I HAVE SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT TO TELL YOU ALL!
OKAY SO BASICALLY...remember how in the first chapter I said that this fic goes with the anime? Well after the official announcement stating that the second season wasn't going to be coming out until April 2017 (I high-key cried because they've been playing with my feelings)...I couldn't wait. So I've now caught up with the Manga which means...once the first season ends then THIS fic will be following the manga!
So if you've read the manga then I guess you're in the clear?
If you haven't then I suggest reading it?
But if you don't want to, but still wanna read this fic without spoilers then I will see you next year! :D
I was in my room getting ready to go to sleep until I heard a knock at the door.
"Come in." I heard the door open behind me and close. Whoever it was did not move from their spot in front of my door. I turned around and saw Levi standing there with his trademark expression. "What do you want?"
"I just wanted to go over our plans for the expedition tomorrow." He said.
"No you don't. We already discussed it, so why are you really here?" I asked. He stood there silently. I could tell that he was trying to figure out what he was going to say. "I don't have all night Levi."
"Just don't get yourself killed out there tomorrow." I sighed and turned away from him.
"I'll do my best. Goodnight." However, I never heard Levi leave. I looked over my shoulder and saw him leaning up against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest. "Seriously, Levi, what do you want?"
"I already told you what I want."
"Then why are you still here?" He looked around my room until he finally looked at me.
"I'm not going to be there tomorrow if we catch this 'Titan' and I want you to make sure you'll stay alive."
"I will."
"Do you promise?"
"You have to breathe in and out for me, okay Ryder?" All I saw was Levi's face with an addition of an abundance of pain.
"It hurts!" I screamed. As I looked at Levi I noticed that this was the first time in a long time that he showed how scared he really was on the outside.
"We have to get you out of here." He said to me. I was lying on the ground looking up at his face. He hovered over me as his hands checked the sides of my body.
"But it hurts, Levi. It really really hurts!" I screamed in his face. I bit my lower lip and my head pressed itself against the cool grass form the pain in my abdomen.
"But I can't leave you here, Ryder. I need to get you back to everyone, so we can fix you up." He tried to stay calm for my sake, but he also knew that I was running out of time. I was losing too much blood in such a short amount of time.
"Leave me! Leave me here! Save yourself!"
"No! I will not let you die!" He yelled at me. I saw his eyes glass over with a wall of tears that refused to fall.
"You told me not to let those who die affect me, remember? So leave me here!" I screeched.
"You're the only exception to that rule, damn it!"
"Then what are we doing?"
"We're getting you on my horse!" And before I could protest a screeching scream came from my lips as Levi picked me up bridal style. It took him no time for him to place me on the horse. He got on behind me and quickly wrapped his arms around me to not only grab the reins, but to also make sure that I didn't fall. I continued to scream in pain as we rode back to where everyone was meeting.
"There's Ryder and Levi!"
"What happened?"
"Quickly, grab Ryder!" Levi yelled to everyone as he swung himself off the horse. I fell off the horse, but luckily, Levi caught me just in time. He carried me over to the cart and lied me down.
"Captain Levi, we need to have a look at her." For some strange reason I hadn't lost consciousness yet, so I took that opportunity to look around me. Levi sat by my left side as one of the trained doctors lifted up my shirt and began to assess the damage.
"What's wrong?"
"We need to get her back inside the walls immediately."
"Or what?" The doctor didn't answer. "Or what?" Levi raised his voice again and the doctor lowered his head slightly.
"Or she won't make it." Levi quickly hovered over me again and took my hand in his.
"You're not dying on me, you got it?"
"Levi…"
"Promise me! Promise me that you won't die! Promise me that you won't leave me!"
"Levi…"
"Promise!"
"I promise." And then I felt it hit me like a ton of bricks. My head suddenly felt extremely light and my eyelids became very heavy. My sight began to blur as I closed my eyes.
"I need you Ryder. Don't leave me."
"I haven't broken my promise yet, have I?" I asked him.
"No, but there's been too many times where-"
"Where I almost have, I know. I can't give you the satisfaction of me dying."
"Can you not say things like that?" I gave him a curious look.
"What?"
"You know I don't want you dead."
"It was a joke-"
"Well maybe you shouldn't joke about your death." He snapped back at me.
"You'd just get over it, like you do with everyone else's." I pointed out.
"You're wrong." He said so quietly that it was almost not audible.
"Am I now?"
"Yes, you are and you know why you can't die before me."
"You'll be fine without me, Levi, I'm no one important-"
"Shut up!" Levi rarely raises his voice, but when he does it's so powerful that it can shut anyone up. I stared at him as he walked over to me. His eyes darted to my lips and back up to meet my eyes. He brought his face closer to mine. I felt the sides of our noses touch and his breath lingering on my lips.
"Levi…" I whispered.
"I thought this is what you wanted."
"I want you to say it."
"I…I can't." My hands reached up to his chest as I tried to push him away. He wrapped his arm around my waist and kept me close to his body.
"I want you to say it, Levi." I said.
"I can't."
"Then what're you even doing here?" I yelled at him. It stayed silent between us. I felt the tears threatening to fall, but I swallowed the lump in my throat. I grabbed fistfuls of his shirt. I felt my knees go weak from the heartache. We both fell to our knees, but Levi placed a hand on top of my head and placed my face in his chest.
"I'm sorry." He whispered.
"That isn't what I want to hear." I said.
"I'm sorry." He whispered again. I felt my tears let loose and fall onto his shirt. His arms tightened around my body – to help me stop from shaking. "I'm sorry."
I hope you enjoyed the chapter! This was one of the first parts I fell in love with when writing it...always made my heart hurt for these two.