So... there isn't really much to say about this one except Beast Boy is going to be playing a more important role than I originally planned.

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Beast Boy's POV

I knew I wasn't supposed to be doing this. Going into Robin's office.

It was an unspoken taboo in the team. Messing through his stuff. Instead we just tried to preserve what was left of him, just leave it alone so that every time we walked by we could pretend that Robin was still living here, and was going to come back to use it any minute.

Well, they did. I didn't though. I didn't want to live in denial. And I don't think my anger would let me live that way if I wanted to.

I felt my eyes drifting throughout the hall, trying to make sure nobody was around. I then did the same thing with the room as I stepped inside.

So here's where he used to study all the time, I thought. It sure was dusty.

The first thing I noticed was the paper clippings cluttering the walls. Article after article about villains ranging from Mumbo to… Slade.

I walked over to his desk that sat in the middle of the room. Surprisingly enough I couldn't find a chair for him to have sat in. Don't know why he chose to torture himself that way.

Then again, I didn't understand any of his choices.

I sighed thinking about the conversation we had after our second battle with him -or our first real one depends on how you view it.

"Nope. Nothing there." Cyborg said with a sigh.

"Can I please take all these wires off?" I asked, annoyed.

"No! You are wrong! Something is in there! Something that is the vile, that forced friend Robin to leave us!" She yelled, angrily. "I was the one who was the close to him. He held me! He told me he was the sorry when he was forced to use the blaster on me!

"Star, with the state you were in you could've just been imagining things." Cyborg told her gently "It probably had nothing to do with him."

"Then what did happen?" I prompted,

Raven furrowed "We were orange… Starfire's orange… her powers are driven by emotion… She's taking this worse than all of us...

"Starfire, do you have some power that you never mentioned to us?"

"No." The Alien girl said "My people have the starbolts, flight, superstrength, and that's about it. Unless there's another of the powers that I am unaware of, it could not have been me."

"Raven, your powers are emotion based too, right?" I reminded her.

"Fair enough. Many of my powers are a mystery to even me." She admitted "But most of my magic is black. And I don't think I have that kind of a power."

"Whatever the reason was, hopefully it was a one time thing." Cyborg reasoned. "We already have enough problems as it is.

"I don't think you two should be fighting him though. Rae, you have a lot of chances of losing control. And Star… Well I highly doubt you even can fight him, considering your emotional state."

"Good point, but are you sure you and Beast Boy can do it alone?" Raven said "He knows our weaknesses. He's bound to exploit them."

"We'll be fine." Cyborg reassured her. "And if we need your help, we'll be sure to call you girls up."

"Why are you even considering doing the fighting of Friend Robin? We should be trying to figure out why he is forced to be the Apprentice to that zigthrorf Slade!" Starfire yelled at all of us.

"Raven" She said, turning towards the other girl "You have the power to sense the emotion, do you not? What did you feel from Friend Robin?!"

"I wasn't really trying to sense anything." The Empath admitted "I was too busy trying to control my own emotions. Besides there were a lot of emotions during our fights, and I couldn't pin down whose was whose."

"Well then we should just try to find a way for you and him to be alone long enough for you to get the emotions under control and focus on his." Starfire proposed.

"That probably wouldn't work either." Raven said "He's always been pretty closed off about his feelings. I suspect he was trained on how to keep them from Telepaths, which likely went over to Empaths like me. Star was the one who nearly found out about Red X, not me.

"Damn it, he might not even be doing this on purpose. It could just be a subconscious thing he does."

"Look Star, I don't think we should even be trying to figure out what happened." Cyborg said "Robin's dead. He was probably consumed by his demons. We should probably just tell ourselves that was what actually happened. Pretend that Slade's Apprentice and Robin are completely different people."

"The rest of us are not going to listen to your plan of worthlessness! We will save friend Robin!" Starfire proclaimed. "Right, friends Beast Boy and Raven?"

We both remained silent.

"So you are going to do the sitting by and watching as Friend Robin is suffering?! Klorbagbarglerelfs! Klorbagbarglerelfs all of you!" She screamed while storming out.

Cyborg tried to go after her, but Raven stopped him.

"She just needs some time to think things over" She told him. "We all do."

And that was the end of that conversation.

But "thinking things over" didn't really help solve much. We had still been betrayed. Nothing could change that.

However there was one new development: The Public had made up a new name for him: Renegade.

This name helped Cyborg and Raven with separating the current him from the one in their memory.

Starfire refused to use it though. Said that to call him it was bullying or something like that.

I didn't want to call him it either, albeit for different reasons.

It seemed like all of the team was coping differently.

Cyborg and Raven's approach was fairly similar. They were both pretending that Robin had been killed by Renegade, in a blind need to preserve his memory.

I swore they were going to collect his costumes, put them in a casket, and hold an actual fucking funral for him.

But I'm not sure how much they were able to actually believe the pretty white lie they told themselves.

Sometimes I'd walk past their respective rooms, and eavesdrop on them.

Cyborg and Robin had been best friends, basically brothers. Despite sometimes getting into arguments they would usually just be found spending quality time together, playing video games, playing basketball, or whatever.

There was a reason he was second in command. Besides being the oldest I mean.

Cyborg seemed to blame himself, actually talking to himself about how he should have intervened. That rather than push Robin away with distrust after Red X, he should have been trying to talk to Robin about how dangerous his obsession with Slade was.

He tried to hide it when around us though. He was the leader now, and therefore had to put the others' grief before his own.

Raven was having a hard time coming to grips with it all too. Robin was the first one to accept her, and the two had become somewhat protective over each other.

Oddly enough even though Cyborg was second in command Raven was still the person who he'd turn to when in need of advice.

As expected Raven's control over her powers was slipping. She would frequently slip up and accidentally destroy a waffle, plant or something small like that.

She always meditated a lot, but nowadays it was sometimes for hours at a time. But even then she still often ended up in her room sobbing.

It was a miracle that she hadn't lost control yet in the few times that she'd fought him.

However to no one's surprise Star was taking it the hardest.

It wasn't a surprise. Before he'd left Starfire had the biggest crush on him. Whether he returned it was harder to figure out, but for her sake we all hoped that they were going to be the next big power couple.

Everytime anyone even just mentioned the idea of taking Robin to jail -or honestly Robin in general- , she lost her cool. She screamed names at us, telling us that we should feel ashamed for betraying Robin like that.

It often got so far that she even threatened us if we tried.

Luckily I don't think she would actually go through with it since during the few battles we let her in she did try to defend us.

But still…

She hadn't flown since he'd left. Which wouldn't be such a big deal as it was to be expected in such a situation, except for the conversation I'd had with her about it.

"So… you think your flight is coming back anytime soon?" It was a random question and I already knew the answer but I figured it couldn't hurt to ask.

"Never." She answered

"Never?" I responded, confused. "What do you mean never?! The emotional effects can't be that bad!"

"Well if they do then I am the oyudoyab. The unforgivable" She told me "I am already the bad friend, but for now perhaps I may do the redeeming of myself."

"Star, you didn't do anything wrong! He's the one who betrayed you not the other way around!" I tried to reason with her.

"He is not the traitor! We are the sinful ones for even considering such a thing!" Star yelled before storming out.

That's how I learned that she not only blamed us, but herself.

Honesty just in general none of her powers worked anymore. I don't know why we'd even let Starfire in on a fight against Robin once, leave alone four.

I can't say I blame Star for her intense emotional reaction, the boy she loved had just stabbed her in the back.

None of this was any of theirs fault. It was Robins.

I agreed with Star in some aspects. Renegade and Robin were the same person, and Cyborg and Raven needed to stop pretending otherwise.

But I disagreed with basically everything else.

A few days ago the anniversary of the day we'd formed as a team had come. I'd counted every day until then.

I counted because it was more than the anniversary of us as a team, but the anniversary of the day that I met the people who had become my family.

Yes, we were a family. All of us had grown close and attached to each other. We'd all developed defensiveness over one another.

None of us really had anyone when we'd first met. We were all estranged from our families.

Damn it, I don't think a majority of us knew much about each other's pasts. We kind of just collected info as we went.

I don't know much about Cyborg and Raven's stories -mostly that something happened to make Cy half robot, and that Raven has weird powers and a mirror that lead to her mind.

We all thought we knew most of Starfire's story when we saved her from slavery. That she was from Tamaran and been a slave and all that, but considering we didn't know she had a sister until Blackfire visited there could be more.

When we'd first formed me and Cyborg had been curious about what happened between Robin and his father. -I mean Batman was a legend, and most of what everyone knew about Robin was linked to him- but every time we brought it up, he got all defensive so we stopped.

While I told them that I used to be a member of the Doom Patrol when we'd first met, in the chaos I think that they all forgot about it.

I never brought it up again since I really wanted to forget about everything that had happened.

Besides none of our estranged family mattered. Not really at least. We all had each other now.

But Robin had betrayed that.

He'd left us for Slade. Betrayed us for our worst enemy.

He didn't have the right to do that, to betray us, to double cross us, to stab us in the back

And still get sympathy.

It killed me to watch them all suffer because of his actions.

Didn't he understand what he'd done? That he was breaking us apart?

I had so many questions but no answers.

How long had he been working for Slade? Was it from the beginning? Did he start somewhere around the Red X incident? Or had he only joined right before the big reveal?

Why had he joined the enemy? For Power? Money? Status?

Just how much lies had he told us? Even just small ones? I mean we had already learned that he'd been hiding the full extent of Doctor Light's crimes for years, who knew what else?

Did he still have a soft spot for Star and was sorry for hurting her with the blaster like she claimed he did? Did he have any regrets about what he did?

Not that the last one really mattered, it wouldn't make it ok. I was just curious.

I needed to make sense of it all. I had to prove to the others that he wasn't the same boy we thought he was. May have never been.

I noticed a Slade mask laying on his desk and narrowed my eyes.

I would find out why he'd done all this.

I'd prove to the others that he wasn't worthy of their sympathy nor was his choices their fault.

I'd make sure he answered for his crimes.

Just as I was making my vows, the crime alert went off.

I ran into the main room to see Cyborg looking at the computer screen. He turned towards me and the girls, who had gathered here too.

"It's Renegade." He informed us.

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