"Chloe" Kisaiya whispered as she snuck into her cousin's room in the dead of night. She was surprised she had been able to get up without Ange hearing her. She tiptoed to Chloe's room and was now trying to wake the woman up.
"What?" Chloe complained. She wasn't good when she was sleeping. She hated being woken up.
"See tomorrow how your mum is taking me shopping" Kisaiya said and Chloe nodded still half asleep.
"Why is she doing that?" Kizzy asked.
"Because you need clothes" Chloe said.
"But will she buy me everything?" Kizzy asked and Chloe nodded.
"Well not the whole shop but like a lot" Chloe said not understanding and just wanting to get to sleep.
"Like even underwear" Kizzy said and Chloe nodded.
"You're living with us now, it's not like we aren't going to allow you to wear pants and bras" Chloe said completely missing the point.
"It's just….just like I've never…..kind of wore a bra" Kizzy said blushing.
"Oh well if you don't want one you don't need to get one" Chloe said.
"No I do want one but it's embarrassing" Kizzy said.
"It's not" Chloe said. She was too tired and turned around to go back to sleep. Kizzy sighed. She snuggled up next to Chloe and went back to sleep. Her cousin didn't really offer her the reassurance she was after.
A couple of hours later, Chloe was up and getting ready for her shift when Ange woke up.
"Did Kizzy come in with you last night?" Ange asked and Chloe nodded.
"Yeah I think she was trying to have a conversation with me but I was half asleep" Chloe said yawning.
"What about?" Ange asked.
"Just about you and her going shopping today. I think she's really nervous and she said something about underwear and that she's never had a bra" Chloe explained "Honestly I was sleeping and can't remember"
Ange nodded. She knew she should try and speak to the girl before they went shopping. Chloe and Ange spoke for a bit longer before Chloe left. Ange watched the girl leave and her heart almost melted. She loved that girl and she had been through a hard time recently.
Ange decided just to let Kizzy sleep. She was shocked that the girl had only had 2 nightmares the last night which was a large improvement. Kizzy wandered through to the living room at about 11 o'clock.
"Did you sleep well?" Ange asked and Kizzy nodded wiping the sleep out of her eyes.
"Do you want to have a shower?" Ange asked and Kizzy nodded.
"Can I check your stitches first" Ange asked and Kizzy cowered away.
"Just the ones where the chest drain was" Ange tried again remembering that girl got stitches in her vagina too. Kizzy thought for a moment.
"I'll be gentle" She said as she stepped closer to the girl. Kizzy stood with tears in her eyes.
"What's wrong sweetie?" Ange asked as she wiped the girl's tears with her hand.
"But you'll see my chest" She admitted embarrassed.
"I won't really, you can hold your hand across your chest. Anyway that's nothing to be embarrassed about" Ange said as she sat the girl down. She gently pushed the girl backwards so she was lying down and lifted the top. Kizzy kept her hand across her chest and Ange checked the stitches. They appeared to be healing well. She was confused as to why the girl was acting like this when Ange had helped change her in the hospital.
"Chloe said you tried to speak to her last night or early this morning. Do you want to speak to me about it?" Ange asked. Kizzy thought for a moment, this was so embarrassing and why had Chloe told Ange.
"NO" Kizzy shouted and Ange was taken aback by the response.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" Kizzy shouted and then ran into the bathroom. Ange left her when she heard the water running. Ange headed to the kitchen to make lunch. She heard the door open and was surprised to see her daughter.
"What are you doing back?" Ange asked.
"I left a paper here and I want to get it. What's up?" Chloe asked.
"Your cousin. Do you have time for lunch?" Ange asked and Chloe nodded. Ange quickly made up another sandwich and placed it in front of the woman.
"Do you want me to try and get her?" Chloe asked and Ange nodded.
Chloe walked to the bathroom door and knocked on it.
"Kiz, it's Chloe can you open up?" Chloe said softly as she waited for an answer. Kizzy wasn't sure what to do as it was actually her cousin she was mad at. But she knew she had to come out and would rather come out to both Chloe and Ange than just Ange.
"What's the issue?" Chloe asked rubbing the girl's back. That movement made Kizzy burst into tears.
"Hey come on, speak to me" Chloe said as she held her cousin tightly against her and they walked to the living room. Ange joined them on the sofa.
"Can you tell me what the issue is?" Chloe asked.
"You are both speaking about me" Kizzy said wiping her snotty nose with her hand. Ange cringed and went to get a tissue for the girl.
"What do you mean?" Ange asked as she handed the girl a tissue and sat back down.
"I tried to speak to Chloe and then she just told you" Kizzy said and Ange nodded.
"Okay, I don't think Chloe realised that you didn't want her to repeat what you had told her" Ange said and Chloe nodded.
"I didn't realise. You see me and mum are close and speak to each other about everything so I didn't think it was a big deal" Chloe said and Kizzy shrugged.
"Well it was to me. I don't like speaking to people but I'm starting to speak to you but then you go and tell Auntie Ange and I wasn't ready" Kizzy tried to explain.
"Okay well I am sorry about that" Chloe said and Kizzy nodded.
"I'm scared to speak to you again in case you tell everyone" Kizzy admitted.
"Look at me, now you have raised the issue I promise you can speak to me and I will not tell anyone. The only time I will tell someone is if I think you or someone else is at harm" Chloe said and Kizzy nodded.
"And that's the same as me sweetie" Ange said. "You can speak to me about anything too. Sometimes you might tell Chloe something which she thinks I should know and I hope she encourages you to tell me or you can ask her to tell me but she won't without your permission"
Kizzy nodded. That sounded better.
"But before Chloe goes can we just make sure we are all on the same page about today. What are you so nervous about?" Ange asked.
"I just don't want you to see me naked" Kizzy said.
"If you don't want me to, then you get changed and I'll wait outside. It's not an issue" Ange said and Kizzy nodded.
"And what was it about wearing a bra?" Chloe asked and Kizzy wanted to hit her cause because it embarrassed her. She moved her leg purposely hitting Chloe but then apologised as it had just been an instinct.
"I don't want to talk about it" Kizzy said shying away.
"Come on" Chloe said trying to sit the girl up.
"Look you are getting to that age when changes happen. It's normal and nothing to be embarrassed about" Chloe said looking at her mum for help.
"Exactly, you are 12. I know you already told Chloe you haven't started your periods" Ange said and Kizzy glared at her cousin again. Another thing she had shared without permission.
"But it probably won't be long. I was 10 when I started and your mum was 11" Ange said.
"I was 11 too" Chloe said and Ange nodded.
"So it's weird that I haven't started and all of you had by my age" Kizzy said worrying.
"No not at all, everyone is different. All I'm saying is our family are knowing for starting slightly earlier. You are very skinny and quite petite so that might be why you are slightly older" Ange explained and Kizzy nodded but she wasn't too sure.
"Look, I know we need to speak about periods and things too but I think just know we should focus on the bras unless you want to speak more about it?" Ange said and Kizzy shook her head.
"Okay, well I need to go back to work but sweets, we are still going to talk about periods later! You aren't getting out of it" Chloe said kissing the top of Kizzy's head. Ange nodded and then kissed her daughter as well.
"See you tonight Chlo" Ange said.
"Actually mum, I think I'm going to go back to the flat tonight" Chloe said almost as a question.
"Okay but isn't Evan still phoning you?" Ange asked.
"It's fine, I want to be there" Chloe said and Ange nodded. She couldn't stop her daughter she was an adult now. Ange walked back into the living room where Kizzy was.
"Do you want to finish getting ready and then we can go shopping?" Ange suggested and Kizzy nodded.
"Also we need to get you enrolled into a school" Ange said.
"But it's the holidays" Kizzy said.
"Not in England, we still have two weeks left" Ange said and Kizzy sighed. She disappeared to her room to get changed.
Ange made quick work tidying up and phoning Holby High School. Luckily they had space for Kizzy and a meeting was arranged.
"Come on Kiz, the school said we can go for a meeting now" Ange said as she hurried her niece up. Kizzy nodded and came running down the stairs.
"So school and then shopping" Ange said and Kizzy nodded. Ange looked at her niece as they clambered into the car. The girl was acting completely normal again like nothing had happened. Ange knew that she needed to see about getting professional help for the girl as she wasn't opening to herself or Chloe.
They arrived at the school and quickly filled in some paper work and were shown around. Ange was impressed with the school. She enrolled Kizzy and the girl would start on Monday. She had been given a new timetable for the following year which all children would follow as of Monday.
"So I will be going back to work on Monday as well" Ange explained and Kizzy nodded. Once back in the car, Ange looked at Kizzy.
"So know we have to add school clothes to the list of clothes to buy" Ange said.
"But Auntie Ange, I don't have any money" Kizzy said looking down.
"Oi, I pay for you from now on. You are only 12, of course you don't have money" Ange said and Kizzy nodded. She still felt bad through.
They arrived and headed to Primark first. Ange was surprised when she noticed Kizzy looking at the prices before placing a top in the bag.
"Don't look at the prices and we can go to other shops too" Ange said and Kizzy nodded. They went to a few more shops and Ange stayed outside while Kizzy tried the clothes on. Ange did make the girl come out so she could check the fit.
"Come with me" Ange said as she directed them to Debenhams.
"Go and pick some pants. Now you can choose do you want a bra?" Ange asked and Kizzy shielded away again.
"Kizzy just yes or no?" Ange asked and Kizzy nodded.
"Do you want to get it with me today or go with Chloe next week?" Ange asked thinking she was being fair. Kizzy thought for a moment. Her aunt had been so good today. She was so understanding.
"No with you" Kizzy said shocking Ange.
"Of course, we need to get you measured to make sure it's the right size" Ange said as she stormed to the changing room. Kizzy kept up with her aunt.
"Can you come in with me?" Kizzy whispered into her aunt's ear.
"Of course" Ange said. They went into a cubicle and were met by a woman who measured Kizzy on top of her clothes. She then disappeared to get some bras to try on. She returned and explained what type each were.
"Can I get these type?" Kizzy asked as she tried on a soft padded bra and Ange nodded.
"Of course, if that is what you think you need" Ange explained and Kizzy nodded. The girl had started to develop but not a lot. Ange agreed that the type of bra she was wearing offered enough support without being too enhancing.
They shopped for a bit longer before heading to the car.
"Are you happy with everything you bought?" Ange asked and Kizzy nodded. She was smiling from ear to ear.
"I need to nip to the hospital quickly is that okay?" Ange said and Kizzy nodded.
"Can we go and see Chloe?" Kizzy asked.
"Okay but only for 5 minutes" Ange said and Kizzy nodded.
They arrived at the hospital and Ange took Kizzy to Chloe's ward first. They found Chloe and Ange headed up to her office to get some paperwork.
"So how was shopping?" Chloe asked as she and Kizzy walked to the staffroom.
"So good" Kizzy said.
"Ah you are wearing some of your new clothes" Chloe nodded as she looked at the girls skinny jeans and tight pink shirts.
"And I got a bra" Kizzy said smiling.
"Was it that bad?" Chloe asked and Kizzy shook her head.
"I love Auntie Ange. And see she even let me get a padded one" Kizzy said showing Chloe.
"Wow, now don't go showing everyone" Chloe said.
"Obviously! I just showed you because you are my cousin" Kizzy said and Chloe nodded.
"Good" Chloe said before pulling Kizzy into her arms.
"Ah look mum is back. Are you going to head home now?" Chloe asked Ange who nodded.
"Come on then honey" Ange said putting her arm around Kizzy. Kizzy smiled and walked out with her aunt. Chloe smiled. She was glad they were getting on so well now.
Sorry for the delay. I am in Spain aupairing for 6 weeks and I am barely on my laptop. Hope this is okay though :) Any ideas for the next chapter?