chapter one: our first fight
I was to marry Loki in three days and I couldn't be happier, the one thing that confused me was Thor. He was persistent when he wanted something. It was hard to change his mind when he had his eyes set on something and this time it was me. Loki would not approve of this and may turn his eldest brother into a snake or a frog again. And for some reason the thought of my betrothed turning Thor into a frog again made me chuckle as the maid doing my hair. "my lady, what amuses you?" she asks I blush as I had forgotten that she was in my chambers. "oh nothing really, what are your thoughts on Thor?" I asked hoping she wouldn't answer "he is okay, I guess, he has tried to bed me a few times and I did not appreciate it! Why do you ask Lady Sif?" I blushed again and instantly asked "what would you do if Loki turned him into a frog or a snake?" and as I finished asking the question Loki appeared in my mirror and dismissed my handmaiden.
"My love why would you want me to turn my brother into a frog or a snake? I mean it would be hilarious but there is no reason for it." He asked and explained kindly. A lot of people didn't know the softer side to the god of mischief, not like I did. I smile and stand to kiss him gently and I receive a kiss in return that is followed with him raising his eyebrows waiting for a response. "Well I think Thor is wanting me to marry him instead of you and you know how stubborn your brother can b—" he cut me off with a kiss so passionate I couldn't help but moan. I felt his hands slide down my arms and wrap his arms around me and hug me close to him and I feel his heart racing so fast I know I love him but does he know how Thor feels about me?
Later that evening I am in the dining hall with Fandral, Volstagg, Thor and Hogun. They were all drinking and laughing and I was a shield maiden so I was to sit with the warrior three, when I was longing to sit at the head table with Loki. I was staring at the moon when I feel something splash down my back. I gasp and whip around stare at Thor with fire in my eyes and storm out of the hall to by chambers to change.
As soon as I reach my chambers I sit on the edge of my bed and cry I knew that it was a mistake but I was angry that he would even do that to me, he claimed to love me but humiliates me and in front of the people I fought side by side for years. I sit up and wipe my tears away as soon as I hear the door open and soft footsteps approach and feels the bed sink behind her as a pair of cold hands begin to wrap her in a hug. "I saw." Was all he said, and as if he had given her permission to cry, she started all over again this time she had turned and buried her face into his body.
"he was drunk and I seen Fandral whisper something in his ear, and he pretended to trip and spilt the wine down your back." Loki explained. I could feel the sympathy radiating off of him which sobered my tears and sat up "I hate him." Was all I said and got up and untied my braid and headed to my bathroom to pour a bath. "he had no right to humiliate you like that Sif" he said following me, "I know that and not just with the people I called my friends. But to everyone in court." I said to him as I poured oils into the warm water and began to remove my chest plate and clothes, it didn't bother me that Loki was watching me. We were lovers before we were betrothed, I see him standing there watching me and then removed his dark green tunic and black pants and sat in the bath and invited me to sit with him I sat facing him with oils relaxing my muscles.
"Loki, I think he is upset that I am marrying you instead of him and that is why he spilt wine down my back." I suggested and he just rubbed his fingers along my forearms and looked at me "Sif what is your obsession over Thor being in love with you all of a sudden?" he asked with a tinge of pain in his eyes and voice. I felt bad for what I was about to tell him for I truly did love Loki. "what I am about to tell you is not easy for me but I need you to keep in mind that I love you and only you, also I want no secrets between us especially if we are going to be married." I started. I took a breath as he shifted my body so my back was against his, "Thor used to flirt with me a lot and at first I thought nothing of it and I would walk past and he would steal a kiss or two," I paused only to feel him tensing up, "then I was walking through the training yard to the pool one day and he was waiting for me in a corner and pinned me to a wall and tried to force himself on me and I was almost not strong enough to fight him off and then I ran. So Loki that is why I think Thor is in love with me he has always tried to do these things to me and even after we started courting and he would still try to force himself on me but I am stronger than him now." I stopped and I feel him relax a bit and I feel his long fingers against my thigh and up my torso and into my hair and then he stood up and got out of the bath and got dressed.
"LOKI!" I screamed as I thrashed in my bed during a nightmare, we used to share a bed but after I told him about his brother and myself, he doesn't even look at me, I feel arms around me and before I open my eyes I am hoping it is Loki but its not the same way he usually holds me. "ssshhh Lady Sif, it was a nightmare." My handmaiden sooths me and rocks me back and forth. "I am sorry to have woken you. I usually wake up to Loki." I explain "I am also sorry, I am not used to being a lady of the court and having my own handmaid, what is your name?" she looks into my eyes and says "Lena" and gets up to fluff my pillows and get me some water. "what happened with you and master Loki? If you don't mind me asking?" she asks as she sits back on my bed to braid my hair. "well we had a disagreement and now he isn't talking to me." I explain I don't know why but with Lena I can open up to her and tell her my problems. "well, my lady I think maybe if you have his mother summon him and then wait with her then he will have to talk to you and listen to what you have to say.'' She explains.
