This is so hard for me write, but it is even harder living through each day knowing that you are all out there somewhere. Why, Alice? Why did you leave so suddenly? I thought that after all the things we've been through, you'd at least say goodbye. I don't want to lose our friendship, even if Edward and I no longer… work out. Please call me, at least let me know if your family is alright. I miss you.

Bella

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"What do you want for dinner today Dad?" Bella laid down a plate of pancakes for her father.

"Oh, actually Bella. I'm going over to Billy's to fish tonight. You should join us." Charlie smiled, sitting down at the table "You never know, you might catch something big."

Bella shook her head, "As appealing as that sounds, I think I will pass. I have a group project with the girls in my school, so I think that I'll invite them over tonight or I'll go over to one of their houses."

Charlie nodded, "Sounds good to me Bella, order some pizza or something. Whatever you like." They both ate in companionable silence.

Bella rose and they ate and placed the dishes in the sink. Charlie uncharacteristically rose and gave her a hug. "I'm proud of you Bella."

Bella laughed uncomfortably. "Whatever for? It's not like I'm out their taking names or something."

Charlie just grunted and picked up his hat. "Have a nice day at school Bella."

"You too Dad." Bella waited until she heard Charlies police cruiser rumble out the block before she collapsed in her chair. Making Charlie happy is exhausting. It had been a couple weeks since the Cullen's up and disappeared, and the town had yet to stop talking about it. The burden to smile and act like she didn't care was eating at her soul, and if she were any lesser person, she would be up in her room right now staring at her wall. But she had other ways to deal with her pain. God, I want to stop feeling.

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"Bella, what are you doing out here so early on a Saturday?"

Bella sighed, popping her head up over the dashboard to see her father already dressed for work. "Nothing much Dad, just taking out this stereo actually." Bella couldn't believe her bad luck, couldn't she have a private moment to herself, and rip out a stereo?

"And why are you taking out the stereo in your truck?"

Bella's face twisted into the oddest expression. "I don't know," she whispered to herself.

"What was that?" Her father came around to the driver's side, leaning on the door.

"I just don't like it. I'm going to go try and get the old one back in, that's all." Bella explained, letting her hair fall over her face.

Charlie seemed to appraise her. "Alright Bella, I'll be home around five."

"Great, see you then." Bella turned back to her task, wrenching another red wire from the mess that was the stereo.

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"What the hell are you doing Swan?" Leah hissed from the shadows. Leah watched as Bella all but hurled a busted up radio system from her truck. The stereo burst in pieces after making contact with the concrete, and Leah watched as Bella's face turned stone cold as her father drove away from her sight.

Bella hopped out from her truck, threw the remaining pieces of the stereo into the back of her truck, and promptly drove off.

"What the hell?"

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Are you even getting my emails? I haven't gotten a failure notice so until I do I will keep emailing you in the hopes that you'll respond back. Edward must have deleted his account because my emails are getting sent right back. Please call me Alice, you're my best friend. Don't leave me to be alone. Even if we can only email or call, I'm ok with that. Just don't cut me out. I tore out the stereo your family gave me today. I couldn't stand looking at it every day, it just reminds me that it's still here while you and Ed- your brother aren't. There is just an empty hole there now, I think its fitting. I couldn't actually get rid of it, so it's in the back of my truck. I don't know what to do Alice. I want to keep Charlie happy but I'm just so miserable. This is my eighth email, please respond.-Bella