A/N: This is a really quick transition chapter. So instead of Chapter 18, it's more like 17 and a half. So, not much here, but there are some important things. I hope you enjoy!

The second I opened my eyes, I thought of Tori, the way she had held me together last night when I fell apart. I had to tell her how I was feeling, but first I had to make sure Jade knew that it was definitely over and that it would never happen for us again.

I had to shower so I got up and got my clothes and headed inside my parents' house. I closed the bathroom door behind me and stripped my clothes. I may have been sleeping still, I was doing it all in a trance. I didn't think at all while I lathered soap over my body and through my hair. I scrubbed my shoulders like I always did, then I turned my face to the steaming water coming from the shower head. The drops of hot liquid on my face seemed to wash away the night I'd had before. I shook it off, and decided I didn't have long to get to school, so I had to get out.

It's going to be a long day. I tousled my hair in the towel. I looked at myself in the mirror above the sink, I don't know what I'll do, but I've got to do something. I looked weak. Guess that's what I get for waking up at 3 a. m. and driving.

Before I wanted to be I was off to school. I couldn't wait to thank Tori. She's stayed up with me nearly half the night and took care of me like no one else had. The hole I'd had in my chest for so long started to fill in a little more every time I saw her, touched her, even smelled her.

The instant I got to school the first bell rang. I didn't have Tori in my first period class so it would have to wait even longer. I couldn't sit still for the whole class; I kept tapping my fingers on the desk. Finally, the bell rang. That's right I didn't hear a word the teacher had said. I jumped up the second the bell rang and headed straight for her locker; instead of finding Tori, I found Jade.

"She's not here. And it's probably best…"

I wondered what she was talking about, she'd said like Tori had… died.

"Where is she?" I waited for the answer to my question with my heart beating fast.

"I saw your car at her house all night. What happened? Did it happen?" My stomach boiled. I couldn't believe she was checking up on me all night. Was she crazy? And even though it had happened with me and Tori, there was still a lot I had to tell her, and it hadn't happened last night.

"Stop following me!" I nearly yelled at her. "Stay away from me and my life." It rolled off my tongue like the poison in my stomach. My eyes welled up with anger. I don't hate her. I kept arguing with my body. Every piece of me was telling me I did, even the drumming heart in my chest. I don't hate her.

My brain switched modes all on it's on. Is Tori okay? I need to see her. And so I left school.