The Letter That Never Came (Songs For Regina)

- based on 5.22.


I like to think that in Robin's envelope, there were more words. And she has read them alone in their bedroom, holding the feather from his arrow.

My dear Regina,

The autumn is quiet, here in New York.
Sometimes I like to wander in Central Park, alone. It brings me back to my past, when life was simpler, and I lived amongst the trees, stealing from the rich and being honorable.
Honor is what parted us more than once, and for that I'm sorry. Honor, and the need to protect those who are in danger.

You know, when I met you, I'd never thought it would have ended up like this.

I think of you very often.

My dear Regina,

Fate has been cruel to us, and I know that what happened was unfair to both you and me. Above all, because I wanted to build a future with you. I wanted to wake up at your side every morning. To help you defeat the evil in this world, and to be your partner. As I promised you that time in your castle, when we broke in your vault together.

I wanted us to have it all.

It didn't happen, and it pains me.

I told you, once, that I'd have walked through Hell to be with Marian again. Now that I'm with her, I know for sure that it isn't true anymore. But for you, oh, I'd follow you to Hell and back, and anywhere else you wish to go, no matter the place.

My dear Regina,

I've never told you how I fell in love with you. You, stubborn, beautiful, stunning woman.

I think I've fallen for you thrice, you know?

In the Missing Year, it was one morning, at dawn, and Roland had bought you a bunch of wildflowers for saving him, and you had the most beautiful smile. That was when I knew I loved the woman as wella s the mother.

In Storybrooke, it was when I read Rumple's letter, sitting on our trunk, and I've watched you sink a hand inside your chest and extract the most beautiful heart I'd ever seen. And you were almost shy, fearing my judgement. And that was when I knew I loved every part of you, darkness and light, because they melted so perfectly in your heart. You were so brave, that night.

And the last time, it was when we took Roland for an ice cream and we kissed in front of Granny's. That was when I knew I loved Regina.

My dear Regina,

I know this is hard for you, believe me. I hope you'll find happiness without me, milady. You deserve it. I imagine there will always be something missing, because the same holds for me. When I'm with you, I'm whole. I will forever cherish our moments together, and the night I spent with you in my arms has a special, treasured place in my heart.

My dear Regina,

I'm sorry I couldn't get the chance to tell you one thing. I was about to, when we parted at the town line, but you just said "I know."
I still need to say it.

I love you, Regina, every part of you. You need to appreciate every part of you.

Without your darkness, I wouldn't have met you.
Without your light, I couldn't have loved you.

My dear Regina,

If this has to be the last exchange of words between us, let me be unforgivably sappy, because all I want in this moment is to hold you, kiss you, and tell you that everything is going to be fine. It's going to get easier, somehow. Maybe not today. But someday.

I just wish I could have loved you as you deserve right from the start. I wish we had years together, time to waste, just time.
Mornings spent reading Robin Hood under a blanket, and I would have got mad because they wrote it wrong, and you would have laughed and told me "Yes, thief, look at my story, I'm the one who should complain about poor writing."

I'm grateful I got a chance to play a part in your story, my love.

My dear Regina,

I know I shouldn't be writing this, but I had to let you know how proud I am of you. You opened your heart and let it change you. And no matter what separates us, I know you'll always be the heroine woman I fell in love with.

Robin