A/N: I mean of course the longest chapter would be the one where I break Nat. Like, obviously. I should maybe do some more home is where the heart is, updates but whatever. I like this fluff more… no that this is actually fluff but whatever.

I've also been stuck on this chapter for around a week now which is kinda frustrating (which also means I wrote this BEFORE this week's episode of wandaviz, okay. Like, want no shit about that even though obviously this isn't canon in any way I just wanted to say that.) I don't know why but I've been struggling a lot with it. I do want It to work though because even though this series doesn't really have a timeline and stuff I still imagine in my head that this is like the first of them all. Like I imagine this isn't that long after Ultron and this is kinda like the first, first, time the two of them kinda starts flirting in this whole Nat Wanda series.

Red

Wanda let out a small sigh as she walked into the room again turning the lights off as she entered the room. Natasha was lying in the middle of the big bed, exactly where Wanda had left her. She had fallen asleep it seemed like. Wanda wasn't sure if that was a good or bad sign. But at least her breath sounded somewhat stronger than before.

Debating what to do, Wanda ended up crawling into bed beside Natasha making sure to tuck her under the cover before she slowly wrapped her arms around the woman with a small sad face.

She wasn't sure how long she sat there before she felt Natasha move in her arms. Surprised by the movement, Wanda loosened her arms around the girl and looked down. The woman was moving now clearly awake hiding her face in her hands letting out a few small noises.

"Nat?" Wanda tried leaning forwards. Before she got to get a better look at her she felt Natasha push her away before stumbling out of bed before almost running into the bathroom leaving Wanda even more confused behind.

Natasha slammed the door shut, locking it behind her. And while Wanda didn't want to push Natasha too much, the sounds that came from the bathroom were more worrisome than the fear of Natasha screaming at her later.

Flicking her hand with her powers the door slammed open just as fast as Natasha had closed it, and the sight that met Wanda was absolutely heartbreaking.

Natasha was on her knees leaning over the toilet with her whole body shaking as she threw up. Whining loudly before she fell to the side, covering her entire head as she fell to the floor for the second time today.

"Natasha!" Wanda was by her side in mere seconds. Thankfully she was conscious this time but she was shaking as she continued to hold over the right side of her face and head with tears streaming down her face.

Wanda had never seen the woman cry before. And Wanda had witnessed Natasha taking a bullet and she hadn't even lifted an eyebrow when she did.

"Come here," Wanda whispered as she slowly moved Natasha away from between the toilet with the help of her powers, lifting her head onto her lap to elevate it from the floor.

Natasha didn't even look at her as she moved her. and she only continued to shake, curling up even more as if she tried to hide herself from something. Her breathing was heavy. And with a hand on her back, it was like Wanda could feel the pain the woman was in even if she wasn't actually using her powers.

While she was very clearly in pain the last thing Wanda wanted was to have the woman lying on the bathroom floor in their hotel room. Instead, she slowly lifted Natasha up from the floor with her powers trying to keep her as stable as possible, both flushing the toilet, and making sure the blinds and curtains were closed as she for the second time laid Natasha in their bed.

This time Wanda moved over to the other side of the bed, making sure Natasha was closest to the bathroom door before joining her. She closed the distance between them and cuddled up close to the redhead letting the woman hide in her arms leaning her head on her chest before covering her face again.

With her arms wrapped around her, Wanda laid her head just above Natasha's letting the redhead cry into her chest with small whimpers. It was killing her inside watching her normally so strong mentor now falling apart in front of her so very clearly in pain.

She spent hours wrapped around the woman. Slowly letting her hands glide over her back to comfort the other woman. Playing with her hair carefully and moving it away from her face every time Natasha moved. She told her it was going to be okay every time Natasha let out a whimper. And she tightened the hug around her every time Natasha curled up more.

It was like a new form of torture, and it was like her heart was getting stabbed every time Natasha whimpered.

Every, single, time.

They had passed three hours before Natasha finally fell asleep again. It was three hours of Natasha being in constant pain without Wanda knowing what the hell was going on at all. It had been three hours of just watching the woman turn in pain.

She was sure Natasha would be mad at her tomorrow. Probably telling her she was fine and Wanda not going with their targets was dumb. And now staying with her for hours was even dumber. She was sure Natasha was going to scold her for that too. At least she should have been going through their rooms now that she had the chance. Instead, she had been fussing over her, which Wanda was sure Natasha thought was only a waste of time.

It was almost as heartbreaking knowing Natasha didn't think she deserved people who looked after her. Wanda knew Natasha hated when people fussed over her. And the redhead never saw any value in herself even though Wanda couldn't imagine a life without her anymore. Watching Natasha in so much pain now had just made Wanda realize how much she cared for the woman. Of course, she was aware she cared for her before as well. But the sight in front of her today, when she watched Natasha's eyes roll back into her head, her body failing her completely, it had been a nightmare. And the one second where Wanda had felt her heart stop, scared if she had lost the redhead too, it was like Sokovia all over again.

She really couldn't live without her.

Wanda let out a small sigh as she looked down on the sleeping woman. Now that she was sleeping she thankfully wasn't in pain anymore. Wanda definitely didn't want to leave her side, even if the back of her head told her she probably should have gone through Harrie and Lexie's room. She knew this was a golden opportunity but she just couldn't. If Natasha got mad at her later she just had to deal with it then, because nothing could get her to leave Natasha now.

Instead of leaving their room, Wanda spent another 30 minutes wrapped around the sleeping woman before she took the time to clean fast over the toilet before finding a bucked for Natasha in case she woke up again placing it close by the bed.

She let out a small groan as she heard her stomach rumble. It was just under five hours since Natasha had collapsed and Wanda hadn't eaten anything today. She was debating on what to do before remembering the leftover from last night's dinner. It probably wouldn't be as good today cold, but it was better than nothing and she needed some food. And now she could eat without having to leave the room too.

With the food from yesterday and the different drinks in the minibar, it didn't seem like too bad of a meal after all. And she was honestly starving at this point.

She curled up in a chair, still looking over at the bed where Natasha was as she slowly started eating. Trying to still do some work she scanned over some documents on her phone while alternating between eating and throwing looks at Natasha.

Only five minutes into the meal she heard a small groan. Immediately putting her food and phone away Wanda made her way over to Natasha climbing into bed.

"Nat?" Wanda whispered as she for the first time in hours met Natasha's eyes. They had calmed down now. And she didn't seem to be in as much pain anymore. Maybe a bit disorientated but at least awake.

Letting a helping hand around Natasha as she pushed herself up into a sitting position Wanda jumped closer as Natasha leaned on her with a small sight.

"Dizzy," Natasha mumbled as she closed her eyes leaning on Wanda with a small sigh-

"Nauseous?" Wanda asked softly, ready to float the bucket over if Natasha answered yes. She could feel Natasha shake her head in her arms just as Natasha's stomach too let out a loud grumble. Realizing Natasha actually hadn't eaten a real meal since lunch yesterday Wanda's eyes widened. The woman had to be starving. Especially after she also threw up what little her system had left earlier today.

"Do you want anything to eat? I have some food right here if you want." Wanda whispered, trying not to push the other woman too much, but still giving her the opportunity.

The woman didn't answer at first, still just leaning on Wanda before she slowly nodded her head in her arms. "Maybe a little," Natasha whispered back, this time actually looking up at Wanda with two tired eyes.

Wanda nodded shortly back before she floated the leftovers over together with a cold bottle of water directly out of the fridge.

"Drink," Wanda said as she slowly opened the bottle, handing it to the redhead who just nodded, closing her eyes as she let the bottle touch her lips. Clearly dehydrated, the woman almost drank the whole bottle at once before handing it back to Wanda before she leaned on her again.

Wanda looked at her closely as she offered Natasha the first bite of the cold pasta. It was quite a bit of cream and cheese in the sauce, and Wanda really hoped Natasha's body could handle the rather heavy food. Still, when Natasha opened her mouth and let out a small sigh as she lazily chewed the bite Wanda couldn't help but feel a slight relief. If she had an appetite that had to be a good sight, right.

Natasha ended up eating the whole thing before she finally curled up in Wanda's arms again this time a lot more relaxed than before. While she was clearly still bothered by whatever was going on she was at least now aware of what was going on around her and wasn't crying anymore.

They ended up curled up in the bed for another 2 hours where Natasha almost immediately fell asleep again wrapped around Wanda with her head on her chest breathing heavily.

Wanda had barely gotten any food in her before Natasha had taken over and now she was starving. She needed food soon, but Natasha was sleeping so comfortably in her arms and she really didn't want to move her.

Thankfully she didn't have to before Natasha woke up by herself. She turned in Wanda's arms before opening her eyes looking straight into Wanda's. Something had definitely changed because now her eyes were almost completely back to normal filled with mostly the same energy and life they usually carried.

"Hi," Wanda said with a low voice as Natasha pushed herself up into a sitting position still only looking at Wanda. Wanda knew what she was doing. She was well aware Natasha was now analyzing her. Reading her like an open book. Having no trouble reading and understanding her body language. She was almost as good at reading minds as Wanda, which was kinda terrifying.

The redhead was just about to open her mouth when Wanda's stomach let out a loud sound making Natasha look at her with an eyebrow raised.

Wanting very much to avoid whatever Natasha was about to say Wanda only said with a small smile. "Want to hold that thought so I can order some food to the room?" Wanda watched as Natasha's mouth moved but choosing not to say anything the woman only looked at her as Wanda moved over to the phone in the room to order some room service.

After Natasha declined the offer of something for herself Wanda swiftly ordered a burger for herself with some fires, the whole time feeling Natasha staring her down.

"Okay, you were saying?" Wanda said trying to keep her voice as normal as possible, not giving away how nervous she really was. Natasha looked at her again tiling her head before she did something that threw Wanda completely off guard. Her face melted into two very worried eyes as she looked at her before saying.

"You seem very worried." Shocked by the sentence Wanda just stared. She really wasn't sure what she was expecting but for some reason, this wasn't it. Not knowing what to respond she ended up just replying dryly.

"Yeah guess that's what happens when the woman you look up to collapses multiple times in front of you." She regretted it the second she let the sentence fall out of her mouth and she could see the guilt in Natasha building.

"Yeah, I guess so," Natasha said now with a low voice. She looked down at her hands twirling her fingers. Not a smooth move Wanda.

"Nat. I... I didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry." Wanda said moving over to the bed sitting down on the foot end looking at Natasha with a small look.

"I'm sorry you had to witness that," Natasha said with what Wanda could feel was a genuinely guilty voice.

"Natasha, please don't say that. I'm glad I was here. I'm more scared of what could have happened if you were alone. I mean you fainted. You could have hurt yourself!" Wanda said, moving closer to the woman. She could see how Natasha was hesitating as she moved over but she didn't stop her.

"I just need to know what happened," Wanda whispered looking at Natasha with a small voice. Natasha turned around and she actually smiled softly.

"Believe me it's not important," Natasha said shaking her head still smiling softly as she talked.

"Natasha, don't you dare ignore this. We need to talk about this, I mean it happened, and it was scary. Please don't talk about this as if this isn't serious." Wanda said looking at the woman with a strict voice. Natasha looked at her with two kind eyes, and Wanda wasn't sure what the look was even supposed to mean, but something was lingering in her eyes. They were so soft and so caring. But also carrying a lot of weight.

"They happen all the time. I promise you I'm fine." Natasha said still trying to push the topic away. Her tone was still soft though which confused Wanda. She seemed so okay with the idea of everyone just ignoring this for some reason.

"Nat, I can actually not believe you are saying this right now." Wanda looked at her genuinely feeling so confused about Natasha's behaviour. How could she act like this wasn't serious? She couldn't actually mean that right.

"Natasha. If this is something that happens often if anything you need to go to the doctors or something. This is really bad. I… I can't… I just got really worried." Wanda wasn't even sure what she was saying anymore, just feeling all the words falling out of her making no sense out of anything anymore.

Natasha looked at her. Her eyes stared at her for a good 10 seconds before she slowly nodded. Clearly thinking about what to say. Or if she was going to give her anything for that matter.

"They aren't usually this bad. But it happens often. I'm sorry you had to see me like this." Natasha said finally looking at her as her eyes softened. Maybe Wanda was finally getting through to her.

"What is?" Wanda asked, looking at the redhead. The woman took a deep breath clearly not wanting to talk about it, but Wanda was not gonna stop now. Natasha was clearly actually thinking about opening now. And she wanted to know. She needed to know.

"Migraine," Natasha mumbled back.

"Sorry?!" Wanda blurted out not realizing how shocked she sounded before it was already too late.

"You know what a migraine is right?" Natasha asked carefully, looking at Wanda with a small look. She nodded fast before replying.

"Yeah, I do. My mom had them." Wanda whispered the last part and she could see the regret in Natasha's eyes realizing she hit a sore topic.

"Oh." Natasha only answered, clearly unsure what to even reply to that and not wanting to make her feel worse Wanda continued.

"I know what they are, but they were never as bad as yours," Wanda said trying to keep her voice as calm as possible not to make the woman more upset.

Natasha continued to look at her for a while before she tilted her head softly before she said. "Sometimes they aren't as bad. I get them around every two weeks. Had them most of my life. Just learned to live with it." Natasha said with a small smile. She really was trying to push this away as if it wasn't anything at all, wasn't she?

"who knows?" Wanda asked slowly looking at the woman. one thing was Natasha ignoring the problem herself but had she even told anyone else or was she hiding it. She hadn't noticed anything before at all. Or not that she could remember at least.

"Pepper knows, found out when I was at Stark's industries. Steve know. Found out at a mission." Natasha started slowly. Wanda took notice of how she said "found out" and not said she told them.

"And Clint knows… same with Laura of course. Found out similarly as you." Natasha finished with a small grimace.

"Righhht." Wanda replied looking at her with a sceptic look. "And why haven't you told anyone? I mean clearly, this isn't a good thing." Wanda continued looking at her.

"if I can hide it does it really matter?" Natasha counted making Wanda let out a loud laugh.

"Seriously? Are you serious?!" Wanda wasn't almost in unbelief was she just gonna continue doing this. This was ridiculous. "How bad do they get?" Wanda looked at her with a softer voice.

"I don't know," Natasha mumbled. "Guess that's not really something I try to measure."

"Yeah but that's not helpful Nat," Wanda said nudging her carefully with a small smile. The redhead turned to her with her smiling softly back.

"And what do you want? A rating system?" Natasha said this time her face softened and she finally didn't seem to resist so much anymore.

"Actually yes I would love that. Then you could always tell me and I would know. I get that maybe you don't want to tell everyone, even if I think you should get it checked out, I will know." Wanda said looking at her with a serious look.

"And how would I know what is what?" Natasha asked slowly clearly thinking about it know.

"Well, clearly this has to be a ten. Right?" Wanda said looking at her with a serious look, really hoping it couldn't get worse than this.

"Yes," Natasha replied softly making a small grimace.

"So that's top. And bottom would be you realizing something is there right? Five would be middle then?" Wanda asked looking at her with a questioning looking.

"okay… so five would be the most usual. When I can deal with it without anyone noticing." Natasha said still very clear thinking. "Everything between is just something I can deal with."

Wanda shook her head slowly. "just because you can deal doesn't mean its right." Wanda countered making Natasha laugh softly.

"Fine." She let out a small sigh before continuing. "Everything over would be something I would constantly notice. 7 would be when I rather am alone. 8 I would prefer just a dark room and sleep. And 9 and 10… I think we both know what that is." Wanda nodded looking at the woman with a small smile.

"What are you a now?" Wanda asked carefully jumping even closer to the redhead. Natasha looked at her thinking for a second. "four? Maybe. Still there. Doesn't throw up because of it." Natasha said lifting her shoulders.

Wanda was just about to answer her when she heard a soft knock on the door.

Right the food.

She could feel Natasha look after her as she walked over the floor to get the food and when she got back she could see the hungry look in the redhead's eyes.

"Do you want some? We can share it." Wanda asked softly as she looked at the redhead who was clearly eyeing her burger.

"No, it's okay. I don't feel great." Natasha mumbled before leaning back in the bed with a small sigh.

"You sure? I mean if you don't want the burger part you can always just take some fries." Wanda asked again, not wanting the redhead to say no just because she felt that was the polite answer.

The redhead didn't answer this time. Instead, she just nodded softly before she leaned on Wanda when Wanda finally moved over to join her on the bed, softly purring as she let her head fall on her shoulder curling up beside her closing her eyes.

A/N: fun fact this is based on a real-life experience so love that for everyone… xD