Everything is heavy... cloudy... there is a burning on my cheek, I feel my breath and everything around me fade...
I can hear Grime and Anne's voice, but I don't understand what they say... I can only hear my own thoughts... I can only hear a voice in my head...
I lost?
"It's over Sasha, you're not going to push me again. "
Yes... I lost.
"You're not going to push me again. "
I lost to Anne... I finally lost her... I was finally replaced...
"You're not going to push me again. "
To tell the truth I always saw it coming, I was always waiting for the day that Anne found someone better than me... the day that Anne gets tired of me...
"Sasha please! There has to be another way! "
And there was... if only I had listened to her... but I was upset... upset that those frogs were more important to Anne... but... didn't I do the same? Didn't I prefer to listen to the toads instead of my childhood friend?
"You're not going to push me again. "
It's the only thing I've done right? It's the only thing I've ever done for you... I've never done anything nice for you... I've never listened to you, I've never really cared about you... just... just...
—We gotta get out of here!
The screams return me to reality, between the mist of my eyes I can see how all the toads run, I can hear how the tower collapses.
—Where do you going, you cowards?!
Grime's voice is lost in the distance, it doesn't matter, he doesn't matter... nothing matters anymore...
—Everyone! Come on, get off the roof quick!
Then I feel like the ground above me shakes, I feel like my heart stops, like time stops... and in front of me, I can only see Anne's face, there is fear in her eyes... and I know there is fear in mine too...
—Sasha!
—Anne!
And I fall... in my mind I can only think that this is the end of me... and maybe... this is for the best, maybe, it's better that it ends this way... I've already caused too much trouble...
—Gotcha!
But it's not over, I haven't touched the ground and my right shoulder hurts too much... Anne... did she catch me? Why?
—I've got you Sash! You've gotta be okey-
Her voice breaks and I can feel how we both almost fell, this is not right...
—Can't... hold on... much longer...
The tower continues to succumb to gravity, the sound of screams and explosions is getting louder, why don't you let go of me?
—Don't worry, I got you- Oh!
The tower keeps falling... no... I can't let her die for me, I've already hurt her too much...
—Holl on, kiddo!
They are helping her... Why? Why don't they let me down? If they continue like this everyone will die!
—Hey hey, look at me, look at me! Everything gonna be totally fine! Just hang on!
No... nothing is going to be okay, it never has been... none of this would have happened if it wasn't my fault, she would be home celebrating her birthday if it wasn't my fault... me... just I wanted that day to be special...
—We got you Anne, no matter what!
—Huh guys? I think we have a situation here!
The place they're standing on crumbles, the edge won't last long... the tower won't last long... I can't allow it... I can't let them risk their lives for me...
—Hey Anne...
Her eyes stare at me... the fear is still latent in her eyes, the coffee in them looks so dull... my arm hurts... my shoulder... my cheek... I... I never wanted this, I never wanted this to happen, I just wanted to find her, her and Marcy... I feel so alone without them... I've always felt so alone...
"Wait, do you want to stay? "
They were so different from everyone, when I met them... their smiles were genuine, their words, their looks... they didn't care about my family's money, status... they only cared about me... first time someone cared about who I really was...
"I'm Anne by the way, this is Marcy. "
"Hello... "
But I ruined everything... always ruined everything it touched... from the moment I was born... ruined my mother's body when I came out of her... my father's legacy for being a woman... I ruined Anne and Marcy's lives when they met me, corrupted them, separated them from their families... from birth I was destined to destroy everything around me... even if I tried to do things right... always failed, always ruined everything...
I'm a fool! A fucking stupid! I... the world would be a better place if I didn't exist... Anne... Marcy... they would be happier if I... if I...
—Maybe... you're better off without me...
Tears fall with me as I let go of her hand… I can hear her scream… never mind… it'll just be temporary, I'll be a bad memory for a while but in the end she'll be happy, she'll find Marcy and they'll both come home, they'll come back to their normal lives without me bothering them, everything will be fine...
—NO!
I feel... I feel a force on my wrist... I... What is happening?...
—I'm not going to let you go!
I open my eyes and Anne's face is once again in front of me... What is she doing?
—What are you doing?! Let go of me at once! Let me fall or you will die!
—NO!
Her voice breaks... Why? Why are she trying so hard? My life is worthless...
—I'm not going to listen to you! No more! I'll do whatever the hell I want! You are not the one to tell me what to do!
I can see a gleam in her eyes… a blue gleam… and before I can say anything else, before I can let go again… I feel my body being thrown hard… not down... up, I can see the sky for a few seconds, I can see how the red moon of this strange world throbs with intensity... then I fall again, not on the ground, not on rock, on something warm and soft... in Anne.
—I did it...
She gasps, her body shaking with me on top of her... I can feel her arms wrap around me tightly... I can hear her laugh... her laugh...
—Anne...
Why she save me? Don't she realize she'd be better off without me?! She would be happier without me! Why are she laughing?! Why is...
—Dump... dump...
And now she's crying... she's crying while she's laughing... Why?
—You dumb!
She hugs me tighter... she...
—Would I be better off without you?! What stupidity is that?!
—I...
And she cries again... I can't move, I don't know what to say, did she really care?... Why?... Why?... I thought she finally found something better than me, that she don't need me anymore...
—Anne...
—Shut up! Shut up! Just... shut up...
And that's what I do... she keeps crying, the frogs were watching me behind her, the pink one wants to get closer, but the old frog doesn't allow it.
—You are stupid... damned... I-I wouldn't be better off without you... never... never...
She cries harder now... her words become incoherent... and I... I'm crying too... I can't help it... as much as I want to, I can't help it...
—Sorry... I so sorry...
It's the only thing I can say as I hug her back... it's the only thing I can do for the rest of my life... apologize... maybe I can start there... maybe... that's the only one way to pay for what I have done... but for now nothing matters... the only thing that matters is that she is there... that I am with her... the only thing that matters is what I could have lost...
Another of my works published on Wattpad and Ao3, as the summary says, in general they are just short stories that occur to me at random, you have 7 so far, for I already have some new ideas. Anyway, I hope you like these stories, although they are mostly funny and even a little hilarious, there will be some very strong and deep ones along the way. I only ask that you please comment on what you think, since that helps me a lot to improve my work.