Ange sat on the sofa across from Kisaiya. She placed her hand on her knee. It was the following day and they were all awake and ready for another conversation. Ange had time to process everything that had happened and been said and Kisaiya felt in a better position to speak to her aunt. She was still nervous about her cousin though.
"How are you feeling today?" Ange asked moving her hand along the girl's leg to soothe her.
"Fine" Kisaiya said but Ange wasn't so sure. Ange just tilted her head.
"We have a rule during this conversation and all conversations from now on. Everyone must speak the entire truth. No lying and no twisting the truth. You are not to avoid questions either" Ange said. Chloe nodded in agreement but Kisaiya just watched them both.
"Kis, I want you to be brave and just tell me exactly what is going through your mind right this second and then we can move on from there" Ange said and Chloe nodded. She thought that was a good idea as well. Kisaiya was nervous. She wasn't sure whether or not, she should really say what was on her mind or to just hide it but she remembered what her aunt had told her. She had to trust her aunt, she could do that. She had to be brave.
"I'm scared that Chloe is mad at me because of what I told her and that now she is just going to pass me over to you and that you are going to be mad at me too because you told me not to speak to Chloe anymore and I did" Kisaiya said all in one breath. She couldn't even look up at her aunt because she was so scared.
"Hey, look at me I didn't tell you that you couldn't speak to Chloe" Ange said and Kisaiya nodded.
"You did because that day I was panicking and I wanted to speak to Chloe before I started school and you said that Chloe had enough on her plate and that I couldn't speak to her and that I couldn't just call her every time I got a little upset" Kisaiya said still panicking. Ange quickly realised that the girl was too uptight and anxious to get a good conversation with her so she moved over.
"Come here" Ange said as she moved so that she was sitting next to Kisaiya. She pulled Kisaiya into her arms.
"I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. I was very worried about Chloe last week and I still am" She said looking over at Chloe.
"But I should have known how much you would have taken that conversation to heart and spoken to you about it more. I don't want you to not speak to Chloe. I'm sorry I promise I will never come between you and Chloe speaking again" Ange said and Kisaiya nodded.
"You know you can speak to me whenever you need. All you need to do is call or text and I'll answer as soon as I can" Chloe said and Kisaiya nodded.
"Now why else do you think Chloe is mad at you?" Ange said "We have addressed that I am not mad at you so now Chloe next"
"Because I told her and then she went all funny" Kisaiya said.
"I'm sorry, I was just shocked and it hit me hard to find out that you have been self harming. I want to be a role model to you but by you finding out that I self harm that's not what a role model should do so I just feel like I'd be telling you the wrong thing if I tried to advice you through it. It doesn't mean you can't speak to me about it though and of course we can speak about strategies that help me" Chloe said and Kisaiya relaxed slightly.
"Do you feel ready to speak about what happened yet?" Ange asked and Kisaiya shook her head.
"We do need to speak to it at some point" Ange said and Kisaiya nodded.
"I know but I just need to trust you enough first" Kisaiya said and Ange nodded.
"I promise we will both do everything we can to help you and earn your trust but we know it will take time" Ange said and Kisaiya nodded. She knew that her aunt was trying her best.
"Is it only you I can speak to about it?" Kisaiya asked. She didn't know how to ask Chloe if she could speak to her about it.
"I'm sure you can speak to Chloe too" Ange said and Chloe nodded.
"Of course you can speak to me. Though it would be good to speak to mum as well or even afterwards because she has more experience than me" Chloe said before regretting what she said. She gave Ange an apologising look.
"She already knows" Ange said grabbing Chloe's hand and Chloe's face dropped.
"You told her about me as well" Chloe said and Ange looked at her.
"She only knows what happened to me" Ange said and Chloe nodded.
"It's happened to you too?" Kisaiya said shocked. Why was she acting like this if it had happened to people she knew?
"No it's not that. Mum conceived me after the attack" Chloe said and Kisaiya nodded. She didn't know what to say or how to react to that statement.
"So I thought we might have another conversation while we are all together. Chloe is on the late shift tonight so she has to go to work soon as I thought we could make the most of the time we have together" Ange said and both Chloe and Kisaiya had no idea what this was about.
"So you are 12 now and there are changes that you are going through. I know we got you a bra and you were able to speak to me about it but you still seemed very nervous speaking about periods" Ange said and Kisaiya sighed. She didn't want to speak about this.
"Come on why that reaction?" Chloe asked softly.
"It's disgusting" Kisaiya complained.
"How is it disgusting" Chloe asked.
"Because it's blood and it comes out of somewhere private" Kisaiya said and both Ange and Chloe started laughing.
"And? It happens to all woman and is completely normal. It's something we all go through and shouldn't be something we hide" Ange said and Kisaiya sighed.
"You don't understand" Kisaiya complained.
"We don't understand?" Ange said confused.
"Come on we were your age once too and I understand it must be hard having not been that close to your mum but you have me and Chloe now. You can be as open as you want with us" Ange explained and Kisaiya nodded.
"I had horrible periods when I was just a little older than you. I spoke to mum about it all and just speaking to someone and having them give you some sympathy helped and made me feel a bit better. I just wasn't alone and I got through it. Honestly mum is amazing and I'm not just saying that cause she is my mum. I can speak to her about anything" Chloe said and Kisaiya nodded. Ange smiled at her daughter.
"So will you speak to us when you start?" Ange asked and Kisaiya nodded.
"Yeah, fine" Kisaiya said quickly just wanting this conversation to finish.
"Do you want to watch a film with me while Chloe goes to work? I could do with a Kizzy cuddle" Ange said and Kisaiya smiled. She nodded and lay into her aunt's arms.
"I love you so much" Ange said and Kisaiya smiled.
"I love you too" Kisaiya said. They turned on the film and watched it in silence. Near the end of the film, Ange felt Kisaiya starting to turn.
"Is everything okay?" Ange asked and Kisaiya shook her head.
"I want to speak to you about what happened but I just can't" Kisaiya said before bursting into tears.
"Come here, all that matters is that you know you can speak to me and when you are ready then I am here" Ange said and Kisaiya nodded. She snuzzled into her aunt's chest and Ange just held her as tightly as she could.
"I love you" She said kissing the girl on the head.
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