Cherishing You
Genre: Drama | Romance | AU | Incest | Modern Days
Rating: M
Pairing: (mainly) Levi x Eren, and some other pairing which will be added as the story progressing.
Summary: Having separated from his brother ever since he was a baby, Eren didn't remember the face of his older brother aside from his baby photos. He soon found himself slowly attached to the new guy who appeared in his family's bakery during the first day of his moving.
Disclaimer: I don't own Shingeki no Kyojin, but this fanfiction is mine. ©AsakuraHannah
A/N: Enjoy reading ^^~ I'm dying… I'm actually dying to be able to write some sex scene or I'd be completely dried out LMAO So yeah, enjoy Eren's wet dream /smirk/ Some M rated smut you might enjoy~~ :)))
Chp 17: Cherish the Time
Eren stared at the test result he brought with him from the hospital the other day. He crumpled the result of his DNA test. If only things don't turned this way, his relationship with Levi will not be hanging by the thread. Eren closed his eyes, the image of Levi pulled his collar still burned in his mind.
"Eren, stand up and stop crying, brat." Levi's hand clenched on Eren's collar uniform. "STAND UP AND LOOK AT ME!" He commanded. Levi gritted his teeth.
"STOP IT!" Eren cried.
Eren wiped his tears away, shaking his head trying to wash the memory away far from his mind. He bitted his lower lip, giving out shaky breath as he tries to hold back his fallen tears. Eren clutched on the crumpled paper, whimpered when a pain shot through his chest. He could still see Levi's back the time he walked away from him.
"If break up is what you're seeking, congratulations, Eren. You finally got it."
Eren choked a sob, wiping away his tears. He could have done something. He could have ran to him, calling him, stopping the raven haired man walking away from his life, but he didn't. He couldn't. He felt his knees weakened and he gave up standing, sliding down to the cold hard pavement as his back pressed against the wall of the school building.
How he wishes he could stop time.
Eren turned to his bed, dropping himself on the bed of the dormitory, finding comfort on the blanket and several pillows. He just moved into the dormitory without giving Levi any news of his whereabouts. He could have, but maybe, it's better this way. Maybe… Levi would be happier if he was gone from his life. Maybe the man will feel at ease, not to be tied with his childhood past anymore.
Eren muffled his cry into the pillow, not wanting to disturb the other students who were living in the same quarters as he was. Eren cried himself to sleep.
Slowly but surely, Eren felt comfy, feeling the soft touches on his cheek. He moaned softly, frowning when he felt something weighing him down. Something is… touching him. His nostril caught the familiar scent of his boyfriend. Drowsily he opened his eyes to see Levi was on top of him, now kissing his neck. Eren muffled a laugh. Levi's tongue playfully swiped under his jaw.
Eren snorted, trying to push his boyfriend away. "Levi… ticklish…" His voice cracked because of his waking up.
Levi moaned at his voice and captured Eren's lips. He let his tongue went inside Eren's slightly opened mouth. Eren moaned while their tongue met, his hair automatically ran through Levi's raven's hair. Enjoying their tongue battling session, Eren pulled Levi closer, giving short breathes, gasping, letting Levi's fingers delve through his pants.
"Eren…" Levi broke their kiss with a slight pop sound, licking his wet lips. Those beady eyes staring at his lover as if he was some kind of feast for the night.
"Levi…" Eren bitted his lip, shyly looked away the time Levi's pulled down his pants along with his underwear. He muffled his sound, wouldn't want to wake the other neighbours students. His thought snapped once he realize that Levi was inside his dorm.
"Wait, Levi… How did you know I'm- Ahhh-" Eren jerked when Levi tugged on his hardened member. His cheek adorned with pinkish hue. The temperature rising up the moment he heard a familiar sound of a tube being capped. His ears turned red.
"Shut up, Eren. Forget about details." Levi eyes the lubricant, poured some on his hands, coating his fingers thoroughly.
"Y-You came here prepared…"
Eren's statement made Levi rolled his eyes. The man didn't let him talk further, silencing him with a kiss. Both of Eren's hands being pulled up above his head, making the boy writhing underneath the raven teasing touches. Slowly, Levi spread his legs apart.
"Wait, emmh-" Eren jerked, something cold and wet touched his entrance. "L-Levi-" He gasped, one of Levi's fingers went inside his puckered entrance.
"Is it hurt?" Levi breathed out, holding himself back, watching how Eren fidgeted underneath his touches. The feeling of how the boy reacted just because of his touches made something within him stirred, yearning for more. Seeing Eren shake his head, Levi let his finger loosened up, moving slightly in and out. Knowing how Eren reacted much calmer, Levi slowly inserted a second finger.
"Eren…" He let Eren's hand that he'd been holding with his left hand go. Allowing some movement for Eren to clutch the sheet underneath him.
"Just… hurry up…" Eren gritted his teeth, staring into Levi's raven eyes.
Levi chuckled at him, kissing Eren's cheek and went down to his lips. "Easy boy. You'll get hurt if we rush things up."
Eren rolled his eyes before sharply gasping as Levi added a third one. His middle touched something within him, making him yelped in surprise.
"Aah- aah… Levi-" Eren voice muffled by Levi's lips against his. Levi groaned when Eren pushed himself up. He felt so tight.
"Eren… Can I put it in already?" Levi breathed.
Mewled at the finger slowly retracted outside, Eren nodded. "Please…" He gasped. His ears caught the wet sound of Levi's hardened member being lubricated. His eyes closed, wanting the time could go faster. By the time his mind was distracted, Eren felt something pushed inside him. He yelped at the intrusion. Levi's tip pressed against his entrance.
"LE-LEVI!" Eren stuttered, his eyes watered at how big Levi's member was.
"Eren…" Levi kissed Eren's forehead, showering his face with butterfly kisses. Letting the boy adjusted to his size while slowly but surely moving deeper inside Eren's tightness. The boy's moans and groans wasn't making it any easier, though. Levi's shuddered breath, trying to control himself not to ram inside him.
Pleasure went up Eren's spine when the tip of Levi's hard member touched that place again. Eren howled, clutching the sheet tightly. "AH! Levi- Its… Haaa-"
"Eren… You're sucking me in."
None of them even care of being quiet anymore. Eren clutched Levi's back, feeling the pleasure up and down as Levi started to dance inside him.
"Eren, does it feel good?"
"Levi, please more… Ah! There!" Eren eyes watered, his vision blurred as he felt his climax nearing. He moaned, Levi's finger caught his neglected member, starting to pump it vigorously. Eren's pre-cum glistened, their dance become more frantic.
"Eren, I can't-"
"Levi, I'm close." Eren pulled Levi for a kiss, the ritual they usually did in the middle of their love making session.
"Eren-" Levi winced when Eren's contracted, his walls clenching on his member tightly.
Eren moaned as he came, jerking several times, calling out Levi's name like a chanted mantra. He closed his eyes in euphoria, feeling Levi filled him up to the brim.
"Levi… Feels good…"
"Eren…" Levi whispered his name. His voice got further and further, making Eren snap his eyes open.
The sight of Levi in front of him was the last day he met him. Eren's eyes widened.
That face… The next sentence was not what he was expecting.
"If break up is what you're seeking, congratulations, Eren. You finally got it."
Eren gasped, jerking up from his bed. His eyes widened while he clutched the blanket on his lap. Giving a shuddered breath, Eren closed his eyes, trying to calm his ramming heart. Sweat running down his cheek. Things shouldn't happen this way, but it does. He gave a choked sob, trying to compose himself not to scream out loud in the middle of the night. Tears droplets illuminated by the moonlight via the curtain which slightly ajar.
Once in this whole life, Eren wished it's all just a dream.
A buzzed on his phone made Eren jerked in surprise. He pulled his phone from his nightstand, checking the name of the sender. Armin's message was short, making Eren raise an eyebrow.
"We need to talk, Jaeger. Tomorrow morning, cafeteria."
Armin never calls him Jaeger unless he's really mad at him. Either he messed things up or got on Armin's nerves. Either way, tomorrow morning is not a good sign.
Eren threw his wet pants and gave a scowl. From every wet dream… It sure wasn't the nicest of all.
Life has never felt this heavy. Eren fumbled on buttoning up his uniform, trying to focus on the task at hands. He bit his lips while looking at his reflection in the mirror. His brunette hair was never the one that's pretty tidy, seeing it remind him of the time Levi used to tousled his already messy hair, treating him like he was some kind of a kid. Eren grimaced at his own reflection, turned his head away from the mirror, pushing Levi away from his mind. It's starting to get heavy, when you really love someone dearly and he was walking away from his life. Eren pulled his bag, swung it over his shoulder and walked out from his room. He almost collided with Connie on his way out.
"Oops! Eren! Sorry!" Connie, being loud and cheerful, laughed at his friend.
Eren forced himself a smile and closed the door behind him, not forgetting to lock his room.
"Going breakfast?" Connie asked after Eren pulled his key out.
"Yeah, wanna join? Armin is going to be there as well."
Connie shook his head. "Not today, sorry. I got something to catch, you know, soccer club."
"Ah, okay. Good luck with your morning routine."
Connie waved at him. "You know, you should really consider joining the school's club. Its fun!"
Eren replied with a grin. "I'll see what picks my interest. Thank you, Connie." He shouted while Connie ran to catch up with his team's morning routine. Eren smiled to himself. Connie who is always brightly smiling kinda helps him to smile the first thing in the morning. He paced to the cafeteria, feeling lighter to start his day.
The brunette stepped inside the cafeteria, looking around for familiar faces. Armin's blonde hair is spotted near the cafeteria's bushes. Eren stood rooted to his place after seeing Jean and Marco sat along with Armin.
"Damn… This cannot be good." Eren gulped, slowly making his way to them, absentmindedly clutching his bag.
"Ummm…. Morning?" Eren mumbled, making the trio turn their head on him.
Armn's eyes met Eren's and he glared. "Finally. I thought you'd never come."
"Not after you called me by my family name." Eren took a seat across the three of them, eyeing Jean, Armin in the middle and Marco beside Armin. Eren felt like he was being interrogated. Armin rarely mad at him, but when he did, its best Eren stayed silent. Knowing the blond since childhood, Armin was pretty scary when he got mad at his best friend. The softness of his side kind of thrown outside the window. By that time, Eren knew he had done something very stupid.
"So… What is going on?"
Armin clicked his tongue. "I met Levi."
Eren's eyes widened as soon as he heard it. "Really?" The word flew out his mouth before he realize, Eren quickly dropped his gaze to the table.
"You didn't tell him that you moved out and you let him search for you like some kind of idiot?"
Eren fell silent.
"You should say something. Use that foul mouth of yours." Jean offered, getting irritated by Eren's sudden quietness. He grimaced while waving his right hand in the air.
"We broke up." Eren's eyes glistened with tears.
Jean choked.
"WHAT?!" Both Jean and Marco shouted almost at the same time, eyeing Eren in disbelief. Armin threw Eren a skeptical look.
"Who's the one told him I moved to the dorm? He…" Eren paused, catching his breath, he tried to swallow the lump on his throat before he continued. "He came yesterday and he got mad-"
Armin rolled his eyes. "It's your fault, Eren."
"He could have been happier without me-"
A sudden bang on the table made almost the three of them jolted.
"YOU STUPID STUPID PR-"
"ARMIN!" Marco shouted before Armin said something he couldn't take back.
Armin whacked his best friend on the face. Jean jumped on his seat, stood up and stopped Armin's hand before he backhanded his best friend once again.
"WOAAA... Armin, calm down!" Jean said.
Armin paused and glared at Eren. The green eyes watered, trying so hard not to cry his eyes out.
"You don't need to put salt over his wound." Marco whispered, patting his shoulder to sit back down.
Armin frustratingly sat down, furrling his blonde locks. "How stupid can this brat be?!" He pointed at Eren and hissed at him in disgust.
"What's so wrong about wanting him to be happy?!"
"LEVI WAS FRUSTRATED, EREN!" Armin shouted, he banged his fist on the table frustratingly. "His source of happiness is you! Don't you understand that?! Don't you feel the same!? You just destroyed him… and you! Are you that happy to be separated from him, now?! Do you know how his face looks like the time I saw him entered the Jaeger's Bakery?!"
Jean spoke up after Armin paused to take a deep breath to calm himself down. "You're not even there when he's in shambles. Do you know that he searched for your schedules and asked Armin for it once he knew he couldn't find you at your home nor shop? He doesn't even know that you move to the school dormitory during examinations. He doesn't even know your school, Eren! I don't even know how you guys could even date! WHAT THE HELL?! I FEEL LIKE PUNCHING YOU NOW!"
"Are you telling me that it's always Levi who walked to the shop just to meet Eren?!" Marco leaned forward to the conversation, suddenly interested.
Eren blushed when the three stared at him accusingly. "What?! He was just buying bread for Erwin, it's not like he'd planned to court me!" He debated, feeling embarrassed that he never took the hint.
"Oh my God, Eren…" Marco shook his head.
Armin groaned and leaned back to the sofa. "Nobody ever would want to buy bread every day at the same place. Maybe they'd pretend they're never interested, but still…"
"You're not the only one who loves him first." Jean added with one eyebrow raised.
Eren slammed his forehead to the table, groaning out loud. "What should I do? TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO?!"
The three guys stared at him pathetically.
Ian stopped on his track. The blond haired boy who kept on tailing him was starting to get on his nerves.
"I thought I told you to stay away from me?!" Ian turned around to face the boy.
Farlan gave him a firm look. "You do know I need some information from you, right? About the truth. You've been following Levi around, don't tell me I didn't notice that."
"... What do you want from me?"
"I heard you're an intel. I need your help finding a person… Actually the person you're investigating might be the same person I'm looking for." Farlan pressed on.
"Do you have any evidence?"
Farlan pulled out an old photo, showing the boy in his childhood.
Ian took the photo and stared at it. His left hand delved inside his pants pocket and pulled a crumpled photo of his research. Indeed, the boy looked very similar to the boy he had been pestering to check the legal document.
"Rivaille Jaeger." Ian said.
Farlan gave him a very serious look. "Levi is indeed Rivaille."
Ian let out an exasperated sighed. "It's useless if the person himself refuses to see his own past."
"Maybe he just wants to start a new life?" A familiar voice made Ian jerked his head to the side. There, stood his fiancee.
"Mikasa?"
Christa looked over the window, sighing as she felt the cold wind touch her face. She ruffled her hair backward, staring at the city lights. It felt calming after the harsh daily work that she had to speed up along with her college work. Her ears caught the creaking sound of the window. She looked behind and saw Ymir standing by the window's entrance to the balcony.
"Ymir…" She mumbled and looked back to the city lights in front of her.
"You seem tired, you should sleep." She said and walked behind her. Ymir's right fingers tucked Christa's short bang behind her ear, she let her left hand wrapped securely around Christa's waist.
"I feel refreshed feeling the cold night air. I'll be up for a moment."
Ymir grinned at her and kissed her nape. "If you say that, Princess."
Christa giggled upon feeling Ymir's wet kiss upon her nape. She tried to break free from her clutches, wiggling about and she tried to push her off.
"Ymir, stop it." Christa laughed when Ymir's lip pressed against her cheek. She sighed and brought her hand up to caress her hair.
"Don't you have something to do? Some report to be done?"
"All done thanks to your report."
Christa rolled her eyes at the reply. "You have to study properly for the university."
"This and that is a different matter." Ymir shrugged. "Beside, don't you want to be free from their… clutches?"
Christa looked down. One day, her parents are gonna find out about her relationship with Ymir. One day, she had to walk away from this mansion. One day, she won't be the princess anymore. She had to study and got a job to live on her own. Or probably… Seeing how Eren is struggling right now, make her think about some… change.
"We'll see about that." She turned around and kissed Ymir on the lips. She pulled away to see her surprised expression. Christa smiled and walked inside.
"Come on, let's get warm up." She pulled Ymir by the hand.
Eren groaned. It's another day and he has another matter he has to face. He cupped his phone near to his chest, sighing. His mind couldn't stop thinking about Levi's words. Will there be some way out? He shook his head, trying to throw off some negative thoughts off his mind. He leaned back to the chair in the cafeteria, pulled up his phone and opened his Facelook account. His eyes scanned his timelines and some updates from his friends. Some of it were quotes their friends shared. Eren's green eyes landed on one of the quotes he scrolled upon. He froze when the words attacked him like a wild knife being thrown over his direction.
"Never take someone's feelings as a joke. You don't know how much it hurts."
Eren's eyes watered. He rubbed off his tears. He could hear Levi's words replied in his mind like a broken tape.
"Do you think my feeling is a joke to you?!"
"That's not what I mean… That's not it." Eren sniffed, threw his phone on the table, grossly sobbing.
Someone patted his shoulder, making Eren flinched in surprised. He looked up to see Marco smiled down at him.
"Marco."
"It must be hard, Eren." He put his breakfast tray in front on the table and sat across Eren.
"I was just… I feel guilty for hurting him, but a part of me thought maybe it's for the better. I don't even know what to feel anymore." Eren brushed his hand to his face, sighing, not trying to conceal his tiredness.
Marco smiled and closed his eyes. He leaned back and sighed.
"Eren, listen to me. I understand that you want to make him happy with his own life. With you getting detached, you thought he finally can have his own life without you in it. But you're wrong. You just destroyed the tower you both had built for several months.
I understand that feeling. For me, I want both Jean and Armin to be happy, that's why I kept certain things to myself. But after seeing you, I felt that I had to cherish the time I had with them."
"Marco? What are you talking about?"
"Eren, I had cancer."
Eren's eyes widened. The spoon he had been holding dropped to the plate with a loud sound.
"That's…"
Marco pressed his forefinger to his lips.
"This is not real!" Eren gasped and shook his head.
Marco pulled Eren's hand and gripped it tightly, trying to calm his friend down. He hushed him in a calm whisper.
"Please, cherish the time you had with your loved ones. Time is more important than anything." Marco whispered and ruffled Eren's hair.
Eren looked down, eyes gleaming with tears. He shook his head. "This is too much, Marco. Besides, Levi had told me that we're done."
Marco shook his head. "You can always make up with the person you love the most. Some may take time but it's worth trying numerous times. With the right one, there will never be a thing called sacrifice. It's because you're doing it willingly. Love never fails, if it fails, it's not love."
"I guess… You're right." Eren's heart clenched painfully at the reality in front of him.
'Time… How much time does he have left?'
The question kept on lingering inside his mind. He was on his way back from the convenient store near his school, taking a crosswalk, not watching his surroundings. A blaring sound distract his mind. Eren stared at the blaring truck in front of him.
'Ah… My time… Must it ended now?'
Eren closed his eyes.
To Be Continue…
Well, I'm so sorry for the very vey very very and very late update~ xD I hope you guys enjoy this chapter as much as I enjoy writing this :D See ya in the next chp~