Emily, Bucky, Steve and Sam went back to the house Emily had lived in while she had worked for Tony, technically she still worked for Tony. Everyone was quiet, they had got almost everyone back, but then lost one man who made it possible, who's loss would be with them forever.

She busied herself in the kitchen, finding some beers buried in the fridge and she took them to the men sitting round the table. She placed them on the table. It was then that Bucky reached for her, he grabbed her wrist and pulled her to him. She fell into his lap, she lay against his chest, and listened as the men spoke. Steve filled them in on pretty much everything they had missed, he left out stuff about the kids etc. Emily must have fallen asleep against Bucky's chest, as he had to shake gently to wake her. She looked up at him, he was really back.

"You looked shocked."

"I'm so happy to have you back. I still can't believe it. I have so much to tell you."

"Tell me in bed."

Emily climbed off him and took his hand. Bucky followed her slowly to the bedroom. She sat on the bed and looked up at the man in front of her. She had no idea how to tell him everything. It was Bucky that pulled her out of her thoughts.

"Billy?"

"Shit, he's at Tony and Pepper's. I should go….."

"We'll go in the morning."

"Bucky, I have to tell you something." She said worrying her lip between her teeth.

He sat down next to her, she looked so worried. "You can tell me anything, you know that."

"After you….. Well when you….. I was….."

He studied her face, she was so scared right now. "If you're gonna tell me you moved on, I understand, 5 years is a long time to …"

"Oh god, it's not that. I mean I kissed someone more than once, but it's always been you. I could never love anyone else." Bucky reached for her hand then, she ran her thumb across the back of his hand. Emily wanted nothing more than to fall into him, to lose herself in him, but she had to tell him about Jamie. "I was a mess after, I came to the compound with Steve and Nat and a few months after, I… well i found out i was pregnant." Bucky stared at her for a moment.

"She's 4, she's the most amazing stubborn little girl you will ever meet. I called her Jamie. She and Billy are very cute together, they run rings round everyone. They have been my world for the last 5 years."

"Do you have a picture of her?"

Emily got up and went over to her dresser, she brought over a picture of Jamie and Billy that always sat proudly next to her's and Bucky's wedding photo. Bucky looked at the picture, tears forming in his eyes. He had missed so much. He looked at the woman standing in front of him, she had been so strong, she had held everything together for the kids. Would he have been able to do that if things were the other way round?

"She's a mini you." He stated with a small smile.

"Oh in every way."

Bucky stood up then. She looked at him. She had imagined this moment in her head so many times, but now it was here she was nervous. Bucky closed the space between them, his hands resting on her waist.

"We don't have to do anything, we can just climb into that bed and sleep."

Emily put her hands on his face and pulled him down to her, kissing him. Bucky pressed her body to him. They stripped each other quickly, they both wanted to feel each other again desperately.

They fell onto the bed in a heep of tangled limbs, the coolness of his metal fingers sending a shiver down her spine. Bucky was in between her legs in moments, his hard member pressing up against her. Emily moaned at the feel of the heavy head weighing at her entrance, she bucked her hips begging him to enter. She needed this, needed him. She had waited 5 years for this.

"Buck," she gasped as he ran his tongue down her neck. "Bucky please I need you." She placed both hands on the sides of his face and lifted his head so she could look into his eyes. "Please."

Bucky kissed her passionately before scooping her leg up over his shoulder and pushed slowly into her. The sighs and moans she made were music to his ears. She pulled him to her, her arms wrapped around his neck and the heel of her other foot digging into his arse. "I don't want gentle." She moaned. "I want you, all of you Bucky."

Bucky smirked, shaking his head he dove in harder and faster than before. It was all the encouragement he needed. He ran his fingers between her thighs and began to rub her clit bringing her orgasam crashing over her. Emily dug her nails into his back and gave a soundless yell, all air leaving her lungs. Bucky lost it the moment he felt her clench around him.

They spent the rest of the night talking and having sex, Emily filling him in on everything he had missed about their children for the last 5 years. It was early morning when Bucky raised himself up on one elbow and turned to her with a wrinkled brow. "You said you kissed another man?"

"I did. 3 years or so after the blip was the first time. Everyone kept telling me I should move on. I got drunk."

He laughed, he had never seen her drunk, he knew the only person that could manage to get her drunk would have been Nat. "So you got drunk."

"It wasn't a pretty sight, I even got into a bar fight, well I just knocked him to the floor."

"Why?"

"He touched me." Bucky laughed, she must be the only girl in history to go out, to move on and pin the first guy that touches her.

She looked at him. "You laughing at me James Barnes."

"Full name, I must be in trouble."

"No, I've just missed saying it." she said laughing.

"So who did you kiss?"

Emily looked at him then. "Steve."

Bucky flopped back onto the bed bursting out laughing, Emily watched him a moment before having enough and moved to straddle him. Bucky smiled up at her and rested his hands on her hips.

"So you kissed Steve? Do I need to punch my best friend for trying to seduce my wife?"

"No, plus I kissed him a couple of the times. The first night, it nearly led to so much more. I missed you so much, Steve was the one person that knew you like I did. The second time was before you came back. We made a deal. We got you back or we left all this and set up a family with the kids."

Bucky raised his hand to her face, there were tears in her eyes now. "This was my last chance to get you back Bucky."

He pulled her down then, wrapping her tightly in his arms. They slept a little longer, both tired from their activities the night before it wasn't till the sun came shining far too brightly through the window that the pair stirred. Emily woke to Bucky's arms around her, it felt like a dream at first. Then she felt him move, his lips lightly kissing her neck.

"Morning." he whispered grogerly.

"Morning." Emily turned to face him. "You ready to go pick the kids up?" Bucky looked at her. She saw the panic in his eyes.

"Will Billy remember me? And Jamie what if she doesn't like me."

Emily raised her hand to his cheek. "She is going to love you, you're her dad and Billy still talks about you."

He kissed her, she had grown so much without him. She was stronger, wiser and so much better than him. He watched as she got out of bed and got dressed, she glanced over at him.

"Not getting up?"

"I'm enjoying the view. But also I don't have any clean clothes." He watched her pull out a suitcase, he got out of the bed and opened it. Inside were his clothes.

"Nat went to get everything from our home in Wakanda, once it became clear we wouldn't be going back. I couldn't bring myself to part with these."

Bucky started pulling the clothes out. Emily kissed his cheek lightly. "I'll be in the kitchen."

Emily found Steve and Sam in the kitchen, Sam was still getting his head round everything he had missed. They both greeted her as she came in.

"I didn't think we'd see you guys for a few more hours yet?" says Sam with a smirk.

Emily pulls a face at him. "We have the kids to pick up."

She busied herself making some eggs and bacon for everyone, Bucky came in and kissed her temple and took the cup of coffee she offered him. He sat at the table with Steve and Sam. "So I believe you kissed my wife while I was gone." looking at Steve. His face gave nothing away as he waited for his best friend's reply.

Sam spat his coffee out and Emily turned to see where this was going. Steve looked at Bucky, who looked very serious. "Buck, I can explain. I mean… she was drunk…. And then she kissed me after we made a deal… if i'd known…"

Bucky smiled, shaking his head. "I'm messing with you."

Everyone laughed. Bukcy pulled Emily down into his lap as they ate breakfast. Emily felt at home in his arms, like she was finally whole again.

After breakfast, they got in the car and took the ride to Pepper's house. The place felt different when they pulled up, it had changed without Tony. Emily knocked lightly on the door. Bucky had chosen to stay in the car, till Emily had time to talk to the kids. Happy answered the door and Emily stepped in. Morgan was playing on the floor with Billy and Jamie, she could hear Pepper in the kitchen.

"Pepper…."

She turned and saw Emily. Emily walked to her and hugged her. "I'm so sorry." They stood there for a moment, then Pepper stepped back. "He was a good man Pepper. One of the best."

"I know. He had a big heart."

"I know. Do you know that when he came back, he left me money for me and BIlly. To take care of us after Bucky."

"He did? He never said." Pepper wasn't shocked he hadn't told her. Tony didn't like people thinking he was nice, not even her.

"It meant alot. He told me to raise Billy to be better than us."

Pepper took her hand. "Let's promise to raise the kids like that. To be better then what has gone."

"I promise." Emily smiled at her. "I've left Bucky in the car. He is worried the kids will be scared of him."

"Why? The kids are gonna love him so much. I'm happy for you."

"Do you mind if we stay in the house for a while, till we get sorted. I mean the compound…."

Pepper waved her hands at her and laughed slightly. "One last surprise from Tony. The house is yours. He signed it over to you years ago."

"He really was a good man." Emily laughed tears filling her eyes at the thought of what Tony had done for her and the kids. Emily went into the living area and the kids spotted her, they ran over to her and hugged her. She knelt down and hugged back smiling at still having these little monkeys in her life. "You guys been good for Pepper and Happy?" They both nod at her. "Ok, well get your stuff. I have a surprise in the car."

Jamie and Billy run and start getting their bags, Jamie couldn't pull hers, so Billy took it. Emily gave Pepper one last smile and opened the door. As they came out, Bucky opened the car door and got out. Billy froze and Jamie clung to Emily's hand. They walked down the steps towards the car, Bucky moved to the front of the car and waited. Billy looked up at Emily.

"Is that dad?"

"It is sweetheart. He came back to us."

Billy dropped his case handles and ran to Bucky, who opened his arms to receive his son's hug. Emily smiled. The little boy was looking into Bucky's face, touching it, as if thinking the man in front of him might just disappear. Emily walked over with Jamie, who was now in her mother's arms, the young girl had her face hidden in her mother's shoulder. Bucky stood up then, ready to meet his daughter.

"Jamie, say hi to your dad."

Jamie turned to face the strange man in front of her, Emily could feel her holding on to her tighter. Bucky reached his hand out and Jamie shrugged away.

"Where's uncle Steve. I want uncle Steve."

Emily gave Bucky an apologetic look. Billy reached up and tugged on Emily's arm. Emily knelt down.

"What's up buddy?"

"I just wanted to tell Jamie something."

The little girl looked at her big brother. Billy took her hand and whispered something in her ear that neither of his parents could hear. "Really?" Asked Jamie looking at her father's arm.

"Really." Billy took her hand in his and then took Bucky's with his other. Emily smiled. The car ride home was fairly quiet, Jamie kept whispering things to her brother and he would reassure her. Bucky laid his hand on Emily's thigh as they drove and she would keep squeezing it. When they arrived at the house, Bucky helped her carry the kids bags inside, Billy ran in dragging Jamie behind him. When they arrived in the kitchen, Jamie was in Steve's arms, hugging him round the neck and giving Sam death stares. Clearly her daughter was not happy with the new situation. She turned to Bucky who had a sad look on his face, she took his hand and led him out of the room. She turned back to him.

"She'll come round. She doesn't know you. She only knows what we've told her about you."

"It really hurts that she wants Steve." Looking over her shoulder not wanting to look her in the eye for fear of her seeing just how much it pained him.

Emily placed her hand on Bucky's face. "Steve has been there her whole life. She knows him. She will learn to love you and see you how she sees Steve. Give her time Buck."

Bucky kissed her, he knew she was right. But it still cut deep that his daughter had no idea who he was, and how much he loved her, even though he had only known about her for 24 hours. They headed back into the kitchen and Emily saw the kids sat at the table colouring, while Steve and Sam stood nearby.

…..

A week later they had to make the trip back to the cabin, to say goodbye to Tony. Emily had had to talk Bucky into coming at the last minute. He had spent most of the time telling them that Tony wouldn't want him there but Emily had reassured him that Tony had fought so hard to help bring him back for her and the kids, that he would want Bucky there.

Emily hugged Pepper and Morgan on arrival, they then joined everyone to say their goodbyes to Tony. Bucky had his arm around her waist, his other hand resting on Billy's shoulder. Jamie was sitting on Emily's hip. She was starting to warm up to Bucky. She had allowed him to start putting her to bed and reading her stories.

Emily let a silent tear roll down her face as they watched Pepper lay the wreath in the lake.

…..end of chapter 11