July 1st
7:45 am
"hey Tori how are you" asks Cat
"my head hurts but I'm ok I think" says Tori as she cuddles Cat on their bed
"I've been scared to ask but why don't you want to get married" asks Cat
"I don't want to take all your time away from your music, your fans, they deserve your love and attention" says Tori as Cat shakes her head in disbelief
"Tor, babe, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be in music, nobody took me seriously before you came along, you gave me the confidence and credibility I needed to live my dream, all this, this house apartment thing, it's all because of you, besides my fans adore you, they don't fully understand how the personality disorder works but to them it doesn't matter, those cop's murder attempt on your life, that trial is just getting started, when news hit nationally there were riots all over the country in support of you, I told them this isn't what you wanted and that they should protest peacefully but they told me that they wouldn't do that, that it was a matter of justice, that if it could happen to you it could happen to them and they didn't want your story to just be that one big story that vanished from the news" says Cat
"why do they care so much, also have you, Robbie and Jade been having fun in bed with Julia" asks Tori
"my fans are very loyal, sometimes maybe too much, yes, it was a one time thing, Jade accidentally let slip that you, Jade and I are together more or less and she wanted to try it" says Cat
"but Robbie… I scared him away, I miss him" says Tori
"it's not exactly that you scared him away exactly, it was his choice to stay loyal to Julia, he's firm on the belief of loyalty in love, even if it's just a personality, also he is firm on the belief that you and Julia are drastically different people" says Jade
"her and I couldn't be more different, he's got that right" says Tori
"except it's wrong, in more ways than one, based on the work Carly's been working on you were supposed to be a personality for Julia not the other way around, besides giving Julia a baby gives you that same baby, you'd be forced to carry Julia's baby, sure you may be different in many ways but he will need to understand it is still YOUR body he's making love to, he needs to man up and admit he loves you but he won't" says Jade
"because he doesn't" reasons Tori
"if that were true Tor he wouldn't have sex EVER with Julia, Carly believes that your personalities are a smaller version of you, that either you hid away or that it fractured causing the personality to assert itself as a person, Julia got angry a few days ago when Robbie still refused to call Julia's body as your body she gave him a choice, either you AND Julia or nobody, I'll be super surprised if he's fought this long to have someone love him then for him to push it away, I'm almost positive he will accept her deal" says Cat
"to be fair Cat it's more that Julia is a lot more like you than Tori appears to be to him" says Jade
"that's because I hide away my giddy side, that's why when I first met Cat and she was all peppy I acted confused but in my head I was all 'aww she's so cute, she's so much like me, there is no way she could swing my way', what Kitty shows on the outside is very much who I am in the inside, society told me to act a certain way, I used to giggle and laugh at the cutest things but people always called me 'the stupid dork' so I hid it away, I never knew what Julia was like till this happened here, sure Trina would tell me stories about things Julia did but it's a whole different story when you have cameras to see it happen in real time, what surprises me the most is how respectful Julia and Ashley are of my body" says Tori
"I totally see your point, while it would be natural for Julia to care as she is careful of what she eats, Ashley is totally the 'ooh this was fun let's do some more' type" says Jade
"I miss Robbie" pouts Tori
"that's not a sentence you hear often, though I do agree, Robbie isn't at all what he looked like he'd have been in high school, especially without Rex, he's loving and caring in bed, not a common trait, most guys are either way too gentlemanly or way too aggressive, Beck was the former, it's the main reason we always fought, Robbie said if we'd asked he'd be a little rougher but he really does care and that is a good thing" says Jade
"where is he anyway" asks Tori
"he got some sort of night security job at a mom and pop tech store that had been robbed recently, he really wants to make money to contribute to the relationship, I guess it helps that the owners daughter is the only other security person there so he's giving her tips and stuff, she apparently is like you and has multiple personalities and was diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder so he's no doubt asking her what he could do in certain situations with his girlfriend as he put it, he has been better but Julia isn't playing ball right now, she hasn't come out in a few days, anyway she should be done his shift soon" says Jade as she cuddles both Tori and Cat
"I think I'm just going to go back to bed, let me know when it's lunchtime" says Tori as she falls asleep
9am as Robbie returns from work
"well Robbie what have you decided" asks Vanessa
"I want to but it just doesn't feel right, before that first time Tori had never shown any interest in me ever" says Robbie
"believe me Robbie it's actually the opposite, Cat just explained to me that Tori acted a certain way to avoid being made fun of, I never understood why she hated her geeky music side, now it all makes sense, she's a lot more like Julia than you think Robbie, you can't just one and done her like that, that's what Danny did, or tried to anyway, she was afraid that if she showed a want for a relationship she was afraid you'd laugh at her and make her the butt of jokes, it may be Julia you're in a relationship with but it's still Tori's body and hormones, Julia is a lot more confident than Tori is, Julia made the move that Tori was deathly afraid to make, wanting it or otherwise" says Trina
"so Tori does want me" asks Robbie
"yes, Julia has no firm control over Tori's body, explaining it another way, Julia just takes advantage of the emotion and drive Tori has but hides, Julia will never disappear as technically Tori was supposed to be a twin and that's where it happened, Julia was Tori's twin but let herself get absorbed by Tori so Tori could live" says Vanessa
"what about Ashley or this new June, will they disappear" asks Robbie
"June is just the result of leftover trauma that Tori is working through and will at some point go away, Ashley is here to stay, Holly's father is the person who caused the trauma that brought Ashley out of the woodwork but he was charged with child endangerment and exploitation but that's literally we know on the subject, we have zero idea of what he made her do to traumatize Tori, she won't speak on the subject, neither will Ashley, I've tried to bring it up a dozen times since I got here and she just wheels away" says Trina as Robbie figures something out
"I think I know, back when she was a student at Cali State she spun a story to me about a little girl who was forced to wear mesh clothes for a fashion guru" says Robbie
"that makes sense, Holly's father was a retired fashion designer, he was forced into early retirement because he'd forced a model to walk the runway in a see-through dress, two weeks later that model had been raped and killed" says Trina
"so then Tori wasn't likely his only victim" asks Robbie
"more than likely there are dozens and dozens more, unfortunately Tori was his first victim, the charges only happened AFTER he was forcibly retired, he went away when she was thirteen and whatever he made her do happened when she was almost six years old, the trauma is too engrained for it to go away" says Trina
"what do I need to know" asks Robbie
"you're off to a good start there, ok so while Julia, Tori and Ashley are all registered with the federal government as different people in one body, Medical professionals don't recognize them period, so if say you were to give Julia a baby, she would be pressed to seek prenatal care but would be denied, they seem to consider D.I.D personalities as non legitimate humans, Julia has been denied headache medicine seven times because of this" says Trina
"is she really as girly as Julia" asks Robbie
"let's just say none of you have seen her real bed, she had dad create a false wall so the real bed where she slept only had a few feet of room around it, the room you all would see when she did projects with you was not her real bed, her real bed was and is beautiful, the last person she showed it to was Danny" says Trina
"I assume he did or said something to cause her to end it with him" asks Robbie
"Bingo, he was a nerdy jock, basically her old dream guy, they'd been dating for four months by that point, she felt comfortable with him, he asked her if he wanted to have sex with him that night, that freaked her out, what she didn't realize at the time was he had planned to pound that cuteness out of her, he told me that bed was childish and he was going to make her realize that" says Trina as Robbie's jaw drops
"wow what a jerk, that explains why she seriously wanted to trust Ryder Daniels" says Robbie
"indeed, she doesn't like believing that if she's 'normal' that people would abuse her talents, her fixation on trying to get Jade to see her as a friend is no coincidence, neither was the whole bird scene thing where she tried to sweet talk you into helping her, that was huge for her, to be honest in my opinion had you not had rex she might have seriously considered you a romantic option" says Trina
"I wasn't actually fond of Rex either but my therapist thought it might help, maybe it helped me but it sure made people not want anything to do with me" says Robbie
"what might surprise you is that Tori has a stuffed pony that she talks to" says Cat as she walks over
"how is she" asks Robbie
"nervous of what you decided, how it will inevitably change her life if you chose to walk away, she calls your hair black gold, I have to admit I agreed with her on that and so did Jade" says Cat
"I'm not walking away, what does that make us then, some kind of poly relationship" asks Robbie
"just know she does love you but you will need to give her some time, also Tori told you any relationship involving her is a Poly relationship, the difference is dating and marrying Tori is legal, Julia could say yes all day long to a marriage proposal and the courts would still block it, Jade is talking with a lawyer so we can find out ahead of time if you and Jade can legally sub in Ashley or Julia as Tori's middle name on the wedding documents, so far the answer seems to be yes but expect that to change" says Cat
"ok, can we all just cuddle her now" asks Robbie as Cat nods yes
