It was a couple of days later and Kisaiya had another counselling meeting. Ange hoped that after their conversation the other day Kisaiya might be more open with her counsellor.
Ange picked the girl up from school and they drove to the hospital and headed to the counselling services. Ange knew not to say anything to the girl or push her.
"Auntie Ange, can you come in with me?" Kisaiya asked nervously.
"I'm not sure but we can ask" Ange said supportively holding her niece's hand. She squeezed it tightly.
"Let's go and ask" Ange said as they got up and walked into the waiting room. They didn't have to wait long until the counsellor came out.
"Do you want to come with me" The counsellor asked and Kisaiya nodded but looked at Ange.
"Can my auntie come with me" Kisaiya asked refusing to let go of Ange's hand.
"We don't usually recommend it but if you'd really prefer" The counsellor explained and Kisaiya nodded.
"I really do" Kisaiya said as Ange stood up next to her. They walked into the room and sat down.
"Is there a reason you want your aunt here today?" The counsellor asked.
"Because I just want her here because I trust her and I've spoken to her and if I'm really stuck then she can help me talk and I want to get help" Kisaiya explained. Ange smiled at how mature the girl was being.
"What did you speak to your aunt about?" The counsellor, Sarah asked.
"Well we spoke about how I've been feeling lately and then what happened" Kisaiya explained.
"How did this happen? How did you start speaking to her?" Sarah asked.
"She found writing in my diary. It's when I'm angry and upset and I say horrible things about myself. Auntie Ange found it and tried to speak to me about it but I ran away to the toilet. I hide in the toilet until Chloe came. I spoke to her and then I told her that I sometimes hurt myself and she said I had to tell her when I feel like that again" Kisaiya explained and the counsellor nodded.
"What did you do to hurt yourself?" Sarah asked.
"I cut my thighs" Kisaiya said embarrassed by her actions and Sarah nodded.
"That will be something we'll need to speak about and learning strategies to cope with it" Sarah explained and Kisaiya nodded.
"Have you felt like that since you spoke to your aunt?" Sarah asked and Kisaiya shook her head.
"No because if I feel a bit upset, I just go over to auntie Ange and she makes me feel better" Kisaiya explained.
"Did you say you spoke to your aunt about what happened?" Sarah asked and Kisaiya nodded.
"I did, it's the first time I've told someone" Kisaiya said and Sarah nodded.
"Well that is a very big step. Well done" Sarah said "How do you feel now?"
Kisaiya shrugged.
"I feel better but I still feel like it's going around in my head sometimes" Kisaiya explained.
They continued to speak until the 50 minutes were up. Ange and Kisaiya stood up and left. Ange was so proud of her niece.
"Let's get you home. You have done amazingly today. I am so proud of you" Ange said kissing the girl on the head. Kisaiya smiled.
They drove home and Ange noticed that Kisaiya had a hand on her stomach.
"Are you okay?" Ange asked.
"I have a sore tummy" Kisaiya said softly.
"Where is it sore?" Ange asked and Kisaiya pointed to her abdomen.
"Why don't you take a bath when we get home?" Ange suggested and Kisaiya nodded. That sounded like a good idea. They arrived home and Ange helped Kisaiya get the bath sorted. She added a bath bomb and got different lotions for the girl. She sat them all out.
"Help yourself and just relax" Ange said as she left the bathroom and Kisaiya nodded. She took her time in the bath and relaxed. She got out as she noticed the water getting colder. She put on cosy jammies and headed to her room to dry her hair. She heard the front door open but just stayed in her room guessing it was just Dom or Chloe popping by.
Meanwhile in the living room, Chloe had just walked into the house.
"Hey, how was your day at work?" Ange asked.
"Fine, minus Evan completely freaking me out. He keeps leaving flowers for me" Chloe said.
"Have you spoken to him yet?" Ange asked and Chloe looked away.
"I really don't want another I told you so" Chloe complained.
"I wasn't about to say anything else. You just need to talk to him and make it clear you aren't going back to him" Ange said and Chloe nodded just wanting her mum to shut up about this conversation.
"Where is Kisaiya?" Chloe asked wanting the attention off of her.
"She was just taking a bath. She was complaining about a sore stomach early but it seemed more like cramp" Ange explained and Chloe nodded.
"Don't suppose you can speak to her?" Ange asked and Chloe nodded.
"Sure, I'll go and see her now" Chloe said and Ange smiled.
"Thank you" She said as Chloe walked into the guest bedroom.
"Hey how are you" Chloe asked and Kisaiya shrugged.
"Mum said you have a sore stomach. Can I have a feel?" Chloe asked.
"It's not that bad now" She said but Chloe just looked at her. Kisaiya sighed and lay down on the bed. Chloe softly pulled the top up slightly.
"Where about?" Chloe asked and Kisaiya pointed. Chloe softly prodded Kisaiya's tummy. She nodded.
"Am I okay?" Kisaiya asked concerned.
"Of course, you are. I think it's just a cramp" Chloe said.
"But I haven't started my period" Kisaiya said panicking.
"Don't worry, it's just another indicator that you will be starting soon" Chloe said softly and Kisaiya nodded.
"So how have you been recently?" Chloe asked and Kisaiya shrugged.
"How have you been feeling?" Chloe hinted again.
"Better than before. I spoke to your mum about what happened" Kisaiya said and Chloe nodded
"How was it? Did it help?" Chloe asked and Kisaiya shrugged.
"Yeah I suppose it did. It really helped at the time but now" Kisaiya said before mumbling off.
"Hm?" Chloe asked encouragingly.
"It's just, well after speaking to your mum. I just had some more question but I don't feel like I can bring it up again because we already spoke about it" Kisaiya said sighing.
"You can always bring it up again and we will speak to you about it always. You can speak to me about it if it will help" Chloe said and Kisaiya nodded.
"And you won't get all embarrassed by what I ask?" Kisaiya said.
"Never, I will answer the question with full honestly and then we will move on" Chloe said.
"I can't. It's so embarrassing" Kisaiya said blushing and putting her head in her hand.
"What's embarrassing? Is it the words that will be said?" Chloe asked "Does that embarrass you?"
Kisaiya nodded. That was part of it.
"Well penis, vagina, sex, condom, cummed, orgasm, erection, boner, blowjob, handjob…." Chloe started stating sex words which she thought Kisaiya would find embarrassing.
"Okay enough, it's not embarrassing now" Kisaiya said and Chloe smiled. She had done her job.
"So come out with it" Chloe said and Kisaiya nodded.
"So like well basically, I'm just confused cause like his penis was like sticking up and I don't know why but I have a guess why but then I don't get why he'd do that with me" Kisaiya said and Chloe nodded trying to understand exactly what the girl had said.
"So basically a man has an erection or it can be called a boner when they are sexually arouse and want to have sex" Chloe explained.
"But why was he sexually arouse from me?" Kisaiya said "I'm only 12"
Chloe sighed, unsure how to answer this because she didn't really know the answer.
"Well from what I know, I think he was probably sexually arouse from your mum but then men can just be horny which means they want to have sex and be turned on by anything" Chloe said and Kisaiya nodded. They spoke for a bit longer and Kisaiya felt so much better.
"Will your mum be mad that I spoke to you about this" Kisaiya asked nervously.
"Of course not, But we don't even have to tell mum that we spoke about this. But if we did it doesn't matter, she will just be happy that you are speaking to someone. She doesn't mind if you speak to her, me or someone at school. We just want you to speak to someone and not hold it in" Chloe explained and Kisaiya nodded.
"Its just because I already told her what happened and now I'm saying it again" Kisaiya said frustrated with herself.
"Sweetie, you went through so much of course you won't remember everything at once" Chloe said pulling Kisaiya into her arms. They sat back on the board.
"Did your mum tell you about what Mia found out?" Kisaiya mumbled and Chloe shook her head.
"No she hasn't said anything" Chloe said.
"I told people at school that Ange was my mum" Kisaiya said "And you are my sister"
Chloe nodded. She didn't know this but she did still understand.
"That's a hard one" Chloe said.
"I know why you did it and to be honest I don't see it as an issue. But maybe you will need to tell your close friends because you don't call my mum, mum" Chloe explained and Kisaiya nodded.
"I wish your mum was my mum" Kisaiya said.
"I know sweetie" Chloe said "But remember you are still family and that means a lot too"
Kisaiya nodded.
"Shall we go through and see Mum?" Chloe asked and Kisaiya nodded. They headed through to the living room where Ange was. Kisaiya instantly snuggled up into her aunt's arms. Ange missed this, although Chloe was still cuddly at times. She wasn't as small as Kisaiya and Ange couldn't hold her quite like she held Kisaiya.
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