CHAPTER 8
Sam's day hadn't gone well. He had asked to the manager at the store where he worked if he could work from morning till evening instead of just from 7 to 12 as he had no more his second job. The firm he used to work at offered him the job at next town but Sam had refused , he needed jobs closer to his apartment so he could look after his son and be there in case if there's any emergency. The manager at the store had also refused which didn't help.
He tried to find the jobs near his apartment but unfortunately there were no vacancies.
He entered his apartment with heavy steps , looking like a man on whose shoulders the weight of the whole world rested.
The dinner was also a tense affair. Dean could tell something was bothering his little brother. He had asked after they all had dinner and DJ was asleep but Sam said he was just tired. Dean didn't believe him for a second , there's more to that. Besides he knew his brother worked at a grocery store that much was pretty clear from the ridiculous outfit he wore everyday so he figured maybe something had happened there.
Dean didn't know that Sam worked two jobs. Sam didn't want his brother to know. He knew that Dean knew , money was tight but he didn't want to be embarrassed in front of Dean that he was having difficulties in taking care of his son on his own.
He will just figure it out on his own in his own way. He woke up extra early the next morning , nothing was unusual in that , he woke early every morning and sometimes extra early too but what unusual was that his brother was also awake and he was packing his stuff in the army duffel he always carried with him.
God , Dean is leaving. He couldn't handle that. He knew Dean had to leave but he figured it would not be this soon.
Dean noticed Sam watching him packing his stuff with a kicked puppy expression that was even more effective. Dean couldn't count the number of times the same expression has helped Sam out of any trouble he was into when they were kids , even his father wasn't immune to that and that was definitely saying something. Dean was also impressed that Sam actually looked sad seeing him leave.
"Heya , Sammy. I just received a call that the parts I ordered would be delivered early tomorrow morning. If I leave now then only I would make it to South Dakota. I have to be there to take the delivery. Um , it was nice seeing you and the kid. I will try to visit again in 3-4 days " With that Dean made his way to his little brother and wrapped him in a hug , for all his no chick flick policy this moment did warrant one.
Sam returned the hug. And cleared his throat to get rid of a sudden lump that has formed inside his throat. Get a hold on yourself Sam. He told himself firmly. Dean's right when he calls you Samantha , he said he would be back within 3-4 days didn't he. You can manage , heck you were managing without Dean didn't you. He knew he could manage but that didn't mean he wanted to.
"Yeah , man." He said. He stood watching Dean making his way to DJ's bedroom and giving a quick kiss on his son's forehead.
"You have my address and my number Sam. You call if you need anything at anytime. I will call as soon as I make a stop. I will talk to the kid , I hate going while he's asleep but I don't want to disturb him." He gave Sam a quick pat on the shoulder and made his way out of the apartment.
Sam took a few deep breaths and made his way to the bathroom to take a quick shower. He made breakfast then , which was simple cereals and fruits since his brother wasn't here with his awesome cooking.
DJ came out of his room and as usual ran towards him hugging his legs as it would take years for the kid to atleast reach his waist.
DJ saw the couch empty and asked , "Where's Unca Dean , Daddy ?". Sam said picking up his son , "He had to go to work , kiddo. But he will call soon."
"Why didn't Unca Dean wake me ? I could go too. He's took me to one big building yesterday. And I's a big boy , daddy. Unca Dean said that." DJ said seriously nodding his little face.
"I know you are. But you were sleeping and your uncle didn't want to disturb you besides he said he would be back soon." Sam said.
"I's miss him , Daddy." DJ said lying his head on Sam's shoulder. "Me too , buddy."
Sam replied.
After they had breakfast , Sam dropped DJ to his daycare while he went to store much to the kid's dismay. He thought his son enjoyed his time at the daycare but apparently he enjoyed his time with his uncle more.
Since he had to work till only 12 this afternoon so he picked up his son early so as to surprise him. While he was making lunch , he got a call from Joshua , the man he used to work with at the law firm. Joshua asked him if he was interested in giving an interview today for another firm. The plus point was that the interview would be online and maybe his job too but it would be really difficult to get this job as the firm he would be interviewing for was a big one. But when were Winchesters ever shy of trying. He thought that he should heve left his son at the daycare but he figured the kid was silently watching tv , what bad could happen . So he made his way to his bedroom to prepare for the interview which would be in an hour.
Only if Sam knew. This would be the second time he would be embarrassed.
Sam was halfway through his interview. His interviewer was a man in his mid forties with no nonsense attitude. His son motioned to him from outside his room that he needed to use the bathroom so Sam gave him thumbs up to go. He forgot that the toilet was on the other side from his desk. Everything thing was going fine until the interview was interrupted with his son moaning loudly from the bathroom.
After some loud moans his son finally yelled , "I's did it daddy. Oops I's pooped a little on the floor. I's will clean it. Ohh I's stepped on it."
It was the second time in three days , Sam was this much embarrassed. There was a long uncomfortable silence and Sam's cheeks were flaming , hey ! no shocker there. Sam laughed nervously and said , "Do you have any kids ?". The man was not impressed when he replied , "No and I don't ever will." With that he ended the interview.
For a moment Sam just stared at his laptop. He really needed this job as his job at store would not be enough to pay for all the expenses. And when Winchester men worries they expressed it in form of anger.
He saw DJ came out of bathroom and ran towards the TV. Sam followed his son and shouted , "Dean James Winchester. What did I told you about disturbing me when I am on calls ?".
"But I's don't disturb you , daddy." He picked up his father's cell from the couch and said, "Yours cell is here. So how can you's on call ?"
He could see that from a three year old point of view , if his phone was here he wasn't on a call. It was pretty logical too but at the moment , he was angry and frustrated. And he took it out on his son.
"I was on a call through my laptop. Did you see me talking or not ?" When his son didn't reply , he increased his voice and said , "When I asked you a question you answer me , young man." He was using John Winchester tone with his son that he used to hate when his dad used with him or his brother but he didn't care. He felt defeated like he had failed in life , in taking care of his son , in everything. He knew he was over reacting but that didn't stop him.
DJ has never seen his father so angry and when his father raised his voice at him. He nodded his little head quickly. He was really afraid of his daddy in this moment. A few big tears were spilling from his eyes.
"I should have just left you at the daycare." That part was not meant for DJ to hear but nonetheless he heard it. And in his three year old mind he thought that meant his daddy didn't love him now. That really started the water works. Sam hadn't meant it that way , certainly he didn't , he loved his son and there is nothing in the whole wide world that could change that fact.
Sam looked at his son's face and felt like a biggest jerk alive. He took a step forward but when his son flinched. His heart shattered , he knew he screwed up big time. He turned and left for his room. He would talk to his son a little later when they both had some time to calm down.
DJ moved to the couch and cried. He wished for his Unca Dean to come. His father's cell rang , he looked at his father's room but it was closed. "I's don't wan to disturb daddy." With that he picked up the cell and when he heard the voice of the person on the other line , he started crying more and explained everything. By explaining it meant he was babbling , "Unca -hic - Dean , Daddy don't loves me no more.- Hic- I am a bad boy."
DJ was crying so hard that he was hiccuping too.
Dean hadn't meant to stop so soon but he was already missing Sam and DJ. So he made a stop and called his brother's cell. He figured that it was about 3 in the afternoon , so DJ would be at daycare as Sam would be at the store. But when DJ answered his cell , crying his little heart out. Dean's own heart raced. The kid was crying so hard that he was hiccuping too. Dean's imagination was running wild at the moment , he was imagining all natural and supernatural causes that would make his nephew cry that much. But in the last he could only think of one , if something had happened to Sam. His heart was just about to jump outta his chest. But finally when he was able to calm the kid enough and DJ told him all that had actually happened. His heartbeat slowed a little.
Dean's blood boiled. After he promised the kid he would be there soon and asked him to go to his room and do some coloring. He made his way towards the apartment. His little brother was in need of some serious ass kicking. What the hell was Sam thinking ? Yelling at a little kid like that. The kid didn't even understand what he had done so wrong to make his father this angry. And now to top it all he thinks that his father didn't love him anymore. Great just fuckin great.
"Dean" said his inner Sammy's voice that makes an appearance every time he swears. He yelled at that voice and it disappeared. "Good" now came his very own inner voice. He could seriously be excused for swearing in this very moment , alright.
He could remember his own father yelling at him for things that weren't even in his control like Sam leaving for Stanford for one and then for some that for the life of him he couldn't understand what he had done wrong , even now. He hated that.
Oh, you are in real trouble this time Sam. Dean thought to himself and sped towards his brother's apartment.
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Poor DJ . You are in for a surprise Sam , Dean is really angry. Review it and add it to your favorites.
I won't say more because I am pissed at Sam.
