*Please be aware that this chapter contains advanced sexual content*

Chapter 8: Welded- Jacob

It smelled strongly of vampire in Alice's room, but it was long since I got used to that smell. I was already on my way to nose blind. I knew I was supposed to be worried, but delicious memories from that night kept tickling me and making my chest hum with warmth. Ness in my arms. The taste of her. The feel of her touching me. My thoughts turned to the bliss of my first sexual encounter with her. There was no sour note. It felt so amazingly good. And she was so loving with me. Better than I ever could have imagined. Already, I wanted more, but I wouldn't dare pressure her tonight. This had already been such a huge jump. I gulped, feeling uneasy suddenly. What were the expectations now? We never discussed it. It wasn't the time though. Ness shut the door but didn't turn on a light. Our vision was excellent, being supernatural beings.

She moved to me and hugged me, caressing my chest. I never did pull on a shirt. Maybe her thoughts were similar to mine. "Jake," she whispered and I heard it there in her voice. Lust. I lifted her up to kiss her on the mouth, not thinking. She wrapped her arms around my neck then her legs around my stomach. I moved to the wall and pressed her against it. She gasped and started kissing my neck. She lowered herself so she could grind her body into me, and I felt an incredible warmth radiate from the point of contact. She clutched my shoulders and pressed herself against me so I could feel her fluttering heartbeat. I carried her to the bed and laid her down. I held myself over her, kissing her passionately and threading my fingers in her sweet soft hair. She was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. She smelled of roses and baby's breath. I paused suddenly aware that everyone in the house could probably hear us.

"This may be too loud," I whispered.

"I can't stop. They will let us be. I heard my parent's leave," she said then pulled me in closer to kiss my mouth again. I thought about earlier and realized what should happen this time. It was time for me to try to pleasure her. My stomach squirmed. I never had before, and this was the love of my life. And I wanted to reciprocate. I gulped. Hopefully it wouldn't be too awful for her. I blushed, but she didn't notice, eyes closed. I kissed her forehead and then started to kiss downward deliberately. I kissed her neck and her chest. She touched my arm.

"You can take off my clothes Jake," she said with a seductive smile. My heart stuttered. Alllright, I thought. I gently tugged her shirt up and she helped me pull it off. Her black bra almost put me over the edge. I saw it briefly earlier but finally had a chance to marvel at it more. I realized I was about to see all of her and my heart raced. Gently I reached for the clasp, hands slightly shaking. I took it off and was stunned by her beauty; her complete perfection.

"Babe, you are so beautiful," I managed weakly. She smiled and the smile was loving, a deep happiness instead of surface lust. I caressed and felt her gently and she moaned in pleasure. I leaned down and kissed her skin. God...it was so incredible. I kissed between her breasts and down to her stomach. She squirmed from the ticklish contact. I kissed down to her navel and to her pants. Then I stopped and looked up. She was watching me, a red blush vivid on her pale cheeks and she nodded her approval.

"Everything?" I checked, wondering about her remaining clothes. She nodded. I gulped again. I pulled her pants off and looked at a black bikini, the hottest sight I'd ever seen in my life, I wanted her so badly it was painful. I stroked her perfect legs then her crotch over the underwear. She was warm and very aroused. I leaned down and kissed her over the fabric. "I love you," I whispered, then began gentle circular motions over the fabric. She moaned and twitched. It was obviously right. I pulled her legs apart also, knowing this was a seductive move. I gently reached under her underwear and stroked her for the first time. Warm. Damp. Insanely hot. I pulled her underwear off and gazed upon my naked girlfriend for the first time. "So beautiful." I moaned. She reached forward and ran her fingers through my hair again, eyes bright. I resumed my ministrations and her moans nearly put me over the edge. I read that it required a coordinated effort of different sensations to generate the highest level of pleasure for a woman. I stroked her on the surface. Then took a chance and put my mouth on her and massaged her with my tongue. Again, she tasted so sweet. She cried out softly. I changed the motion to a new pattern.

"God..oh god.." she moaned. I sucked gently then moved back to surface stimulation. "I'm close," she said. I didn't want that. I wanted the pleasure that built.

"Can I feel you?" I asked quietly after disconnecting. She nodded in desire. I hooked my hand up and felt her incredible softness and warmth, pressing gently. I was overcome by how good she felt, wishing I could be connected to her; desire flooded my mind. I returned to the circular motion with one hand and internally stimulated her as well, trying to alternate sensations. She twitched in pleasure, breathing heavy. I tasted her again in combination with my other efforts and it began to put her near the edge.

"Come...come for me," I repeated back to her as she said to me. She gasped and I felt her climax. It was amazing, feeling her body's reaction. Again, I wanted to be with her badly. When her body relaxed, I removed myself slowly. I kissed her stomach then I moved up to her.

"That was the best orgasm ever," she said out of breath. "How did you do that?" she asked.

"I tried," I said simply, kissing her hair. I snuggled down next to her and she turned to me. Smiling, she began her magic on me. After some time, I found ecstasy for the second time that night.

…

In the morning I showered and changed into clothes Alice left out for me. Again perfect for travel and for phasing. I went out into the hall and found Emmett leaning on the wall whistling to himself. He gave me a wicked grin and winked suggestively. I sighed heavily.

"Sleep well?" He asked innocently.

"Like a rock," I replied joining the others in the living room. He guffawed and I felt myself blush. Alice was there, sorting a bunch of duffle bags, all the same but in different colors. She tossed a green and a blue one to me. "What's this?" I asked.

"I have emergency clothes for us always ready," she said. Wow. She was pretty amazing. I carried then back to check on Ness.

" Try to control yourself we're leaving in under an hour," Emmett called laughing, and I gritted my teeth. Good thing Edward wasn't up at the house yet. Ness was awake and getting dressed. I kissed her. She was so beautiful in the morning.

"What's that?" She asked.

"Emergency clothes," I replied. She held up the backpack, and I flinched.

"What's this Jake?" She asked and I heard an edge to her voice.

I sighed, wishing this conversation wasn't about to happen. "Years ago your mother and I had to plan to save you if the confrontation with the Volturi didn't go well. I was supposed to run with you to South America." I said. She looked disturbed.

"Was it really that close?" she asked.

"Yes," I said grimacing. I really didn't want to discuss this with her. It made me feel like aborting our recent plan was a mistake. But there was no help for it. We needed to help our friends.

We loaded the cars, picking more conspicuous ones. Emmett kept shooting me suggestive glances each time her back was turned. I just frowned my disapproval and was pleased I wasn't riding with him.

Emmett and Carlisle were driving. We piled in. I ended up with Bella and Ness in the backseat of Carlilse's car with Edward in the front seat.

I whispered to Bella, "shield," and she blinked then instantly cloaked me. I felt the slight whooshing feeling. She glanced at Ness looking at me dreamily and her expression grew dark. I sighed, pulled out my phone and began typing in an open note.

Yes okay but it isn't as bad as you think. I promise I'm being careful, and I'm really not rushing anything. I want her to be happy. It's not about me. She read it in a moment then I deleted it. She stared and then seemed to accept it with a sigh, not giving me any more looks. I looked up and caught Edward's glare in the rear view mirror, knowing Bella just cloaked me and possibly knowing why. I pretended not to notice and held Ness's hand. My vision suddenly blurred and she was replaying the evening's events for me in vivid detail, my breath caught but I tried to stifle it. My gradually racing heartbeat couldn't have helped. I know Bella cloaked her too because Edward wasn't shouting, but he could hear my heartbeat. He ground his teeth. I dropped her hand to regain control. I had to admit, the stealth was kind of fun, But Bella looked annoyed too and I didn't want her to drop the shield. So I thought about other things in luxury of being heard by no one.

When the time came would I save Ness over Simon if it was necessary? I mean obviously yes, but the guilt would be terrible to bear, and her pain. She might not forgive me, or forget. I hoped that I was able to save both of them and that's why the vision blanked out. The alternative was his certain death, so at least it was a shot in the dark. Literally.

We stopped on the way so I could grab a bathroom break and a snack at a gas station. Apparently being sexually active meant an increased appetite. Hmm. I smiled at the words sexually active. It was annoying being the hold up in a family that never needed to eat or take bathroom breaks. But they always had food for me. Ness didn't like food, so I had taken it upon myself to conduct a private mission trying to find a food she may love. It turned out that Bella's favorites had not been inherited. I hadn't had much luck, although she had conceded that chocolate ice cream was less bad. She even sort of didn't mind coffee, which I found a bit strange. I didn't like it myself.

Back in the car Bella interrupted the silence. "Are we going to communicate the danger to them, so they stay inside with us?" she asked. Great question. No one wanted to kidnap anyone with no explanation.

"I'm not sure how else we can. Danger may be too vague for them though.." Edward hedged. So we all got lost in thought over a danger that made sense.

"Some sort of murderer makes no sense, because it would be on the news," Ness added.

"And there aren't any dangerous animals in Hanover," except me I thought.

"Maybe we say one of us is really sick and we want them to visit, we say it's really bad," Edward added.

"But no one would be once we get there," Carlisle said.

"Maybe at that point we admit we are worried about their safety, maybe we witnessed an attack but haven't reported it yet," Bella said. We nodded in approval.

"What if things go really sideways," Edward added. I cringed. I didn't want him to upset Ness about Simon dying.

"Let's handle it in the moment then," I shot back, giving him an annoyed look and stroking Ness's face. He stared, then gave up and looked forward. Good. I eventually settled into sleep because Emmett was right, I hadn't gotten much. Ness woke me to board the plane. It was a groggy blur, but eventually we were headed for first class. Classically Cullen. I passed out nest to Ness in the comfortable chair. I woke up stiff from must have been hours later to find myself sitting next to Edward not Bella. I sighed heavily. He did this purposefully to have it out with me. I glanced at Ness who was sleeping.

What? I thought grumpily. "I want to talk," he said businesslike with his jaw locked. Now? I asked mentally. "While she's asleep," he replied. I just went for it then. Edward, she's grown up, I am too. I said in thoughts, getting impatient. Did you expect us to never be intimate? "I expect you to tread cautiously," he snapped. This set my hands trembling. He had know me better for the past 6 years, and how could he not already know, that when it came to Ness, I was incredibly careful.

"This isn't your business," speaking in distracted rage.

"She's my daughter," he growled.

"That you're smothering. She's making her own choices. I'd never hurt her. I'll always support whatever she wants," I added.

"Maybe she's too young to know what she really wants," he said icily. "You don't know, but the first time Bella and I were together was when she got pregnant. You know what happened, it was a miracle she survived," he said quietly. I didn't need reminding. It was a painful time. The last painful time until now. "I have no idea if you could get her pregnant, but consider that she is growing still, able to change," he finished. And then a very strange thought struck me that momentarily disconnected me from this nonsense conversation. Pregnant? Would Ness ever want to be pregnant? With me? I mean...at this rate I was on my way to wanting to propose in the next few years. But in the next few years...she would stop growing like the other vampires. Like Rosalie...and it would no longer be a choice. Carlisle estimated this was her final year.

So...so...if she ever wanted a child with me...my heart stopped. I looked up at Edward again and his eyes were slightly unfocused, listening to me. This is beyond what you want now Edward. I thought. If she ever wanted a baby...well..well it would be around now. I felt a swell of panic. Was I ready to be a father? Did I want to be. The thought was terrifying. But, don't most people realize they want a family. Sam had a child around my developed age. Was it really so wrong?

"But what do you expect the fetus could be like? Can vampire and werewolf DNA mix safely?" Edward whispered. I stared blankly. No. I felt the answer was simply, no. But something Billy said caught my thoughts. He said he thought werewolves imprinted to make stronger offspring. Did that mean, my body knew Ness would give me a strong child? The evidence for the other imprints seemed possible to support the theory. Edward seemed to consider this as well. But would this risk her safety? She was already part vampire unlike Bella. She would be as strong as the child's vampire half. But would the werewolf half harm her? My bite wasn't toxic to her like vampire venom would be toxic to me. We just had strong enough teeth to attack. Nothing to infect. And I doubt a fetus could attack her. We didn't become werewolves until teenage years. Before I was activated, I was just human. I never hurt my mother when I was born.

"Good points," Edward agreed. "But do you think Ness is really ready for that?" he asked.

"Bella did it at her age, pretty much exactly," I countered.

"But that was an accident, and what you're doing could result in the same," he said angrily. I rolled my eyes at him. Was I really going to have to explain to him that I was going to wear protection when I finally did this? I mean jesus, how little did he think of me. I glared at him. He looked annoyed. We're trying to be careful as well, we were alone the first time. I thought. The strangest look flashed across his face. I almost didn't catch it. Guilt. Wait, had he heard it that night? I thought mortified. He sighed heavily.

"Wonderful," I said, but the venom was less convincing when my voice caught on the word. "Don't tell Ness," I said disgusted.

"Look, I didn't mean to. I was trying to find you with Alice that night. I left immediately," he said defensive. So he really had heard my first..I cut off the thought. And felt the strangest hot feeling in my throat. I realized, I was upset. And it surprised me.

"Thanks a lot," I said and I heard it in my voice too.

"It was only a moment, I'm sorry," he said and for the first time, he sounded sincerely apologetic. I ignored it. I suddenly felt the shield. Bella put it back. She was obviously listened and must have heard the tone of my voice. Edward felt it too.

"She understands we're of age. She probably compares it to how you two were when she was 18," I said.

"I will take...time," he grudged.

"Im not well...rushing." I said. Flinching that I needed to be so specific. Now they would know, well, everyone would know we weren't having intercourse. I was eager to end this incredible shitshow of a conversation. Edward nodded to himself, liking this information.

"So is Ness getting the talk too?" I asked childishly. But he was treating me like a baby. How could he think I wouldn't use protection?

"Bella will," he said evasively.

"Coward," I muttered. He nodded in agreement. I thought for a moment about his anger. Was it really about condoms. At the end of the day I didn't think he thought I was that stupid. If not, what else could it be. I pondered over it until I suddenly realized.

"Are you joking?" I said in outrage. "This is because it's out of wedlock? It's the 21st century." I said.

"I'm old fashioned," he said, guarded.

"Well, it was her choice," I spoke clearly. It was silent. "That's right, I didn't instigate anything," I said smugly, then turned and my smile slipped off my face when I saw Ness awake and glaring at me. Oh shit. "I mean, no that's not true, it was my idea.." I tried lamely. Her eyes narrowed. I covered my face. Huge fuck up. It was so impulsive. Immediately I felt so low for having done it. I knew there had to be fierce apologies later. I sneaked a peak and saw her glaring at Edward. It was clear her thoughts were heavy. He looked sheepish. She jumped up and stalked away without a word. After a few moments, Jasper joined us.

"She wanted to sit with Alice," he said. He glanced at me then I felt peace seep into me, easing my anguish.

"Thanks," I sighed, still feeling crappy somewhat. "We're in trouble," I added for Edward.

"Me more than you," Edward said.

"I don't know what everyone's problem is," Jasper said. "It seems normal to me," he looked a little bored.

"I don't have one," I said bitterly. This was all his fault. He should have left it alone. But that last part was mine, I conceded guiltily.

"She's not speaking to me," Edward said.

"What about me?" I asked.

"Not sure, she's cloaked," he said. Bella seemed to have taken her side.

"My advice is to let her be. That's usually what Alice wants," Jasper suggested. Alright. We had a mission anyway. I struggled to put it from my mind.

"Once we get them to the house, what are we going to do about the vamp?" I asked. Edward seemed eager to join in.

"I think some of us should stay with them in the house. Some should establish a perimeter, and I think we want a hunting party." I honestly wanted to be in the hunting party, but knew I wanted to stay with Ness, and she wouldn't be doing that.

"When?" I asked.

"Tonight if we can," Edward replied. I felt dread. Not for myself, but for the humans and half humans in our lives.

"I'd like to keep Ness away," I whispered, not wanting to anger her more. Edward considered.

"Separated or under heavy guard with us?" He asked. He had a good point.

"Be ready to run if we get ambushed," Jasper suggested. He looked unhappy and I knew it was because he didn't want to risk Alice. Edward's expression was similar. No one could stash their woman away. We were going together.

"Ness I'm sorry. I was so stupid," I said in a semi loud voice. She could hear. She didn't reply. It was worth a try.

...

We drove through the backroads of New Hampshire. Ness elected to ride in the other car, not a good sign. There was a sudden buzz of a phone. Edward glanced down to read it. "No," he said.

"What?" Carlisle asked urgently.

"Bram, he can't find Simon, he's wondering if he's with us." Edward dialed and spoke, "Any visions?" It sounded like she said no. He hung up. He glanced at me and I knew I was the reason why. It continued to confirm that I was directly involved. "In three's we search the campus," he added to us.

"Ness obviously," I said claiming her.

"Take Jaz," Edward added. He didn't look pleased. He wanted to go with Alice. When we arrived, I could tell from the weather that snow was imminent. It added to my feeling of urgency. Edward, Alice, Esme, and Carlisle took off followed by Rose, Emmett, Alice, and Bella. Each team had someone who could identify them. I knew Edward put me with Jasper because we were the best fighters. We moved fast but not too conspicuous as we combed the campus. We checked our frequented cafe and half an hour later had covered the English and theatre buildings. I couldn't pick up Simon's scent. I tried to think of where else we spent time together. It came to me. The soccer field.

"Come on," I said indicating in the right direction. I matched my pace to Ness's. She grabbed my hand. Be careful, please. She begged me in a thought. I squeezed her hand. "You too," I spoke. Ten minutes later we crashed through the trees and jumped the fence. The smell hit me like a wall the moment I saw her. She was beautiful, blonde, dressed in tattered clothes, eyes bright red. She had Simon in a headlock. He struggled feebly.

"Simon," Ness moaned. I wondered If I was seeing Alice's vision. I moved forward unthinkingly.

"I'd stop," She said lazily. Something hit me square in the chest. I felt a rib break. I flew backward into the fence. I almost phased, but held it back. It wasn't time yet. Another being appeared from the woods. I got up, ignoring the healing pains in my chest. The other woman's arm was extended, she had hit us with a kind of force field. I listened and my mouth fell open in shock. Under the sounds of Simon's racing heart, my heart, and Ness's fluttering beats, I heard the same fluttering from this woman. Was she?

"What do you want," asked Jasper. He had stood back up too. I glanced at Ness and she seemed unharmed. She turned to face me.

"Master wants the human that travels with the Cullens...he is special somehow.." she said in a seductive voice. Ness gasped. Master? Then this was the Volturi after all. Edward! I started screaming in my head. Edward! I did again, concentrating on the force of the thought. I had no idea if he heard me. Another half vampire, a man, emerged as well. His hair was tangled and his wild red eyes locked on Renesmee. He had a look of hunger on his face. I slipped in front of her.

"Surrender or he dies," she snarled constricting his windpipe so he started to choke. I looked at Ness and her eyes were full of tears.

"No...no Jake," she begged. At that moment I felt a familiar swooping sensation. Bella's shield. I fought a smile. This almost certainly would have a chance at protecting me from the other force field. I glanced at Jasper. He nodded, indicating he felt it too.

"It's okay," I told her significantly raising my eyebrows. She read my face. Trust me. I mouthed. She stared. I turned back. They all must be out there, and they had us covered. I started forward as Simon thrashed.

"J...ake.." he choked in protest. Ness sobbed once. It tore at my heart. It's okay baby, I thought even though she couldn't hear me. When I was ten feet out I did it. I jumped and in an instant ripped from my human form. I flew into the space between us, in full wolf form, teeth bared. No wall stopped me. The blonde stared in terror, no time to move. You're mine, I thought in triumph and hit her, feeling like I smacked into concrete. My teeth sunk into her throat, and I shook her like a rag doll, Simon falling to the ground. She couldn't claw free. Then Edward was there, ripping her to pieces. I registered that Jasper ran for the other female, who couldn't understand why her powers were dead. Ness didn't move into my vision so I figured someone was stopping her, good. I spit out the disgusting bleach-tasting shards. Edward's head shot up and I saw his pupils dilate. He flung himself forward. Simon screamed. My heart stopped. Was he dead? I saw a blur and the male half breed flew through the air. Alice arrived, I could smell her. The half breed didn't stand a chance as I heard Emmett smashing like a boulder, following her in. Ness dashed forward, frightened. Carlilse appeared at my side. Simon writhed on the ground clutching his arm. I hoped it was only broken. My heart sank. A clear bite mark was on his arm. Carlisle kneeled next to him and checked him for more injuries.

"His heart is strong," he said. Edward came back, his face devastated. Is it too late? I thought.

"Yes," he said grimly. "Ness...Ness.." he called to her quietly. She was holding his hand. She looked back crying. "You need to explain, give him the choice," he said in a pained voice. She sobbed wiping her face. I wanted to phase back to hold her but I had no clothes.

"Si..can you hear me?" she asked. He writhed, not registering. She held his face. "Si...honey?" she said louder. He looked at her, face twisted in agony, glasses askew. "That's it.." she said in a soothing, shaking voice. She reached forward, and I know she was dabbing tears off his face. "I know, I know honey. I know it's the worst pain. I'm so sorry," she managed.

"W..what.." he choked.

"I'll tell you," she said voice catching. "You are changing into one of us. The bite did it. If the change runs its course, you'll stop aging," she said stroking his hair as he shook on the cold ground. He didn't understand, I could tell.

"Edward is 100 years old roughly," she said, and his eyes bugged. She wiped more tears away.

"No.." he moaned.

"Yes. I'm only 7 years, I grew quickly, but I'm different from Edward and Bella. I can explain later, I promise." she glanced at me. "Jake isn't like one of us, he's different. he won't hurt you," she comforted. To demonstrate I sat down. "We're all not aging though, we will stay this way forever," she said. He looked like he thought we were crazy.

"You saw what happened. What other explanation is there for the super speed and strength. Or thier icy touch?" she asked. "There's not much time," she said pulling him so she held part of him in her lap. "You need to decide if you would rather die now. You won't burn any longer. You won't need to be immortal. Alternatively, you could let the venom spread for three days. The burn will stop, and you'll be 18...forever," she said, tears on her face. He looked so confused.

"We drink blood...animal blood to survive. We don't sleep, ever," she said, referring to her vampire parents. "We will help you adjust, but you'll look very different. You may never be able to see your loved ones again," she said stroking his cheek, continuously crying. I moaned softly at her pain. "They can't know the secret...it's dangerous for them," she said. He looked at her and I could see he was finally growing to accept her story.

"Bram...Bram.." he cried. She looked at her father. Knowing full well his love for a human worked out in the end.

"It might work Simon. We will have to tread carefully, but you may see Bram again, once you have adjusted to the new life," she said squeezing his hand. "You can live with us, we will take care of you. We will keep Bram safe. We promise," she added. "We love you," she sobbed the words. "If you choose to transform, we will accept this choice and not listen to you during the pain. It will end. It won't last forever. If you'd like to die, we honor your choice also," she said kissing his forehead.

"Bram...Bram...I can't leave him.." he cried miserably, jerking violently in pain.

"Could he accept you this way?" Carlisle asked him gently. Simon squeezed his eyes shut and nodded. "Is this your choice?" Carlilse asked carefully.

"How..how long will I burn.." he gasped.

"3 days," Carlilse said grimly. "We understand, we've all lived it," he added compassionately. I felt warmth on my face and realized they were tears.

"Then...I'll never die?" he asked.

"Yes," Edward answered, crouching on his other side, eyes tormented. "But Bram will..." he said gently, making the most painful part of this clear. Simon looked at him, and I could tell he was understanding Edward's old pain.

"But," Alice spoke. "If Bram wants this life, after he finds out what happened, we can change him as well," she said. "But it's his choice," she said calmly.

"He may not want it," Ness said.

"Bella changed to be with me," Edward said. "I met and fell in love with her when she was human. It was...dangerous for her, but it was what she wanted," he said, glancing back, and for the first time in this endless moment I registered Bella, and could tell she was crying in her vampire body; no tears. "She's happy," he whispered, smiling for the first time.

"18...forever.." Simon moaned.

"Yes," everyone said together except me. He closed his eyes.

"Yes," he said. Edward turned to Rosalie, who had arrived with Esme.

"Do you want to tell him your story?" He asked. She nodded and came forward. I knew it already, so I drifted back. Alice and Jasper stood a little way back.

"We were too late," Alice spoke. I sat on the ground, unable to respond. "I couldn't see the ambush because of the part vampires. It looks like Aro is using them to slip past my visions. Probably why he wants you," she added. My hair stood up, outraged by the notion. Jasper looked over, then sent a wave of calm energy. It helped dim the rage. A few minutes later I saw Edward nod and pick up Simon, who was twitching in pain. I suddenly smelled smoke. I turned and saw Emmett lighting a pile of remains. It wasn't taking long to catch.

"Back to the house," said Bella grimly. The others moved more quickly, but Ness and I walked slowly with Edward. Ness wound her hand into my fur, very comforting. She sent no thoughts, probably in shock. I was hurt to see she was still crying. She was very compassionate, and after me and her parents, Simon was her best friend. I couldn't phase to hold her and it weighed on me. We kept clear of the roads to avoid being seen. Simon moaned and writhed. Ness held his hand. I wondered what it felt like to burn. No one ever described it. As far as I knew, Bella didn't even remember. Nor did Alice. It sounded like pure hell.

The house was lit when we got home. Emmett left shorts for me on the porch, bless him. I went inside last after phasing. Edward had carried Simon to the couch and laid him down. Ness was sitting next to him.

"Bram..." he moaned, wanting him. "Please." I felt so bad. He couldn't open his eyes, his jerking never stopped. Someone had put his glasses aside.

"I'm sorry..." Ness cooed. "I'm sorry that we can't get Bram yet, honey. Soon..." she lied. Best to comfort him now and deal with the aftermath later. Bella brought Ness a damp cloth and she dabbed his face.

"Bram," he cried, obviously the pain had increased from before, if he couldn't follow what she was saying. I wondered morbidly at what point his ability to cry would vanish. Midway or at the end? I sat down next to Ness and nuzzled her gently, stroking her hair. She was a mess.

"Shh," she said gently dabbing his face. "Shhh, it's okay." Bella sat on the other side and took his hand. He squeezed it tightly in agony. Her face was pinched like she wanted to cry again. Edward sat on the floor by his feet. "I know, I'm so sorry, I'm here Simon. Right here," Ness said, keeping up the comfort. His lucidity started to dip out, preoccupied by the burning. I was grateful I never needed to know the pain. I held Ness's free hand. She was so distraught over his pain, and divide from Bram, and loss of his life. She was showing me her thoughts. I kissed her hand, at a loss for anything. Later when he lost the ability to respond completely, Carlisle said he would watch over him. I was desperate for Ness to rest. Her eyes were red and swollen. Edward and Bella flitted away, holding hands. Alice and Jasper were sitting on the couch. Esme, Rose, and Emmett had left to hunt. Preparing for the upcoming days.

I gathered Ness in my arms and sought my room in the house. I sat her down softly on the bed and shut the door. I felt so devastated for her pain. Powerless. I kneeled in front of her and stroked her hair. "Baby, I'm so sorry," I whispered. "What can I do?" I asked quietly.

"Come here," she moaned. I got up and climbed into the bed, laying back on the pillows. She climbed into my lap and I held her close against my bare chest. She rested her head over my heart. I kissed her hair. I wanted her to sleep.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked. She shook her head. She showed me an image of Bram, frantic. "Ness we may be able to help him. Bella met Edward and fell in love when she was human. It's possible," I said holding her tighter. "Want to sleep, honey?" I whispered, hoping she would. "I'll hold you all night," I said.

"No," she said in a strange voice. I couldn't understand the tone. Strangled but also...she stroked her hand down to between my legs.

"Ohh," I moaned, shocked. I felt myself stir. "Ness...why?" I asked weakly, so taken aback by this. She touched me more and I lost my breath.

"I'm upset, I want the closeness. I want to lose myself in you," She said kissing my chest. "Unless you think it's unfair. We don't have to," her touch disappeared. I thought about it and realized how much I wanted it too.

"It's okay," I said pulling her up to me and kissing her neck. She turned and kissed my mouth, connecting her tongue to mine. I felt such a desperation in each kiss. Rarely did she start so passionately with me. There was need so much more than desire. She never kissed me like that. She pulled herself down and straddled me. I was surprised by how much she commanded what was happening. I wanted her, and my body responded. I thought about what I should do tonight. It made sense to pleasure her again. I reached down to touch her but stopped as she pulled my shorts off with no warning. The next second I gasped as I felt her mouth on me. It was rougher than before, but I liked it. I felt an entirely different longing for her this time. Holy god, I thought as she experimented with different movements. It felt so so good. I felt myself quickly build. "Ness..."I warned, not knowing if she wanted this yet. She stopped and I felt the pain of wanting her to continue, but I wanted to pleasure her first. I reached down to pull her up to me so I could touch her but she resisted. I stopped and sat up. I felt less secure about what to do this time. Emotions were running hot and wild. She leaned down and slipped one of my balls in her mouth. I jumped. She did not do that last time. It felt good in a different way. Like a glowing ember instead of a burning flame. Ticklish and amazing. "Oh god, Ness.." I managed leaning my head back as she did the other. She stroked me while she did this and I could barely hold back. I held my breath, trying to. I didn't want to go this fast, I wanted to slow down. Then she stopped and got out of bed. I blinked and looked around for her. She had gone over to her blue travel bag.

"Jake," she said after and I looked at her. She was completely naked. My jaw dropped. "Are you okay?" she asked. I didn't understand. Of course I was. She held something up. It was a condom package, glinting in the dim light. My heart stopped in my chest.

"N..Ness," I said suddenly very anxious. Her expression changed. She came forward.

"Baby, it's okay if you aren't ready. There's no pressure honey," she said stroking my leg. My mind was blank. I'd waited years for this. Imagined it. But always held back because I knew it was right.

"Well..." I said in a tight voice. I felt myself lose my excitement. The suddenness of the emotion through me off.

"Do you want to go slow, stop if it's too much?" she asked climbing into bed and touching my parted lips. She looked concerned. I felt a cold sweat start. But wouldn't this have always been my reaction to losing my virginity? How strange how she was so much more relaxed and composed than me. But I wasn't sure. "I love you, for me It's making love," she cooed.

"Me too," I said quickly.

"Are you afraid?" she asked stroking my hair.

"Yes. I want to get it right," I admitted, bearing my soul.

"Nothing you would do would be wrong honey," she said stroking down my stomach. I felt almost an electric current of desire. I realized I wanted to try the first time she asked to make love to me.

"Alright, slow," I said striving to find a calm I didn't feel.

"That's fine," she said smiling. I gulped and she moved up to kiss my mouth, a lot more gently, lingering with each touch. She was trying to bring me back. She pressed her breasts lightly into my chest, pushing me down onto the bed, and I felt jumpstarted. I wanted her. "I love you," she whispered.

"I love you," I returned, voice steady. She moved down. I wanted to sit up but felt frozen lying back. Maybe it was better just to feel. She kissed and touched me and got my full arousal back. I moaned blissfully, hoping against hope the vampires were studiously ignoring us, because there was no stopping this now.

"Still okay?" she asked kissing my leg.

"Yeah," I replied, feeling still slightly on edge.

"Okay, you'll feel this," she said opening the condom. I closed my eyes, not understanding the anxiety I felt. She slipped it on me. It felt weird. I'd have to get used to it. She put lube on me too, and I shivered slightly. "You'll need to try and hold off so I can and then you can, but if you can't hold off it's alright," she said. I felt slightly mortified, hoping that wouldn't happen. She climbed up on me and the feeling of her pressing against me wiped my mind blank. "You can push when you're ready," she said kissing my stomach. I shivered. Then I did it and felt warmth and tightness. It took my breath away, feeling so good. I was worried I was hurting her. I pushed more so and connected with her all the way.

"Did I hurt you?" I gasped.

"No, it's fine," she said, but there was a note in her voice that tipped me off that it did slightly. But that was to be expected generally. I wasn't sure what I should do next to cause the least amount of pain. I slid my hands up to stroke her legs, lost in the sensation of being inside her. The closest I'd been to anyone. I thought she wanted me to act next. I pulled on her legs and rocked inside her and slipped a hand in front to stimulate her on the surface. She moaned and I could tell it felt good. She moved to meet me and the feeling of that started to get me to begin to want to come. I held it back, using all my concentration to do so. She pushed harder liking the friction. I gasped, lost in the moment of making love to her. Blissfully she climaxed, which was good because I couldn't hold on. She let me thrust more which resulted in a hot slow build and eventually I did climax, the best orgasm I ever had in my life. It knocked me breathless and the good feeling lingered on a lot longer each time she moved slightly to prolong my pleasure. I let out an almost pained moan and felt myself twitch, body tingling in waves of ecstacy. I couldn't believe how good it felt. Slowly she disconnected from me. And I felt her take the condom off. I was sort of floating as she moved up beside me. I wrapped my arms around her kissing her neck. Caressing her breasts. I know she liked to sleep in my t shirts. I slipped out of bed and brought one over to her. She looked blissed out, ready to sleep. I helped her put it on and moved her to lie across my chest. I kissed her hair.

"You are so good at sex. I want you everyday," I whispered. She grinned.

"You as well. You're mine," she said in a possessive smug voice.

"I always was," I said, closing my eyes.

"But now everything is. Your body is mine. And it's glorious," she said stroking my chest. I felt a swell of emotion and my throat felt hot. I just had sex for the first time. And none of it was bad… Well for me.

"Did it hurt at all?" I asked concerned.

"Yeah, somewhat, but that's normal I think," she replied.

"I'm sorry," I said instantly feeling bad.

"No we needed to do it. It should feel better soon." She said.

"Okay, let me know if you ever need me to stop, you know I will," I said gently. She looked at me, smiling peacefully and kissed my lips softly, as if exploring them for the first time. Eventually she pulled away and rested her head on a pillow.

"Alright, goodnight.. Love you," she said and I felt her start to drift.

"I love you too." I said.

…

The next morning was a bit of a shock. She unexpectedly joined me in the shower, I ended up making out with her against the wall, and eventually she wanted to have sex yet again. It was like a switch was flipped. Good thing she came prepared. I ended up making love to her from behind against the shower wall.. It was simply amazing, morning sex. She looked incredible. Her body was incredible. And I had a lot of stamina.

Insanely, we had sex again in the bedroom right after, still wet from the shower. It was becoming addictive. We couldn't get enough. I thought the sex was a sort of medicine to her stress and worry. She was blocking it out. So was I. But we needed to come down from the high.

The next morning the drop from the high was like extreme whiplash. It was ugly and awful. I immediately felt extremely guilty for taking pleasure in any form when Simon was in hell. I know we did it as escapist behavior, but still. I felt so bad. He was still writhing on the couch, Esme sitting next to him. Ness looked just as pained and repentant as we settled down next to him. He managed to talk to us for a little while about what was happening, but it was a real struggle for him to get words out. Ness was quietly talking to him again after a half hour.

"Si..I'm sorry," she murmured, dabbing his face.

"Ness please, I want Bram.." he barely got out.

"Simon…" she said quietly, looking upset and out of answers. I moved forward, feeling helpless as well. He looked up at me.

"Jake..Jake..you know Bram. He's worried sick...he'll be crazy not knowing. He won't...he's not," he broke off, looking unable to get anything else out. I thought about Ness, and I knew that if I were in his place, I'd be worried about her freaking out too. I wouldn't be able to rest. I reached forward and patted his shoulder. Then I turned and walked over to Edward. He adjusted his gaze to me from Simon.

He's not a vampire yet. He's not dangerous. I think we should bring Bram to him before he turns. It's his last chance for what could be a long time. You even said it could be years. He's going to want to reach out soon no matter what. So Bram will have it explained either way. I thought. He looked at me and I could see he was weighing the danger of this plan.

I'll phase. I'll get him to come. He loves Simon, he's not about to go to the police about him. You know that.

"I mean, I suppose there's something to that," he answered. I glanced back at Ness and knew Edward would tell her where I was going. I looked across the room and my eyes rested on Bella. I saw her looking at me and I could tell she was trying to follow our exchange.

"Come on Bells," I said, and as I moved to the door, she followed me without question, knowing I would explain. The others let us go. It was wrong not to help him with this. We owed him.

When we arrived at Bram's door I could hear him inside. The heartbeat was sped up, he was in distress. I knocked. Bella stood beside me looking worried. Bram answered.

"Oh my god, guys, thanks for coming, I'm in a panic," he said. He ushered us in. We followed, shutting the door.

"Edward told us you're having trouble finding Simon, we wanted to help," Bella said.

"I...I can't explain this," Bram said, looking a little crazed and exhausted. "Simon would never disappear like this. It's been two days for god's sake, and we talk everyday. I can't reach him on his phone. We didn't fight or anything. I'm going to go to the police next, what if something terrible has happened," he finished looking close to tears. It was clear in his face he had already shed some in fear.

"Alright, let's go before we call. Just to make sure, where do you want to start?" I asked. He got his coat and eagerly led us out.

"I guess let's take the campus again," he said. We did, and as we did, knowing it wouldn't amount to anything, I tried to think of where to lead him next, to phase and tell him the truth.

"Have you tried the soccer field?" Bella asked.

"I cannot imagine why he would be there, but what do we have to lose?" said Bram tiredly. I felt very bad for him. It was a great idea on Bella's part. When we got there, I picked up Simon's scent faintly again.

"Oh!" Bram cried out and I jumped. He ran over to Simon's backpack, left on a bench that none of us noticed. "This is bad, he'd never leave this...I think he was taken…" said Bram voice shaking badly.

I cleared my throat. How on earth was I going to start explaining this? "Bram...we have to tell you about something. It can't wait," I said, my voice sounding odd. He looked over at me looking confused.

"You mean we need to keep looking?" he said.

"Bram," I said. "I'm not exactly like you, and the only way to explain is to show you. I'm sorry it's so abrupt," I said awkwardly. Then I started to take off my clothes, and Bram's jaw dropped, completely thrown by this. As soon as they were off, I phased quickly, feeling the familiar rush of heat. Bram screamed, tipping backward, and falling down into the snow. Bella rushed to his side in case he tried to make a run for it.

Bella gripped his shoulder and spoke urgently. "It's still Jake, Bram. He's the same, and he would never hurt you," she assured quickly. In answer to that I sat down. He stared, catatonic.

"Obviously, this is a supernatural being," Bella continued. "We do walk among you," she said and he snapped his head to look at her. "I am as well, but I am different from Jake," she said, eyes looking strained.

"W..what are you?" he asked. She avoided the question.

"Bram, we need to go. It's about Simon," she said.

"Oh god…" he said looking weak. "Oh god...please...tell me what happened..is he okay?" he asked, tears springing to his eyes.

"He's alive, and I'll explain the best I can on the way," She said and started leading us back to the car. Bram followed as if in a trance.

"Who we are...as you can probably tell, Edward and myself aren't normal," she said. Bram kept up, paying close attention.

"No..no, I've always thought that," he said. I followed in wolf form, knowing I would need to phase back closer to the college.

"We're supernatural...and dangerous. Not bad. But very dangerous to...humans," she saood flinching.

"You're not human?" Bram asked, stupefied.

"No. Some of my kind, don't value human life...and they kill them," she said. He looked faint.

"One of our kind came to the school looking for us, but tracked the scent in. We spend a lot of time with you…" she said breaking off.

"Are you saying...one of your kind took Simon?" he moaned.

"Yes. We rushed to save him and we did. But we weren't completely successful," she said stopping and turning to him. He stopped walking.

"Is he hurt? Please Bella, tell me," he begged. I phased back and pulled my clothes on. Bram jumped, shocked. I nodded to him calmly.

"Bram, really, it's okay. I'm safe. I'm actually a shapeshifter. I take the form of a wolf," I said.

"It's...it's a lot to take in," he said sounding overwhelmed. Tell me about it.

"In a way, yes, Simon is hurt, but he will be fully healed," Bella said evasively. We moved across the street, closing in on the car near the campus. Bram looked slightly relieved.

"Okay, so my kind needs blood to survive. We don't eat. Actually, the blood we drink is animal blood. We hunt in the woods for deer. Animals humans also eat," Bella said. He looked perplexed. "But the kind that don't value human life, they drink human blood," she said reluctantly.

"So...like vampires, or something?" said Bra, grasping for straws.

" Yes..that's what they are Bram," I said steadily. He looked at me and his face drained of color.

"You...you're joking, you have to be.." he moaned. I looked at Bella and she looked back. She probably had to do something to show him. When we got to the car, she reached down, got a safe hold on it and lifted it up like it was nothing. Bram gaped at her, then she set it back down. "H..how is that even possible?" he whispered. Bella set the car down, then opened the door for him and he got in. I got behind the wheel and Bella got in the front seat. She turned around to look at Bram.

"We have many abilities that are supernatural. Super speed. Super strength. We don't need oxygen or sleep. Our skin is impenetrable. And...we're immortal. Like the stories about vampires. But garlic or silver or whatever does not pose harm to us. We don't turn into bats either," she said. He couldn't respond. He just looked at her. "We have additional abilities, or, some of us do. Edward can actually hear thoughts. My sister Alice has visions of what is to be. I can protect the minds of whoever I like," she said.

"Hear ...thoughts?" he asked blankly.

"Yes. When we were home in Washington, my sister had a vision that Simon would be in danger, and that is why we rushed back," she said.

"So tell me more about that please, it's killing me, what happened to Simon?" he asked. We were almost there, we had to get to the punch linie soon, otherwise I'd drive once around the block.

"Our kind comes about by the spreading of our venom. It's transferred through bite. If a vampire attacks a human but doesn't drink all their blood, the venom spreads through the body, and after three painful days, the person is a vampire. Leaving their human life behind," she said, and I could hear in her voice that she would be close to crying if she was still human.

"Wait…" Bram said, voice catching. "You're saying the other vampire, the one that kills people, he...he bit Simon," he looked like he was going to faint.

"I'm so sorry Bram...yes. Yes he did. We asked Simon if he wanted to live as a vampire, explaining what it meant. We also said that he could die if he wanted to. But he told us he couldn't leave you, and so he would become a vampire. It saved his life," Bella said. Bram put his head between his knees and gasped in what obviously was an anxiety attack. Bella looked at me looking upset. I stared at the road, feeling a frog in my throat. After Bram regained his breathing, he asked in a quiet voice, "Are you taking me to see him?" I looked at him in the rear view mirror.

"Yes, were going to our house," I said.

"Is ...is he a vampire?" he asked in a dead tone. I looked at him, worried he was going to faint.

"Not yet, he has another day roughly," I said.

"You said it was painful," he said turning to Bella. "Simon is in pain?"

She looked heartbroken. "Yes Bram, right now he is. We all went through it, although not Jake or Ness. They are different from us, but still supernatural. We can explain more later.

"What...what are we going to do now?" Bram said, and I saw tears running down his face.

"Simon told us he wants to live like us, to drink animal blood. We said we would help teach him. It's going to take time. When vampires are new, it is almost impossible for them not to be tempted by human blood. And you saw how strong we are. He loves you, but his natural instinct will take over. We need to keep him away from you, until it is safe. It takes time to learn, before you can live among humans," she said comfortingly.

"So..so I'll see him eventually?" he said.

"Yes, you can see him today because he's still human. And after that, we will reunite you when he has adjusted. But we don't know how long that could take. It could be from weeks to months or even longer," she said apologetically. Bram looked upset, be I could see it was sinking in. He was accepting it.

"Simon isn't going to age. He'll be 18 forever?" he confirmed.

"That's correct. Edward is 17 forever. I'm 18," she said. "Remember, Jake isn't a vampire, but he's not aging either. We estimate that his development is in his 20s or so," she said. "Ness is different too and she is about 17. In a year, she will stop aging," she finished.

"Does Simon know all of this, did you explain?" he asked, and I could see the original shock was wearing off somewhat.

"Yes, and he's been asking for you. He feels terrible that you've been worried. It's why we came to find you," I answered. Bram looked slightly comforted by this.

"What can I do now? I'm not going to go back to class without Simon. I just...can't imagine that while this is happening.." he said looking at his hands.

"It's possible you could go back with some of our family to our house in Washington. That way you can learn more in a safe place. Our family has lived amongst humans for years, you would be perfectly safe. We will bring Simon home there when he is ready," she said. He nodded thoughtfully. "At least you can see him tonight," she whispered.

"But I can't stay long, because he's going to be changing soon?" he confirmed.

"At this point, it should be tonight," Bella answered. I pulled up to the house. "Our other family is here from Washington. They are also vampires, but they do not hunt people and are perfectly safe. They came to help us save Simon. Ness is in there as well,' she said before getting out of the car. Bram took a deep breath and followed. He was really brave, I gave him credit for that. I thought and followed them in.