I made Kelly and I breakfast that morning. He was cleaning the dishes and I was drinking my coffee."So I think I want to go to my condo today."

"You sure?"

"Yeah I need to deal with it at some point."

"Alright we can head over there once I am done with the dishes."

Kelly finished up the dishes and then we both put a clean set of clothes on and headed out the door. It was a quiet ride over to my condo. I looked up at the building wondering if I was truly ready for this.

Kelly parked in the parking garage and then we made our way to the elevator and made our way up to my condo.

We stepped off the elevator and walked to my door. I stopped and stared at the lock. My hands shaking.

"Taylor we don't have to do this today."

"I need to do this." I unlocked the door and pushed it open. We stepped inside the apartment. I can tell Kelly had talked the guys into coming over here and cleaning up a bit.

I started to walk through the condo. I walked into the bathroom and just stared at the bathtub. Flashbacks of the night I had decided to end it all playing in my head

I started to cry. Kelly came up and wrapped his arms around me. "Hey shhh it's okay. I'm here."

"How could I be so selfish?" I was sobbing.

"Hey no don't do that. You were hurting. You have been through so much. And you felt like there was no end."

I turned around and buried my face into Kelly's chest. "I don't know if I want to live here anymore."

"Then move in with me."

I pulled back a little so I could look up at Kelly. "Really? It's not to much to fast?"

"Taylor I've already told you. I'm not letting you slip away again." Kelly placed a kiss on my forehead. "I can get the guys to come over and help pack your stuff on our next day off."

"Thank you Kelly." We walked out the bathroom.

Kelly pointed to another door. "What's in there?"

"It was suppose to be Victoria's room." I walked over to the door and turned the handle. I pushed the door open and stepped inside. I flipped on the light.

I had set up the room as thought she was still alive. Kelly had followed me into her room. "I had bought her new furniture for her new room. I completely forgot till the delivery guys showed up."

I started to walk around her room and look at all of her things. I came across her ballet slippers. I picked them up and held them.

"Can you tell me about her?"

"Of course." I sat down in the middle of her room still holding the slippers. Kelly came and joined me on the floor.

I told him all about her love for dance and gymnastics. Her corney jokes. Her outgoing larger than life personality. Talking about her honestly helped. Sharing my memories of her helped feel like she was still around. And that's what we did for the rest of the day. I told Kelly all the stories I could of Victoria. So he could know about his daughter. We cried. We laughed. But it was very much needed.

Kelly and I had been together for a little over 5 weeks now. Things were pretty great. I was even back in the OR doing simple surgeries. A few days after we went back to my condo Kelly got the guys to come over and pack it up.

A lot of it went into storage since Kelly had a lot of stuff in his apartment already. Today I was spending the day at Ashley's house because Kelly was on shift and I didn't have any surgeries.

We had just finished breakfast and we were sitting in her living room talking about our up and coming surgeries. My stomach was feeling a little upset.

"Taylor you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine. Stomach just feels off." The next thing I know I jumping up and running for her bathroom. I empty my stomach and just lay on the bathroom floor.

"Taylor did I need to call Kelly?"

"No no I'm fine just must of ate something my stomach didn't like." We go back to her living room. I go to take sip of my coffee but the smell makes me nauseous. I put the cup down.

"Alright now I'm worried. You never don't drink your coffee."

"Just the smell of it is making me sick." I sat there for a moment thinking. "Son of a bitch!" I start scrolling through my phone looking for my health app.

"What is it Taylor??"

I had up finger telling her to give me a second. "Fuck. I'm 4 days late."

"OMG Tay I thought you and Kelly were taking things slow??"

"We are but that night at Molly's after I got out of the hospital we had to many drinks and well yeah taking things slow flew out the window."

"Stay here." Ashley jumped up and ran upstairs. She came back down a couple minutes later. She then handed me a pregnancy test.

I reluctantly grabbed it. I went into the bathroom and closed the door. I took the test and waited. This is always the longest 3-5 minutes in any women's life.

The timer on my phone went off. I looked down at the test. I saw in big letters Pregnant. I walked out of the bathroom and held up the test for Ashley to see.

"OMG!!! I'm so happy for you." Ashley hugged me. I was still trying to process what was going on.

"I need to go to the firehouse." I walked out of Ashley's and got in my car. She was following right behind me and got in the passenger seat. I drove to 51 and parked on the curb.

The trucks were all here and everyone was outside doing drills it looked like. I take a deep breath and get out of my car and walk up the driveway. Ashley was a few steps behind me.

"Kelly! You son of a bitch!"

"What? What did I do." Everyone else had stopped what they were doing to watch whatever was about to happen.

"You have freaking olympic swimmers for sperm!" I had the test in my hand. I shoved it against his chest. Everyone else was laughing but Kelly was so confused.

"What do you mean??"

I hold up the test to his eyes so he can read it. His eyes growing wide as he ready the word Pregnant. "I sleep with you one fucking time and I get pregnant with Victoria. And now look I sleep with you one time and I'm fucking pregnant!" I was starting to freak out.

"Hey it's all going to be okay. I'm here this time. I'm here every step of the way." Kelly wrapped me in a hug and I just started to cry.

The alarms went off signaling that they had to roll out. Kelly held me out and looked me in the eyes. "I have to go. Everything is going to be alright." Kelly kissed my forehead and ran off towards squad 3 to load up with his guys.

We stood there watching as they pulled out of the garage sirens going. Ashley and I then headed back to her place.