Chapter 3
For What It's Worth, I'll Choose to Live
As if I opened the door to a new world, I felt as though I have been reborn. Chihaya and Kaoruko took me to a yummy buffet with all this delicious food. I enjoyed every bit of it. It made me happy. I was happy not only because the food was delicious, but…I was also happy that Chihaya and Kaoruko were there with me…when no one else would. Hatsune-onee-sama I can also call a close friend. But…Tenshi-sama…something deep down inside…she was the same as me. Having no friends at our previous schools, but we are still polar opposites. As I talked with her, I realized…both of us had something in common. My heart…I felt it beat rapidly. Even as I hugged her…I felt it. I kept asking myself…is neglecting my health really worth it when there are people that care about me? My Tenshi-sama….
Yuu-chan finishes writing her journal that night. She lets out a sigh and sets her notebook aside and looks out the window. She thinks about the time where she went out in the rain possibly on purpose and stayed there for however long until Chihaya showed up. If it weren't for "her" then…Yuu-chan's health would've been way worse and she could've truly been dying, due to her weak body. She keeps asking herself the same thing over and over: Do I want to die?
Not that school life here has been easy for her, but ever since her parents insisted on her to try and experience school life, even at this condition, Yuu-chan tries her hardest to live a good life. She doesn't do much, yes, but in all honesty, she is going to try and make it through the school years and hopefully…hopefully live until graduation. After all, she's still in her first year.
She lets out a sigh. Living with this weak body is like living in oblivion.
**Next Day**
At the dorms, Yuu-chan walks in and sees Chihaya talking with Kaoruko, Kaori, Fumi and Hatsune. She clutches her notebook, putting up to her mouth as she shyly approaches the silver haired trap. She then gently tugs on Chihaya's sleeve to get "her" attention.
"Oh, Yuu-san," Chihaya turns toward the smaller girl. "Do you need something?"
"Mm….mmhmm…" Yuu-chan gives a small nod. "It's…sort of urgent."
"Alright. I'll be right there," Chihaya says. "Sorry, girls. I need to talk to Yuu-san for a bit."
"No problem," Hatsune says.
"Actually, I want to join in," Kaoruko says. "Maybe it's something important."
"Go on ahead," Kaori says. "Maybe it's confession of love~" She puts on a teasing face, making Kaoruko pout adorably.
"Mou! Kaori-san!" the fencer says. "This is not confession of love!"
"Ohhhh~?" the pure lesbian says as she looks over at Yuu-chan. "But this little one is all red in the face. I wonder if she's really in love~"
Yuu-chan gives a soft whimper, hiding herself with the notebook. Chihaya giggles.
"Whatever it is, I'm sure it's important either way," he says. "Come Yuu-san."
"Right…" The quiet girl nods.
The two head out of the room and Yuu-chan leads them to her dorm room where they can talk in private. Once the door closes, Yuu-chan steps toward the edge of the bed and sits on it while Kaoruko and Chihaya stand in front of her, completely content and have smiles on their faces.
"So what is it, Yuu-chan?" Kaoruko asks. "Why have you called us?"
Yuu-chan clutches the book to her chest. "Remember this…? It's the notebook I've been writing on for my daily life. But…I haven't told you another reason why I'm doing this…."
"What is it?" Chihaya questions.
Yuu-chan sinks down and clutches the notebook closer to her chest. "My body's been so weak, I hardly do anything. I may or may not make it to graduation if this keeps up. Then…I may die…."
Chihaya and Kaoruko stay silent as these words tug on their heart strings, especially Chihaya's. He knows exactly what this condition did to his older sister and it may strike Yuu-chan the same way. But in case this actually happens, he cannot just sit there and let Yuu-chan wither away without accomplishing anything in life.
"I know the feeling…" he says softly. "As I told you before of my late sister."
Yuu-chan looks up and holds up her notebook. "That's why…I need your help…Chihaya…Kaoruko. I wrote some things on there that I want to do just in case anything worse happens to me. Places I want to go…things I want to do…all of it. And I can't do it alone…" She hops off the bed and steps toward Chihaya. "I used to think my life was meaningless because of this condition. But now…that I have you around…I cannot think such things anymore…"
"Yuu-san…" Chihaya says, looking down at the cute small and frail girl.
"I want to live…Chihaya…Kaoruko…" Yuu-chan says, her quiet voice filled with determination. "No matter what it takes…for what it's worth…I want to live."
Chihaya and Kaoruko give a small gasp. Never have they seen the small girl this determined before. However, this makes Chihaya feel a little more confident. The sickness took away Chitose…but it will never take away Yuu-chan the same way. As long as he and Kaoruko, along with Hatsune, take good care of her, she may get well again. And be able to do things on her own.
"Alright," Chihaya nods. "If that's what you want, we'll do our best to help you."
"We'll be there for you, Yuu-chan," Kaoruko says. "We'll be there all the way."
Yuu-chan gives a small smile. "Thank you…very much. It makes me…so happy~" She plunges herself in Chihaya's arms and hugs him. "Tenshi…sama…~" She sighs with bliss.
The silver haired trap also smiles and returns the embrace. Kaoruko also hugs Yuu-chan to add to that blissful moment.
A/N: Short chapter, but this is all I got. I think this is kinda proper for the next chapter as Yuu-chan goes on her journey to live a happy life.
Hope you enjoyed this one.
Have a nice day.
