My favourite day of the week!

Recap: Dimitri wanted to celebrate after the medicals but Rose wasn't in the mood. After running off to the bathroom and crying, Dimitri knocked the door down and demanded to know what was going on. When Dimitri went to work the next day, Rose spoke to Oksana and Mark to find out if they knew how her pregnancy was possible. They are going to do some research and get back to her. Rose has decided not to tell Dimitri until she has answers for him.

Just want to clear something up; I've had a couple comments from the last chapter about the word 'tyre'. I'm from the UK and here we spell it as 'Tyre' and not 'Tire'... I know most of my readers for this are from the US but it's just a little difference in our language.

Disclaimer: Vampire Academy and its original characters do not belong to me


Surprise: Chapter 4: Answers

Rose
Three days have passed since I spoke to Oksana and Mark and so far I haven't heard anything back from them. Dimitri is growing concerned by the day and questions me more and more but I just tell him that he has to trust me for now; I know he trusts me but he knows that something is bothering me and he just wants to help.

After my breakdown in the shower the other day, it is clear to him that my mind is in a different place to where it needs to be, so he took the decision upon himself to get me some time off to 'deal' with whatever was on my mind. I was angry at him for interfering in my job but he did have a point. I'm not in the right place of mind to put Lissa first and give her the proper care she needs so Guardian Carey is covering me for the rest of the week.

Knowing that Dimitri is so worried about me has made Lissa and Christian really worried about me, Lissa has been calling me and texting me constantly and I even had a visit from Christian asking how I was. I just wanted to scream out what was going on but I really couldn't form the words. I was so close to telling Dimitri last night but I couldn't get the words out and then I started crying and then he comforted me and put me to bed.

I felt awful because he was so worried and he desperately wanted to know what was going on, he has got the patience of a saint for putting up with me the past few days but hopefully it will all be over soon, Oksana and Mark will have something kind of explanation for me and then I can come clean to Dimitri and tell him everything that is going on.

I hate keeping secrets from him, I really do, and he is the one person I don't lie to or keep anything from so this is killing me as much as it is killing him. I just can't wait to tell him and see his reaction. I know he will be happy because it is something he has always wanted but how happy is he going to be? Having a family was just something that wasn't in the cards for us, or so we thought.

I have to admit that although I'm sure Dimitri is going to be an amazing father, I am worried about what sort of mother I am going to be. I'm not what you would call the maternal type and children are never something I wanted to have.

My own mother wasn't the best mother on the Planet and she put her career before me, I don't want to be that mother but on the other hand, my career was everything I had worked for and being Lissa's Guardian meant the world to me. I never had a father in my life growing up so I don't know what it's like to have one around to help with things. Dimitri never really had a father growing up, his father was nothing more than an alcoholic bully who never did any real parenting, Olena did all the parenting. It makes me wonder what kind of relationship Dimitri would want to have with our child.

Does he want to be a really hands on father that gets up in the middle of the night?
Do the poopy diapers and goes to school sport events?
Or is he going to be more of a background father?

Since my dream the other night about this beautiful little girl I have thought more and more about what kind of parents we're going to be and how we would go about raising a child. Let's be honest, Dimitri and I know nothing about children really so we are going to have no idea what we're doing. I think I'm going to be more of the disciplinarian and Dimitri is going to be the 'fun' parent but he is also going to be very overprotective, especially if this baby is a girl.

I know what it's like to be a teenage girl and you want to go to parties, shopping with your friends, kiss boys and have fun but Dimitri would not allow that, especially the boy thing. God help this baby if it is a girl, she will never be allowed to have a boyfriend... not until she's left school that is, Dimitri will make sure of that.

I was doing some searching on a private browser, so Dimitri couldn't find out, baby names. I know it's insane because I have only just found out and I haven't even told Dimitri yet but I have been stuck in this apartment for nearly a week and I needed something to do. I haven't really found any that stick out to me just yet but I think I would like a European or Russian name. Let's be honest those are the only first names that are really going to go with Belikov. It's clear that Belikov was a Russian or European surname so the first name has to match that, well I think it does anyway.

My laptop pinged to let me know that I had an e-mail so I logged on and saw that I had an e-mail from Oksana. Finally. I opened it quickly;

Rose,

Just thought you would like to know that Mark and I might have some answers for you. We haven't found out much but it is enough to maybe explain how you got pregnant. Call us when you get the chance and we'll talk you through it.

Oksana x

They had only just sent the e-mail so they must be awake. I need answers as soon as possible; I need to know so I can finally tell Dimitri. I looked at the time and worked out that Dimitri wouldn't be home for another three hours yet so I had plenty of time to talk to them uninterrupted. I logged onto Skype and called them.

Oksana answered the call pretty instantly and appeared on the screen by herself.

"Rose, how are you?" She asked kindly.

"I'm good thanks, tired but ok" I answered "How are you and Mark?" I asked politely.

"Yeah we're fine. He has just gone out to do some grocery shopping" She replied.

"So, what did you find out?"

She took a deep breath and got herself comfortable "Well, Mark and I did some research and reached out to a few people to get some advice or information and from what we have found out is that this is all down to Spirit magic. When Lissa used Spirit magic on the silver stake that brought Dimitri back it from being a Strigoi it bonded the two of them in some way. When Lissa saved you that night in the car accident you became Shadow Kissed. You and Dimitri formed a connection after you were both saved and brought back to life by Lissa and her Spirit magic. It is the connection between you both from Lissa's Spirit magic that has allowed you to get pregnant" She explained, she seemed impressed with herself that she had remembered it all.

"But I'm not bonded to Lissa like that anymore, not since Tasha Ozera shot me" I pointed out.

"You were both brought back to life through Lissa and her Spirit magic" She said.

"My life is so complicated" I sighed.

"Tell Dimitri! He is going to be so happy" She told me.

"I'm scared that this is going to ruin everything. I know that sounds awful but my life is being Lissa's Guardian and Dimitri's wife. How am I supposed to be a mother? Dimitri isn't going to let me out of Court when he finds out and I never wanted to be like my mother and just shove my kind into the academy... I never even wanted children" I complained but felt guilty that I was complaining.

"This is a blessing" Oksana stated.

Of course Oksana was right, this was a blessing because there are people out there like Oksana and Mark that want to have children and can't. Dimitri and I have been given this amazing blessing of having a child when we thought it was impossible. I should be more happy and excited but I'm so scared and anxious.

It sounds selfish to think of what this will do to my life when there are so many other that it would effect as well; Dimitri, Lissa, my parents, Dimitri's family and the Royal Guardians. This was such a huge thing and I'm terrified that it is not going to be the blessing that everyone is going to think it is, what if this is the worst thing to happen to me and Dimitri?

"Rose, you there?"

I turned my attention back to Oksana who was looking at me concerned.

"Sorry, I was just thinking about some things" I replied.

"It's ok to be scared" She said, guessing what I was feeling or maybe it wasn't a guess, maybe I looked scared.

"I don't know how to be a mother" I told her.

"No one knows how to be a parent until they are one. You and Dimitri will work it out and you will be amazing parents, I know it" She replied.

"Thank you for everything Oksana, please thank Mark for me as well. I appreciate all the effort the two of you have gone to for me" Oksana smiled back through the screen "I'm going to go and get ready to speak to Dimitri when he comes in" I said.

"Everything will be fine!" She exclaimed happily "Bye Rose" She waved.

"Bye... thank you again"

Oksana disappeared off the screen and the web page I had opened on baby names appeared again. I sighed and closed the web pages down and shut the computer down after making sure there was no way for Dimitri to see what I was doing before I told him.

How do I even tell him this? You always see in movies and TV shows that there is some huge reveal but that's not my style. I have no idea how to tell him. Do I just blurt it out to him? Do I make him guess? How I do even set him up for this kind of news?


Dimitri
I am so worried about Rose and I have no idea how to get her to open up to me. She has been so closed off since her medical and I tried speaking to her Dr, Dr Henris, to find out what the problem was but she wouldn't tell me anything. She said it was patient/doctor confidentiality. I thought being Rose's husband and head of the Royal Guardians would give me some sway but nothing, I was told there nothing could be discussed without Rose's verbal consent and I know Rose wasn't about to do that.

I just don't see why she couldn't tell me what was wrong because surely she knows by now that I am there for her no matter what and I will always be there to help her, no matter the problem. There is nothing she can't tell me. We agreed that we would always be open and honest with each other but this week has proved to me that Rose likes to keep things to herself and I'm scared at whatever the problem is but I'm scared in case there are other things she hasn't told me.

After her meltdown in the shower I spoke to Lissa and explained to her that Rose was not in the right headspace at the moment and she was very distracted and emotional, Lissa and Christian were worried about her and Lissa said to give Rose some time off to deal with whatever was going on in that pretty head of hers. Guardian Carey was covering for Rose and although I liked Guardian Carey it just wasn't the same. I miss working with Rose and I know Lissa missed her too. Lissa has been calling and messaging Rose to try and find out what the problem is and to make sure she is ok but Rose doesn't always respond.

It's like Rose has just closed herself off from us all; when I got home from work she is already in bed fast asleep and when I wake up she isn't there. I heard her throwing up this morning and offered to hold her hair up or get her something to make her feel better but she told me she was fine.

I wanted to call Dr Henris to come and take a look at her but Rose freaked out and told me not to call anyone and she would be ok. Rose just hasn't been herself at all and I am becoming more and more worried about her and what this big secret of hers is. I've thought of 100's of possible reasons why she might be keeping something to herself and none of them are good thoughts.

Everything was fine before she went for her medical but after that was when everything changed. When I got home from work last night and Rose was already fast asleep I turned detective and started looking for evidence to find out what was going on. I felt awful doing it but I looked through her phone at her calls and messages and what apps she had been using. I looked through the browser history and e-mails on the laptop as well as her Skype log but apart from a call to Oksana the day after her medical I didn't find anything else. It wasn't unusual for Rose and Oksana to speak through Skype so it wasn't something I could use as evidence.

Last night I even had this crazy idea to break into medical records and find out myself but decided against it. I'm just worried and after seeing how unwell Rose was this morning, my mind has been wondering all day and I'm scared that there is seriously something wrong with Rose, an illness or something. If that is the case I wish she would tell me and we could get Lissa to heal her or Lissa could get the best Drs in to help Rose, whatever it is she can't be dealing with it on her own.

What if there is something wrong with Rose?
What do I do?
I can't lose Rose; it would kill me if I lost her.

I nearly lost her once before when I was Strigoi and when I was turned back into a Dhampir I thought about how close I came to losing her for good and it hurt me. I can't continue to live without Rose by my side, she is my rock. She is my anchor that keeps me going. She is the reason I wake up every day and the reason I agreed to be Christian's Guardian so I could be with her.

I was finished work and part of me didn't want to go home because Rose was going to be asleep and although she was in the apartment I felt lonely. On the other hand I wanted to go and make sure that she was ok, I would never forgive myself if something happened to her because I didn't want to go home. I hated this. I hated her keeping secrets from me, we promised each other when we got married that we would always be open and honest with each other, no matter what. Rose knows how much I hate being in the dark about things, especially when it comes to things about her. She is driving me crazy and I really do not know how much more of this I can take before I lose it completely.

I slid my key in the door and with a deep breath I went into the apartment and closed the door behind me. I took my shoes off and wandered into the living room and saw Rose sitting on the sofa, she was wearing sweats and had her hair up in a bun, no makeup on and a blue blanket my mother had knitted us was casually covering her. She had a book in her hand but put it down when she heard me, she smiled at me and sat up.

"Hi" She said kindly.

"Hi" I repeated, surprised she was awake.

"Sit down" Rose said and patted the space next to her "We have to talk" She added.

"Are you going to be honest with me?" I asked.

"Yes" She answered.

I went and sat down next to her, Rose reached out and grabbed my hand, it felt nice to hold her hand again. It felt like it had been so long since I had really touched her.

"Talk to me Roza" I encouraged softly as I used my thumb to trace shapes on her hand; she liked it when I did this because it always calmed her and reminded her that I was there.

"Before I tell you, I need to try and explain something but I don't know how well I'm going to explain it, I'm going to try my best" She started.

"Ok"

"You know when Lissa used her Spirit magic to turn you back from Strigoi?" I nodded; I remembered too well "Well it bonded you and me in a different way because I was Shadow Kissed by Lissa when she brought me back to life after the car accident. Now we both know that since Tasha shot me" I took a deep breath at the mention of Tasha's name "I don't have that bond with Lissa anymore but me and you are still bonded by that Spirit magic that came from Lissa... are you with me?" She questioned.

"I think so," I replied.

"I don't know how it has worked but it something to do with the Spirit magic that came from Lissa and saved us both but the impossible has happened," She said.

"What's that?"

"I'm pregnant."


She told him! She finally blurted out the words! How do you think Dimitri is going to react? How is everyone else going to react? You only have a week to wait to find out what happens next... I hope you all patient ha-ha.

I hope you enjoyed my explanation of how Rose got pregnant, I hope it makes sense to you all too.

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