you, cause)
I won't run, and I won't hide
I won't turn away, I just wanna make things right
Baby I'm right here and I ain't going anywhere
Love's too tough it won't give up no not on us
Baby Love don't run
Baby Love don't run
Victor stopped playing, but he didn't move away from the mic as everyone started clapping. He didn't pay attention to anything or anyone else except for Benji. He didn't want to just leave it at the song either. Even if he didn't want the world knowing they were having a problem. He needed to get the next part out and he'd go. He'd give Benji the space he'd asked for, but at least he'd know if he wanted him back. He felt empty inside without Benji.
"Thanks. I just got one thing to say and then I'll let the next person up here." Victor took a breath. "I told someone once that you are the best and I meant it. You are the best and I'm sorry. I was stupid and a jerk for betraying you. You mean everything to me and the words I love you doesn't even come close to what I feel. I want to fix us, I want to be better than we were. I should have respected you more and not said anything. I should have talked to you first. I might be sixteen, but I know the only thing I see when I shut my eyes and think about the future is you, babe. I'm putting everything on the line because I fell in love with you." Victor said never once taking his eyes off of Benji. "I really hope you can one day forgive me, even if it's not now. You asked me once if I believed in destiny and I said I did. I still do and you're my destiny. Also, please don't hate me for this." He finished before he got off the stage feeling like he couldn't say anything else because he was sure if he did he'd get sick.
~TBC~
The line I added is in parenthesis and bold.
