Brittany POV
I've just been discharged and i'm on my way back to see my wife and little girl, my world. I've decided to meet my sister at the airport so she can drive me to the apartment and surprise my wife and our daughter, i don't think i've ever been so excited in my life, it was hard to find time to write to them from the base as i was always out on the field but i'm finally back home with my family, where i belong.I'm just leaving the airport when i see my sister, Emily, and best friend. I finally make eye contact and she sprints towards me and leaps into my arms.
Emily: "hey sis! We've missed you so much, i can't wait for you to surprise San and Mila!"
"what's up sis, i've missed you loads."
I see my best friend Puck walking towards me and pulls me into a tight hug, which basically squeezes the air out of me.
Puck: "What's up bestie, it's good to see you."
"hey Puck, how's the pool cleaning going? you'll have to catch me up over dinner tomorrow, i just can't wait to see my family"
We have been driving for 30 minutes until we finally go pull up outside my apartment, i get out of the car telling my sister and best friend that i'll catch up with them tomorrow as i just want to spend tonight with my family.
I stand in front of the apartment door and take a deep breath before opening the door and stepping into the apartment quietly so i can surprise my wife as our daughter is still at school. The apartment is silent until i walk down the hallway towards the bedroom when i hear a familiar moan and scream. I open the door and find my wife in bed with a blonde woman i don't recognise. i clear my throat and my wife looks up at me with wide eyes and jumps out of bed to follow me calling my name as i walk back towards the kitchen.
Santana: "baby, i didn't realise you were coming back why didn't you call?"
"what, so i could give you a heads up and time for you to let the tramp in our bed out of the apartment so you won't get caught? i actually came to surprise you early so we could go and surprise our daughter at school, but i'll go and pick her up myself and you better make sure that by the time i get back that she's gone!"
Santana: "i've missed you so much and when you didn't write to me i figured you didn't care about us anymore."
"how long has this been going on? please be honest."
She pauses and looks at me with a broken frown.
Santana: "not long, i'm so sorry baby i got lonely."
"don't act innocent in all of this, i got so lonely whilst i was away and the thought of cheating on you with one of the soldiers on my team never even crossed my mind once because i knew i had a wife that 'loved' me back home. i guess i was wrong."
And with that I glared and scoffed at her as i took my bag and left to go and pick our daughter up, tears streaming down my face i try to clear as i stop outside of the gates of the school and wait.
10 minutes go by and i head the bell go and see a hurd of kids running out of the building. I finally spot my daughter and we finally make eye contact, i see her run towards me and jump in my arms, tears running down her face.
Mila: "Momma i've missed you so much!"
"I've missed you too baby girl, how's school going?"
Mila: "it's amazing, i already made so many friends on my first day."
"That's amazing, i'm so proud of you baby."
Mila: "Where's Mami, have you seen her yet?"
I try my best to put a smile on my face even though i can't get the image of my wife in top of another woman in our bed.
"yes i saw her about half an hour ago, i've missed you girls so much."
I can't go back there i need my sister.
" i just need to run some errands before i come back to the apartment baby, so i'll drop you at the apartment and then go. I won't be long don't worry."
We walk back to the apartment in a comfortable silence and I walk Mila up the stairs as I watch her walk into the apartment alone, I quickly run down the stairs as i try to fight back the tears.
I reach the door of our apartment complex and pull my phone out. I need my sister.
RING RING
Emily: "Hey sis! i've just been telling Quinn that you're back and you'll be here tomorrow for dinner with San and Mila, how did they react?"
"I need you to pick me up from the apartment please?"
She can hear the pain in my voice as i try my best to hide it.
Emily: "i'm on my way Britt."
10 minutes later.
My sister pulls up and i jump straight into the car and tell her to drive back to her house and with that, she speeds away towards her house.
We make it inside and i see Quinn in the kitchen making dinner and i run and drop myself onto the couch. My sister follows and i can't hold the tears in anymore as i sob into her lap. Once i calm down my sister pulls me up and stares into my red puffy eyes.
Emily: "What's going on Britt?"
"I c-caught her in bed with another woman."
She sighs and looks to Quinn as she walks into the living room to join us.
"I walked in quietly to surprise her and i walked into the bedroom when i seen her on top of some random tramp, so i walked out and went to pick Mila up."
Quinn: "That's it! I'm fucking calling her!!"
"please don't? i don't want her to know i'm here, she'll just come over and try and talk to me."
Emily: "sis you look exhausted why don't you go have a nap in the guest room and i'll call you when dinner's ready."
I nod and walk upstairs, i stop in the hallway as something catches my eye on the wall, i look and see the picture from last christmas with Me, Santana, Mila, Emily, Quinn and Puck. We look so happy. I guess that was just an act.
I walk into the bedroom and sit on the bed contemplating whether to turn my phone on or not.
I finally give in and turn it on which i regret straight away.
15 missed calls from 'Wifey x'
7 messages from 'Wifey x'
2 messages from 'my baby girl x'
I open the message from my daughter and tear up as soon as i see what it says
my baby girl x - hey momma, when are you coming home i saw Mami crying as soon as i walked in... x
I can feel all the air getting sucked from my lungs as i read the next one.
my baby girls x - mami is really upset and she won't tell me, can you come home ASAP since you're the only person that makes her feel better when she's upset. x
Brittany - "I'll be home soon gorgeous, just look after your mami until i get back.
I love you so much x
I immediately put my phone back in my bag as i hear screaming downstairs, i walk into the hallway trying to hear what is going on. I see Quinn on her phone and i know straight away who she is talking to.
Quinn: "How fucking dare you! Santana i'm your best friend and i will always love you but you are a fucking idiot for doing this! Brittany has done everything for you, you have a child together for god's sake!! I'm going to go now because Emily isn't happy that i'm even speaking to you. You either stay away from Brittany or find a way for her to forgive you, but if i was her i wouldn't give you the time of day! goodbye."
I walk back into my room and collapse against the wall, sobbing.
5 minutes later.
I start writing letters in my notebook to my family as i decide it's too much for me to stay in this shitty town. I start with the hardest one of all.
Dear San,
I'm writing to tell you that i'm leaving and i don't know if i'll be coming back. I tried my best to give you what you deserve. The world. That clearly wasn't enough. I remember telling you on our first date that ever since i laid eyes on you i knew you were special. This is my last message to you. To the woman I had given my heart, it still beats for you. We might not be in each other's lives anymore, but I'll forever cherish our sweet moments. You had made me happy like nobody else, and I'll miss you more than anything. The most painful thing in this world is to say goodbye to the one that means the world to you. I never thought I would ever have to go through this pain. I couldn't find words to make you understand how much pain I'm feeling right now. You were everything to me and now I have nothing. You may have a thousand reasons to blame it on me, but deep inside, You and I both know that it's too late for that. Maybe one day i will forgive you and fate will bring us back together. I've decided to go back for another mission and hopefully if i do come back we can start up again. My heart is full of sadness, but I won't let it cry. Because I know every ending carries a promise for yet another beginning.
Goodbye my love,
Britt-Britt x
I tear the page out andput it into the start of a pile of letters. This one's going to be hard.
My gorgeous girl,
I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday, as soon as i laid eyes on you i knew you were perfect and i promised myself and your mami that i would do everything in my power to protect you and love you endlessly. I always thought I would help you grow up into being the woman that I wanted you to be. However, being your momma taught me so many things and made me the woman that I am today. Your grandpa always told me to be honest and true. I am glad I did, because karma blessed me with a lovely daughter like you. My dearest daughter… don't let anyone take you for granted, always hold your head up high. Never stop believing in yourself, just go forth and aim for the skies. I've missed so many amazing events in your life and when i got back today i promised myself that i wouldn't miss any more. I'll never forgive myself for not keeping that promise because by the time you're reading this i will be gone and i don't know if i'm coming back. Maybe one day your mami can explain everything to you but for now i need to you to do one thing for me. Cherish the moments with your mami she might act tough on the outside but we both know how much of a softy she is and i know that she loves you more than anything in this world so take care of her for me.
I love you to the moon and back
Mamma x
I finished the rest of my letters to Emily, Quinn and Puck and with that i made my way out of the guest bedroom window leaving the letters on the bed and my cap on top of my daughters letter to give her something to remember me by in case i don't make it back.
Emily's POV
I've been trying to calm my girlfriend down for the past half an hour and as the rage starts to pass i speak up.
"baby i'm just as angry as you, i can't stand to see my sister this broken but we need to stay strong for her at least until she's gone back to Santana, if she ever does."
Quinn: "I've known Santana since high school and i never once expected her to cheat on Brittany. Britt gave her everything! A child, marriage, everything San ever wanted in life but she goes and fucks it up to sleep with some tramp she found on the street!"
"I'm going to check on her upstairs to see how she's holding up."
I make my way towards the guest room i knock but there's no answer.
"Britt can you open up please?"
No answer again. So I decide to open the door myself and as soon as i see a pile of letters on the bed alongside Brittany's phone and the window wide open my stomach drops.
"QUINN, COME UP HERE QUICK!"
I hear Quinn running into the room out of breath and as soon as she sees who all of the letters are addressed to, she runs back downstairs and grabs her phone to ring Santana.
I start to read my letter and as soon as i see that she's on her way back to Afghanistan i break down in tears and collapse on the floor clutching the letter to my chest.
Santana's POV
I can't stop crying and i don't think i ever will. Mila walked in from school without Brittany and told me that Momma has went to run some errands which made me cry more knowing that she won't be coming back tonight. I've tried to ring and text her but no answer. It's not until i hear a loud banging on the front door i run to it and see Quinn and Emily standing in front of me, Emily holding two letters in her hands with mascara marks run off their cheeks from crying they push past me and walk into the apartment.
Emily: "where is she? did she stop by?"
They're both pacing back and forth in the living room until i speak up.
"what's going on guys you're scaring me."
Emily looks up glaring at me and hands me two letters, one addressed to me and one to our daughter.
As i'm reading it i break down again curling into a ball on the floor and begin to sob.
Quinn: "We need to stop her we still have time to make it to the airport."
I jump up and grab my coat as we all spring to the car and Emily speeds off and driving through every red light as my phone starts to ring and it's an unknown number.
"Hello?"
Unknown: "Hello is this Miss Lopez-Pierce?"
"Yes can i ask who's calling?"
Unknown: "This is Dr Johnson from Lima City Hospital, your wife has been in an accident and is currently in a coma. is there any way you can come by as we don't have any other contact info on other family members."
"i'll be straight there, thank you."
They both look at me through the rear mirror with a questioning look.
"Brittany has been in a car accident and she's in hospital we need to go now!"
15 minutes later
We get directed into Brittany's room and I see her lying there with a cast on her right arm and leg and a bandage wrapped around her head with cuts all across her face. I run across the room towards her, tears streaming down my face, and i break down next to her bed holding onto her hand. Quinn walks back into the room after making a phone call.
Quinn: "Puck is on his way with Mila, they'll be here in 10 minutes."
Emily is standing frozen in place staring down at her sister in tears.
The doctor walks in and I jump up as he looks at me.
Dr Johnson: "Hello, i'm Dr Johnson, i'm guessing you're Miss Lopez-Pierce?"
"Please call me Santana, how is she doing?"
He sighs sadly
Dr Johnson: "Brittany was in a car accident as she was speeding down the street and she swerved last minute to dodge someone crossing the street and drove straight into a tree. The police found half a bottle of vodka in the passenger seat so we're guessing she was highly intoxicated whilst driving but we've ran a few tests and she has a broken arm and a leg, several bruised ribs and she hit her head on the driving wheel which caused her to go into a coma."
"when will she wake up?" i say trying to hold back the tears.
Dr Johnson: "we don't know whether she will wake up or not it's down to her but if she does wake up there's a risk of having severe neurologic deficits."
The doctor leaves the room and we all break down in tears and as i'm screaming in pain and squeezing her hand, i hear a familiar voice.
Mila: "Mami?"
My head shoots up and i see our daughter frozen in place in front of Puck with tears running down her face.
"come here baby Momma is gonna be alright we know how strong she is."
Mila climbs up onto my lap and starts crying with me as she nuzzles her face into my neck.
12 hours later
i'm just dozing off to sleep with Mila on my lap next to her bed still holding onto her hand as i hear her groan and wince in pain, and suddenly i'm awake again. I jump up and look into her bright blue eyes and smile hoping she returns it but all i get in return is a glare until our daughter speaks up
Mila: "Momma?"
and the smile appears on her face when she looks towards her daughter.
Her voice croaks almost a whisper as she lets go of my hand and holds it out for Mila
Brittany: "hey baby"
"how are you feeling?"
She stares at me with an empty expression on her face she finally talks to me.
Brittany: "go get the doctor i want to spend time with my daughter." she says bluntly
As i leave the room i see Emily, Quinn and Puck in the waiting room all looking exhausted.They all look up to me with hopeful looks on their faces.
"She's awake."
They all rush past me and into the room as i walk to get the doctor.
I walk into the room with Dr Johnson at my side and he walks to her bedside to check the machines and he looks up towards Brittany.
Dr Johnson: "Nice to see you're awake Brittany, how are you feeling?"
Brittanyglances at me and then back to the doctor
Brittany: "like shit but it's nothing i've never felt before." she glared back at me.
Dr Johnson: "well we're gonna run some tests now and then we'll talk about letting you go home."
Dr Johnson walks back out of the room as i say a quiet 'thank you'
Puck: "nice to see you Britt, but why the fuck would you drink and then get in the car?! i could've picked you up with Mila?"
Brittany gives a quick smile to Mila as she lies on her bed with her.
Brittany: "I didn't want her to see me in the state i was in i'm sorry"
Emily: "please never do anything like this again sis i can't imagine my life without you." she sobs and hugs Brittany carefully so she doesn't hurt her.
Quinn looks between me and Brittany and finally speaks up
Quinn: " hey Mila shall we take you downstairs for some lunch?"
Mila hops off the bed and holds hands with Emily as they all walk out leaving me and Brittany alone in the room. There's an awkward silence and i don't even want to know what to say.
Brittany: "you know, i nearly handed my resignation in before i came home so i didn't have to miss any more of the special moments in Mila's life and i couldn't wait to see you again and just feel your lips on mine."
She starts to tear up and i walk towards her to grab her hand and she pulls away.
Brittany: "where's your girlfriend?"
"Britt, i love you so much and i'm so sorry i wish i could go back and wait for you i don't know what happened it just started one night when i was drunk and it carried on because i wanted to feel something whilst you were gone."
She sighs.
Brittany: "all i'm saying is if i find out that you've been having affair and sleeping around with our daughter in the house i will go to court to get full custody of her and i will do anything in my power to make sure she never sees you again! you need to give me time to think before i can even think about coming back to you, i'll come home but i'm sleeping on the couch, i don't want to sleep in the same bed that you've been sleeping with someone else in."
"you don't know how sorry i am, and when i did it all i could think about was you-" that's all i could say before she interrupts me
Brittany: "THATS NO EXCUSE TO HAVE AN AFFAIR!!" she snaps and the rest of the group coming running in.
Quinn: "you guys have some issues to iron out but not in front of your daughter who also just heard EVERYTHING, San for your sake i really hope Britt can forgive you but if i was her i'd get as far away from you as i could. Em i'm going home babe i can't stand this i'll see later." she leaves before kissing her girlfriend goodbye and struts out of the room.Mila walks slowly towards the bed and looks at her mami with one eyebrow raised.
Mila: "Mami what's going on?"
I glance and Brittany and back to Milabefore kneeling in front of her and holding her hand.
"me and your momma have some stuff to sort some things out but it's nothing for you to worry about baby."
Puck: "Well me and Em are gonna go back home we'll leave you guys to have some family time, get well soon Britt love you."
Emily walks over to her sister and gives her a kiss on the head and whispers something to her sister before smiling and leaving with Puck.After they leave Brittany pats the space next to her for Mila to sit there and i lift her onto the bed as she cuddles into her side. I look over and catch her staring at me with an empty expression on her face.
"what are you thinking about?"
Brittany: " just thinking about what i could've done wrong for you to do this."
"Britt-"
Brittany interrupts again: "i love you more than anything but i don't know if i'll be able to forgive you for what you've done, and if i do it's gonna take some time."
"I read your letter. Mila hasn't read hers yet and i don't see the point in giving her it if you're not leaving. where were you going?"
Brittany: " i was gonna go back to afghanistan to do another mission, they didn't need me but i volunteered anyways and i told them i'd be out there by tomorrow."
i start to break down in tears which causes her to start crying silently trying not to wake our daughter up next to her.
" please don't leave us, we need you, i can't go any longer without you."
Brittany scoffs: "you should've thought about that whilst you were sleeping around like some cheap whore."
that was my breaking point.
"I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH! I DIDN'T MEAN FOR THIS TO HAPPEN, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL OUR DAUGHTER WHEN SHE ASKS WHY YOU HAVEN'T WROTE TO HER?!" i start sobbing as she holds her arms out and i jump into them and inhale the familiar smellthat i've missed so much. my tears soaking her neck and hospital gown just before the doctor walks in.
Dr Johnson: " hey guys, i have Brittany's release papers for you to sign and then you are free to go home."
1 hour later
We finally arrive at the apartmentand I help Brittany onto the couch as she winced in pain.
"i'll get you some painkillers baby, we can talk later once you wake up."
"Mija do you have any homework you could be doing whilst Mamma is asleep?"
Mila nods and runs to her room and as soon as the coast is clear i reach for my phone and go into my contacts list to delete and block every one of the girls i have saved in my contacts.
I just want her back.
After that i text Emily telling her that Brittany is back home, asleep and we'll call later.As soon as i put my phone away it buzzes
Em - you guys really need to talk for Mila's sake and i know how much you guys love each other but what you did was wrong San, even if she decides to forgive you don't think she will be able to forget that any time soon.
Em x
I hear a whimper from the living room and i run to see Brittany crying into her pillow and it breaks my heart. I can hear her mumble to herselfand i can just hear what she's saying.
Brittany: "why me God? i gave her everything and i will never stop loving her. what have i done to deserve this?"
i can't take this so i walk over and crouch down next her and when she spots me she cups my face in her hands and kisses me softly.
"i'm so sorry, i love you so much, please don't leave us."
She sobs whilst our lips are so close together
Brittany: "i love you so much, it's going to take me a while to forget this but i want to give us another go as long as you promise to never do this again. i'm going to hand my resignation letter in and we can start over together."
We lean our foreheads together and smile into another kiss.
I'm finally happy again.
A/N - as you canprobably tell this is my first story but i would really appreciate it if you left a review? thank you
