5 years since he laid over her cold body on the side of the road, five years since he begged her to stay with him and not to go, five years since his hands were covered with Elizabeth Keens blood. Laying cold over her body she begged her to stay and not to go she took her last breath's in his arms.
But it's been 3 years since his best friend, his lover, The only woman he saw a future with on surveillance cameras holding a gun and pulling the trigger to Raymond Red Reddington. How she was alive was beyond them but it was her it was really her. Red left a letter, explaining he had faked her death so she could go into hiding for two years to recover from everything and now she was taking over his criminal empire and when the time comes she would be back in their lives giving them cases just as he did. Three years since they placed her on the FBI's most wanted list, he now has to hunt down his partner once again. It's been three years since they found out Reddinton was really Liz's mom.
It's been two years since he took over as Director of the task force as Cooper stepped down, getting up in age. But the young agent would always call his boss whenever they were in a situation not knowing what to do, which happened a lot more than usual. So many times he had wanted to take the pills and make it all go away but he was stronger than that no matter how much she hurt him he made a promise to her all those years ago he would never use again.
It's been one year since he met this blonde woman named Jillian. He had never thought he would love another woman but something about her he fell in love with. Although he never loved her as much as he had Liz, he did love the woman so within six months he proposed not wanting to take so long considering what happened last time.
So that's where he found himself today, his fiancé in bed next to him as his 5:30 AM alarm went off. Getting up and throwing on sweatpants and a light T-shirt going for his morning run.
Coming home, finding her still asleep he grabbed his gray suit and got in the shower for the morning. On days like today he found himself missing her wishing she would just reach out to him to know she was okay and alive. He could still feel the way she kissed him that night so many years ago, the way he could make her whimper little noises, her dragging her finger nails down his back leaving scratches so deep he bled, the way she screamed his name when she finally came for him, the way she kissed down his body and pulling his boxers off,the way it felt to cum inside of her. The way she wrapped her legs around him to make him stay inside of her.
He soon found himself getting hard in the shower and quickly tried to get the thought of her naked out of his head. But couldn't so he soon found himself taking care of his problem and of course days like today he would pretend his hand was hers, the way she stroked him that night. Once done he got out of the shower dripping wet wrapping the towel around him as he blow dried his hair and gelled it to the side. Getting his soutane some days he could imagine her tying his tie for him kissing his cheek as they would leave to work together.
This isn't how I thought we end up baby..I miss you
Walking out of the bathroom and over to Jillian side of the bed kissing her on the forehead. Grabbing his briefcase and leaving for work stopping and grabbing food on the way to the office.
The office team had stayed the same, Park,Aram but six months ago Samar showed up. That was the way Liz let them know she was okay, Samar was much better now but still having problems here and there but with the help of the team she was doing okay. Everyone knew though her and Liz we're in contact together but they knew it was that way Samar could get the proper doctor she needed. Samar one day had gone to Panabaker with a letter from Liz all everyone knew was that it hadn't surprised Panabaker.
Walking into the post office with a box of donuts from a mom and pop shop in his hand he was greeted by his fellow colleagues setting the box down he took a glazed doughnut and went upstairs into his office telling them he had a lot of work he needed to get done before they started the day.
Walking into his office and setting down his coffee and doughnut. He set his bag down on the table and then collapsing into a chair with a heavy sigh he opened up his desk drawer to a picture of him and her. Whenever the day was hard or he was struggling he'd always look at it and remind himself of what could've been or what could be if she ever gets off the run or if she ever comes back. But he knows he shouldn't have these thoughts he has a fiancé at home who loves him and never gives him problems about the task force or his crazy hours maybe it was too good to be true
Hey honey..I know you can't hear…I know you're somewhere I hope you're safe she's not you maybe I am with her because a part of her reminds me of you but it's not you.… I hope you come back one day. This isn't where we were supposed to end up. We were supposed to be together happily, started a family by now even…I love you babygirl…
thinking that all in his head always too scared to say it out loud because he knew he would either start yelling or screaming or a very loud cry so that's where he found himself right now tears in his eyes logging for her and missing her.
Slowly putting the photo of them back in his desk, closing the drawer and getting his laptop out for the day he leaned back breathing deeply wiping his eyes. He wishes this was all just a bad dream someday and he wakes up back in the hospital and her sneaking in to see him. The way I felt to kiss her after all that time of being a part, The way it felt to hold her hand and his he just wanted to be there again he wanted her to take him in her arms one more time hold him and tell him it was all gonna be okay they were going to be okay.
So this is where Samar,Aram and Park his arms folded on his desk. He had been like that for 30 minutes but they quickly ran up the stairs opening his door without knocking. They all had a panicked look on their face like they had seen a ghost.
"SIR!" Samar said before the others could get anything out his head quickly shut up and they saw tears streaming down his face
"Ressler what's wrong?" Park asked with a worried look on her face
quickly wiping his eyes "Nothing, now what is it"
"Sir it's about Liz…."Aram started slowly
Resslers find quickly going to the worst possible scenario, no no no she can't be dead "What about Liz?"
"She did just like Red" Park start
"Ressler, Liz turned herself in and she's demanding to only speak with you" Samar said
Everyone saw the color leave his face his eyes were wide and his mouth dropped "She did what now?"
He was quickly up and on his feet and all of them making their way down…
