A/N Ok I know that y'all think that I'm crazy, so let me continue the crazy. LOL When I first was writing this and the idea came to me about the whole baby thing I really didn't know how people would take it. Well over the past few months when I was trying to write this or decide if I should go through with it, one night I was watching TV and I looked up from the computer and it was like I burst out laughing. If there was someone that I could think that would look like a child that Callie had with Arizona's brother, it looked like this 16 year old girl. If you are watching American Idol, I burst out when I saw Lauren Alaina. If you aren't watching it, click the link. I swear this would be what a girl, in my mind would look like. Callie's voice and build and Arizona's hair, blue eyes and dimples. There kid as a country bumkin. I can say that cuz she lives like half an hour from me. LOL Y'all may not agree. Maybe I was just thinking toooooooo much about it. Anyway, I got called off last Friday and so I couldn't post, but here is the chapter. There will be one more. To see Lauren Alaina you will have to copy and paste the link at www. youtube .com/watch?v=tB0pIvA489k
Chapter 19
"Tell us what?"
Arizona pointed to the table in the dinning room and said, "Let's go sit, down." Arizona's family followed her and they had turned on some cartoons in the living room for the girls. Arizona smiled nervously at her family. "After the shooting, McKenzie came to see me." Arizona looked at McKenzie when she heard the sound that came from her sister-in-law. Arizona smiled and continued. "It seems that….well…" Arizona for some reason was having a hard time. "Kenzie said that when DJ left, he wanted to leave her with the hope of children with him if she wanted." Arizona's parents looked at McKenzie in shock, but Arizona still continued. "When DJ died, she tried twice."
"You never told us." Julia said.
"I didn't want to hurt you if something happened. I miscarried twice and I can't imagine you guys having to go through that especially that soon after DJ died." Kenzie took a deep breathe. "We Ben and I started dating, I knew that I couldn't do that to him. Then when we got engaged and married, it was out of the question. I loved DJ, but it wouldn't be fair to Ben to even ask."
"Honey we understand." Julia said hugging Kenzie. "I am so sorry."
"It's ok, but there is more." Julia pulled away from her and returned to her seat. "When I went to see Arizona I explained that there were vials that I would never use. He looks just like her." McKenzie stopped as she saw the confusion and Barbara and Daniel's faces.
"Mom." Julia looked at Arizona. "Callie still had viable eggs that could be used. If they were implant with what DJ left…."
"But she can't carry a baby." Daniel interrupted.
"No, but I can. I can be a surrogate for Callie and DJ's baby. Not only would I feel more a part the baby, but you would be the baby's biological family."
McKenzie interrupted. "It would be a child that could actually look like Callie or Arizona."
Julia was now crying so hard that she couldn't speak, but she tried. "It….it would….be DJ's?"
Arizona smiled "It is yes." At that point the whole table was shocked. Arizona smiled. "I am pregnant now, but we don't want Conner….." That was all Arizona had time to say before she was attacked by everyone at the table. They were all trying to hug her at the same time.
Julia took Arizona's face in her hands. "How are you? I mean, are you doing alright?"
"I am fine, Mom. Addison said that everything looks good. Just really sick already."
Callie walked into the room. "Hey they want to know where you want the box of Jessica's things." The entire room now ran to hug Callie. She smiled as Julia hugged her. "I take it she told you."
Everyone took a turn hugging Callie. They spent the remainder of the day getting Conner settled into his room and talking over wedding plans. They knew that they would have to talk about the baby later, when Conner wasn't around. Arizona wanted to wait for a while until she told Conner, because something could go wrong and he wouldn't understand. Julia didn't like to brag, but she knew that her children were very attractive and Callie went without saying. She knew that this baby would be beautiful.
Everyone had worn themselves out this evening and all decided to go to bed a little early. It was 10:30 when they laid down and Arizona left like she had just gotten to sleep. She felt a very gently shake to her arm. She moved a little, but never even opened her eyes. She felt the shake again, but this time it was followed by a whispered "Mom".
Arizona slightly opened her eyes to see Conner. "Hey. You ok? What's wrong?"
"I had a bad dream."
"Was it the OR?"
Conner slowly nodded. "I can't go back to sleep. That man, you know the one with the green eyes?"
"Jackson?"
"Yeah, Jackson, he was chasing me with his mask on and…."
Arizona smiled. "Ok, you wanna sleep in here?" Conner nodded and Arizona lifted the blanket for him to crawl in. "Come on. We're gonna have to talk to Callie about this."
Conner and Arizona were laid on their sides with his back against her chest and he ran her fingers through his hair. Conner whispered not wanting to wake Callie. "She was there?"
"Who? Callie?"
It took Conner a moment to answer. "No. Her. Mom."
"Ooooh." Arizona continued to rub his hair. "I have had bad dreams about her before too. I did for a long time. I promised to tuck you in at night and I let her and you down."
"It wasn't your fault. Even Grandpa said that."
"Yeah, but it didn't matter to me."
"I can't remember her." Those words broke Arizona's heart. "I mean I see her in my sleep sometime. She looks like a picture that I have seen, but I don't remember her. What she sounds like."
Arizona noticed Callie stirred at the sound of voices causing Arizona whispered even lower. "Wanna see something?"
"Yeah."
Arizona and Conner got out of the bed and walked down the hall until they reached a closet. "Michael gave me some boxes today and I noticed that one of them was very special." Arizona found the one she was looking for. "Here it is."
"What's that?" Conner looked at the metal box.
"It's a fire box. That means that whatever is in is protected even in a fire. These are very special and I haven't seen them in a long time." Arizona opened the box to reveal 3 DVDs. "These are some videos that Jess and I made when she was pregnant and when you were a baby." A tear came to Arizona's eyes. "You wanna watch them with me?"
A very excited Conner said "Yes!"
Arizona and Conner walked into the living room and Arizona put the first DVD in as Conner took a seat. When Arizona went to sit by him, he climbed into her lap and his legs straddling her knees. He laid back against her chest and put is head against her shoulder. "You ready?" Conner nodded and Arizona raised the remote and hit play.
The video started with Jess laughing. "Do you even know how to use that thing."
"I am almost a Doctor. How hard could it be?" Conner laughed at Arizona voice noticing that the camera was shaking everywhere. Obviously Arizona was looking at something on the camera. Suddenly the camera stilled. It was now focused on a very pregnant Jessica. Arizona couldn't help but smile.
"You got it now?" Jess said laughing.
"Ha ha. I got it." Arizona's voice came over the TV.
"So we are now 6 months along and today we got another ultrasound. Everything looks good." Jess smiled. "Conner is growing everyday and kicking like he has no sympathy for his mother. So young man, when you arrive I fully expect you to start kicking your other mother that way too. Just to be fair."
Arizona's young voice was heard again. "Unfair is good with me, Conner."
Arizona and Conner watched several hours of video including the day he was born. Arizona was careful to skip the delivery. They watched his first birthday party. Conner laughed as he watched himself dive face first into a small cake that was decorated with a "1". They next moment even caught Arizona by surprise. She lost her breath as the video started. 'How in the hell?' was the only thought in her mind. That last night they were all together they had the camera out preparing to video Conner over the weekend. The sitter was touched by watching the three of them and apparently thought it was needed to be recorded. "I've never seen this." Arizona said.
"What is it?" Conner asked.
"It's that night." Arizona felt the tears running down her face. "That night….."
"What night?"
Arizona hit pause. She looked at her son in her lap. "This is the night…the night of the accident."
"Her last night?"
Those words made the tears come harder. "Yeah." She managed to get out. Arizona raised the remote and it play again. They watched as Jess and Arizona played with Conner in the floor. Arizona's heart broke as she watched her and Jess kiss him goodbye. They would have never thought that night, that it would be the last time he would ever see Jess and would be more than 6 years before he saw Arizona again. Michael had these the whole time. She tried to keep the anger down, knowing he was trying now. She had to remember that he gave him back. Arizona watched as the tape stopped, knowing that was where their life, their story stopped.
Without saying a word, Conner turned in Arizona's lap and hugged her. She could feel the little boy crying. She held him and cried with him. This was what they needed. They needed this together. First the first time, Arizona and Conner were able to mourn Jessica's death together. After a little while Conner pulled back. "I think I can sleep now."
"You wanna come back into my room?"
"No. I can go to mine." He said climbing out of Arizona's lap.
"OK." She kissed him on the cheek.
His blue eyes met her's. "Night. Love you, Mom."
"I love you too, baby."
With that Conner ran out of the room. Arizona turned quickly as she heard the little boy say, "Night, Callie." as he was leaving. Arizona looked at Callie in the doorway.
"Sorry, I was just checking to see if you were alright."
Arizona smiled. "Yeah, I'm fine." She tried to hold back the tears.
Callie crossed the room and quickly pulled a crumbling Arizona to her. "It's ok." Callie knew that Arizona and Conner both needed the chance to mourn Jessica's death. It was something that Arizona never really got to deal with because she was too busy fighting for their son. Callie knew that Arizona needed this and just stood and held her for as long as Arizona needed to cry.
"Can we just go to bed? Please?"
"Sure." Callie said kissing Arizona on the forehead.
As they got into bed, Arizona snuggled again Callie. "I hope that you don't think that means I love you any less."
"I understand, Arizona. I really do. You needed to have that moment. You both did."
"Thank you for understanding."
Arizona kissed the neck she was snuggled in to. Callie quickly left Arizona go to sleep.
xxxxxxx
"Ok, are you sure that you have everything?
"Yes. I have the dress, my toothbrush, shoes, everything to get ready tomorrow and a change of clothes for tonight."
"Arizona, are you sure that you are ok with staying tonight at Mark's?"
"Yeah, it's not ideal, but I'll be fine. I just hope that I come back and am not pregnant. Oh wait, I already am."
Callie pretended to chuckle. "Be nice. It was nice of him to let you stay at his apartment tonight."
Arizona leaned up and kissed Callie's cheek. "I will be nice. I promise." Arizona turned to look up the stairs. "Conner! I am leaving."
Conner came running down the stairs to the front door. He ran into Arizona's opened arms. "Bye, Mom."
"You be good. I'll see you tomorrow afternoon at the wedding. You remember that Callie is going to be very busy in the morning, so if you need anything, remember to ask grandma or grandpa. We'll be lucky if Callie can get herself there on time." She leaned down and kissed Conner on the head. "Oh and remember that you have to be there early for the photographer."
"Ok, Mom. I'll be there and I can get myself ready."
"I know, but if you just happen to need a little help with anything, Mom and Dad will help you."
"I am getting big. I can do it."
"I know, I know."
Arizona turned to Callie. "And you, dear. I will meet you tomorrow at the front of the church."
Callie smiled. "I can't wait." She then kissed Arizona.
"I better leave or I won't." Arizona whispered in Callie's ear as she hugged her.
"Bye."
"Night, Love you."
Julia and Daniel made sure that Conner had all that he needed before bed. Arizona had been gone almost 2 hours and everyone was getting ready for bed. Conner tried to show everyone that he could get himself ready, while Callie made sure that her Mom and Dad were settled into their room.
The house was now quiet and everyone was asleep or closely there. Callie sat up in the bed and turned to write the vows that she had promised Arizona she already had done. She had been there for an hour looking at a blank sheet of paper. She had to get this done. She had no idea what was happening upstairs.
Conner slowly opened the door and stuck his head out into the hallway. He slowly and quietly walked down the hall. He looked at the stairs and instead of making his way down them, he walked passed. He stood in front of the door for a while and just looked at it. He even raised his hand twice to knock. He knew that he promised Arizona he would go to his grandparents if he needed anything, but he kept looking at the stairs. Finally he turned and disappointed in himself, walked down the stairs. He walked down the hall and stood in front of his Mom's door. He took a deep breath and did the one thing he tried not to. He raised his hand and lightly knocked.
As Callie sat on the bed, she was wracking her brain. She was so nervous that she couldn't think. She loved Arizona and wanted to say all the right things, but her fear of being in front of people paralyzing her. "God, there is so much I could say about her. Why can't I think of anything. Calm down, Callie." She was brought of the conversation with herself by a soft knock at the door. Callie looked at the clock. It was almost 12:30am. She turned back to look at the door. "Yeah?"
The door slowly opened and Conner stuck his head in. He quietly and almost ashamed said, "Callie?"
Callie put down her notebook and pen. "Yeah. Come on in." Conner slowly walked in and closed the door. "Something wrong?"
"I-I can't sleep."
"You too huh?"
"Mom told me that if I needed anything to ask Grandma and Grandpa, but…."
"Well then, this is our little secret I guess." She patted the bed beside her. "Bad dream?"
"No." He said embarrassed.
It was like Callie read his mind. "You know, I am so nervous that I can't even think what to write. Forget sleeping."
"You're nervous?" Conner said very surprised.
"Heck yeah, I'm nervous. Who wouldn't be? You know a lot of people that have to stand up in weddings get nervous." Callie looked over at Conner lowering his head. "I had to speak once at work.." Callie chuckled. "I was so scared that your Mom brushed puke out of my hair."
Conner laughed. "Gross."
"I know. Look, I'll make you a deal. If you get nervous, you just look at me and if I start to get nervous I'll just look over at you."
"What if when I am walking down the aisle with Mom, I trip and she falls?"
Callie laughed. "Believe me, if she trips, it has NOTHING to do with you. I tell you that right now. She is a pro at those freakin skate, but put your mom in a regular pair of shoes and it's a toss up every time."
Conner laughed. "Some people faint at wedding."
"Oh God, please do not remind me of that. I was just worried about puking or doing my pee pee dance in front of Arizona's parents. I mean my parents are use to it, but hers….oh god now I am worried about fainting."
Conner panicked and put his hand on Callie's. "Sorry…sorry. See mom told me to not bother you and now you are freaking out." Conner jumped off the bed. "Maybe we should call mom."
Callie looked at Conner. "Maybe to just tell her goodnight."
"Ok, just to say goodnight."
Arizona was laying in the bed looking at the ceiling like she had been doing for over 2 hours. She was surprised, and a little scared, when she heard the phone ring at 12:45. She saw it was Callie calling and smiled. "Hey, sexy."
"This is NOT the time!" It almost sounded like Callie was crying.
"Callie? Are you alright." Arizona said quickly sitting up in the bed.
"No….no I'm not alright. What if I puke or faint in front of your parents and half the hospital. And Conner is worried that he is going to trip and then trip you. We are freaking out here."
"Is Conner with you?" Arizona asked trying not to laugh.
"Yes."
"Put me on speaker, Calliope."
Callie did as she was asked. "Ok."
"Alright you two. No one is going to puke, faint or trip tomorrow. Do you both understand?" Arizona heard a collective yes from the two. "Now you two need to stop freaking each other out and get some rest."
"Sorry, Mom." Conner said.
"It's alright. I'm glad someone was there when Callie snapped." Arizona chuckled.
"I didn't snap!"
"Well you kinda did." Conner spoke up.
"I did not!"
"Uh huh. When you buried your face in that pillow."
"See Callie, you are scaring the child. Both of you will be fine. It's a room full of people that love you both. They know that sometimes you puke and trip and assume that you could possibly faint. They however, have no reason to see any of that. Now, Conner, you are strong and I have seen baseball videos of yours. You seem very good on your feet. You aren't gonna start tripping tomorrow. And Callie, you are one of the strongest people that I know. Fearless. You walked into the Chief's office and told him that you were a rock star. You stood against your entire family for me. Brave isn't even the word for you, Calliope. It's your parents, our closest friends and my parents. There is no reason to be afraid. If you get scared just remember that most weddings last like 15 minutes. Then we're done. And if you still get scared, I have two hands that you two can hold. Ok?" Again there was an "Ok" that came from both. "I love you guys, but Callie you need to go to sleep."
"Alright. I love you too. See you tomorrow."
"Night, Mom."
"Night. Now hang up we all have an early morning and we need to get some sleep."
After hanging up the phone Callie looked over at Conner. "You wanna stay in here?"
"Can I?"
"Sure." He climbed under the cover on his Mom's side as Callie put her notebook and pen on the nightstand and turned the lamp off. Before long two nervous people found their way to sleep.
Morning came a lot quicker than Arizona would have liked. It had taken her hours to go to sleep. She looked over at the clock that read 8:25am. She had to be at the church at noon to met the photographer in order to get the pictures done by the time the wedding started at 2:00. She needed to start getting ready in about 45 minutes. In a few hours, Callie would be her wife. Who was she kidding? She threw the blanket back and got out of bed. She was ready to walk down that aisle right now in her pajamas, no make up and hair a curly mess. She couldn't wait to get this day going. But first she needed to be extremely sick for a while.