Hi, guys sorry I've not been updating, but the past year took a toll on us all, it has been hard but hopefully, we're on the mend and we can get back to some normalcy.

Octavia

My hands shake, blood coats them and I know if I take a glance at the mirror I'll see myself drowned in it.

I killed so many today, so many that were all justifiably angry, they were starving, scared, and betrayed.

I don't know what to do, Kara Cooper the leader of the coup wasn't working alone but so many of those with her are needed to help run the bunker.

I can't let this go unpunished, I'll be dead within the week and there would be chaos, nobody will listen to any other kru and the human race dies down in this cursed hole.

Sighing I resist the urge to run, I'm not a leader I said it to Jaha before he died and he told me to make death the enemy, that anyone who brings us closer to death should be eliminated.

But that's not what Bell would do, hell even Clarke - Wanheda wouldn't do what they did on the Ark. I am not them though and I'm not the council of the Ark, I am Octavia Blake and I am lost.

Glancing towards the radio I silently pray that Bellamy can somehow contact me, even though Clarke said they made it I'm still uneasy. Knowing my brother he is probably going crazy thinking Clarke is dead, I mean we know she isn't but they haven't made contact with her yet - he has feelings for her, anyone could see it I just hope that we make contact soon.

Standing I make my way to the bowl of water and cloth that was left by Indra, Gaia said to leave the blood, that it was armour but the thought of it makes me sick, Lincoln wouldn't want this. The water is freezing but I barely feel it, I see my reflection in the pink-tinged bowl, the girl staring back is not Octavia Blake, she is a killer, a killer who has lost loved ones and has probably disappointed them so much.

My mother would hate this person, Lincoln would be disappointed, and somehow that's even worse.

I need to make an example of the coup plotters but I can't let myself fall deeper into this killer, I need to stop myself from becoming something Lincoln would dread to see.

There's a knock at the office door, they are all waiting to see what I will do, I don't even know what I'm going to do - on the Ark they would have been floated, on the ground, they would have faced death by a thousand cuts but here we are the last of the human race, twelve hundred people.

Stepping out they all turn, staring. Waiting and looking for weakness, I raise my head, clench my jaw, and stride halfway up the onlooking ramp.

Kara Cooper the leader of the coup kneels beside the other coup members.

"Why" I demand, she needs no clarification to know I speak to her, Cooper doesn't answer, she stares back, the silence is broken by whispers - weakness.

I resist the urge to react, it'll just prove their suspicions, instead, I speak up again as cold as I can muster "Explain or are you an enemy of Wonkru" I can feel the tension in the room, a lot of these people lost their friends to those words.

Cooper seems to realise what it means and starts to look nervous, she still raises her head defiantly.

"You stole from wonkru" my voice echoes in the silence, everybody is silent, staring and judging. I carry on "You have made yourself an enemy of wonkru, and for that, you will pay."

I make my way down the sloping ramp, my thoughts racing as I scramble to find a punishment that won't end in a full-blown war.

Standing before her I unsheath my sword, "Put your left hand down on the floor" Cooper starts to shake, "Now" I say my voice hard, her hand shake as she lays it down, "For your crimes against wonkru" I whisper to her as I slam down my sword.

She screams, I see others flinch, and three of Kara Cooper's fingers lay on the ground as she cradles her hand, sobbing.

"Bring forward the others".

Clarke

The radio sits in front of me, I need to get in contact with the bunker but I'm worried what if I can't speak to the ring anymore, what if I can't speak to Bellamy.

I need my mother, I need Bellamy but how can I choose.

I know this chapter is a lot shorter than the others, I just wanted to get something out to show I haven't forgotten about this story, I have just been ridiculously busy this past year, I think we've all had a hard time in but I promise to try work on updating all my stories.

Love you all, Liya xx