One month later
It had been over a month since Justin was bitten and joined the McCall Pack.
Gradually, since then, Justin's been spending most of the time just being a part time assistant for Scott's vet clinic. He had started getting a hang of his job since his first day at work. He gradually got better in his job and before he knows it, everything felt like clockwork.
Just as what Scott had said to him.
It felt like a routine and he had adapted to it.
That's something Justin feels proud of at least.
As long as he did good for Scott, he's glad.
As for his werewolf training, he has manage to gradually hone his werewolf abilities.
Having manage to hone his fighting skills as a werewolf.
Learned how to use his super hearing and werewolf sight.
Although his control in werewolf shift is still getting there as he still has trouble controlling his anger cause of his short-temperedness.
That's been the hardest part of Justin's life as a werewolf now: his anger. His easily triggered short-tempered anger.
The moment Scott was going hard on Justin in his training, Justin was easily set off and the anger fueled his strength, his anger-fueled werewolf strength being strong enough to manage to at least hit hard enough to a holding back, but still Alpha strength Scott.
It amazed Scott, but also made Scott worried. Justin seems to as strong as Liam. Probably even stronger than Liam. Which is why while it amazes Scott, it also worries him. For before, Scott had to deal with Liam's mishaps because of his anger triggered werewolf shifts.
Especially on full moons.
Judging from his experience with Justin so far, Scott can tell that Justin is going to have very challenging time controlling his werewolf shifts.
And apparently.
It's pretty much just on the day before the full moon that Scott's already beginning to really worry about Justin's werewolf shift just now. Justin has already been having trouble keeping himself under control. What more would it be like when the full moon happens.
Hell, Scott had already experienced first glance of what Justin looks like when he loses himself under the full moon. Scott had seen in his eyes that person in front of him was no longer Justin, but a raging, and ferocious beast that its only instinct is to maliciously hunt and kill its prey.
Fuck. This is such a last minute thing to think about. Scott curses at himself for only concerning about this just now as he and Justin finish up tidying and arranging the things in the mobile vet clinic after his last appointment for today. When he turns to look at Justin, he seems to be looking like in a good mood today.
Seeing Justin looking somewhat bright now makes Scott feel happy for him and glad he's been doing good in helping out Justin so far. It felt like Scott had gained another son after Liam and Alec. While he still doesn't completely know Justin, he knows how Justin, so far, has been doing pretty good. Although, it still concerns Scott that Justin still seems to be having nightmares occasionally. Likely the same nightmare that Justin told Scott to him about over a month ago. It's more concerning that Justin never really opened up about it despite how bad those nightmares were, brushing it off by saying "It's not really bad. I'll be ok."
He would've wanted to push more, but Scott felt that he is taking things too fast, especially when he can sense Justin's discomfort of mentioning about the nightmares. It's clear that Justin isn't a hundred percent comfortable in opening up with Scott.
But hey, it's been already over a month and, so far, Justin is making progress. It's slow, yet it's gradually getting good. That's something that Scott was thinking. Although, Scott knows that he still has to help him go through the full moon. His second full moon.
Not wanting to ruin his good mood, but he had to tell him, Scott talks to Justin about tomorrow's full moon.
"Hey, Justin."
"Yeah, dude?" Justin turns to Scott.
"How are you doing?" Scott wants to take things slow and not make Justin panic and worry about tomorrow's full moon. He probably doesn't even know about to tomorrow judging by how Justin looks like he's got nothing to worry at all, considering he's been doing a good job working as Scott's assistant and he's been looking like he's been at least proud of himself.
"I'm doing good. You?"
"Happy to hear you're doing, ok... And, Yeah. Same. Doing good."
Justin notices something about Scott's tone, sounding concern and worry.
"You don't seem a hundred percent doing good." Justin raises and eyebrow at Scott.
"What is it, Scott?" Justin asks.
Scott sighs as he reminds Justin about tomorrow, "Do you know tomorrow night is going to be a full moon?"
The moment Scott mentions about tomorrow's full moon, he knew that it's going to be an ice cold bucket of water splashing into Justin's positive face.
And it is when Justin's face falls upon hearing what Scott told him about tomorrow.
"Fuck... Is—Is it really—tomorrow?" Justin's voice is filled with dread, which upsets Scott as he knows this is something he doesn't want to see Justin feel. He silently curses at himself for just upsetting Justin like that, but his rational side tells him it's not his fault. He'll have to eventually tell him about it.
"Yeah. Tomorrow night is going to be a full moon."
Justin feels his chest go heavy as the dread inside him grew heavier with every second tick by. He steps back and collapses on a nearby small couch just by the side of the wall. "Fuck..." Justin exclaims and covers his face with both hands. Justin knew that despite managing to hone his werewolf strength, agility, and other various abilities, the only things he sucks at right now is his control. He has been struggling with it for over a month and he has barely made progress in managing to learn control of his werewolf shift.
He doesn't notice Scott sit beside him until he feels his arm hugging him by the shoulder.
"I know. You're still struggling in controlling your werewolf shift, but we will help you get through this."
"You think so?" Justin uncovers his face and looks at Scott with a dishearten frown.
"Last time, on my first full moon, you guys had trouble dealing with me and it took long to catch and subdue me until I got caught by the trap at the park."
"I know. Especially when we kept you inside the motel. Which is why today, now that was our last appointment for today, it's time we look for a place to keep you lock and safe for the full moon, at least a place where we'll won't cause trouble and disturbances." Scott then stands up and goes to unlock and open up a hidden locked box inside one of the counters in his mobile vet clinic and brings out what Justin knows for sure what he'll be having for tomorrow night.
"And we'll chain you up without any problem of causing any collateral damage."
Justin furrows at Scott.
"Can you make sure this time, the chains are strong enough to keep me leash?" Justin at least recalls that he did break free of his chains back in his first full moon.
"Yeah. We'll make sure."
Scott and Justin drive back to the motel and drop off the mobile clinic by the parking space before they transfer to Scott's motorbike where they spend the rest of the remaining day driving around the town of Oakland to search for a good discreet place to spend the night of the full moon together for Justin. A very well hidden spot of the town or a place where people aren't likely around during the night.
Eventually, the two spot what looks to be an abandoned warehouse just by the bay with a couple of boathouses. From the looks of the area, it looks to be a very well discreet place to stay hidden and out of reach from any unwanted bystanders as well as any collateral damage not likely to cause any disturbances.
Scott parks the bike and he and Justin get off and proceed to go check out the abandoned warehouse. Scott checks on the door leading inside to see if it might be locked. Thankfully, it's not when the door smoothly opens, which definitely means that this particular warehouse is indeed abandoned. When the two go inside the warehouse, they see the entire warehouse completely empty, with nothing but steel pillars that are supporting the abandoned warehouse. The whole warehouse inside is only lit up by the giant windows and roof window that are letting the sunlight shine through them.
Justin feels a slight shiver when he enters the warehouse, which must be from how the warehouse has been left abandoned for a long while. As they look around warehouse, checking at least of its integrity, Scott goes to one of the pillars and tries to check if the pillar is strong and firm enough so it won't cause any trouble in strapping Justin to it with the chains. Conveniently, the pillar is strong enough to hold Justin down for the full moon.
He thinks. Well, this warehouse looks to be a suitable place for Justin for tomorrow night's full moon, so it should be it.
"Hey, Justin."
"Yeah?"
"This should be the place for you."
"You think so?"
"Yeah. This warehouse looks to be abandoned, but at least doesn't seem to look like it'll fall apart."
"Yeah. I can see that." Justin looks around the warehouse for a moment to check more of the place, no doubt it seems that they can spend the night here. He turns to Scott, who's still by one of the pillars checking on its integrity, and goes to him. "Yeah. I think this—this is the place." Justin looks at Scott, wondering what he's doing checking on the pillar.
"What are you doing?" Justin asks.
"Checking the pillar if it's strong and firm enough to hold you."
"Is it?"
"I think so. I'm not exactly sure, but this should be good enough to hold you, Justin." Justin gives Scott a questioning look with a raised eyebrow. Scott notices his expression, "I assure you, Justin. It should help." Justin sighs, still not feeling completely reassured, but so far, this is the best place they could come up now after a long drive around Oakland checking for a discreet and safe place.
"Might as well take your word for it, then..."
Scott furrows at Justin, "You don't trust me on this?"
"Not really. Just...I don't know..." Justin leans back on the pillar and slides down on the floor and sits back on the pillar. "I don't know if—if I'll really be able to get through the full moon smoothly..." Scott goes to Justin and sits on the floor beside him, giving him a concerned look. "Are you scared, Justin?" when Scott asks Justin about it, Justin internally flinches as the word "scared". If Justin were to be honest, he actually is...
But the thing with Justin, he doesn't really want to show it, show someone how vulnerable he is. And while Scott and Alec have been very good people so far after a month of being with them, he may have showed them his vulnerable side when he first learned about how he became a werewolf and some other moments, but the prospect of how he's terrified of what will happen, what's gonna happen, he doesn't really want to show it. It's been a habit he's been doing for a long time now and it just feels like a force of habit by this point.
"Not really." Justin shrugs, although Scott can sense Justin's despondency. "I'm just not too confident it'll hold me down..."
Scott can tell Justin is still feeling on edge about tomorrow and now he's not feeling too certain if he'll be able to manage his second full moon. For real, Scott knows that Justin is going to have a bad time tomorrow night, Hell, bad time is a fucking understatement. Scott huffs silently of his thought. This is going to prove to be very difficult, he's never had a difficult time handling a Beta during the full moon ever since Liam.
Well, if Scott can handle Liam's struggle during a full moon, it'll be no different with Justin.
"I understand, how you're feeling right now." Justin turns to face at Scott, the despondence still in his warm greenish blue eyes.
"It's the full moon. Every werewolf struggles with keeping themselves in control."
"Really?" Justin gives him a look that says otherwise, a look of doubt, "Cause looking at you and Alec, you both don't seem to have a hard time at all. I never seen the both of you lose it and go lion-shit around the night."
"Well—you're not wrong, I'll give you that. But it doesn't mean it's easy for any of us to go through the full moon every time. And besides, it's only been over a month since you were bitten. The first full moons won't be so easy to get through, it'll definitely be a struggle. You're still learning. And I believe you will be able to."
"And why is that?"
"Look at you, Justin." Scott gestures at Justin, "You've been doing exceptionally well in your training so far. If you ask me, it felt like I've been training an athlete who's already experienced, just learning how to use his own abilities as a werewolf."
Justin gives a small smile, "Well, that's flattering."
"I mean it, Justin. I really do. If you can learn how to use your abilities, then so your control."
Justin eyes at Scott for a moment, seeing in his eyes just how much Scott is confident in Justin, how much Scott believes in Justin. Before he gives a nod to Scott, taking Scott's words of faith and belief in him for himself.
"You'll be there to help?"
Scott nods back at Justin, "No matter what."
The next day
Scott made sure he has no family clinic appointments for today, choosing to focus on helping Justin get prepared for tonight's full moon and getting through it without causing trouble that'll make any alarms that will expose the supernatural and any unnecessary bloodshed.
Scott knew that Justin is going to be on edge very badly when he saw Justin wake up again from another nightmare, likely the same as before or probably worse because of how the full moon's influence can affect a werewolf's psyche. He's experienced it himself when before his second full moon, he and Allison broke up and the heartbreak, anger, and dejection had been affected by coming full moon's influence, making him feel more dark and pissed off that he ended up being a backstabber to Stiles by making out with Lydia when Stiles asked him to ask Lydia if she thinks about Stiles.
Scott doesn't exactly know what Justin is feeling, but nevertheless, he'll help Justin go through the full moon.
Scott and Justin had spent most of the day trying to at least clear Justin's mind about tonight, with the two going for a stroll around the park, watching a cheezy comedy film (both aren't too keen of comedy films, but would be something to help Justin get his mind off more about tonight), and Scott taking Justin by the bay for another stroll, enjoy the scenery and sea air. Alec still stays behind to continue searching for a college to apply for, much to Scott's disappointment as it has been over a month, it really shouldn't take to long for Alec to find a college to be interested in. Although right now, Scott's more concerned for Justin's well-being at the moment. Not that Alec is concerned of, Justin does need help more than Alec does. It would be so badly selfish of Alec to not think that.
But, it still sucks how Alec is pretty much in the corner alone while Scott is too busy helping Justin. It pretty much feels like Alec had become an Omega already.
Night falls, Justin, Scott, and Alec had not really noticed until the sky had already nearly darken. Scott had called Alec to come over to the abandoned warehouse that he and Justin are already in, bringing the bag of chains and bondage for Justin. Alec had to take a taxi to get to the docks as Scott and Justin had taken the motorbike earlier this afternoon.
When he arrived at the warehouse, he walks to the warehouse while passing by a parked motorbike that's by the entrance, definitely Scott's. He enters the warehouse, the big empty inside of the warehouse very dim, with the moonlight faintly shining through the big windows and the roof window above. It's a good thing Alec had brought two flashlights with him in case. While the werewolves eyes have better sight, they're not entirely exactly like night vision.
After bringing out one of the flashlights, he turns it on and the flashlight shines through the dim room.
"Scott, Justin? Where you guys at?" Alec calls out for them.
"We're right here, Alec." Alec follows where Scott's voice is and he shines at one of the support pillars to see Scott and Justin waiting for him. Alec walks toward the two with the bag of chains and bondage behind his back.
"Good thing you brought a flashlight."
"Figured you forget to bring one with you, Scott." Alec sets the bag down, the sound of chains rattling in Justin's ears. Justin flinches at the rattling sound, having some trouble controlling his werewolf hearing. His dread begins to grow inside Justin, with every second ticking by, the full moon is getting closer and he can feel it coming very soon, his troubled hearing being the first sign that he's about to lose himself again for the night.
"Can we just get started in strapping me against this pillar now?" Justin's dread starts to make Justin anxiously become impatient, wanting to just get this over with right away. He tries to swallow that dread that's taking over him, but it's just too much to simply gulp away.
I really could use a fucking hit. Justin really wants a hit right now just to shoo away that anxious and dreadful feeling. Too bad he hadn't thought of bringing his gym bag with him, but Scott would be questioning him about it since Justin doesn't exactly have to bring the bag and he could just leave it in their motel room.
"Alright. Justin, you lean on the pillar. Alec, mind giving me a hand." Scott and Alec bring out the chains and bondage while Justin goes to lean back on the steel pillar. They first have Justin wear the bondage around both of his wrists and leash them onto the pillar. Then another pair of bondage on both of his feet, and one around Justin's neck.
"Justin, is it tight enough?" Scott asks Justin, wanting to make sure the bondage on both his wirsts are firm enough. Suddenly, Justin's right arm swings up abrutly, Scott flinching back on reaction before he looks up at Justin, his greenish blue eyes beginning to grow colder and darker. "Tighter." Justin's voice sounds darker than earlier, hinting to Scott and Alec that the full moon is nearing as they work on tightening the restraints on both Justin's wrists and feet.
After chaining Justin to the pillar with the bondage, Scott and Alec begin to working on wrapping the chains around Justin to completely. When Scott looks up to check on Justin, he could see Justin's face lacking of any emotion, but Justin's forehead is sweating while also sensing Justin's dread and anxiety, beginning to spike up due to the full moon. Justin is staring down, trying not to breath heavily as he doesn't want to show any form of fear that's prodding through his brave face facade.
He could feel his eyes beginning to well up, feeling how vulnerable and fucked up he is right now, but tries to blink and swallow away the fear that's been trying to knock through his mask.
"You ok, Justin?" Scott tries to check on Justin. "Yeah, I'm fine." Justin swallows back the dread more, hoping Scott won't notice, especially since Justin has already learned how werewolves can sense someone's feeling and vibe through chemosignals. However, so far, Scott doesn't seem to make use of his werewolf sense as he believes Justin, although likely Scott knows Justin isn't feeling ok since the full moon will come.
The minutes of wrapping the chains around Justin felt like forever, only the sound of the chains, restraints, and their breathing echoing through the empty warehouse. Not wanting to let the silence between the three eat in his anxiety more, Justin musters up to ask Scott.
"So—how do werewolves get through the full moon? You know—when they have trouble on concentrating and controlling themselves?" Justin hopes there has to be some way he can do to help pacify his werewolf instincts that will go berserk. Scott looks at Justin for a moment while he continues to wrap the chains around Justin. "There are various ways to do that. There are two in particular werewolves usually do."
"One, a werewolf can use an anchor. As in like a ship anchor."
"How?" Justin asks.
"An anchor is like some kind of an emotional tether that holds you down, keeping your werewolf instincts from fully going loose. What kind of anchor depends on the person."
"Like?"
"For me, when I was still struggling in concentrating and controlling my werewolf instincts, my anchor was my first love..."
"Has it—always been...?" Justin eyes at Scott with a curious look in his eyes.
"Before our second and final break-up..." Scott's voice slightly had a hint of despondence, which Justin catches on and he doesn't have to need werewolf super senses to sense it. "You can also be your own anchor. It's what I did. But seeing how you are right now, it's really difficult." Scott tries to give Justin ideas for him to come up with a good anchor for himself. Hopefully, Justin will come up with one.
"And what's the other way?" Justin continues to ask about the ways to help calm and keep him down from going bloodlust crazy.
"A werewolf can recite a mantra repeatedly. A mantra that gives meaning at least. Whatever mantra the werewolf uses depends."
"Sounds pretty religious if you ask me." Justin comments.
"Kinda. Yeah, it seems like, but it really works. I don't know a lot of mantras since I don't know a lot of werewolf packs that make use of a mantra, but I do know only know at least one really good mantra. It was a mantra used by a Buddhist werewolf pack." Scott's face falter for a moment, remembering Satomi's pack. Her pack had been a great alley and friend to Scott and his pack. Unfortunately, Satomi's pack had been completely decimated by Monroe.
Thinking about Monroe slightly sets off Scott, feeling his nose flare up and his anger and grief spiking up thanks to the full moon's influence. Scott looks down for a moment as he tries to focus on concentrating himself to keep his heart pulse low and calm, taking deep breaths. Justin notices the small struggle Scott is feeling at the moment. Eventually, Scott manages to keep himself in line again.
"You alright?" Justin's eyes furrow in concern at his own Alpha, having seemed to be set off after mentioning this Buddhist pack Scott mentioned to him. "Yeah." Scott deeply exhales, "I'm fine. I just...miss them... They were great friends and allies to my pack... We shared the same goal of keeping Beacon Hills in peace and stopping any threats that will threaten lives."
"Where are they now?"
Scott feels his voice get stuck, he doesn't really want to say it, just saying it felt hurt for Scott, the pack deserve better. When Scott couldn't answer to Justin, Alec, sensing his Alpha's discomfort, answers for Scott.
"Decimated. By Monroe."
Justin felt speechless for a moment, unsure how he can comment about it, but he knows that Buddhist pack really mean well to Scott that it must've hurt Scott till now.
"Shit... That—that really sucks. I'm sorry."
"It's ok." Scott sighs, finally remembering to breath as he had held his breath for a moment, not only cause he had a hard time talking about Satomi's pack, but also making sure he doesn't get shaken enough to lose control of himself. "At least no one else died after Monroe... So—here we are." Scott shrugs as he and Alec finally finish wrapping the chains around Justin. Scott and Alec fasten and secure the lock of the chains as Scott checks on Justin.
"Are you alright?"
Justin barely shrugs due to the chains, "Yeah. I'm ok."
"Are the chains and restraints firm enough?"
Justin checks to see if he can move his bondaged arms that are underneath the cold thick wrapped steel chains. The chains have really completely restrict his arms, so he turns to check on his legs that are bondaged as well. He tries tugging on both of his legs, feeling the restraints hold very firm and hard. So it should be enough at least for Justin. Sure Justin feels discomfort from the restraints, but he'd rather be safe than worry of his own well-being.
"Yeah. It should be."
"Alright, that's good then."
Scott and Alec settle on the floor. Now that they chained up Justin, all they can do now is wait out for the night and watch Justin, making sure that Justin doesn't break loose and escape.
"Soooo—do we just sit and wait?" Justin asks, his own voice slightly more darker than earlier, which makes Justin feel unsettled. Somehow, the part where they were chaining him to the pillar felt like forever for Justin when it actually didn't take long. Apparently, the part that would really take forever is waiting out the night. He could feel the dread and anxiety growing ever more heavier and his animalistic urge within him beginning to prod through Justin's mental psyche.
"Yeah. We wait and help you get through this." Scott shrugs in response, there's really nothing else they could other than wait out the full moon and get through it.
When the minutes felt like hours, Justin can feel the beast within him beginning to grow, the bloodlust starting to emerge in his mind. Justin can feel and hear himself breath heavily, sweating profoundly due to stress and the beastly urge inside him beginning to pound into his head. Justin knows that tonight will be a big struggle and if not careful, someone might get killed because of that. Because of Justin. Knowing that there's a chance that, despite the strong chains and restaints he's wearing, he might break out of them, Justin tries to speak up to Scott and Alec.
"Scott. Alec." Justin's voice crocked, a tiny tremble, but dark tone in his voice.
"Yeah?" Scott and Alec look up at Justin, both having been silent and staring down on the floor. Justin eyes at them both, his stare growing more dark "Should ever things get fucked up, if ever I might—hurt or—kill someone, please... Knock me out real hard or—maybe just kill me."
"Hey." Scott didn't take Justin's request lightly. Scott wouldn't mind knocking Justin out cold, but to kill Justin, it's a line he would rather not step over.
"You're gonna be ok, Justin. You're going to be."
Justin shakes his head, he winces, although because he could feel his inside beginning to burn up and his human mind beginning to go in confict with his werewolf intincts slowly growing berserk.
"Please..." Justin starts to groan, the discomfort within him growing more. "I don't want to hurt people. I don't—" Justin sharply inhales, feeling like a spike has stabbed him inside of him. "—want to hurt—you guys."
"We know." said Alec.
"And you won't hurt or kill anyone. Not even us, Justin."
Justin stares up at the two, looking at them in disbelief for a moment, but eventually he takes their word.
"Ok—just—if ever—shit goes down—stop me—no matter what."
Scott and Alec nod at Justin in agreement, "We will, Justin. You'll be ok." said Scott.
Justin's breathing grows heavier as minutes tick by and the violent impulses of his werewolf side begins to tear down into Justin's mind. Scott and Alec both look up at the roof window to see the full moon beginning to emerge from the cloudy night sky. The ominous moonlight begins to slowly shine through the window and the moonlight slowly begins to seep through the empty space at the trio.
Sensing that Justin's werewolf impulses beginning to burn into Justin's head, Scott decides to share the Buddhist mantra to Justin as it should be able to tame and calm him. It should help.
"Three things cannot be long hidden:" Scott begins the saying as Justin's head shoot up frantically with wide dark eyes, his heavy breathing growing ever more deeper and the hot sweat in his head dampening his face. Scott continues, "This is the mantra the Buddhist werewolf pack used to subdue themselves when under stress and their violent impulses trying to overtake their minds.
"Ok—I—see—where you're getting at." Justin pants, the burn inside him growing hotter and more unbearable with each second.
"So—what's the mantra?" Justin's eyes bare down at Scott's, a grave desperation in his blue eyes, as if pleading to Scott that he could use that mantra right about now as he could feel himself beginning to lose himself.
The ray of moonlight continues to slowly crawl towards the three.
"Three things cannot long be hidden: the sun, the moon, the truth."
"That's it?" Justin's breathing continuing to grow heavier and beginning to turn shallow and rapid.
RUN. HUNT. KILL. Justin begins to hear the dreadful and monstrous voice echo in his head. FUCK! NO! Justin curses at himself.
"Yes. Just recite the mantra and repeat it." said Alec as he turns to see the moonlight having reached his toes already and he begins to have the unsettling feeling of his werewolf impulses shoot up and sear his mind, but manages to concentrate and keep himself focused in control.
"Now tell us, Justin. What three things cannot be long hidden? What are those three that can't be hidden long?"
Justin begins to struggle himself, the violent instincts in Justin's mind begins to sear him as the beastly voice in his head gradually grows louder.
RUN. HUNT. KILL.
"The sun—The moon—The truth." Justin's voice grates.
"Alright, Justin. Good, now just repeat the mantra until you feel calm. You can try to take a deep breath while repeat the mantra."
RUN. HUNT. KILL. The dreadful voice continues to echo and bang in his mind.
Justin tries to take a deep breath and attempts to repeat the mantra.
"The sun—The moon—The truth."
RUN. HUNT. KILL.
"The sun—The moon—The truth."
RUN. HUNT. KILL. The voice starts to roar in his head, making Justin grit his teeth in pain, feeling his teeth beginning to bare fangs.
"The sun—The moon—The truth." Justin tries to step up his pace, trying very hard to make the mantra work. He tries to understand the meaning behind the mantra, particularly, "the truth". How does "the truth" mean to Justin?
What's the truth...
...about Justin?
"The sun—The moon—The truth." His overheated mind begins to think about "the truth" of Justin Foley.
Justin Foley...
...
...
Justin Foley...
...
...
Justin Foley...
...
...
...is a fucked up...homeless...junkie...monster...
Justin...is a fucked up homeless junkie and monster.
Apparently, the same beastly voice is speaking out the thoughts in Justin.
A FUCKED UP! HOMELESS! JUNKIE! AND MONSTER!
Justin winces and shuts his eyes tight, the roar in his head becoming unbearable as he silently whimpers, "N-No..."
He's FUCKED UP! HOMELESS! A JUNKIE! AND A MONSTER!
The monster inside him roars loudly, the tone mixed with malice, hostility, anger, and sadistic.
Because he DECEIVED PEOPLE! He DECEIVES EVERYONE AROUND HIM! He DECEIVED JESSICA! And he HURT HER! And he DECEIVED HANNAH! And he KILLED HER!
And now...Justin...is all alone... No one loves him... No one cares for him... EVERYONE...HATES HIM...
And no one will be there...to help him... No even his own Alpha...nor his own pack friends... And he's now all fucked up...and homeless...and a junkie...
Justin could hear the monster bite him with sadistic malice.
But...
No matter what...
Even before he was bitten...
The voice starts to sneer into Justin.
Because of what he had done...
What he had done...
Not just Hannah...
Not just Jessica...
Not even just his own fucked up mom...
But everyone...
Everything he had done...
Running...
Hiding...
Deceiving...
And hurting...
Justin Foley...
He could feel the monster grin sadistically and malicious at him in his shut eyes.
...is a monster...
And he'll ALWAYS WILL BE A MONSTER! THAT WILL HURT! AND EVEN KILL PEOPLE! ESPECIALLY THOSE HE CARES FOR!
FUCK YOU! Justin vehemetly cries out in anguish, his scream ended up morphing into a roar. The loud roar gets Scott and Alec feeling unsettled.
Especially, the mantra that have usually worked to help subdue a lot of troubled werewolves...
Had done little to no effect.
Worse.
It only seemed to have worsen Justin. Scott and Alec sense Justin's violent impulses and bloodlust skyrocketing, and Alec turns to Scott with fear in his eyes, with Scott sharing the same look at Alec. The fact that the Buddhist mantra that have been so helpful in taming troubled werewolves not working is something that they cannot understand.
And it's terrifying.
The moonlight has reached past Alec and has now reached Scott, the shining gleam crawling through Scott's back.
"Scott." Alec's voice trembles, not comprehending how the mantra had not worked, "It's not working."
Justin's panting grows worse, his sweaty face had already dampen his hair. Justin is looking worse now.
There has to be a way. Scott tries to come up with another way to help Justin. The mantra is already out of the line. If Satomi's own mantra won't help subdue Justin, then there's no other mantra that can really be effective. Scott moves on to try the other way of subduing a werewolf's instincts and impulses.
"Ok. Uh—try to think of an anchor. Find something you can think of to make it your anchor, Justin." Scott fervently gives Justin the idea to try using an anchor to tame himself. As Justin continues to intensely and violently struggle in his chains and restraints, the beastly violence in him already overtaking him, Justin in his mind frantically tries to search for something that he can use as an anchor.
Scott said it could be in any way that can be used as an anchor. Justin thinks back of what Scott talked about the anchors and remembers that Scott's anchor was his first love. So Justin tries to think about Jessica, which while not the first girl he fell for, Jessica was the bright light in his dark and fucked up world.
He tried to think about the times they were close together.
The times they were intimate together.
The times they were grateful for each other to be together.
When they kissed...
When they embraced...
When they felt each others' warmth and touch...
Remembering all those loving and happy memories of Jessica...
Justin and Jessica loved each other...
Justin loved Jessica...
And Jessica loved Justin...
Jessica had loved him...
...
...
...
And Jessica hates him now...
Despite all the many beautiful and loving memories of him and Jessica, two memories, two heartbreaking and betraying memories, completely overrun all of those positive memories.
When Justin didn't stop Bryce from raping Jessica and lied to her.
And when Justin admits the truth and Jessica breaks up with him, where she was feeling completely backstabbed, betrayed.
Both of them have one thing im common: Justin lost Jessica.
Justin lost Jessica.
She hates him now.
And she'll never forgive him.
Jessica...is gone...
Justin had lost the light, for he let the dark and fucked up things in his fucked up life snuff the light's life out and there's nothing but darkness and hopelessness in Justin's already despondent and decimated life.
Unfortunately...
Jessica Davis could not be Justin's anchor.
For Justin had destroyed her.
And there's no one else he could think of where he had shared a strong bond.
Bryce, his own best friend, who Justin thought considered his brother, had been manipulative and taken advantage of Justin, and eventually betraying Justin.
Zach had kinda drifted apart from Justin due to the stress of Hannah's tapes.
Justin's mom, Amber, is too fucked up and too concerned for the asshole Seth and never considered or care for her own son's well-being. Maybe never even loved Justin. Her own blood. Her own kin. Her own son. She would've tried to find an effort and care to look for Justin. But four months had past, and mommy is nowhere to be seen.
The moonlight had already bathe half of Scott, the moonlight growing real closer to Justin.
Growing desparate, he tries to think about his own pack: his Alpha, Scott, and his fellow pack-mate, Alec. They've been so caring, considerate, kind, and helping to Justin, notably for Scott. It has been over a month and Justin's been doing good and still part of the pack. Scott and Alec have been kind and caring to Justin...
...so far.
Despite that, Justin haven't really opened up with either of them. Especially about his life before the streets, how he got himself in the streets alone with no one to throw the lifeline at him. And because of that, despite the care and kindness Scott and Alec had given him, it's clear that Justin isn't completely close with them. And it's worse that Justin fears and dwells about how Scott and Alec would think of Justin when they do know. Would they still care and show kindness as now? He doesn't know, but he is sure as hell that they'll likely see him differently than now. And it's definitely in a negative way.
Sadly, not even Scott nor Alec can be his anchor.
And then...there were none...
FUCK! Justin is all alone...
Justin feels like he's standing on a great precipice. With no one to help him, to throw the lifeline for him to grab on and be pulled to safety, for Justin is all alone. Justin feels helpless as the beastly monster within him claws his way into him. Its claws now gripping Justin in a very constricting way that Justin felt like he's already suffocating under the monster's mercy.
Feeling his shut eyes beginning to well up as he is on the verge of breaking down in agony and pain, he tries to think about himself, trying to be his own anchor. It's already his last and only option left. Unfortunately, with all the bad Justin is and Justin had done, he couldn't remember nor think anything good of himself.
There's nothing good about Justin Foley...
And Justin hates himself. For everything he had done, for ruining everyone and everything he had come and go.
You are no good to anyone. The same malicious and sadistic voice mocks Justin when mid-sentence, it had morphed into a more familiar voice. A voice Justin feels all too familiar of...
Not even to yourself. The voice sneers sadistically.
When Justin opens his eyes, a menacing and figure is right in front of his face, neither Scott nor Alec could see. Only Justin sees. The dark and malicious face Justin is now staring at is all too familiar to Justin, dread swallowing him up.
"What the hell are you...?" Justin whimpers as the man's face is now directly in front of him. His gleeful and dark eyes bare down in Justin's. The person scoffs at Justin.
"What the fuck do you think I am, Foley?" The man sneers as he flicks out his claws right in front of Justin, his face filled with malice and an evil grin.
"I'm your worst nightmare. I'm you."
Justin's breath begins to hyperventilate at the sight of his own dark self as his dark self grins maliciously.
"And I'm what everyone sees when they get hurt. When we hurt them."
"Fuck you!" Justin grits his teeth in anguish.
"You're a monster, Justin." dark Justin raises his claws before he finishes his words, "And you always will be."
And the moonlight finally reaches and engulfs Justin.
And at the same time, he stabs his claws into Justin's guts, earning a scream of pain from the boy.
Scott and Alec flinch back from Justin as his screams morph into a beastly roar. They look on helplessly as Justin's once warming greenish blue eyes change into fiery yellow piercing eyes, his teeth now baring fangs, and his face morphs into a beastly face.
The man in front of Scott and Alec is no longer Justin, but now a rabid and impulsive beast.
"Nothing worked..." Scott breaths out in loss as nothing had been able to subdue Justin. The mantra didn't work and it seems clear that Justin couldn't find an anchor.
"Now what?" Alec asks, looking at Scott with worry. Scott turns to Alec with a lost look in his eyes.
"I don't know.."
The two look back at Justin as he violently struggles and thrashes in his chains and restraints, snarling at the two sane werewolves.
Seconds turned into minutes...
And minutes turned into hours...
Scott and Alec had lost track of time being too focused on keeping eye on Justin, still out of control and violently struggling in his chains, trying to break out and escape.
Suddenly, Scott and Alec notices Justin's piercing yellow wolf eyes fade to Justin's warm blue human eyes. A part of Justin emerges to them, although mixed with his werewolf form.
"Scott. Alec. Please." Justin begs, his humane voice had been deformed with a beastly tone.
"Don't let me do something bad."
"I know. We'll won't, Justin." Scott tried to reassure Justin when he suddenly tries to lunge at Scott out of the influence from the full moon.
"We'll make sure of that." said Alec.
"Please! I—I could feel it. I—I could feel myself—wanting to hurt you both." Justin tries lunging again, the chains holding him back.
"I—I want to feel your fleshes been torn apart! Reach out and slash your faces all over! Feel the bones crack and break beneath my hands! Your blood drenching me! PLEASE! YOU HAVE TO STOP ME!"
"We will, Justin. But we are not going to kill you, alright?" said Scott as he tries to hold Justin tenderly.
"We're not going to kill you."
And right when Scott says those words to Justin, Justin tries to lunge again, and this time, the chains wrapping around him begin to break.
Scott and Alec sees this and look at each other, both realizing that the chains and restraints are about to break and let Justin loose. Justin breaking free is now inevitable.
"Alec, get ready."
"I know."
Scott and Alec back away from Justin, both readying themselves for the fight that's now about to unfold.
After what felt like hours, Justin, his strength having grown too powerful thanks to the full moon, finally breaks free from the chains before he lunge out to break away from his restraints.
And right at that moment, Scott and Alec shift into their werewolf forms before all three werewolves roar at each other.
Scott and Alec fight off the berserk Justin. The werewolves throwing, punching, and slashing each other, the two trying to subdue while the other completely filed with raging bloodlust. It's all pain, sweat, and blood. The fight went on like forever, none of them even noticing as they've been too pre-occupied in their own fight.
Eventually, the werewolves have weaken each other, but Justin himself is still too strong. So it's no surprise that Justin overpowers both Scott and Alec, though both of them have been holding back since they were trying to knock him out. He knocks Scott away to a steel pillar while Alec is thrown against the wall. When Alec tries to get up, Justin senselessly lunges at Alec, the man trying to bite and tear Alec's face off while Alec, with all his last strength, trying to push him away, but Justin pushes himself harder at Alec.
"Justin!" Alec grits his teeth at Justin, Alec trying to reach and call out to his own pack-mate, but Justin still continues to try tearing Alec apart. Alec catches Justin's left hand raising up, realizing that Justin is about to slash him to death. "Goddammit! Justin!" Alec yells, but Justin's human conscious is too far down. Just as Alec is about to be slashed to death by Justin, Scott barely reaches his Betas and knocks Justin off of Alec.
Adding a bit of his Alpha strength that he held back, Scott forcefully pushes Justin to the wall hard, Justin gnashing and snarling at Scott, trying to break free from Scott's grip.
With just enough time and energy, Scott roars at Justin with authority and for obedience.
"JUSTIN!" Scott's Alpha red eyes intensely flare up while he roars Justin's name. The roar manages to snap Justin back to himself, his fearsome and angry look switch to a shock and scared look in his beastly face. Scott breaks his grip before Justin frantically crawls back in shock from the roar, his human conscious fully emerging back, albeit still in his werewolf form, his eyes, however, have revert back to his human blue eyes.
Justin pants for a moment, trying to recover from the shock, feeling as though he was woken up by a cold splash of water. He feels himself completely covered in sweat, his grey shirt having some tears and slashes around the chest and abdomen area, with some bloodstains. He looks back up at Scott and Alec, having gotten up earlier, but slightly limping when he went to them. Justin notices the two are panting and look pretty beaten up, bruised, and slashed. He looks down at his hands, covered with bits of blood and his werewolf claws still protruding out of his hands as shame and distraught comes flooding into Justin.
"W-What happened...? Did I hurt anyone?"
Scott and Alec sigh in exhaustion as they collapse down on the floor, sitting.
"Not too serious, at least. Even though you almost slashed me to death."
And then guilt overcomes Justin, realizing he almost killed someone in just his second full moon.
Justin looks back up as he stares at Scott's and Alec's exhausted and defeated faces, with Scott's face having a hint of horror, which meant that something happened along the line during Justin's full moon werewolf frenzy that got Scott looking terrified, which he hides it pretty well, but Justin can see through it. It dreads and worries Justin all the more.
It's only been my second full moon and I almost killed someone...
The three went back to the motel, all exhausted from tonight's full moon. On the bright side of things, Justin didn't escape the warehouse and didn't hurt or kill anyone out there, so it's something for the three to feel grateful for. Unfortunately, they're all still shaken up Justin's violent full moon outburst.
As Justin goes inside their motel room, Scott tells him he'll be right back to check on Alec, who was instead walking back to the motel since Scott and Justin took the motorcycle.
"Justin, I'll be right back. I'm just gonna look for Alec."
"Ok..." Justin mumbles, feeling weak after what had happened earlier that night as he lets himself fall on the bed, staring up blankly at the ceiling. Scott gives a worried and sad look for a moment before he proceeds to exit the room and close the door behind him.
Just as he's about to go check on Alec to look for him, Scott turns to see Alec already next to him, his hands on the balcony railings, leaning on his left leg as he's still pretty injured from the fight earlier.
"Alec, you alright?" Scott sighs as he goes to Alec to check on him, when he sees a glimpse of Alec's face, it had a very grim look.
"Yeah, I'm good alright." Alec huffs sarcastically, which tells Scott that Alec is the complete opposite of feeling alright.
"You're healing?" Scott asks in concern as he tries to check on Alec, who slightly winces in pain from Scott's touch. "I'm fine. Just it'll take a while..." said Alec.
"I know. You should be fine later."
Alec turns to look at Scott with a glare, which is what Scott doesn't expect.
"He almost fucking killed me."
"I know, Alec." Scott tries to keep each other level-headed as they've been through a rough night.
"We've never dealt this kind of situation before."
"No shit, Scott. This never has been supposed to be so bad to the point we would nearly get ourselves killed, especially when the mantra didn't work. What the fuck was that?!"
"I don't know. It should've worked. The mantra should've been able to help calm Justin's mind." Scott begins to question in disbelief as how did the Buddhist mantra not work with Justin.
"Well, it didn't, Scott."
"It REALLY should've worked, Alec." Scott turns at Alec with a serious face.
"It worked on Liam. Justin was like Liam, pretty short-tempered, in fact, his short-temper isn't as bad as Liam's. Which is why I'm really confused right now as to why it didn't work for Justin."
"What the fuck is up with that guy? Knowing what's the meaning behind the mantra, could Justin have done something a lot worse than Liam's spontaneous violent outbursts?" Alec asks suspiciously about Justin, questioning about how Justin is and how it affects Justin's werewolf abilities.
"I don't know."
"Seriously? You guys have been together for one month and you still don't know about Justin?"
"He hasn't opened up much about himself yet." Scott sighs in frustration.
"How can we still trust him, Scott? How the fuck can we help him if he ain't gonna be open with us?!" Alec glares at Scott, the frustration growing.
"As much as we can, Alec!" Scott yells at Alec, thankfully no one else is around to hear them arguing. Scott takes a deep breath, trying to calm himself for a moment before he says to Alec.
"As much as we can. We just need to be patient with Justin. He'll open up with us eventually."
"And if he doesn't?" Alec eyes at Scott, questioning him just how far Scott can really go in believing in Justin, who hasn't opened up with them for a month.
"What if he doesn't and the next full moon, when we have no clue what the fuck is up with Justin to help him, he's gonna get someone killed. For fuck's sake, he almost killed me! We barely stoped him tonight!"
Alec looks at Scott with a hurt in his eyes.
"A fucking homeless junkie, who you saved, almost killed your Beta, Scott."
"He's my Beta, Alec." Scott frowns at Alec, who frowns back at his Alpha.
"So am I, Scott! And I've been with you for five years while for him, you only know him for one month!"
Scott had no more words to say, him and Alec already too tired to continue arguing before Alec says the last words to each other.
"We can't trust and be patient with him for too long, Scott. Maybe you, but you gotta do something with Justin or he's gotta go."
While Scott and Alec were arguing outside, unbeknowst to them, Justin was listening to their arguement the whole time with his werewolf hearing while he continues staring blankly at the ceiling. His eyes were welling up as his guilt and shame grow worse hearing them argue about him. Justin shuts his eyes out to stop himself from letting the tears breal down. However, Alec was right about Justin.
Justin hasn't opened up with them for over a month and he had lost control of himself once again and almost killed Alec. They don't know Justin well enough to help him figure out how to keep himself sane and in control during the full moon. Alec has the right to be pissed off right now at Justin.
Once again, Justin has fucked up again.
And it's clear now that their trust in Justin, especially from Alec, have dwindled because of tonight's full moon.
After arguing, Alec huffs out in frustration and leaves the motel, going for another long walk for alec to cool down.
Scott only looks on at Alec, a defeat and tired look in his eyes, before he disappears into the city streets. It had not been the first time he was called out for trusting too much, for trusting everyone. The last time he completely trusted someone who he doesn't really know in his pack, that person had torn the pack apart and backstabbed him and his friends.
He worries for a moment if Justin would turn out to be like Theo before, if Justin would backstabbed and ruin everyone in his pack. Hell it already is happening with Alec.
But then, Scott had spent his time with Justin the longest at least and had been keeping a close eye on him. So far, Justin hasn't done anything suspicious and malicious, no sign of him planning anything suspicious behind him. And sensing from Justin, Scott knows well that Justin is really just a homeless junkie boy he had found in a dark alley. A pretty suspicious place to come from, but Scott can tell Justin isn't like any of those fucked up junkies and any troublemakers.
Justin's really just a homeless kid who he has saved, nothing else.
Despite tonight, Scott will do everything he can to help Justin. It terrified Scott that no methods have worked so far to help Justin subdue himself, but he'll won't give up on him easily. Whatever Justin has done in the past that could be worse that Liam's I.E.D. outbursts, Scott doesn't care of what Justin may have done, for he'll do everything he can to help Justin.
He sighs out of irritation and exhaustion before he enters back to their motel room, he checks on Justin, who's lying down, his eyes closed, but Scott can notice Justin is still awake.
"You alright, Justin?"
Justin's eyes open and he look at Scott for a moment before, with a despondent look on his face, turns away to face at the other side, away from Scott, feeling too shame and guilty to look at his Alpha.
"I almost killed Alec..."
Scott sighs, "Yeah... You-uh...almost did..."
Scott sits on the bed beside Justin as he holds him by the shoulder, but Justin doesn't turn around. Scott doesn't mind.
"But you didn't kill him, so it's fine."
"How the fuck is it fine? I almost killed your Beta, Scott. And it's my fault."
"It's not your fault, Justin. It's not your fault none of the methods work, not the mantra, and you couldn't find your anchor..."
"You're going to be alright, Justin. We'll still help you, in whichever way possible."
"And what makes you say that? How the hell could you still trust me?" Justin turns a bit to glance at Scott, a discerned at Scott.
"My thoughts about you haven't changed. You're still good, Justin. Nothing can really change how I think of you. You really just need help, Justin." Scott tries to give reassurance to Justin.
"As I said before, you got this. I'll won't give up on you."
Justin blinks, his eyes pondering for a moment before he turns back from Scott, it doesn't seem to completely convince him, but he settles down in the least.
"Ok..." Justin mutters as he decides to bring up the blankets over him, wanting to cover himself from the world as he tries to sleep.
Scott stares at Justin for a moment, concerned, but eventually let's go of Justin. He goes around the bed to check on Justin. It didn't take too long for Justin to fall asleep. Scott smiles sadly as he goes and tugs the blanket a bit for Justin to properly snooze in.
It's been a rough night for them, but Scott won't give up on Justin easily.
Justin wakes up in a small dim hallway, the light very weak to properly illuminate the whole room. At the end of the hallway, he sees a door frame, no door but the door frame.
He slowly walk to the empty door frame, the room inside completely dark as he could feel himself swell up in dread and nervousness inside him. He should've stopped, but his body feels like a mind of its own, not listening to Justin's plead to stop and not enter that dark room when he really has no idea what's inside.
He eventually enters the dark room and there, he sees what room he has just entered.
And the sight horrifies him and makes his stomach turn in nausea.
He's in Jessica's bedroom.
Covered in blood and gore.
With Bryce, his body completely mangled and torn, on the right side of the room. His dead wide eyes staring up at Justin.
And in the other end of the corner, a dark figure sitting on top of Jessica's bloody and slashed corpse on the bed, the figure gnashing and slashing on Jessica's dress and dead body. Justin stares down in horror looking at Jessica's dead eyes for a moment when the figure senses someone else is with him inside the room and swiftly turns around with an animalistic look on his face.
An animalistic look.
On Justin's face.
The other Justin stares down at Justin, his werewolf piercing yellow eyes baring down intensely on his human greenish blue eyes.
Justin's breath hitches as werewolf Justin slowly gets out of Jessica's bed and stands up, a dark and evil grin slowly forming on his beastly face.
"Hey, Foley. Wanna have a little fun with your buddies." he playfully calls Justin out with a dark tone.
Terrified at his werewolf self, Justin quickly turns around and attempts to run away from him. But he only barely made it out of the room when werewolf Justin grabs Justin by the ankle and Justin falls on the floor before getting himself dragged forcefully back inside.
He screams as he's thrown back at the end of the bedroom, past the curtains, and slammed his back against the wall.
He grimaces in pain before he looks to his right to see someone, which horrifies him more.
It's Hannah.
Lying lifelessly on the floor with dead glassy eyes.
And her wrists cut open, bleeding profoundly on the floor.
Justin pants with wide eyes of horror as he turns to see werewolf Justin already facing him in front of his face, growling. He cowers back from his dark self, but is nowhere else to run as his dark self snarls at him.
"You killed them, Justin. You killed them."
Without warning, his clawed hand rips out Justin's heart.
Justin sobs and chokes at the sight of his own heart completely ripped out of him, feeling as though his own soul has been ripped out of him, leaving him a hollow and empty shell of himself.
He collapses and blacks out before his dark self sneers at him.
"And now I'm killing you."
Justin wakes up startled and agitated in the middle of the night. He scrambles around the dark room for a moment as he manages to calm himself.
The nightmare he just had is worse than before, having went from a fucked up version of his guilt-trip memories to having to deal with himself, completely fucked up. Showing how much Justin loathes himself. How much Justin is scared of himself now. For hurting people.
Justin sighs back down in relief as he turns to check on Scott and Alec, in the least, Justin's startled awakening didn't disturb and wake them up. So he lies back down and stares up at the ceiling, feeling restless now as he begins to go into his train of thought.
Despite deciding to turn a new leaf for himself, trying to start with a clean slate and trying to forget his fucked up past, apparently it still manages to catch up on Justin, worse than before.
It worries him worse as he thinks back on his second full moon and his recent nightmare he had experienced just now.
It didn't take long until Justin sneaks into the bathroom and shoots himself up with heroin, just to get away from the pain and suffering from his past, his nightmare, and actions from his second full moon.
Get away from them as far away as possible.
And hide the fact that he's scared that he maybe becoming worse than before despite everything he's been doing to be better.
And him being a werewolf isn't really helping at all so far.
Just a small hint for the next chapter (it'll be another 1 month time jump): Justin is gonna go on a little trip with Scott and Alec.
Reviews and constructive criticism are appreciated!