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CHAPTER 14
HOT COFFEE
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My eye opened at the sound of my beeping phone. I was about to get up but I remembered…
Alright, I have to scold myself but I can't help smiling and glare at the ceiling.
I fell asleep beside her.
Actually… I didn't want to.
Fine! The sane part of my mind scowls at my lying brain. Now I want… I like it. Whatever. But I didn't plan to actually sleep beside her.
Okay so this is what really happened: I was about to get up and let go of her hand when she suddenly gripped it hard and yanked me closer to her. It was so fast that my heart leaped to my throat. Luckily I've stretched my arms in front of me or I could've fallen on top of her. But she was sleeping. Her eyes are shut closed but her eyebrows furrowed as if disagreeing on something.
I remembered our proximity and my face heated up in an instant. My heart thumped crazily. It's so loud, I felt scared that it would wake her up.
I gather the last ounce of sanity left on me and decided to push myself away from her. My mind is still in a blur and I need to concentrate to remember what I think I've forgotten and this closeness will only distract me… will only drive me crazy.
Her hands are gripping my hands and slowly, I pulled it away.
But surprisingly, her hand tightened once again. I raised my head to see her face but she was still sleeping and then… she mumbled… with the laziest childlike voice I've ever heard, "Stay longer… I'm not gonna cook…" she moaned idly, "I'll let you… I promise…" And then she yawned and shifted on her side that I need to adjust myself beside her because she won't let my hand go.
Wait…
What! Cook?
A row of thoughts suddenly flashed like blinding lights on my head. I can't even keep up and I can't even control my blinking.
"I'll cook."
It's my voice… suddenly popping on my head.
"No, I will." Is this… her?
"Not until you're done with your cooking lessons."
"Ouuuuuch."
I exhaled the heavy air and stare at the ceiling, hoping that I could ask it about my convoluted thoughts. But then, a warm arm went around my torso and locked me in position.
"Stay…" she whispered.
All my thoughts suddenly went away as I looked at her. I want to regret looking at her because I feel so… stupid. I've never been this blank-minded before and I don't feel so comfortable with this although I like the feeling that comes with it. The feeling… of security, like I have my own place in this world… by this person's side.
I like how my heart beats. I like the scent I'm breathing in and I like the face I'm beholding so I decided to keep my noisy, sane mind quiet for now.
I don't know where on earth I got the nerves but I shifted again so I'm facing her quintessential face and slide my arm under her neck. My hand found its way around her waist and I pulled her closer. And then a very intangible feeling spread through my body. I want to cry and smile and even laugh at the same time. I think I'm going crazy. It's like I've found something… that I've been looking for.
I can't control myself anymore. I am so overwhelmed by the strange euphoria that I later realized that I'm kissing her hair. The things that I want to say rallies on my throat, forming a lump. I want them out but I don't know what they are. I decided I should try… to figure this all out. And I know… I need her to help me remember.
"I may not remember everything by now but I'll keep my promise…" I whispered. I kissed her forehead as I close my eyes. I don't know how I fell asleep because by that time, all I know is that I found a missing fragment of my life.
The phone beeped again and I have to answer whoever's calling before it wakes her up too. I unwillingly pulled myself away from her and wrapped her with the blanket before taking the phone down with me.
"Hyuuga…" the voice greeted. It's her.
"What are you calling for, Konan?" I asked her with the same nonchalant tone and went directly to the coffee maker.
"Take note of my actions…" she paused and breathed. "I'm not going to ask you anything in case you've figured it out but if you do or you did already… Keep your thoughts to yourself."
"What!" I questioned incredulously and found myself shaking my head. The face looking back at me in the mirror is frowning. "I thought I need to help her remember!"
"Help her, not make her remember. You still didn't understand the situation well, my dear Natsume."
I can imagine her smirking at me. Oh how I hate when others have the opportunity to make fun of me. "And you do?" I retorted.
"Yes I do." She said proudly. Maybe she really knows. My doubt about my memory being sealed is slowly becoming a fact to me given that Konan is participating. I know she likes these kinds of stuffs but she's not putting herself into this unless it has a connection with her because for all I know, she care less about anything except herself, Roslyn and… Kaname Sono.
And Kaname Sono is with Mikan… by now.
"Trust me… remembering one thing at a time will do you good. It will be the best for both of you to keep quiet." She trailed off as I waited. "I'll give you better ideas to ponder about when you're back here."
"I'm supposed to keep a promise—"
"Then keep it." She snapped. "Actions speak louder than words, Natsume. You can never make her remember… but you can help her. It's still all up to you." And then all I heard is a busy tone.
I can't make her remember!
Okay. This is just getting more and more complicated.
First I don't know if my memory is sealed. And if it is, why! And then who is this girl in my life? How on earth can her existence affect me this much!
At first I thought I can figure things up by myself but I was wrong. I can only think… I can only remember… when she's around.
And now… just when I've decided to try… to try to remember whatever I'm forgetting like an amnesiac idiot… Everything spirals up again, tangling my thoughts on my head—I can't help sighing in depression.
Alright. Konan said I should only keep my thoughts to myself.
Aish! I hate picking up instructions! Darn. It's just that I trust that girl even if she's annoying at times, especially in times like these.
Keep my thoughts to myself. Shut up. Yeah, I have to shut up. I'm good at shutting up. I repeated the mantra on my head as I pour some coffee in my mug. I took the cup near my lips so I can blow some cold breath on it and slowly turn on my heel.
"!"
"Aww!" Shit the hot liquid burned my lips. I was shocked too that's why my hand abruptly shook and the coffee contents spilled from the container, to my lips and my chest. Seriously it's hot. The burned skins are stings like hell.
"Oh my God…" she breathed, "I'm sorry!" she gasped, frozen on her place. I can't help but roll my eyes on her. Is she that girl I slept with? She started to run around, "Where's your kit?"
I ignored her, turned around again and run the cold water from the faucet and dabbed my lips. But I can dab my chest to my stomach with just my hand so I decided to take off my jacket and my shirt. I'm glad the heater works properly or I'll be shivering like a wet cat. Once my shirt was wet, I dab it onto my burned skin. Stinging… just crap. My hands got some red patches too.
I reached for my jacket and wore it again. Footsteps started to come near and I know it's her.
I know I'm back to my sane self. I can't believe I thought I like her. Well, maybe yes… when sleeping. And that ring on her hand—I can't believe I married a creature like her.
See? This is what COMPLICATED is. The hell to this.
When I turned around she's already there, holding a first aid kit. Nice. She did a good job rummaging through my bathroom.
But then she gasped again. It was a load of air she took in, she sounded like a vacuum cleaner and her hands flew to her open mouth, dropping the kit on the floor.
What's wrong with this—?
She even turned away from me!
"Hey—"
"Don't come near me!" she said, high-pitched. It even sounded like a threat.
Why should I listen to her? I'm in my own house so I have the right to do what I want. I took some steps near her discreetly until I'm exactly behind her. Without any warning, I grab her shoulders and turn her around so she's facing me.
Her eyes widen in shock.
And geez…
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…She fainted again.
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