Blinders Off
Chapter 9
"We're doing this." Brooke announced. Looking to Lucas.
"No we aren't. We've gone through this before. Got our hopes up. Just for nothing to end up the way we planned. We can't take this girl's word for anything of substance. We don't know what she's involved.? Who the father of that child is.? If he signed away his parental rights.? You are jumping head first into this only seeing what you want to see." Lucas replied.
"So what.? Is that so wrong. She's offering us a chance to be parents. Without having to jump through hoops and home visits and guidelines. Two babies. We've waited for this for so long."
"Yes i'm being positive and hopeful because for the first time in many years. I see a light at the end of the heartbreak and loss. A fresh start. Two sons. I'm in. I'm ready. It's on you to decide and figure out if you are ready or not for this life changing event to happen." Brooke stated.
"You don't think i want this to happen.? I have that empty room in my house that i had emptied when the last adoption fell through years ago. The thought of being able to bring new life into that room. Means everything to me. But before we get too attached to this idea. We need to figure out what's going between us." Lucas replied.
Brooke swallowed hard. "I'm unsure what you're talking about." She said. Looking away from him.
"You know what i'm talking about. You asked me what happened to us. Why i don't love you anymore. I replied honestly and said i loved still then and now. You said you loved me too. Then fell asleep."
"Are you honestly saying you don't remember any of that.?" Lucas questioned.
Brooke could barely meet his gaze as she answered.
"Of course i do. I don't throw around the word i love you to just know it's hard for me. Being open. Vunerable. Especially when it comes to you." Brooke admitted.
"It's not exactly easy for me either. I'm afraid of getting hurt and having my heart broken. I'm not as tough and un affected as i seem to be on the surface." Lucas stated.
"Why are you bringing this up now.?" Brooke asked.
"I haven't been able to stop thinking about that night. You. Us." Lucas revealed.
Brooke felt her mouth go dry. "I thought you made it clear when we ended that we couldn't go back. It was for the best that we moved on." She replied.
"Self preservation. I had to protect myself." Lucas said.
"From what.?" Brooke asked. Grabbing ahold of his hands in hers.
The two had left the cafe and found their way to Lucas's home.
"You. You make me feeling . Peace. Happiness. Passion. Safe. Freedom to let go. Putting up walls was the only way i survived losing you." Lucas confessed.
"I have missed you every day since i moved out all those years ago. I had to lock it away. How much i loved you. How without you. A huge part of my life and reality didn't make sense. I want to come home. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. My heart is yours. I'm sorry for losing faith in us. I want to come home." Brooke declared. The emotion in her voice thick.
Lucas caressed her face with his hand. Pulled her into a kiss.
She kissed him back. Pulling him closer to her.
Their hands explored each other's bodies carefully.
When he undid her ponytail and her dark hair cascaded down her back. He ran his fingers through it.
He leaned over kissing him neck. Biting down softly.
Brooke shut her eyes pulling him closer. Her hands underneath his shirt. Digging her nails into his back.
"Lucas." She moaned into his ear breathlessly.
They fit together. Knew where to kiss and touch each other. Without having to say a word.
Lucas knew they needed to stop this before they got side tracked.
"Before you and I agree to anything we need to make sure this is legit in every way." Lucas proclaimed.
"Okay. That's fair and understandable. You meet with Haley and I'll meet with Sam on my own." Brooke decided. Kissing him again as she made her way out the door.
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