A/N: We all know Janet was the best mother to Cassie, but I think it would definitely have effected Sam.
Enjoy!
Singularity
Teal'c and Janet finished the evening meal washing up with the laughter of Cassie, Sam, Daniel and Jack in the background. Cassie had been to the park with the team earlier that day, Janet was grateful to have the support of the team. Janet felt like Cassandra's mum already, they even came up with 'Cassie' as her nickname. The more time she spent with Cassie, the more she wanted to adopt her fully. She hoped Cassie felt the same way, she felt positive that her and the team could be the family her daughter needed.
It was 2100 hours and Cassie needed to go to bed, she hugs everybody good night and cheekily drags Sam upstairs with her to tuck her into bed.
Cassie rearranges her teddies and then turned to look at Sam, "Are you going to come round everyday?"
"Maybe not everyday sweetie, but I'll come as much as I can. You know that right?"
"Of course."
"Hop in." Sam opens her duvet and Cassie jumps in, Sam tucking her in nicely. "You know I love you very much don't you?"
"You know I love you more?"
"Oh I don't think so!" She tickles Cassie. "Okay that's enough, time to sleep!"
"I liked having you all here. When are you coming back?"
"I'll be round on Wednesday, then you can tell me all about your new school!"
"Okay. I can't wait! I'm so glad I'm not alone anymore."
"Oh honey you're far from it, you have Janet and I. As well as Colonel O'Neill, Teal'c and Daniel! And soon all the friends you're going to make at school. You're never alone, remember that."
"I love you Sam."
"I love you too Cas, now sleep tight." She kisses her forehead.
"Night night." Cassie beams back. Sam backs out slowly taking in the view of this miracle of a girl, she smiles to herself and walks down the stairs to find SG1 ready at the door to go.
She found Daniel by the door, already holding her coat and purse. "Bye Janet, thanks for tonight. It was really great."
"Oh it's you I should be thanking. Was she alright?"
"Janet she's fine, she likes it here. You don't need to stress."
"Ha, okay hon. I'll see you tomorrow." Sam gives Janet a tight squeeze before heading out the door to catch up with the guys. "Drive safe!" Janet calls after them as she closes the door.
Jack fidgets into his car, adjusting the seat. He's convinced aliens come in and move his chair. Teal'c sits beside him, curiously raising a brow at the Colonel's crazy antics. Behind Teal'c sat Sam, which meant Daniel was directly behind Jack- which made Jack roll his eyes as Daniel loves to take on the role as the back seat driver. They drive towards Sam's first because both Daniel and Teal'c are going back to the base. During the drive to Sam's they all speak of their fondness for Cassie, but Sam wasn't as perky as she usually is about the subject. Teal'c begins to ask questions about the roads and the lights and the conversation turns to that, Sam only giving occasionally dictionary answers. They arrive at Sam's.
"Sam." Daniel says to wake her out of her daze.
"Oh, thanks." she reaches for her purse.
"Carter, you alright?" Jack says.
"Yeah sir I'm fine, just tired."
"It's about Cassie, isn't it?" Daniel asks. Jack reaches to turn his mirror to have Daniel in his view, he gives him a warning look and then turns the mirror to focus on Carter so he can observe her through her reflection. It's a habit.
"I-I don't know."
"Do you not deem Janet Frasier as a fit guardian for Cassandra?"
"Oh God no, Janet will be a great mom I know that."
"But?" Jack gently nudges.
"I don't know."
"Sam, you risked your life to be by that little girl's side in her darkest moment, it's not a crime to say that if circumstances were different you… you wish that could have been you adopting her." Daniel gently says.
"It's sick to say that though."
"No it's not."
"Daniel." She tears up. "It's terrible to say I wish I could have the daughter Janet now has. It's sick. It's just… letting her go is..."
"Carter, you can see her whenever you want."
"I know. But I just- I could have been the one to... you know. And I just keep thinking that… keep thinking that…"
"That when it comes down you having a child you may chose your job over your family?" Daniel finishes her sentence. She nods. Daniel pulls her into a side hug and Teal'c and Jack both turn to look at her.
"Captain Carter, among all of my decisions as a first prime, siding with the Tau'ri over remaining on my home world with my family was the most difficult choice of my life. Some paths must be taken. You have a great mind and a heart of a warrior. You do not need to concern yourself with the idea of making a bad decision as I believe you have made the correct one in letting Cassandra fall into the care of Janet Frasier. And you may select your future paths with the wisdom you have attained."
"Thank you Teal'c."
"Carter." Jack says, her eyes attention falls on the Colonel. He is very aware, that for some bizarre reason, she listens to him. "You've got nothing to worry about. I know letting Cassie go was hard for you, but hey you're like the fun aunt that gets to give all the love and doge all the responsibility." She chuckles. "No matter what you're gonna be okay. And if not, you've got us."
"When I joined SG1 I thought it'd be like it was on my other teams that I've been in, but it's not. It's so much more. Thanks you guys."
"Always." She smiles and nods at her CO, whose eyes are fixed on her. She turns to say goodbye to Teal'c and jumps out the car, waving goodbye once she gets to the door.
After making sure Carter is inside, Jack still doesn't start his engine.
"I can't imagine how she feels." Daniel says.
"I think it's for the best. At least we know Cassie is in good hands." Jack replies.
"Yeah Janet will be an amazing mother to her. I'm sure one day Sam will have it all too."
Jack nods and starts his engine, the drive back to the base was in silence, and so was his drive home. Understandably, the focus had been on Cassie as of late. But as he was driving his mind replayed the conversation he had with Carter after their debriefing with Hammond. She had evaded engaging with him for the whole briefing, the only reason he knew that was because they seemed to have developed their own little language of facial expressions and on cue smiling at his comments. He was aware of why she was trying to avoid him, she was probably conflicted on what he was going to say about her staying behind with Cassandra. Once the briefing had ended he pulled her aside in the hall.
"Hey Carter, I want to talk about what happened back there." Jack says.
"Sir, I know i disobeyed your order but-"
"Look I'm not looking for a reason as to why you did it, I get why you did what you did. I would just prefer it if you didn't go around trying to get yourself killed."
"Colonel I appreciate your concern, but I could not let her die alone. She was my responsibility."
"So how do you think I felt?" A silence followed, the air seemed to be thicker than usual.
"I'm sorry." she said sincerely. "But I don't regret it."
"I know." Jack replied, because at the end of the day he did know. He knew she didn't want to disobey him, to scare the hell out of her team, to die. But he knew she'd do all again. He knew that, because he'd do the same. As moments passed, he noticed their eyes had been locked, he looked away. Because he also knew he felt like ripping that comms device off the wall when he had no response. And he knew him and the rest of the team should have left before the countdown ended.
As he pulled into the driveway he noticed that the whole Cassie thing highlighted a part of Sam he'd not really considered. He sincerely hoped she'd have it all one day, whoever gets to give it to her will be some lucky son of a gun. A brief thought entered, maybe in 10 years everything will be different, there could be reassignments, marriages and kids. Yet, he felt that this team would still be a team. Sam was right tonight. This team is so much more.
