5 minutes later with Tori
"Tori I'm gonna cuddle you ok" says Cat
"I liked the way your head felt last night, your pony poking at my pj's, you love me right" admits Tori
"yes I love you Tori, also I didn't do that, I know for a fact I fell asleep with my head on your stomach" explains Cat
"I wanted to see how it felt, your head down there without actually touching it to see if I freaked out or if it made you upset, I thought it would freak me out but it was actually kinda calming, I looked up how girls make love and i was curious" says Tori
"I'll be honest, the thought makes me drool, you seem better" says Cat
"I am a bit better yes, your letter really helped me see your side, I didn't know fear kept you up at night, all these things I didn't know about you" says Tori as she motions for Cat to cuddle her
"it's a daily struggle for me Tori, should I do this, should I say that, do people think I'm crazy, those are the kind of thoughts that run amok in my head, I'm lucky I can form words" says Cat
"why didn't you tell anyone" asks Tori cuddling Cat
"fear, fear that I'd be told I deserved to be in a mental facility, fear that I'd be called names, I was already being called soulless because I liked my hair red, as if it were my fault I'm different" says Cat
"is that why you changed when you met Sam for real" asks Tori
"that and I didn't feel I had a right to be myself so I just became what people expected me to be" says Cat
"what do you mean you didn't feel like you had the right to be yourself" asks Tori in shock
"I started saying stupid stuff because it made people laugh and I like hearing people laugh but they just assumed that's who I really am, the whole 'don't forget three' then forgetting three thing, ya it was a joke, I'm not as stupid as I make myself out to be Tori, do you know how I got into Hollywood arts?" says Cat
"I know you're not stupid Cat also no I don't know how you got in, I don't think anyone does" says Tori
"the school I went to in Anaheim had a talent show, I stole the show, I'd always wanted to be a singer so I sang, before I knew it Principal Eikner showed up and my school had me do like a hundred tests and next thing I knew I was a student at Hollywood Arts" says Cat
"any medical info like mental disorders I should know about" asks Tori
"you haven't exactly asked me out, I shouldn't share that info it might scare you" says Cat
"maybe I haven't asked you out yet because I need a new doctor, one that doesn't hate on me because I like girls, I asked you about mental conditions not because I want to pry but because I want to know if I'd be able to get your doctor or if we would need to find a new one together" says Tori
"oh ok, I'm Bipolar, severe depression, anxiety, borderline autistic, I have about fifteen conditions, a few overlap but most don't, also no I would not recommend my doctor to you" says Cat
"why not" asks Tori
"he takes symptoms and correctly diagnoses but he's pretty lax at explaining it, one time I asked my pharmacist what this new med was for and she said your Bipolar disorder, I was like my what now, yeah so anyway basically he's the best in the field but can't explain to anyone what the new meds are for when asked" says Cat
"what would he say if you asked about say being bipolar" asks Tori
"funny thing is that's the last thing I asked him before my pharmacist who was studying to be a doctor took over as the go between, the only thing he said was 'it's a serious mental condition', no mention of mania or the grip depression can have" says Cat
"so he's not a good doctor then" asks Tori
"no he's not the best but every condition he diagnosed me with I looked up, I could check off more than half of symptoms for each, though my mom when I showed her the list for each condition she said I had more like seventy percent of the symptoms, my parents were not happy about my coming out as bi" says Cat
"explains a lot, thanks for the trust, you can kiss me if you want" says Tori as Trina slowly opens the door
"is that your way of asking me out" asks Cat as she nuzzles Tori
"yes and no, I'm not sure I'm ready to come out yet" says Tori
"Trina kinda already blew that out of the water, helped me throw blame on them for being mean and blaming you over helping you through this transition, I saw the guilt in their eyes Tori, trust me they realized they were as much to blame as I was for alienating you, I'm not sure they'd have the guts to apologize face to face though" says Cat as Tori kisses her
"then together we shall be kitty, will you be my girlfriend" asks Tori
"yes a million times yes Tori, wait I need a cute name for you" says Cat as she kisses Tori
"I'm sure you'll come up with one, you're creative, so who do we all tell" asks Tori
"Trina, Jade, your parents" says Cat
"trust me Trina is nosey enough she already knows, Trina just get in here, I noticed you opened the door, dad's not back till later" says Tori as Trina walks in
"look I'm sorry for eavesdropping but Jade just broke up with Beck and asked me out, I'm not sure I understand why she asked me out" says Trina
"plain and simple, she likes people who can tell her what's what, simply put Beck's gone soft on that front, he likes people like Jade who get revved up like she does but he's let her cross a few lines he shouldn't have over the summer, and she knows you and Tori argue a lot and if she asked you out it would mean she was impressed that despite all the differences of opinion between you and Tori you stood firm and defended her, she's of the opinion that family comes first, unfortunately something her family isn't known to practice often" says Cat
"I'll admit I hadn't seen myself as bi till Cat's mis-step, maybe it was a mistake or maybe it was meant to happen this way, I don't know I've been too checked out of our culture to think about it" says Trina
"if anyone was gonna be god's muse it'd be my kitty Cat, I don't believe in it either but not only has religion and culture been a staple of our family for generations, Religion doesn't need people to believe in it for it to be real" says Tori
"I'm gonna need an explanation on that one sis, how can a religion not have believers yet still be real and valid" asks Trina
"in just the past two years alone scientists have found things hundreds of thousands of years old that just as recent as two years ago scientists would have believed were lies or myths, for example the pigmy mammoths of the Spanish or Italian islands didn't need people to believe in them for them to be real" says Tori
"that question smelled like a test boo not an actual question" says Cat
"it was indeed, however I am a little nervous, I guess I've been distracted, I thought I'd set the date with Jade for two weeks from now, turns out its tonight in like three minutes, she told me what she wants and I need to order it, any chance you guys could talk to her while I do that, she's already here" says Trina
"sure, sounds like you defended me so it's the least we can do to help" says Tori
In the living room
"so you like Trina huh" asks Tori
"I mean I admit I was curious about what Cat saw in her knowing full well it was supposed to be a one night stand deal and turned into a relationship and if after everything you and her had argued about she was still willing to defend you I figured it was worth it to at least try" says Jade
"Tori boo and I are together now" squeals Cat
"really, I'm surprised that Tori would do so this fast" asks Jade
"I did actually Jade, I do still have issues but then so does Cat, she's not the person we thought she was Jade, not exactly, I figured after reading her letter that it's better to have her by my side through this rather than waiting till I can figuratively see up as up and down as down again" says Tori
"probably a good idea actually, I'm not sure where this thing with Trina goes or even if it goes anywhere but I know I can't trust Beck, long story short he and I cleaned my neighbors garage one day during the summer, unknown to us at the time got paid in fake money, went to buy a pretty dress and he insisted he pay for it, only has the fake money on us at the time, got hauled to the police station and he put all the blame on me and since I'm known to the police for my bad habit of smoking the green over the last year they had no reason not to believe him, they then asked me to tell them where we got the money and I told them, even put the green I had on me on the table and said if I'm lying yoau can keep that, needless to say they knew i was serious" says Jade
"why smoke" asks Trina as she hangs up after placing the delivery order
"basically psych meds make me worse, my doctor got me a prescription for medical grade green but as I had to take out a loan to get the first "run" of the prescription I had to tell the dispensary I couldn't afford any more of my prescription" says Jade
"so you had to turn to the streets, what's the price difference, doesn't your family have like loads of money, if not that's ok too" says Trina
"the difference was either I can pay for groceries AND rent or only one of them, yes my family has money and I was already on thin ice over "choosing" to be bi, then the whole beck police thing turned them on me, finding me smoking was the last straw, they disowned me, I've been a WINO for six months" says Jade
"wino" asks Trina
"West in name only, in other words they disowned me, I was allowed fifty grand" says Jade
"you still have access to your family money though right" asks Trina
"nope, new account, new name, what's worse is now I have to wait a year to change it so I have to live for a year as Jadelyn Stupidity West" says Jade as David walks in and hears that
"oh no you will definitely not live with that for a year Jade, I don't give a crap who your parents are it's not right what they did, also Cat had me pick up your medicinal green, it's fully covered now so don't sweat it" says David handing Jade a box of green
"why Cat" asks Jade
"because it's the right thing to do, also I didn't pay for it Tori did" says Cat
"why" asks Jade in awe
"remember how I said she gave dad her savings to pay for groceries, yeah that was a white lie" says Trina
"wait you knew Tori" asks Jade
"I knew you smoked something but not what, then I explained the smell to dad and he knew exactly what it was" says Tori
"the box contains, smokables, gummies and edibles, the dose amounts are in the box" says David as he heads back to work
"what did it cost you Tori" asks Jade
"not as much as you'd think, I enrolled you in the same health insurance company I'm getting my policy from, costs me five hundred dollars a month, covers body maintenance which is things like dental, sleep studies and such, mental maintenance which is meds, therapy and yes green, they cover half at the time of request by the company" says Tori
"so say I needed glasses and it cost me seven hundred dollars, I'd only have to pay half out of my own pocket?" asks Jade
"yes and if you can't afford the five hundred a month I'm allowed four people on my policy but I didn't want to just assume you'd want to be on my policy" says Tori
"I mean if Trina and I work out I'll be sure to pay towards your policy" says Jade