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Chapter Fifteen: It's not PDA if There's No One Around to See It

Holy fuck. That was pretty much the only thing running through Remus's head. Sirius was kissing him, and it was unbelievable. There was nothing, just Remus and Sirius. That was all that mattered. Remus and Sirius, Sirius and Remus, in one long, passionate, unbroken kiss.

Remus's back was still pressed against the wall, his arms up around Sirius's neck. Sirius, who was at least a head taller, stood over him, leaning down to connect them, his hands resting dangerously low on Remus's waist, pulling him in and holding him close.

Remus had lost all sense of time since he left the dorm that morning. He had no idea how long he had been in the library before Sirius showed up, and he had no idea how long he and Sirius had been making out. It didn't matter, though. He didn't care if he missed breakfast or class or anything, as long as Sirius was there.

"Mr. Black!" exclaimed an angry voice.

Remus felt Sirius stiffen. He pulled away, but didn't turn around.

"Just what do you think you're doing in my library," Madam Pince spluttered angrily. "And who is that with you?"

Sirius turned around slowly, a smirk on his face. "Oh, hello, Madam Pince," he said smoothly. "How're you doing this fine morning?"

"Detention, Black," she said. "You too, Lupin."

Sirius groaned loudly. "Why?"

"Because," she said, still frowning severely, "you were in the library before it opened, and you were displaying exceptionally inappropriate public displays of affection."

"It's not PDA if there's no one around to see it," muttered Sirius.

"Be that as it may, you were still here before it opened. It is currently 6:57, and the library opens at precisely 6:00 am. I did not see you come in, so you therefore came in before I arrived. And, judging by your-" she gestured vaguely at them "-appearance, I think it's safe to assume that you've been here for quite some time."

"Ugh, fine," Sirius groaned.

"5:00 pm tonight," she said. "with Professor McGonagall. Both of you."

Remus was absolutely mortified. He was trying not to panic. Sirius clearly noticed, and gently grabbed his hand. He nodded to Madam Pince and led him to the bathroom.

"Hey, it's ok," he said softly. "I've got you. Can you hear my voice?" Remus nodded jerkily. "Ok, good. Try to listen to my voice. Focus on what I'm saying."

He kept talking, rubbing small circles on the back of Remus's hand as he did. Soon, Remus calmed down. A tear ran down his cheek. Sirius wiped it away gently, then pressed a chaste kiss to Remus's lips. "I've got you," he said, pulling Remus into a hug.

They stood there for a few minutes, Remus crying softly into Sirius's chest. Sirius stroked his boyfriend's hair, comforting him. Fuck, he couldn't believe he could call Remus his boyfriend. He had dreamed of this for years, but had never thought he would be able to.

Soon, Remus stopped crying, and Sirius just held him. A few more minutes passed, and then stepped back. Sirius smiled softly at him, then reached out and wiped away Remus's tears. Remus stood on tip-toes and kissed him. "I fucking love you," he whispered.

"I love you too," Sirius whispered back. "You want to head to breakfast? James and Peter will probably be there pretty soon."

Remus shrugged. He didn't particularly feel like eating.

Sirius clearly noticed. "Ok, let's go," he said.

He grabbed Remus's hand, and together they walked out of the bathroom and towards the Great Hall. Remus smiled, still unable to believe that he was holding Sirius's hand, walking with him, able to call him his boyfriend.

"You know," Sirius said thoughtfully, "that's my hoodie."

"Is it?" asked Remus in mock surprise.

"Yes, you idiot. You stole it from me last year. When we were in Hogsmeade."

"To be fair," Remus laughed, "you gave it to me."

"I did not!"

"Yes, you did. I was cold and you gave it to me."

Sirius frowned. "You didn't give it back, though."

Remus shrugged. "You didn't ask for it."

"You're such an asshole," Sirius laughed.

He stopped, spun Remus around, and kissed him. Remus was surprised for a minute, but quickly melted into the kiss. He was sure that there was nothing he enjoyed more than kissing Sirius.

Remus laughed, stepping away from Sirius. "You can't win every argument just by kissing me, Black."

"Oh really?" Sirius asked. "Is that a challenge?"

He moved suddenly, pushing Remus against the wall of the corridor and kissed him deeply. Remus returned it with equal passion and enthusiasm, wrapping his arms around Sirius's neck.

"Do I win?" Sirius asked breathlessly, a few minutes later.

Remus laughed, equally breathless. "Alright, fine. I stole the hoodie. But you still can't have it back."

Sirius pouted playfully. "Please?"

"Nope! You should have thought of that before you gave it to me."

"I didn't peg you as a hoodie thief, though," Sirius whined.

"Oh, be quiet," Remus laughed. "If I kiss you again, will you stop complaining?"

Sirius perked up at that. "Please?"

Laughing, Remus pulled Sirius back down and kissed him. They stood there, alone in the corridor, for a few minutes. Remus was pretty sure that his brain had short-circuited a while ago. All he could process was something along the lines of "holy fuck, he's kissing me." And honestly, he was totally fine with that.

Eventually, Remus said, "We should probably head to breakfast. James and Peter will be wondering where we are."

Sirius sighed, then nodded. He took Remus's hand, and they walked slowly to breakfast together. Sirius couldn't help the massive grin on his face. He was so unbelievably happy to have Remus by his side, to call him his boyfriend.

The pair slid onto the long bench, at the end of the Gryffindor table. James and Peter were opposite them, and James was in the middle of bothering Lily.

"For the last time, would you please fuck off?" she asked.

"Evans, please. Just one date?"

"I would rather date the Giant Squid," she said firmly.

James sighed loudly, putting his head down on the table. Peter patted his back in some form of fake sympathy.

Lily turned to Remus, grinning slightly when she saw Remus and Sirius' joined hands. She raised her eyebrow, and Remus nodded, smiling slightly. "Morning, Remus!" she said brightly.

James jerked up. "What? Since when are you friends with Evans, Remy?"

Remus shrugged. "A while, I guess. I'm not sure."

James looked back and forth between Remus and Lily, the disbelief evident on his face. "Why? Why are you friends with him, Evans? I thought you hated us."

"Because," Lily said, "unlike you, Remus isn't an unbelievably conceited asshole, and is actually a very nice person."

James looked accusingly at Remus. "And you never thought to tell me that you're friends with her?"

Remus shrugged again. "It never came up. And don't even think about trying to use me to get with her. It won't work."

Under the table, Sirius took hold of Remus's hand again, squeezing gently. He wanted nothing more than to lean over and kiss him. But Remus would probably murder him, and not getting murdered by his new boyfriend was pretty high on Sirius's list of priorities.

Instead, he decided to change the subject. "You know who's a complete bitch?" he asked. "Madam Pince."

"Why? What did you do this time?" Peter asked.

"She gave me and Remy detention. With McGonagall."

"Holy shit," James whistled. "Remy? Getting detention? What'd you do?"

Remus quickly looked at Sirius, trying to signal with his eyes. He was not ready to come out to James and Peter and anyone else who might overhear. Luckily, Sirius noticed and understood.

"We snuck into the library before it opened. She caught us, and wasn't very happy," said Sirius.

"Why the hell would you be in the library so early?" James asked.

"Remus and I both happened to wake up early, and Remus needed to look something up, so I graciously volunteered to go with him."

"Beats me why you would ever need to work that early, but whatever." James shrugged.

"Anyway," said Peter, "does anyone understand what's going on in Transfiguration? Because we have it first period, and I don't get it."

James nodded, launching into some complicated explanation. Sirius turned to Remus. "You have no idea how badly I want to kiss you right now," he whispered.

Remus grinned. "Later," he said.

"Promise?"

"I promise."

A/N:

have some nice wolfstar fluff 3
also all of your reactions the last chapter were pure gold

my friend and i crashed a cast party last night and it was cool bc it's the first party i've ever been at where i'm not incredibly anxious. i think it was because it was almost entirely freshman/underclassmen, and i'm a senior. it was cool. i played some just dance, which i have never been able to do before because of anxiety. not very good at it, but still fun. because i'm gay as fuck, even tho i don't listen to any pop anymore, i danced to baby one more time and california gurls

stay safe, take care of yourselves, drink some water, and say out loud something that you like about yourself 3

ktf xolyn