December 27, 2008

Long story short, Daisuke came back today. My brother is amazing. I was trying to act like I was okay. I dreamed about him a lot though. My brother went to Japan and talked to Daisuke's mother.

It was a surprise. I was dropped off at Wal-mart to shop with my new giftcard, and I have my hair cut short. I somehow must have impressed the guys at the Subway in Wal-Mart, because they gave me a free Icee. I was drinking it, and writing in my new journal about my dreams, and a boy put his hand on my shoulder.

I whipped out my cell, prepared to call 9-1-1 on the guy behind me, but, I turned, and it was Daisuke. I instantly hugged him. For some reason, after that, he ran out and went to the men's room for a moment, then came back.

I waited, then he came back.

"What—How—Why?" I said.

"It was Rob," Daisuke said.

"I-I…" A solitary tear fell down my cheek. "I missed you…"

"I mi—" Daisuke began, but my cell phone went off.

"Meredith?" I answered, having observed the Caller ID. She sounded upset. "Look, it'll be okay, I-I'll be there."

I hung up the phone, then realized that I had no car. "Ugh…no car, and it's not like I have a private jet. I'll just call her back and try to calm her down…Daisuke, I-I'm sorry."

"No, it's okay!" he said.

After I finished my phone call, I returned to sit with Daisuke.

"I…don't know what to say…" I said to him.

"Kuri-san…" he said. It was ridiculous how much I had missed his voice; the way he said my name… "That last day…in my dream…"

"I shocked you awake by allowing you to feel my emotions of worry and fear…" I whispered. "Daisuke, I thought for sure that…I was going to lose you. That you were going to die."

He looked like he was thinking for a moment. I felt a bit frustrated. I usually know what guys are thinking by the look on their face…but Daisuke has so many looks… Mom came and got us then, and we came home, and, well, here we are. Yay. Hmm…

You like her, Daisuke, Dark thought at Daisuke.

Daisuke didn't realize how he had felt about Kuri-san until he was separated from her.

She looked so upset today, Daisuke thought. She…cried a little bit. Why did she cry?

Because she missed you, Dark replied. Isn't that obvious?

I…guess I do like her, Daisuke smiled at the ceiling. He was supposed to be asleep.

Did you forget that I've already kissed her? Dark smirked.

WHAT?! That's what you were doing in her dreams?! Dark, what's wrong with you?

Hey, I like her too. Remember, I am you.

December 28, 2008

Ugh…as if dreaming about him wasn't enough…this time I dream about him…and he's there when I wake up!

Ok, so to explain I was playing the question game with Amber and she asked me what my perfect kiss would be. I told her...that my perfect kiss would be if it was cloudy and really cold, so we could see our breath, and it would be just barely snowing…little ice flecks. And we would be talking, and I would turn to go, and he would grab my shoulder…and turn me around…and kiss me. I would be surprised, but then I would return the kiss.

Well last night I dreamed about that kiss…with Daisuke. Let me explain. I was standing with him and I recognized the background was the same as the one from the kiss I was talking about. We were talking, I don't remember about what, and then I turned to leave, and he grabbed my shoulder.

"Wait a second," he said.

I turned and he had this half-smile…and then…he kissed me.

I woke up then, in the middle of the night, and Daisuke was in my room.

"Huh?" I said. "D-Daisuke?"

"Ah…I-I'm sorry!" he said, a bit frantically. "I shouldn't have come in your room, but you called me!"

"In my sleep…" I replied. "Did I say anything in particular?"

"Just my name…" he said, confused. "You were yelling…it woke me."

"Wait…I was literally yelling?" I asked. "Or did I like, do it with my mind, like last time?"

"Your mind," Daisuke said.

"Good," I said. "I was worried about Mom and Dad."

He sat down on the bed. "Why did you call? What was so terrible about your dream?"

I blushed. "Ah…it was nothing. I'm not going to tell you. Why are you dressed like that?"

He was dressed in all black, and his clothes were kind of baggy.

"Um…my pajamas are in the washer?" He said it like a question, not like a statement.

"Well," I said. "It's none of my business what you wear to bed. Anyway, are you excited about going to Arkansas with me on Wednesday?"

"Th-That's New Year's Eve, right?" he replied.

"Yes," I said. "New Year's is my birthday. Of course we go out of town then…ugh, never mind, I sound so selfish."

I punched a pillow. "Ugh! I…I'm sorry, Daisuke. Oh yeah…thanks for coming. I really did need someone to talk to."

He got up. "Kuri-san…" He looked like he wanted to say something, but then he didn't… "Goodnight, Kuri-san," he said, then left. I…I really wanted to kiss his cheek, but I'm just not that daring…sigh…

Anyway, so I did a LOT of writing today. Daisuke draws a lot. I asked him what he was drawing once, and he showed me…a picture of my backyard, covered in snow. Maybe he likes the snow like I do…sigh again.

Anyway he said he wished it would snow, and that he made the picture so he could sort of see what it might look like.

"Well," I replied. "If it snowed, and it does sometimes, in January or February, the snow would be mostly ice. It's more crunchy, and it doesn't make snowballs. But school usually gets canceled."

Another thing. I haven't heard from Tiffany in a while. I called her but she didn't pick up. I assume Satoshi is still over there…he freaks me out, a little. But Rob told me that Satoshi helped him get Daisuke back. So I can't be that freaked out by him.

Anyway, here's to another night of (hopefully good) dreams.