Sooooo...

I'm not dead, shockingly.

Anyway, I'm back and hopefully with regular updates until I run out of the chapters I have done unless I get back to writing them. Thanks for sticking with me and hope you enjoy!

He was lying in bed after playing hockey with everyone. He was absolutely shattered but he couldn't sleep, to many things were on his mind. He knew Kurt had told Kendall what had happened after he had moved away, well everything that didn't involve being a Spy. Kurt was the only one who knew the whole story and now Kendall knew most of it.

The other thing was that his mum was pregnant, he hadn't expected that and by the sounds of it neither had she. For the first time he was going to have a younger sibling, with an 18-year age gap. Eventually he gave in and he drifted off to sleep.

The next thing he knew he was eleven again. 'please not this' he thought,

The bell had gone and he was making his way through the sea of children, he needed to grab a few things from his locker before meeting Kurt at the school gates. It was hard knowing that soon he would be alone because Kurt was graduating from high school next year.

He kept his head down, not wanting to get beaten up again by Dustin Belt and his cronies.

"Hey Hortense, fancy being my punching bag today?"

He instantly knew that he was going to get beaten up, and badly for that matter. He slowly looked up and what he saw only confirmed that. Shane Diamond was stood before him, an evil smirk on his face.

"This is going to be fun."

The next thing he knew he was being shoved into a closet.

"Don't you dare make a sound unless I say you can." Shane said before trapping him in a corner.

His eyes shot open and he saw Kendall sat next to his bed looking worried and slightly scared. Before he knew what he was doing he had wrapped his arms around Kendall's neck and started to cry.

Kendall hadn't expected Logan to cling onto him like his life depended on it.

"Logie," He said,

Logan was crying his eyes out,

"Logie please, tell me whats wrong"

All he did was burry his head into my neck. I decided that I clearly wasn't going to find out what was wrong with Logan while he was like this.

"Kendall?" Carlos asked appearing at Logan's doorway,

"I heard crying, is Logan ok?"

I tried to release myself from Logan's hold, which only made him tighten his grip,

"I think he just had a nightmare Los, don't worry I'll bring him out as soon as I can get him off me"

Carlos nodded and closed the door giving us some privacy. I had to lift Logan up so that I could move into a comfortable position. Logan had almost stopped crying by now and I was relieved at that.

"Kendall?" Logan said so quietly it was almost a whisper

"James has a brother, doesn't he?"

I didn't know what to say, James NEVER talks about his brother

"Shane Diamond."

"Yeah he does, how do you know that?"

"Please tell me James is nothing like his brother, PLEASE." He said looking up at me.

His eyes were glistening with unshed tears,

"James is nothing like and will NEVER be anything like Shane." I said this with complete honesty. Logan didn't let go of me well he refused to let go of me. It was like he didn't feel safe,

"Shane raped me" he said

I froze. I hadn't expected that.

"Is that what your nightmare was about?" I asked

He nodded.

"Kurt never mentioned anything like this, he said you got beaten up but,"

"I was eleven, it was the end of school and I needed to go to my locker before I met Kurt at the school gate. He stopped me in the hallway then dragged me to a closet then," he took a deep breath,

"he raped me."