Yes, this could be MIRACLE. In case some of you are muttering to yourselves, "Whoa, there's an update!..."
Sigh. IM VERY VERY VERY VERY SORRY guys. I went through a lot and finding time to write became very hard, even now. But I have to write because i want to. Thank you for the messages, the reviews, the likes, faves and all that even if I wasn't able to visit here these past few months, you guys are so amazing to still send me those stuffs. Thanks for making me smile. and Here, this may not be my best but I did all I can.
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Courting Chase
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Days went by like in a blur speed that it dragged me in a slow, nerve-wrecking trial as I try my best to apply my genes' talent in interrogating my own brain and consciousness to the point where I have to face the mirror and ask myself if I'm still sane.
I am but now I doubt it.
I doubt it because it occurred to me that I am trying to pull off a public display of interest to a girl whom I suspect as my wife in the actual present year—2012. And not just that.
Back in my house, I already made her agree to the idea to make it appear like we're dating so we can spend more time with each other because being together is apparently the only way to work out our memory puzzles but just last night... she denied it.
There was Aoi, Konan, Kaname, Tono, Misaki and some older folks and Konan made a joke about us being seen with each other recently and when I was about to tell them that "we're dating", the brat just went off being defensive and all, even nervously laughing while glaring at me and then she said that "we're not". And that she's not yet interested in pursuing a serious relationship with anyone and that's when Konan murmured, if I heard her right, "except with Kaname." And then polka just blushed and shifted to another topic about resins.
Right after dinner, I yanked her to the back garden and started bickering with her.
"You could've asked me nicely to come with you and not yank me here forcibly!" she exclaimed in gritted teeth.
I let go and faced her, finding the least patience that I can find and offer her. "Well, you could've stick to the plan about telling everyone that we're dating! You know what that means, don't you!?"
"We can't be dating. You see, there are no two people dating where one of them doesn't even like the other." She said emphasizing the words.
I know where she's getting at—that she doesn't like me. "And who told you that I like you?" and I rolled my eye on her just to get back.
"You gay—"
"Say that again and I'm going to prove to you that I'm not even if I don't like it. And don't ever change the subject." This girl makes me think I'm crazy. Darn, I've never been this talkative before.
"Okay…" she breathed. "We don't like each other. That's why we're not dating. Period."
"Have you forgotten that we're just making this up as an excuse for being together often? I was really hoping that you would understand that we're both enduring this shameful act so we can get back to our own normal lives."
Her jaw clenched. "Well, we can't just tell them that we're dating. Duh! You're not even my boyfriend."
God, why is she so technical about this!? "People nowadays date without making it clear that they're a couple! But since I swore to myself that I will endure this, fine! Then you want me to be your boyfriend?"
Her mouth dropped. And it was followed by a forced laughter with a hint of sarcasm. "Hyuuga…" she started and sighed, "I am also hoping that it was clear to you, and your conceited ego that I don't like you enough to want you to be my boyfriend. And only those couple who happened to like each other date without clearing their relationship status!"
"Oh really!?" I smirked at her sarcastically. "So you don't like me…?" She nodded. I felt weak with the coming idea so I leaned on the post and secured my near-to-exploding-point chest with my crossed arms in front of it. "And here I am, the only one who's trying to be kind to the only idea which can figure out who we are… So what should we do, rather… I do now?"
Polka just stared back at me and then shrugged. "There should be another way to do it… you know, crack our heads."
"Sorry, but I'm not willing to open my skull for that. I'd rather stick with my plan and court you!" There, I said it. I just don't understand why I felt so nervous instead of feeling sick with the court-polka-thing. And even in the dark, I can see her turning neon red.
"Court me!?" she exclaimed. Seriously, it echoed and I'm afraid somebody already heard that by now.
I nodded, "Uh-huh. Since you don't like me, and I don't like you but I need a reason to be around you, so I'm courting you… and I'm making it public with or without your consent. You can reject it but I will be persistent with this until I get my memory back."
"I can't believe you…" she shook her head, still blushing. And then nothing came out of her mouth but small white huffs of breathe.
Me, too. I can't believe that I said that… that I came up and ended up with that silly idea. And shameful as it is… I don't have any idea how to court a girl. And since I've got nothing to say anymore, I said goodnight and left, trembling as I dial Tono's number because I can't think of no one who can be good at this. Darn, what did I get myself into!?
But Tono just laughed at me as I told him about my predicament. He swore he'll be back by today since he's still in a business meeting in Scotland. Of course I didn't tell him about me being that creature from 2012. He was eager to know the reason, and I have to lie that I like that girl so he would stop pestering me about being all grown-up and the sorts and because I still don't have a reason.
But for sure, there's a sure reason for this and I'm certain in every way that I'm connected to that girl—that girl who's supposed to be out of that bathroom door by now if she means to attend the breakfast with Kaname and Konan.
I relieved myself with a sigh and decided to stand by the big window. Leaning on the frame, I can see the beautiful garden below. Even in autumn, the roses of Roseville are in full bloom and I can clearly smell its scent from up here. I took in a lungful with my eyes closed… and the more I breathed it in… the more I can see the same vision of flying petals… of a girl in a wedding gown carrying her shoes… panting—
"Why are you still here?"
The vision stopped as I open my eyes and face her direction. Fresh from the bath, she's wearing a plum long blouse and some thinner-than-regular-pants under it. I think they call 'em leggings or whatever. She's still got the same annoyed but cute expression plastered on her face.
"Is this your coat?" I asked her, walking past the bed 'til I reach the coat laid at the end of the couch, took it then faced her again to give a questioning look.
"Yeah, why?"
"Let's just go, brat." I muttered as I walked out the door. She came rushing behind me trying to pull the coat but I held it tighter expecting her to be more vexed and so I can get her attention. I know it's so "grade-school cliche" but I really don't have any idea on how to court a girl aside from what Aoi told me when we were little — that boys bully the girls they like. So... maybe I can start with that. Sheesh.
"Hey! Give me that!"
"No."
"C'mon, if you like my coat you can just tell me, okay? I'm kind to gays—"
What the h— I stopped walking and faced her. Sure she got me here. "I don't like you coat, okay? And I'm not gay."
"Okay then. So why aren't you giving it back to me?" She made an eye-roll like what she's going to say will settle all. "Give me that, because I'm starting to get cold, and then I'm not going to call you gay for the rest of my life!" and she blinked like a teletubby.
Truth-to-be-told… and sincerely, I don't want to cause her any trouble, I I've got another plan. "You're starting to get cold?" I asked her… monotonously. Damn, I suck at this get-a-girl stuff. I can't even put any emotion to what I'm saying.
Her lips trembled. I don't know if she's acting or not but it makes me wanna reach up and make it stop. "Yes…" she sounded out.
I flinched. "You want me to make it stop!?" I can hear my voice louder that it usually is, and an octave higher. This is not me.
"What? What are you saying? Stop what?" she asked, brows knitted and I just realized that I was referring to what I was thinking about her lips. Damn me.
"I… mean…" and I'm even stammering now. Hell, I can't think properly around her! But this is the only way to unlock my head.
She shook her head. Maybe in disgust or in sheer pity. "Man, you're out of your mind—"
"Literally." I cut her. Okay so here's the plan. "Now if you're really cold, stay close to me…"
This sucks. I know this sucks because Tono was the one who taught me stuffs like this! This is too shameful and I'd really appreciate it if somebody shoots me now.
But to think again… I did a mental sigh. Alright… I'll endure this for the sake of coming back to my normal life even if I can't remember how normal my life is in 2012.
"You're really out of your crack mind!" she exclaimed this time. I started walking again though the girl maintained her distance. I know she's not familiar with the house so I led her to the corridor of rooms which were not often used. The temperature is colder in this area because the warmers are turned off. She just kept following me until I noticed how she hugged herself and slowly shivered. My conscience elbowed me so hard that it made me stop.
I walked back to her, but I didn't give her the coat. Instead, I grabbed her and wrapped an arm around her back so my hand rests on her waist. She blushed instantly and I'm thankful that I'm taller because it'll be embarrassing if she could see me blushing too. "Warm now?" I asked her, smiling to myself.
"You're an idiot."
"You're ungrateful." I retorted.
"You're a fox. Why don't you just give my coat back?"
I pulled her closer until I can feel her body. "Why should I? I'll be closer to you with this—" My hormones automatically went nuts though I don't know why.
And then as I expected, as I felt her next to me, visions started to flood my senses. My head aches… as I see my own lips, smiling… it was touching a head… with a chestnut-colored hair… and there's me and the same person… in a pool, I'm arguing with her but I'm smiling… I am smiling!? My mind went blank for a while and then the vision shifted… to the same view… of the city… me… with a girl… the same girl… crying… I kissed her head, "I'll definitely find you. I'll get you back no matter what…" And then I was crying too. "I love you, Mi—
It was then that I realized that I can't take the pain anymore, I let go of her, reached for the wall and dropped on the floor since my knees are badly shaking.
"Hyuuga…" Polka came kneeling beside me.
"I'm… sorry…" I said. I must have caused some serious pain on her finger. I'm still panting and my head still hurts but I noticed that Polka's shaking and realizing once again that I still have her coat, I took it and draped it around her. She seemed surprised but I wasn't able to see more of her reaction since I dropped my head in weary and hoping to recover from this headache.
"Head straight and turn right when you see a painting of a woman who looks like Aoi. Straight ahead again and you'll find Kana—"
"What are you saying, you idiot!?" she cut in. "You want me to go and leave you here?" I can't even nod. I just sighed and lifted my head and rested it on the wall. "I might get lost, so I'm not leaving you here…" she smiled.
For the first time since forever, I felt an urge to smile. I don't know why. There's just this overwhelming feeling inside me, welling up and brightening everything in sight. I still can't understand why feel annoyed at her at most times, and then suddenly, I'm amazed… just… amazed… that she can make me feel weirdly happy.
I hope I really know why.
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