A/N Let me start by saying that I am glad that people are still interested in this story. About 6 months ago I got extremely ill. We werent sure what was happening, but it was enough that I sat in the Doctor's and cried "Something is wrong and it's bad." After several rounds of bloodwork and a cardiac workup, everything was normal. After 3 months the doctor did a complete off the wall panel of blood work and got the answer. I am not diabetic, but my insulin isn't right and was more than double it's norm. I don't know how that isn't diebetic, but I take a pill a day and we are good. The one thing that it effected the most was my vision. I would try and write and then couldn't seem to focus my eyes on the computer. The problem is now fixed, I am doing extremely well and my contact prescription has been changed to adjust to everything. So here we are again. I am writing more tonight than this chapter so hopefully it will be up in the next couple of days. Again thanks for sticking with the story.

Previously...

"Exactly how many times did Arizona call Seattle?"

"Just a couple." Sofia smiled.

"What am I gonna do with you?"

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Teddy was looking over some of the charts that she had been working on today when she heard footsteps approaching. "You know, Cristina. You did a really good job on that atrial repair last week."

"Well, if I were Cristina I would be proud."

Teddy then looked up to see the person in front of her, in fact, wasn't Cristina. "NO. NO. NO!"

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Chapter 9

"Well that wasn't the hello I was looking for." Arizona said trying to figure out why Teddy lowered her shaking head to the desk.

"You aren't suppose to be HERE!"

"Again, not what I was looking for, but if you're angry, Altman, I can..."

Teddy finally raised her head. "No, you aren't going anywhere. It's just...can't you two get this right?"

"I assure you that the more you speak, the more confused I become. What are you talking about?"

"Torres. You and Callie will never get this right."

Arizona mockingly chucked. "I have nothing to do with Callie, so I would appreciate knowing what in the hell you are rambling on about."

Suddenly Cristina ran up to the desk out of breath. "Shit!"

"What's with you two?" Arizona looked at Cristina as she tried to catch her breath.

"I saw you down stairs...thought I could beat the elevator." Cristina said leaning on the desk in front of her. She looked up, still winded. "Oh, and hey rollergirl."

Teddy stood and put her hands on her hips. "For the love of God Cristina, we're only on the third floor. Next time try picking up a phone."

Cristina straightened up and spoke. "I panicked ok."

"Why can't you just do things the simple way, Yang."

"As amused as I am with all..." Arizona motioned between the two. "...this, would you mind telling me what's going on?" Arizona stopped Teddy as she started to speak. "Never mind. Just tell me where I can find Sofia Torres.

"That's just it. She and Torres are on their way, right now, to Baltimore. To see you."

"Why didn't someone tell me?"

"Um, Robbins you are standing here complaining about someone not telling you they are coming to see you?" Cristina blurted out.

"I didn't want to freak Callie out. I know that she doesn't want to see me, so I thought that maybe I could just see Sofia."

"Just see Sofia?" Teddy asked. "You thought that you were just gonna come here and see her without Callie?"

"She doesn't want to see me, and I can assure you I understand that, but I need to talk to Sofia." Teddy and Cristina looked at Arizona. "I just...I just screwed things with her up too."

Suddenly the other two women saw the hurt in Arizona's eyes. "It's alright, Arizona. When they get to Baltimore someone will tell them you are here, and then they'll call."

"That's just it. No one knows where I am. I left without telling anyone at the office I was going and we are closed for the weekend. I mean, there are a few people that may be there a little later, but they wouldn't see anyone at the door."

Cristina grabbed her phone. "Who are you calling?" Teddy asked.

"Torres. Maybe she'll get the message."

Teddy grabbed her own phone. "I got a better idea." She began to talk into the phone. "Yes I need a number for Carlos Torres in Miami Florida. " The other women looked confused so Teddy turned her attention to them as she was on hold. "Torres money, means Torres jets." Teddy went back to her phone conversation. "Yes, please connect me."

"Let's hope this works." Cristina wished out loud.

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"Why didn't you go after her? You loved her, she loved you."

"It's not that simple sometimes, Sof."

"It is always that simple. Adults just mess it up."

"She wouldn't listen. I picked up the phone a million times and when it would ring the first time I would decide that I still didn't have anything to say to her. How do you fix that? She felt betrayed. You can't just say I'm sorry for that."

"Did you try?"

"I just said that I didn't know..."

"I'm sorry. Did you try 'I'm sorry'?" Callie just stared at her daughter. "I take your silence as a no." The young girl said.

"Sof, this isn't something I want to talk about with my 13 year old daughter."

"That's why we're here, Mom."

"I couldn't say I was sorry, because I wasn't. That meant I had to say that I was sorry that you were on your way, and I will never be sorry for that. I would have to admit that I played into Arizona's biggest fear. I would have to admit that if I had just got on that damn plane to Africa, none of that would have happened."

"I wouldn't have happened."

"And I will never apologize for you. She left me broken hearted. How is that my fault? How is it me that is suppose to say I am sorry? What about her saying she's sorry for leaving me?"

"You two really screwed this up. If you care about her so much, why did you let her leave?"

"I told you. We were just in a bad place, Sofia. She went on and so did I."

"Excuse me Mom, but a date once every 6 months and spending Friday nights with me watching teen TV does not constitute 'moving on'. "

"Well, she moved on and even got married. Do you have any idea what that did to me?"

"No."

"It broke my heart, Sofia. It broke it all over again."

"Mom, your too serious. You're kinda scaring me. If you loved her, why didn't you tell her."

"It isn't that easy."

Sofia sat quietly. "Are you mad at me? You know, that I made you do this?"

"I know that somehow you thought this was the right thing to do."

"If this all blows up, are you gonna hate me?"

"Oh my god! No."

"What if what I did makes things worse?"

"Honey, we haven't spoken in 13 years, I doubt you can make it worse."

"Than I already did?"

"We are gonna go over this one more time. No matter what happened, not matter what happens now, none of this is your fault. This is about the adults that betrayed Arizona not you. I have to be honest. I don't understand why in this world you feel the need to know her but I will always help you in anything that you need, Sof. Even this. No regrets." Callie patted her daughters hand. "So how many?"

"I told you, a couple."

"How many is a couple."

"Well I talked to her twice. She talked to Teddy once, and Cristina once."

"Where was I?"

"You are an important surgeon mom. You were busy.

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On the ride back to the airport Teddy filled Arizona in on Sofia and Callie's life. From Sofia throwing birthday cake at Owen during her first birthday party, to her taking her first steps to Callie in the doctors lounge, to Sofia being the top of her class , and to what happened in Maryland. Arizona was amazed at how they had been able to keep so much from Sofia, but somehow she understood why they had done it.

"So what now?" Teddy said to Arizona.

"Now, I go home, I find Sofia and tell her how stupid what I said was."

"What about Callie?" Cristina asked.

"What about her? This is about Sofia. She is the one that I hurt. She is the one that I need to make this right with, not Callie."

"But you'll see her. I mean, she's there. To see Sof you will have to see Callie."

Arizona didn't respond, she only looked out the window of the car as Cristina drove. "Robbins?"

"I don't - I honestly don't know how I will react being face to face with Callie."

"I don't know how she will handle seeing you either." As Teddy talked Arizona continued to look out the window. " I don't think she has never gotten over what happened, Arizona." When there wasn't a response from her friend, Teddy continued. "She thought about calling you once. She told me. She wanted to try and talk to you. Callie just didn't think that you wanted to hear from her anymore. She wanted you, but she just felt that she messed everything up."

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The plane landed as scheduled in Baltimore and Callie quickly turned her phone on to find a text from Cristina that simply said, "Robbins is busy. Check in to hotel and wait to hear from her."

Callie thought the text was extremely odd, but did as she was told. She checked herself and Sofia into the hotel and ordered a late snack at just after midnight. Callie wondered how Cristina knew what Arizona was doing, but was too busy herself to question it. Callie and Sofia went to bed knowing that tomorrow they would see Arizona. It was something Sofia was excited about but Callie and Arizona were terrified about. How would they act after seeing each other? No one really knew, but they would find out tomorrow.

When Sofia woke the next morning she heard her phone make a sound that she was familiar with a text. As she rubbed her eyes, she tried to move softly as not to wake her sleepng mom. Sofia grabbed the phone and smiled at the message from the unknown number.

Text me when you get this. Meet me in the lobby.

Sofia text back a quick 'I'm up. Mom is still sleeping but I am up. Hey, how'd you get my number?'

Sofia waited until the next text came in. 'I can't reveal my sources. Oh and I figured your mom wouldn't be up for hours. Same ol' Callie. LOL Wake her and tell her I am downstairs to meet with you.'

Sofia text back 'k. C u in a sec.' ,as she pushed her mom to wake her. "Mom. Mom get up. Arizona wants to see us."

Callie sat straight up in the bed. "What?"

"Arizona text. She said to wake you and let you know that she is downstairs in the lobby."

This was it. Callie had dreamed of this day, but dreaded now that it was here. As she got dressed the anxiety of seeing the other woman was overwhelming. Once they were almost ready Sofia text Arizona that they were on their way.

Mom is putting her shoes on. Almost ready.

Arizona wasn't sure how long she had looked at the phone. Callie? Callie was coming downstairs with Sofia? What a stupid thought to think that she wouldn't. Arizona must have lost her mind for a minute to think that Callie would just let her daughter out by herself.

Ok I am in the dining area.

Arizona nervously opened the morning paper and began to read to steady her nerves. She had been ready a few minutes when a head looked around her paper. "Arizona?" The girl said shyly.

Arizona put the paper down and just looked at the young girl. It was the first time that she was Sofia. The real Sofia. Callie's daughter, not some fictional person that the child made up. Sofia wasn't sure what to make of the woman looking at her. Suddenly Arizona smiled and stood. "You are beautiful, you know that?" She said as she took the young girl into her arms. She hugged her so tight that Sofia chuckled at the fact she wasn't sure she could breathe.

Arizona pulled back but kept her hands firmly on Sofia's shoulders. "You look just like..."

"I know. Everyone tells me that."

Arizona looked over Sofia's shoulder. "Where is she?"

The smile fell from Sofia's face. "She walked me to the door. She saw you at the table. Something about the way you read a paper while tapping her foot."

Arizona smiled. "I do do that."

"If you wanna see her -"

"No. No that's fine." Arizona put her hand on Sofia's shoulder. "How about you and I get out of here?"

"Sure." Sofia said with complete excitement.

"Why don't we go somewhere private. Maybe back to my office?"

"Ok." Sofia smiled and let the woman lead her from the hotel.

The two walked into the Robbins-Cutler building and into Arizona's office. "I'm really glad that I found you. I was afraid after I left Seattle that I would miss you."

"Seattle? You were in Seattle?" The young girl was surprised.

"Yes. I really wanted to talk to you. There are some things that you need to understand. When I got to Seattle, I talked to Teddy and Cristina and they told me you were here. Your Grandfather was nice enough to help with a jet and here we are."

"I shouldn't have lied to you." Sofia said as she lowered her head.

"And, I shouldn't have lied to you either."

"You did." Sofia was just excited to hear Arizona admit that.

"I hate that you think otherwise. You'll never understand how much I would have loved to have seen Sofia Torres walk through my door. Instead there was this young girl named Dana who is asking all this questions." Arizona stopped and looked at Sofia. "How was I suppose to tell her that I'm this big deal in the medical world, but my personal life leaves a lot to be desired. Not to mention, that I made such a mess of things."

"Don't feel that way, Arizona. No one blames you. Especially not me."

Arizona looked over at Sofia and smiled. "Come on." Arizona said as she just stood up.

"Where are we going?" Sofia said excited at the thoughts of what the woman had planned.

"You'll see. Follow me." Arizona walked to the door way and Sofia followed. "You, young lady, are going to stand right here. When I go over and sit down in my chair, you are going to enter my office. I'm going to give you the real chance that you wanted."

"Chance for what?" Sofia said still smiling at just the thoughts of being here with the Doctor.

"The chance to do what you came here to do, to ask me again. Anything you want. You walk into that room, sit in that chair and ask me whatever it is that you would like."

Sofia watched Arizona make her way to her seat. When she sat down, Sofia did as she was instructed. She walked into her office as she had done before, with just as many questions; if not more.

Arizona stood as the girl entered the room. She extended her hand. "Hello, I am Doctor Arizona Robbins. And you are?" Arizona smiled at Sofia

Giggling, Sofia spoke. "Hi, Doctor Robbins. I'm Sofia Torres."

Arizona smiled again as if that was the first time that she heard that name come from the young girl.

"Well Sofia, please have a seat."

The girl sat down in the chair, as she had also done before. "Thank you, Doctor Robbins."

"Please. Call me Arizona." After Arizona enjoyed another giggle from across the desk she asked. "So what can I do for you?"

"There are things that I want...need to know."

"Go on."

"When you found out that Mom was pregnant, why did you leave?"

Arizona chuckled. "You are your Mothers daughter; straight to the hard stuff."

Sofia looked nervous. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't..."

"Don't apologize. It was only a question. Don't you ever apologize for asking me a question."

"I just don't understand."

"Sofia, there are a lot of things that I could tell you. Like why everyone fears Miranda Bailey, or give you wonderful medical advice, tell you why the sky is blue or that you shouldn't cross the street without looking both ways. Where that is concerned, that I have no answer for. Your mom had, to the best of my knowledge, moved on."

"Did you want to be with us? Me?"

"Can I be honest with you?"

"Yes."

"It's a weird thing, Sofia. When a child has two parents of the same sex. Callie and I had talked about children and decided that we would like to have them. I wanted children with Callie. Callie and Mark's child had two parents and I wasn't one of them. I want for Callie and I to have children. I couldn't take the thoughts of being a third wheel in their life. Please tell me that you understand that."

"I do I guess."

"More than anything I wanted a family with Callie. But her and Mark were having one. Without me. There was no place for me there."

"Did I remind you of him?"

"You remind me of everything that I loved about your Mother."

"Do you blame me for what happened to that love?"

"The only thing that I blame you for is making me face this after running from it for 13 years."

"If you loved her so much, why didn't you fight?"

"I did. I was fought out. You're Mom made choices too. Choices that effected all of us. If she had just told me in a different way. It's hard for me to explain how I felt that day and the months and years that followed. I don't know how to make you understand something I don't either."

"Why did you go to Seattle?"

"Because I hurt you. I made you believe things about you that weren't true."

"Like what?"

"That I didn't think of you or that I didn't want you. I made you think that I had no regrets that my life is what it is. To a point that's true, but not about you. My life is good, Sofia. I love my life, but I also realize that I made a mistake that we all had to live with."

"And Mom?"

"We are talking about you, not your Mom."

"Why can't we talk about her too? You said that I was everything that you loved about her. You said I could ask you anything, so now I am asking about her."

Arizona chuckled at the young girls boldness. "Dear, that's a talk that is for Callie and I to have."

"But you two will never have it." Sofia huffed.

"Then we won't, or maybe we will, but either way, I'm here for you right now. You alone. You and Callie are not a package deal here. I don't want it that way. You need to understand and except that."

"You really didn't know who I was?"

"Not a clue." Arizona said as she chuckled.

"I was just sure that you had kept up with me." Sofia said with a saddened tone to her voice.

"Kept up with you like what? Like how I should know that you started to crawl at 8 months, or your first words were'mine' ? Maybe how that you are a straight A student in school? How about that AJ Karev may have a crush on you?"

"Ewwww." Sofia giggled. "How do you know that stuff?"

"I have my ways." Arizona smiled at the girl. "I have to admit that school thing I learned from Teddy yesterday."

"Then why not pictures?"

"It's hard to explain. Pictures are personal. You can read everything about someone in a picture. Are they happy or sad? I always wanted to know that you were doing well and that you were the happy little girl that you are, but I don't think that I wanted to see you happy without me. Selfish right?"

"Were you happy without us?"

"Honestly. As happy as I could be." Arizona stopped. "The night that Callie told me I left the hospital. I don't even remember walking home. I went into that apartment-our apartment and it was so cold and empty. I waited for Callie to come home. When I heard her coming down the hall I took a deep breath and waited. After about an hour I realized that she was at Mark's. In my mind she chose him."

Sofia didn't know what to say. "I'm sorry about your wife."

Arizona smiled "Thank you. She was a good person, Sofia. She made me happier than I had been in a really long time."

"Did you love her more than my mom?"

Arizona was caught off guard by the question. "Um- she - I loved her, yes. I married her."

"Did you love her as much as Mom?" Sofia asked again.

"Sofia. The older that you get you will understand. People come into your life and you fall in love with them. Some on different levels. But when you truly fall in love with someone, no one else can ever compare."

"So you love Becca that way?"

Arizona took a deep breath. "I loved my wife very much, Sofia. I believed it then and I believe it now. Your mother will always be the love of my life. That doesn't mean we will be together or that I will never love someone else. It just means that I love them differently than her."

Sofia smiled. "So you do love her?"

"Don't let that start ideas running in that head of yours, Sofia."

"But she loves you. She has never stopped and you love her. I just don't understand."

"Sometimes loving someone isn't enough. Sometimes things happen and that love is clouded."

"She hurt you, but you married Becca. That really hurt her."

"I'm sorry for that, I am, but we were over." Sofia lowered her head and didn't respond. "Hey how about we call it quits for now? Would you like some lunch? Maybe a movie?"

Sofia tried to smile. "Yeah, I'd love to."

It was going on seven in the evening and Callie was starting to get a little worried. She was in the bedroom of the hotel room working on charts through email when she heard the front door open. She perked up as she heard Sofia laugh and explain that she had a good time. Callie quickly jumped from the bed and looked into the mirror, giving her hair and makeup a quick check.

Callie stood at the door and took a deep breath. She rounded the corner and for the first time in nearly 14 years was face to face with Arizona Robbins.