AN:TW: mentions of drugs and alcohol

The rain coming down hard now as the driver in the car drove away from Liz house after getting the pictures of FBI's most wanted and a hero FBI agent making out. As he drove away the laptops got burned onto a hard drive and then sent to a woman and then soon he heard his phone going off.

"Yeah"

"So he really went and met with her?" The women on the other line asked

"Yeah for 3 hours" He replied turning on his windshield wipers

Sitting on her couch waiting for someone to come home, she started to cry but soon changed to laughing.

"Ma'am…who is he to you..?"

Ressler on this way home trying his best to wrap his mind around what he did. God I'd do anything to go back there and show her I still feel the same like all those years ago..

He thought smiling as his head replayed the thought of her naked body on his bed, her calling out his name when he touched her body the right way. Stop it, you have a girlfriend. He tried to tell himself

But when doing so he remembers how many women he slept with, the non-stop drinking for weeks, that's when Cooper made him come and live with him for two weeks to make him stop drinking and to become sober telling him this was the last thing Elizabeth would've wanted for him. A year after being sober from drinking he picked up drugs after Eight years of being sober he promised Liz he wouldn't go back to the pills but now she was gone as far as he knew.

One day Red called him to give him a blacklist he never answered after 5 calls they went there. Their Ressler was Passed out on his bed,body sweating a bottle of pills next to his bed. Red gets one of his doctors on call to be ready at his jet and then calls Cooper telling him he was taking Ressler to help catch a blacklister he would need him for a week. So that's where Ressler was for an entire week going through withdrawals with Raymond Reddington by his side helping him. One thing Red didn't do was tell Liz about it; she had no idea.

Quickly getting the thought out of his mind turning on the radio to a song that reminded him of Liz as the rain poured out outside.

"He's my he's my fiancé.." She replied getting up walking to the living room window rubbing her eyes from crying

"Then ma'am remind me,why are you going after him?" Confusion and his voice

"As I told you this before it's to get to Elizabeth Keen" She said in a serious tone

" When are we going to go through with the plan miss?" Victor Crone asked his boss

"Soon. I need to go he's home" She said quickly hanging up putting her phone in her pocket pulling herself together as Don walked in through the door

"Hey babe I'm home" he said throwing his keys into a bowl and kicking his shoes off

"Hey" She said as he walked up behind her putting his arms around her resting his head on her shoulder

"How was your day?"She asked moving to hold his hands

"Same old, same old. I'm tired I'm heading to bed" He told her removing his arms from around her and walking to their shared bedroom as his phone went off

"I had fun tonight, goodnight Don xoxo"

"Yeah I did to Liz, goodnight xoxo" he smiled at the text as he clicked send but never once has he ever said "xoxo" before

God what has this woman done to me he questioned as he took off his tie stripping down to his boxers and crawling into the bed waiting for his mistress to join him.

After 15 minutes she emerged in the bedroom sliding into the covers cuddling up next to him laying her head on his chest and falling asleep but now he laid awake with one thought in his head

You're not her…I love you but if I could change you for her I would…

Xxxxxxxxxx

He and Liz never talked about that kiss, but that next morning all the agents in the building picked up on a tension between the two, noticing a change in both of their behavior towards the other, him trying to be more strict towards her and her being more soft towards him, always then ending he softened towards her.

So this is where they find themselves a month had given them two more cases, Ressler making sure him and her were never to be alone in a room worried of what would happen next. Two times when he was out with his fiancé he saw Liz in a distance just watching, she was always thankful he couldn't see the look of jealously on her faces or a tear in her eyes, always after 5 minutes she would leave. He uncomfortable yes he was but he never said anything to her figuring she had the best interest at heart and that would mean they have to be alone in a room together for him to even be mad at her or say something.

All the agents in the building picked up the tension between the two but never said anything. But that doesn't mean they didn't notice the glances the other would give each other when talking about a case or talking in general about something going on. She had never told them what Gina said to her but they knew whatever it was it was important and the last two blacklisters had given her more answers of what she needed.

The first one being a trained assassin and guns dealer, Austin power. They quickly learned Austin had put a hit out on New York senator they found out quickly. Once they raided one of his safe houses and his men were there quickly flipping on him for a plea agreement. They got the senator and his family secure and then use the senator as bait to get the assassin to come out. Once they got him they allowed Liz five minutes with him and he explained to her that he had sold guns to a powerful drug dealer.

Reggie Velazquez was the name of the drug dealer. Austin said he had no idea why but whatever Reggie was up to was big, he needed Heckler & Koch MP7 about 4 of those, 3 m14 Assault rifles, and 7 Desert eagles. Whatever Reggie was planning for was big and it got Liz worried but no one saw that, no one but Ressler when She came in he could tell how worried she was about this, about what's going on.

But when they caught up with Reggie two weeks later after a week of trying to find him. He said to the how he was a Third party for a company called Parrot, Ressler told Liz that she stopped looking at him with wide eyes

"Parrot?" She question with a very heavy concern in her voice

"Yeah, he also said the man he talked to name was Victor Crone" All heads turning to Liz as the color left her face, it's as if she heard the name of a ghost. Quickly turning around to Rocco pointing to the elevator and both leaving as quick as she came in, all giving each other now a concerned look of what could be going on whatever it is it isn't good

"Rocco take me to John now" She said quickly getting in the car slamming the door behind her as Rocco got in the driver seat speeding off to John safe house.

When getting there she went and Rocco killed two of his men in front of him

"YOU TOLD ME VICTOR WAS DEAD! THAT YOU KILLED HIM A YEAR AGO!" She said screaming as she put the gun to his head

"I did! LIZ who ever said he's alive is lying" He said putting his hands up and pleading with her. But if there was one thing her father taught her that was to tell when someone's lying and she could tell he was lying

"NO HE'S alive, now who is he helping and WHY DID YOU LIE!?" She demanded the answer as she cracked her gun ready to put a bullet in his head

"M….Matt Orcutt…came to me after our meeting saying he need Victor alive paying me double. He said as long as I gave him answers about things within your company I could live and that he was going to take you down, destroying you…" he explained with the pleading look knowing what's gonna come next he betrayed her and everyone knows she's as ruthless as Reddington and some days more

"WHAT did he want to know!? What did you tell him?!"

"He…he wanted to know about the task force and he wanted the names of all the agents on it..he main.." and before he could finish his sentence she put a bullet in his head to send a message that she now knew what was coming she turned and looked to Rocco with a concerned look

"Their after the team goddamnit!"

"Leave the body" she said as she looked around for a napkin and pen and then writing on the napkin that she was here and motion to Rocco to hand her knife as she put the knife through him with the napkin attached.

Turning around and leaving now as she got what she wanted getting into the car and speeding away

"Should I call the team yet?" Rocco asked looking up through the rearview mirror

"No..no not yet" she replied looking up to him licking her lips

"Whatever's coming isn't going to be good. A war is coming our way and I think it's the same war my father warned me about right before he died…" she replied then turning her head to look out the window gazing up at the sky. What member of the team could they possibly be going after…