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"Thank you, Finna." He said as he entered the room. Then he sat close to Morgana. She was still asleep and he could read a lot of pain on her face.
"It wasn't easy. Her magic is strong and I had to cast some spells to keep her asleep." Finna added as she noticed his attention was directed towards the form besides him. He didn't turn to Finna instead he kept staring at Morgana's sleepy features. Despite everything she had been through she was still beautiful…not that it mattered at that moment.
"I don't know how long it would last" he said referring to the spell he was about to cast upon the witch. "I've done that before, but I don't know how long will it take to her to recover her powers…..But I know it had made Sarrum's work much easier. " As Finna didn't say a word he continued "After I had taken her powers she was caught by Sarrum, one of the cruelest man that could possibly exist. She had been his prisoner for over two years."
For a moment it was deep silence, then she decided to change the topic. "Will it affect me?" She asked referring to the burning figurine.
"I think you shouldn't spend the night here." He replayed. He did not feel like talking. "I will come back and replace it as soon as I can. We will have to replace it frequently until we find a way to make it permanent." He had been about the go when he remembered that he had brought something for her. "I've brought you food. It's not much but…"
"Thank you, My Lord." He put a smile on his face and then his face brightened instantly as an idea crossed his mind. He bent and took the necklace around Morgana's neck.
"If I were find a way to enchant it, I will be able to take her powers away for good, at least as long she wears it." he turned only to find such flabbergasted eyes watching him. "It's strange" he started, but words did not come easily. "Well, I don't know what to do. Killing her is…well, the easiest way…at least it seems easy. It might put an end to all bloodshed and hatred, but I doubt it. I thought it had ended long ago…when I killed Nimueh, but it was only the beginning." He raised his eyes so he could see Finna's reaction. "Maybe I'm wrong. It will end it. I must consider it."
He couldn't go on and Finna didn't want to bother him with her questions. She felt that there was more than it could reach the eye, but still she couldn't understand why he was willing to show mercy to Morgana. Merlin guessed her though and answered after a while.
"She wasn't always like that. She was kind and sweet. She used to be my friend. I knew about her powers. I tried to help her, but I didn't do the only thing I could have done: tell her she is not alone. Eventually she found support somewhere else…she relayed on the wrong person."
"It must have been hard on you. Now I see why. Don't blame yourself. Everybody has a choice to make, she made her own and it was nothing you could have done to change it. imagine what would have happened should she knew about your powers…"
"Even though…" he cut her "I can't kill her and if that makes me weak then I'm weak. I can't either set her free, I have other friends to protect. I wish I knew what to do. I don't want her to suffer anymore. If I'll have to kill her, I want it to be as less painful as possible. She has had enough till now…"
"You have a good heart" She exclaimed, but she was shocked by his harsh tone.
"No, Finna. There is darkness and hatred there and sometimes I not even recognize myself" Then he lowered his voice "Please, give me some time. There are so many things that I need to figure out. However, What I know for certain is that death is permanent." He didn't wait for her answer. Merlin fled before Finna was able to say a word. Next to her, Morgana was sleeping peacefully. She was still a kid deep down….
As he listened to Gaius, Merlin felt his heart heavy. He watched the necklace while his mind was hunted by fears and doubts. If only he knew what to do…..