Me: Hey Everyone and welcome back, sorry its been awhile...
Ciel: She's been with Ash again. *Smirks*
Me: *blushes and glares...* don't push it Ciel, or I'll write your death.
Ciel: *Pouts* fine... can I have a cookie?
Me: Uh, no...
Ciel: D,:
Me: Please enjoy the chapter!
Episode Seven
Sebastian POV
"But I don't wanna eat my vegables!"
I sighed for what felt like the umpteenth time as I tried to coax the young boy to eat the rest of his lunch, but no matter what I did, Adam just pushed his plate away.
"But Adam, they're not even that terrible." I repeated but Adam just kicked the underside of the table in a fit. Why was I even doing this? Oh yes, I remember now, I am here because the young master had gone with Cissillia and Samantha to the doctors and I was ordered to watch the little ones and to continue to coax Adam to eat his greens. Yes... what ever you were thinking is correct, I've been at this for over an hour now. Rosa had eaten her food and had went off to nap... she was easy... Adam however was a different story... so very stubborn and unwilling to try new things... yet, it also seemed that I was the only one he acted like this around... he would have eaten MUCH sooner had it been the young master here asking him...
"Adam... just try them... if you don't like them... then you don't have to eat them..."
"But I don't-" he began but I interrupted.
"Adam, this little stubborn game is growing awfully, painfully, annoying... You might as well try them, because you are not getting up until you at least try them." I said crossing my arms like an overly annoyed father.
Adam still continued to pout but all the same, he finally nodded, took the fork into his small hand and slowly touched his tongue to the green bean... he froze and had to touch his tongue to it several more times and he even sniffed it, before he shoved the fork with the food on it in his mouth and his eyes lit up as he looked up at me in surprise, "How did you make them taste so yummy!? My daddy's green beans were yucky!" And with that said he began to devour his food which made me smile. FINALLY! VICTORY!
"Well, if I couldn't make something as unappealing as greens taste so good, then what kind of Butler would I be?" I said and he smiled, then I added, "Now was that little taste so bad?"
He shook his head, his hair flopping as he did so. "Thank you Sebas-Chan!" He exclaimed as I picked up his plate.
"Now, why don't you run along and go play while I clean up the dishes?" I said and nodding, he scrambled from his chair and ran out of the dinning room.
I walked into the kitchen and sighed."Children..." I muttered as I cleaned the dishes.
Cissy POV
"From what we can tell, you and your baby are doing just fine." Dr. Kaska said and I smiled sadly. I was happy yet thoroughly depressed... So many wonderful things have happened since I left that accursed orphanage all those weeks ago yet... I still don't feel good... I don't feel happy, I feel sad, like I can't do anything right... why am I having these feelings..? and now I'm pregnant... I'm just a child... Yes, a child having a child.
I sighed and got up from the table, ignoring the hand offered to me by Ciel... I was not in the best mood and I wasn't the very best at cancelling how I feel. Sighing once more, I looked at Samantha, asked her to pay the man, then left the exam room, Ciel following me.
"Cissillia..?" He began but I cut him off.
"Please, do not ask me what's wrong, because I do not want to talk of my emotions at the moment... I feel thoroughly sick and please let's just leave it at that." I begged, not even turning to look at him.
I heard him sigh but none the less he said, "Very well... but Cissillia, I really want you to understand that if you EVER need anyone to talk to, I am here for you."
I nodded in acknowledgment but knew that I could not really ever talk to Ciel, he would never really understand, no matter how hard he may try, I'm just to difficult, plus he has his own issues... he definitely does not need my silly pregnant girl emotions piled on top of everything else. I shook my head, trying to rid the thing of these nasty horrid thoughts.
Samantha POV
A life may last just for a moment, but just one memory can make that moment last forever... Memories, so important for the bereaved, allow a still painful, yet more gradual, good-bye... Grief can last far longer than you or others may expect and has many ups and downs. When it comes down to it, that's what life is all about: showing up for the people you love, again and again, until you can't show up anymore.
I sighed and apologized as I handed the doctor his pay then left after Cissillia and Ciel. We arrived at the carriage and I helped them in before going to steer.
This whole thing was exhausting to me... I will admit that I will do anything for my mistress to make sure she is as happy as can be but the one thing I don't think I could do is help her give up her baby, should she make that decision... the matter of babies was... rather personal to me and it was hard enough standing in that doctors office and listen to Cissillia talk about how all this was unfair and that this baby was just another curse and that her brother had a point in saying that she was cursed just like every other Phantomhive. I will admit that this irks me... her words... for I had not had a say in the matter when I had been in young Miss Cissillia's position... for I HAD been in her position only once before...
(Flashback)
Dark thick rain poured heavily on the roof top and windowsills, of the local hospital of which a young girl sat screaming as she birthed...
So young, just fourteen the girl was screaming as the doctors urged her to push and with all her might, she did, it hurt... Oh so badly and tears were streaming down her cheeks but nonetheless, she pushed. Suddenly, loud wails filled the room and after a few last grunts and pushes, the young girl felt that the worst was over and began to relax ever so slightly. "Its a girl!" One of the doctors cried and the tired girl smiled exhausted but suddenly the whole room went frantic as the babies cries, suddenly turned to what could've only have been hacking, gurgled heavy breathed half cries. The girls tiredness suddenly vanished and her heart suddenly began to race as the men rushed around to get the baby some sort of help but in the end there was nothing they could do and the cries quited, then ceased altogether...
The baby had died...
She had chocked, on fluids that she'd begun to cough up.
The girl's heart sank and she felt her entire body go numb with grief as the doctor delivered the news of which she already knew... suddenly, she began to scream and and shout and howl and bawl and eventually after what might have been hours, she screamed herself to sleep...
The next day, James came to see her and he held and hugged his friend as together they cried, the baby may not have been his... (It had been her cousins, who had forced himself inside her while at a family gathering.) but if there had been anyone who she had wished had been the father, it was James... he was everything to her just as she was to him. The two hugged and cried all that day, and the next, and next...
This continued for several more days, even two weeks after the girl was released from the hospital... eventually however... she had no more tears to cry but despite her 'getting over it' she could never look at a baby the same way again.
(End Flashback)
There is a sacredness in tears...They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition and of unspeakable love... only a love one can feel for a lost loved one... I remembered that feeling... the horrid stabbing pain of this loss, yet... I did not cry at this moment, I did not shed a tear as we arrived at the manor, I did not let my human emotions take over... I simply parked the carriage, helped the young earl and my mistress from the carriage, and led them inside where Sebastian was cleaning and Rosa and Adam were taking a nap.
Sebastian POV
looked at Samantha as she, Cissillia and the the young master arrived home. She looked thoughtful and distracted and I knew why... but still, she should be over that... its been literally over a thousand years... it could become problematic when a demon let's his/her human feelings show.
I looked at the two Phantomhives and saw that Cissillia looked rather sad and depressed while the young Lord looked concerned and worried for his sister.
"Welcome back..." I greeted then directly to my master, "Is there anything you need my lord."
*Ciel POV*
I sighed and shrugging my shoulders I said, "No... I do not need anything... look Sebastian... I am not in a very good mood, so if you could...will you bring my supper to my study?" With that said, I left the room without another word.
I went into my office and sat at my desk and thought about everything that's happened since I found out Cissillia was my sister... then something occurred to me and getting to my feet, I left my office and made my to Tanaka's office.
When I got there, Tanaka was sitting at his desk, sipping his tea and working on paperwork. He looked up when I walked in and stood with a bow. "My Lord-" he began but I cut him off,
"I just want to talk..." I told him calmly and nodding he sat back down and gestured to the chair in front of his desk. I sat down then asked my first question, "So... how come no doctor realized that my mother was having twins... surely Madam Red-"
"That is easily explained..." Tanaka said cutting me off and at my nod he continued, "Your parents told everyone that did know, that Cissillia was a stillborn... then after awhile, they started saying that there'd been no second child and people just assumed that that was Vincent and Rachael's way of coping with the loss."
"Where in the world did they find the time to plan all this out?" I asked and he answered.
"Well, my lord...Cissillia HAD almost been a stillborn... she wasn't breathing at first but, she began breathing at one point and your parents thought it was strange... for you two came out of the womb holding hands, as if you my lord had given half of yourself to her, so she would live... Vincent went so far as to joke that you gave her half your soul and that's why you get sick so easily."
I nodded thoughtfully... then standing up, I said, "I need to speak with Sebastian..." and with that, I left to go back into the kitchen as theories began to race though my mind.
Me: Yay! It was a little longer than usual, PLEASE READ AND REVIEW!
Ciel: So... if what your insinuating is correct then...
Me: *Covers mouth* Sssshhhhh, don't ruin anything!
Ciel: *Nods* Stay away from Ash and update very soon.
Me: *Blushes...* Okay, I'll try.
