A/N: Hey guys, I'm back, hope you like it:
She is lost. The road ahead is long, and winding and she can't see the path over the fog that's settled down. No map, no directions, no help.
She is alone. Walking blindly ahead with nothing more than a hope that's slowly fading as she hits rock after rock in an effort to find the path. Her feet hurt and her eyes are watering.
Her pace gets slower and slower until it just stops, and she looks around her blinking away tears at nothing but miles and miles of fog. And there she is in the middle of it all. All alone.
She is tired. Too tired to keep going. Too tired to try and find this path she has no idea when she lost in the first place.
A glance backward only shows her where she has been. A road that's crumbled behind her with every forward step she's taken. She can't go back now.
She is scared. Scared because for once she doesn't know what she's doing, or where she's going, or what comes next.
The fog seems to be closing in, suffocating her and she can barely breathe over the pull of the pit in her stomach that's growing larger and larger. Tears blur her eyes more than the fog and she feels more blind, more helpless, more lost than ever now.
Her mind screams but her mouth closes up and it hurts to feel this way. The pressures and expectations and the others all weigh her down even more. She hates it.
She is mad. She is angry at them, at herself, at everything. She hates that she's feeling this way and hates that she can't get rid of it. The rage in her heart flares up for a second before she's just left burnt out with ash coating the sides.
She is this close to giving up. Sitting down in the middle of nowhere, she pulls her knees to her chest and hugs herself tightly. She shuts her eyes and tries to breathe.
It doesn't work.
The breaths turn to sobs and tears still spill out of her closed eyes and she's breaking down.
She is not okay.
She cries until she can't anymore, until her eyes hurt and there's nothing left. And she sits there until she can breathe a little better and has the courage to open her eyes.
The fog is still there, the path still unclear, the road still rocky. Nothing's changed.
With shaking hands, she wipes her face and sits up. She gets on her hands and knees and starts to feel around. Rocks cut her hand and she winces back the pain and tries again.
And again. And again.
Until finally her hands touch something soft, and she finds a small patch of grass. She quickly crawls to it.
It's not much but it's something.
She is strong. Strong enough to stand up again, stretch out her bones, reach out into the fog again and take a step forward.
The grass is soft and cool beneath her feet and she's not sure if it's the right path.
But it is a path.
And so she stumbles forward, still not knowing, still not okay.
But better.
She is figuring it out. One step at a time, she walks forward. Sometimes she hits a rock again, sometimes she veers off. But she finds her way back and keeps going until the fog gets a little lighter.
Her feet have gotten used to the rocks, and it doesn't hurt anymore. Her eyes still water but don't blind her anymore. The pit in her stomach has started to lessen and she's learned to breathe over the gray that surrounds her.
She is lost. The road ahead is long, and winding and she still can't see the path over the twists and turns. No map, no directions, no help.
But she walks ahead with a renewed hope in her heart.
A/N: So what did you think? They say to write about what scares you, well I did. The feeling of being lost and not having any idea what you're doing, where you're going, or anything is scary. It's kind of how I feel right now, the anxiety of not having any idea what happens next in my life is weighing me down. It's the fear that's prevalent in my life right now.
So I wrote this. As a way to put it on paper, to address it words rather than the feeling in my chest and share a little bit of it with you guys. As you read, this little drabble ends on a hopeful note, because that's what I believe, what I know, and what keeps me going.
I hope you guys liked this, it was a bit different. And I'd love to hear your thoughts, so please review! And as always, thanks for reading!
See ya! :)
