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"Jade," I let it out as a sigh and thickened my tone to let on that I knew she'd been waiting here.
"Beck," her voice was gentle. She didn't want a fight. She really wanted to talk.
"So," I put my hands on the hood and slid up onto it. "What's up?"
"I miss you." It was almost a whisper.
"I'm sorry, Jade. I miss who you used to be… a very, very long time ago."
"I can change, Beckett." She never called me by my full first name unless she was pleading or scolding me. This one was definitely pleading.
"Jade," I paused and sighed. I had to stay calm and do this maturely, because if I didn't she wouldn't. "If all you want is to try and beg me back. You're wasting your breath and my time. I can't do it anymore."
I saw tears start to well up in her eyes. It was shattering my heart and all of the pieces were on fire and floating to bottom of the now empty painful hole in my chest.
"Jade, I love you. I really do. But I'm not in love with you anymore." Jade jumped off the hood of my car and ran off into the crowd of people leaving the school. I tried calling after her to no avail. I walked around to the driver side of my car and got in and shut the door.
My dad had bought me a new car on the condition that I graduate with honors which I was on the way to. Solid black camero, dark tinted windows, nice sound system, I couldn't thank him enough. But right now it came in handy. I locked the doors and sat with the windows up where no one could see me unless they standing in front looking through the windshield. Since my parking spot face the fence at the end of the parking lot, that wasn't likely. I switched in on and turned the radio up just enough for me to hear it. I was secluded and not thinking. I sat there and let the notes of the music slither into my ear, let it make a trip around the brain, and then out the other ear.
Why did she have to be so mean, and complicating until I broke up with her. Then she was all Mrs. Emotions. I couldn't stand to see any girl cry much less one that I loved. She knew that I told myself. She did it on purpose. I was sure that we'd have to talk again, but for now I knew where I was going as I cranked my car up pulled away from the school. I didn't look out of the windows; I was afraid I might catch sight of a crying Jade.
"But, Andre, I can't take that and she knows it." I was staring at Andre from the other side of the couch.
"Exactly! And—"
"Annnndreeeee!"
"It's in the cabinet on the top shelf, Grandma!" That was the usual at Andre's house, listening to he and his grandma yell at each other. We were all pretty sure that she was a little insane.
"That's why you can't let it get to you."
"Easier said than done." My eyelids burned with tears and there was an ache in the back of my throat, but I was determined not to cry. I just had to get Jade's crying face out of my head.
"Dude, listen. Maybe you should go see Tori." I looked up from my lap.
"What?" I asked him. I am not really sure why I was playing stupid with my best friend; of course he knew.
"Oh come on, Beck. You made it obvious today. That or you were using Tori."
"I would never." Which was true.
"Okay then. If it's real then seeing her will make you better." He grinned. "Hey, I am just being real with you."
"Okay. I'll go see Tori. But I don't know what to do about this love triangle thing." I was getting frustrated. I put my hands over my face and pressed my eyes in.
"Beck, do you love her?"
"Tori?… I think I might."
"Beck, I was talking about Jade…" He stopped.
I looked up at Andre, waiting for a reaction. I had just let it slip. What do I do now?
As if he read my mind, "Tell her."
I was stunned that he knew so well how I was feeling. "Dre, I can just tell Tori that I love her, not yet."
"Well you can't ask her out. Not this week. The project…" He trailed off.
"No. No, you're right. About just asking her out, but that just means I have to be creative." This conversation had gotten my mind off Jade. But I knew it wasn't over with her. She'd be back. Time to go see Tori!
