Hi there everyone!
I almost couldn't write today since we are celebrating a town fiesta.
My relatives are all in our house and I'm so busy catching up with them when my cousin begs me to write today ,since she too had read my story without her knowing that my pen name is Admin FUJI.
Hope youll enjoy this chapter!
Chapter 5 : What Hurts most
"Are you feeling better now Hinata?"
She heard Shion asked in whisper towards her. The last thing she wanted to be is to be near Shions' presence but she cant stop that from happening, can she? She is the only one in the team who can sleep near Shion and protect her at the same time. Not that she doesn't like Shion anymore, she's her friend but as of this moment she prefer to be alone and be far from here.
She cant stop herself from getting jealous towards Naruto and Shion, she keep saying to herself that she got nothing to be jealous of since she is Naruto's wife, but who is she kidding around? She maybe his wife but its all just in paper.
Seeing how Naruto is comfortable when talking to Shion had placed a thousand needles and daggers in her heart. The two had history years ago and how can she compete with that? To hell she didn't even have any idea how close the two really were or if their relationship were so deep that Naruto had even made a promise to have a family with Shion. Not until what she saw tonight after seeing Naruto for almost a month.
He cant even stand to be with her for a long period of time or talk with her just how he used to be before they were married.
She don't know what to do, would she act out on her jealousy or will she be a coward an act as if nothing happens or will she be a dummy who will pretend that she is okay?. She wish Temari is here in Suna so she can confide with her.
"Hinata?"
Her mind goes back to Shion who is now kneeling in her futon facing her.
"If you're not feeling good I can ask for a doctor for you."
She smiled at her, one that isn't forced but really came from nowhere. "I'm fine, don't worry." She said and covers her face with a blanket. She didn't want to do it to insult and disrespect Shion, she just want to hide the tears that rolls on her cheeks out of guilt. Guilt because of what pain will she cause to this woman if she finds out that Naruto and her were married.
"I was really worried about you when you left the office with Sai. By the way, you and Naruto are great friends neh? He seems to be very worried about you and even wanted to follow you but the Kazekage came right after you left. Oh, well Ill go to bed now, and have a good sleep. Are you sure you're really okay?"
She just nodded.
Shion went on the other futon prepared for her and Hinata thought that shell go straightly to bed without anymore words to say.
"Im so happy Hinata'' She whisper. "Seeing Naruto after so many years had me realize something I wasn't sure before."
Hinata keeps the cover to her face pretending that she is trying to get to sleep and not care what Shion would have to say.
"I'm sure now Hinata." Shion started. "Im so sure of my feelings toward him. And I .. I want to be with him for eternity."
And Hinata couldn't stop all the tears that rolls on her eyes. She bit her lower lips to control herself from crying out loud.
"Clearly Suna had the weirdest temperature ever." Naruto exclaimed as he and Gaara were talking on the balcony of his office try to catch up things on their lives with Shikamaru and Sai joining them with a hot tea. "Its very hot during daytime but so cold during the night."
"You could have said unique Naruto and not weird." Shikamaru commented. "You should learn to control your language when it comes to talking in the presence of a kage.
"Well he is Naruto after all." Gaara defended Naruto who seems to not mind what Shikamaru had said, he seems to be in a deep thought.
"Now I see." Naruto said out loud. "Suna's weird weather had Hinata feel sick tonight ttebayo!."
"Unique" Shikamaru corrected him again.
"Hinata? Your wife is here?" Gaara asked. Naruto nodded in response.
"She is with me on this mission." Shikamaru said.
"Its her first time in Suna ttebayo!"
"Well if this is Hinata-san's first time in Suna then she of course would experience a little sickness. That is unless she's…." And Gaara stopped looking at Shikamaru
"She's?" Naruto asked.
"Yeah unless that's the case." Shikamaru closed his eyes agreeing with the Kazekage.
"unless she's what?" Naruto asked looking at Shikamaru and Gaara.
"The timeline would be perfect isn't it." Shikamaru asked Gaara and Gaara nodded in return.
"What is it ttebayo!"
Shikamaru and Gaara both smiled at Naruto. "its her sickness that is." Gaara said with a smile and was surprised when all of a sudden Naruto's hand were on his shoulder and he is looking at him like he never seen before.
"Is Hinata seriously sick?!" He asked intensely. "How the hell you can smile on that! I want all the best Suna medical ninja right now Gaara and check her out!"
"Naruto! Calm down!" Shikamaru shouted and holds Naruto's arm while trying to hold his laugh on this dumb idiot friend.
"How can I calm down ttebayo! You're telling me my Hinata is dying and you want me to calm down!'' He shouted that the entire village could hear him.
"That's not what we mean Naruto." And Gaara is still surprised despite knowing how Naruto could be so dumb but still looking at him so in love and so caring towards his wife had Gaara wonder when would he find his other half as well. Just as Naruto had found his.
"Then what is it?! You guys been talking about his sickness tonight right?"
"Yeah but Gaara and I didn't mean anything bad. We are agreeing That Hinata's sickness might something to do with her being pregnant or something."
Naruto stopped his hysterical action and look dumbfoundly on Shikamaru.
"P-pregn-nant?"
"Yes, since its been a month and a week since you two are married then there's a possibility that she is pregnant." Shikamaru explained.
Naruto blushed as the idea that Hinata being pregnant but still ." That's impossible ttebayo since me and Hinata haven't…" and he stopped while blushing even harder at the confession he made.
"Ohh.. so you and your wife didn't pursue on your honeymoon?" Gaara asked. "Why?"
Naruto sheepishly look away to the guys. He cant tell them.
"Maybe because he is a complete dickless and is embarrassed to have Hinata sees it." Sai finally talks.
"Its not like that ttebayo!" Naruto defended blushing so hard at Sai's comment.
"Then what is it Naruto? I could say you're wife is pretty and had a nice body for you not to be tempted."
Shikamaru look at Gaara surprisingly, never thought that Gaara could say something like that.
Naruto look at his friends and he had no choice but to embarrassingly explain the situation.
Hinata woke up with a heavy eyes as she fell asleep crying in silence. She look at Shion's side only to be greeted with an empty futon. Oh no! she's gone with her morning ritual somewhere here in Suna without her as an escort. Shikamaru would reprimand her for this.
She immediately rose on the bed and quickly changed into her gears.
"Sai-san!" She called out seeing Sai outside their inn with a new book on his hand that he purchased on Suna's bookstores.
"Good morning Hinata-san."
"Good morning! Have you seen Shion-san? She isn't inside in our room when I woke up."
"No, I was having the impression that you'll accompany her everyday during her morning rituals."
"Yes, but I forgot to wake up early." She embarrassingly admitted.
"Well maybe you can try on the Suna's temple and sees if she's there."
"Thanks Sai-san."
"Anytime."
"Shikamaru-san" she calls out seeing Shikamaru on the temple talking to Haruka, who according to Shion is having a crush on her.
"Hinata-san. Good morning!" Haruka greeted upon seeing her.
"Good morning to you as well Haruka-san" and she looked around noticing Shion isn't there.
"If you're looking for Shion she's done with her prayers. Its okay I got it here so you can go back to the inn with Sai." Shikamaru informed her.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake up late." She bowed to apologize to Shikamaru.
"Its alright Hinata, after all you're not feeling well last night. Maybe you should lay it off today."
"I'm alright now." She said.
"Really? But your eyes…"
"Its nothing Shikamaru-san, looks like the sand here in Suna had gotten into my eyes." She reason out knowing Shikamaru is a genius who wont fell for such reasoning.
"If you're not feeling well Hinata-san I can accompany you going back to the inn." Haruka said trying to act cool towards her.
"That would be nice but I'm okay Haruka san and beside I'm….." she stopped when she caught the sight of Naruto and Shion walking beside each other, talking, smiling, laughing and with Shion's locking arms with Naruto. Now that's explain why Shikamaru and Haruka were not escorting Shion after her morning ritual because Naruto is there to do that job.
Shikamaru and Haruka looked at the direction Hinata is looking.
"Ohh look at that they look perfect for each other." Haruka commented resulting for Shikamaru to elbow him lightly. "Ouch! Whats that for?" he asked
Shikamaru shrugged and look at Hinata.
Naruto caught a sight of Hinata from afar and his adrenaline kicks in. He was so extremely worried when he saw Shion and Shikamaru without Hinata around. So he tagged along with Shion and the group. He missed Hinata so much that after he talk with the guys last night all he wanted to do was to go straight to where Hinata is and cuddle with her like he usually does every night on their bed without Hinata noticing he does it. Every night hell make sure that Hinata stops pretending to be asleep and when she sleeps soundly, Naruto would cuddle his wife slowly making sure she wont notice. That's the only way Naruto can go to sleep soundly. Good thing is that he always ends up waking early before Hinata does and she wont see him taking advantage of her.
"Hinata!" he exclaimed and runs toward her. "How are you feeling now ttebayo?!" he asked, grinning at her, but it soon fades away as he saw his wife's odd expression and with her way of calling his name again.
"Im alright Uzumaki-san. Thank you for your concern." She said without looking at him. "Shion-san I'm sorry for not waking up early."
"Nah, its alright Hinata, after all you're not feeling alright last night so I didn't want to wake you up. Do you feel good now?"
"yes, I -"
"No you're not." Naruto cut her off. Hinata finally look at him and sees his not so happy face. "Ill escort you back to your inn so lets go." He said and grabs her hand and drag her away from the group, leaving a confused priestess.
"Wait!"Hinata exclaimed as Naruto took a good hold of her hand.
He stopped and look at her. "Don't tell me you're okay Hinata cause you're not." Naruto said. "Don't stressed yourself out"
"I'm on a mission Uzumaki-san." She reason out while trying her best to pull her hand out from Naruto's grip.
"To hell with that! You need some rest." He insisted. "And if you're so worried with it ttebayo then Ill fill in for you. Ill do this mission instead."
And that ends it.
"I said I'm fine Uzumaki-san cant you get it?!" She shouted angrily at him and saw the surprised evident look on Naruto's face. She too is surprised that she yell at him but shes angry right now. So angry.
Naruto don't have to pretend that he is worried about her if he just want to be with Shion. He doesn't have to say that he wanted her out on the mission so he can replaced her just to be with Shion. He doesn't have to say it cause she will give it to them soon when they goes back to Konoha.
She can feel her body shaking trying to get herself altogether. On the corner of her eyes she saw Shion, Shikamaru and Haruka looking at them.
Naruto took some time to register what just happen before he slowly lets her go. Did he just make Hinata angry? He don't understand, he just want her to be fully rested and not to overwork herself.
"Hinata." Shion calls and comes near the couple. "Naruto is right. You shouldn't overdo yourself on this mission."
Ohhh great! Now Shion is siding with Naruto cause she too want to be with Naruto as well for the entire day nope, not just a day, she said last night for eternity.
"And beside I'm perfectly safe here in Suna, no ones gonna hurt me." Shion added.
"That's right ttebayo!" Naruto happily agreed on Shion. "I can take good care of Shion so you don't have to worry." Naruto genuinely smiled at her.
"Yes, that's right. Naruto would see to it that ill be taken care of." Shion shared a smiled with Naruto as she wraps her hands on Naruto's arm.
"That's a promise ttebayo!"
Hinata feel like their words had burried her 10 feet below the ground. Looking at them siding with one another and sharing a smile with each other. Its like a torture to her.
She bowed at them to hide the tears that rolls down her cheeks. Gladly her long hair can cover it up. And as quickly as she bows herself is how quickly she sprints away from them without living a single word. Cause she's so afraid she might say something that might not be good to hear for now.
"This is really bad." Shikamaru commented looking at the running figure of Hinata and the confused looks on Naruto and Shion. He doesn't want to middle in their affair but there is something he must do.. and hell start by asking Shion.
"Jyuuken!" Hinata shouted as she took a great blow on every clone that Sai sends out towards her direction.
To let her frustration and anger out she had decided to stop wasting her tears and train to let it all out. Sai offered to train with her on the vast area of sand outside the village.
"The sand is getting hotter. I'm guessing its almost lunch time now. Should we go back?"Sai said handing Hinata her water bottle.
"You go on ahead. Im staying for a Little while." She said and continues to train.
Sai wanted to say something but he choose not to say a word and left.
She hates it!
She hate the burning heat of the sun that's given her sunburns already. It gives her pain. She hate the wind that carries sands along with it that sends pain on her eyes. She hate it! She hate it! She hate it!.
She stop her training and tries to catch her heavy breathing. Its not right for her to hate the sun nor the wind. She doesn't have to blame them for what pain its causing her. Just like Naruto and Shion. She cant blame them for what she is feeling right now. She only have to hate one thing and one person. She only have to hate herself.
She kneels down on the sand breathing heavily, she's out of water and she knows that anytime she'll collapsed since she overdo herself. She wanted to scream for help but her throat were dry it pained her to even move an inch.
And then she feel the sand on her face as she collapsed. This is it. This is where she is about to die. Perhaps this is what Shion saw on her fate.
Its Funny she imagine dying on a heroic death just like Neji, but no she'll die because of her own stubbornness and her own selfishness. She wished that Neji would forgive her, her family would forgive her and Naruto would forgive her as well.
Naruto. Her Naruto-kun, the only man she ever loved this much, the only person she's willing to give up everything if that is what it has to take for him to be happy and the only man that will forever stay in her heart.
If only she's not Hinata Hyuga, then maybe Naruto would love her and maybe she wont be the failure heiress as how her clan sees her to be. Maybe in the afterlife her life would be different, or she could have wished to be born as Shion and not Hinata.
She closed her eyes and let darkness have her.
Thats it folks!
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Ill update as soon as I can and thats a promise ttebayo!
-Admin FUJI
