''What did you want to talk about San?'' Quinn asks smiling slightly after they ate lunch still sipping on her hot mint chocolate, Santana freezes before she can take a sip of her caramel cappuccino and gulps.
''Um.'' she glances at Emily and nervously bites her lip. ''This is about your sister.''
Emily raises an eyebrow and smirks slightly. ''That the both of you got the hots for each other?''
''Wait, what?'' Santana exclaims shocked as Jake and Quinn almost spit out their drinks at Emily's bluntness, Emily laughs reaching out and softly squeezes Santana's hand knowing she gets panicked quite easily.
''Don't worry San, I think we all already noticed the change between the two of you.''
''Wha, how?'' Santana asks dumbfounded, Jake turns to her and smiles slightly.
''Whenever Brittany is around you are relaxed and you are more like yourself instead of silent and closed off.''
''Yeah you let yourself relax and you are the old Santana since you met Britt, you also have that dopey love grin on your face whenever you look at her interact with Bella.'' Quinn continues.
''Brittany looks so much more at peace whenever you are around and I can see that you are good for her and she makes you happy too San.'' Emily says shrugging.
''How long?'' Santana asks softly, Emily tilts her head and smiles lovingly.
''How long we know?'' She shrugs her shoulders as she slowly nods her head and chuckles. ''I think we all noticed it since the very beginning, but to me it became clear the second the both of you started to become more touchy feely and you fell asleep in her arms every time she pulled you against her side to calm you down.''
''Yeah that was the second it became clear to me too, you never fell asleep at some place you didn't know before, but I think you can fall asleep everywhere as long as you are laying in Britt's arms.'' Quinn adds chuckling.
''She really gives me the feeling that I am protected and safe, Bella feels the same and..'' Santana blushes slightly rubbing the back of her neck and sighs. ''She is one of a kind guys, I don't even know how to describe what I am feeling.''
''Does she feel the same?'' Jake asks softly.
Santana slowly nods her head and smiles slightly. ''Yeah she does and we talked about it last week and last night.''
''What was the talk about?'' Emily asks curiously
''Us or well if there will be an us.''
''And?'' Santana jumps as the three of them yell and shushes them laughing softly.
''Fuck relax guys.'' She rubs the back of her neck and blushes. ''Well it's a clear yes from both sides but it will be quite difficult for a bit.''
''Why?'' Quinn asks curiously.
''Because B is almost 21 and this is a fucked up small town.'' Emily murmurs softly as she sees Santana worrying her bottom lip between her teeth.
Santana nods her head in agreement and sighs. ''Yeah the age difference will be a bit of a problem although I am turning eighteen next month and I can take my own decision, the biggest difficulty I see is my mental state though.''
''Why?'' Quinn asks frowning.
''Because I am a fucking wrack Q, my daughter is more stable than I am.'' Santana exclaims biting her lip, she shakes her head as Emily tries to say something and sighs. ''I know that I am much better than I was before, but I still have nightmares waking me up in the middle of the night and their fucking voices still haunt me even when I am awake.''
''San after everything you went through, it's normal that it will take a while before you can open up and just relax knowing everything will be fine but that doesn't mean that you are a wrack.'' Jake states softly.
''Yeah you went through hell for the past three years, hell more like your whole life with your fucking parents but you are still standing Santana. I don't think that I would have the strength you had to go through all of that.'' Emily exclaims looking at her best friend.
''They are right San even through everything you are still standing and you are an amazing mother raising you daughter and showing her what life really has to be like, your life really sucked but better times are coming babe.'' Quinn says smiling lovingly.
''Did something happen?'' Emily asks curiously, she smiles as Santana turns to her in confusion and shrugs her shoulders. ''You are having doubts that you are not good enough for B so you are thinking about a relationship with her, did something happen that made the feelings so much more real?'' She clarifies.
''We kissed.'' Santana confesses smiling shyly.
''How was it?'' Quinn asks smirking, Santana turns to her and laughs.
''I don't kiss and tell Q.'' She laughs as they just continue looking at her and sighs softly. ''Just amazing and just thinking about it gives me butterflies, Bella woke up so we pulled away before she could see us but when I turned to her to apologize she just shook her head silently telling me that she doesn't mind and talked with Bella.''
''You are so smitten.'' Quinn states smiling lovingly. ''I love to see you like this S, you are finally happy and we all love to see it.''
''Q is right this look really fits you S.'' Jake exclaims smiling brightly, Emily nods her head in agreement and smiles.
''I know that you are worrying that you will be a burden but you won't be to any of us San, Brittany probably already told you such and I can assure you that she means it S.''
''I still feel like my problems are too much for B, she comforts me whenever I have a nightmare and I don't think she sleeps much either.'' Santana murmurs softly, Emily shakes her head slowly standing up and walks around the table sitting beside her best friend.
''That she doesn't sleep much isn't your fault San, in high school she pulled through a few nights to game with Puck and I think that army didn't really change that sleeping rhythm either.''
Santana laughs softly and shakes her head. ''Yeah I had a nightmare early in the morning and when I walked into the living room she was still awake gaming.''
''Yeah that is B, she will sleep as soon as she is tired but you and Bella are both helping her relax more. I don't think I ever saw her take a nap in the afternoon before she met Bella.'' Emily says chuckling.
''Yeah she mentioned that too.'' Santana shrugs her shoulders and sighs softly. ''This morning she calmed me down after the nightmare too, I tried to not interrupt her gaming but the second she noticed something was wrong she turned the game off and jumped up to concentrate on me.''
''She paused her game?'' Emily asks shocked, she smiles slightly as Santana nods her head and chuckles. ''Okay you are really special to her S, B never paused or ended a game before.''
Santana smiles slightly and shrugs. ''She makes me feel really special but I am afraid that I can't give her what she deserves.''
''San you make her happy, I think that is everything B needs or wants.'' Quinn says shrugging.
''Yeah that might be the case but I don't want to be so fucked up our whole relationship guys, the feeling Britt gives me is something I never felt before and well I think I want to go through therapy so I don't shut her out the whole time.''
''You serious?'' Quinn asks knowing Santana hates to talk about everything again, Santana nods her head and sighs softly.
''Yeah I don't want to shut B out and I also don't want Bella to continue waking up every time I have a nightmare.''
''You know that we will be here for you no matter what right?'' Jake asks squeezing her shoulder softly, Santana nods her head looking at them and smiles.
''I know you will and I am sure I will be a mess the first few sessions, but it can't go on like this I just want to enjoy my life with my daughter, my friends and with Britt.''
''Did you ask her out on a date yet?'' Quinn asks raising an eyebrow thinking that it's time to change the subject, Santana shakes her head smiling nervously and sighs secretly glad for the subject change as she tries to calm her shaking hands.
''No not yet but I do want to do that.''
''What if you sing a song? We know that you can confess your feelings through music so much better.'' Jake asks, Emily nods her head in agreement and smiles brightly.
''Yeah we can back you up, B will be surprised and you can sing about your feelings.''
Santana nervously bites her lip and sighs. ''Good idea but won't the other geeks find out?''
''They are pretty dense, don't worry about them.'' Quinn answers laughing.
''Alright let's sing a song.'' Santana murmurs smiling brightly, she laughs as her friends all cheer and glances at the time. ''Come on it's time to go to glee before we are late and Rach will throw a fit.
''Hobbit can kiss my ass. '' Quinn mutters as she stands up, Santana smiles as she holds out her hand for her to take and grabs it.
''Group hug!'' Em squeaks out tackling her girlfriend and Santana in a hug, Jake laughs quickly reaching out to steady Santana and joins the hug kissing their cheeks.
''Love you crazies.'' Santana murmurs laughing softly, Jake looks down at her and smiles.
''We love you too San.''
''Oh yeah we do, even if you are a pain in the ass sometimes.'' Quinn exclaims as they walk out of the shop, Emily glances at her girlfriend and smirks.
''Pot calling the kettle black here baby.''
''Hey!'' Santana burst out laughing at Quinn's shocked outburst and gives Em a high five.
''Thanks Em.'' She murmurs as she climbs into Jake's truck, she snickers as she hears Quinn grumble as Jake pulls out of the parking lot and turns around to look at her. ''Do you have any idea what I can sing?''
''Call me maybe!'' Emily and Quinn exclaim in unison, Jake glances in the rear view mirror and laughs.
''Seriously girls? Just because the two of you are addicted to that song at the moment, doesn't make it a good song for Santana to sing for Brittany.''
''Yeah thanks Jake.'' Santana murmurs laughing softly, Jake smiles slightly as he parks his truck and turns to look at her as soon as he turns the engine off.
''I think I have the perfect song but I need Puck for the guitar, I think you will know the song as soon as we play it.''
''Does it fit?'' Santana asks softly, Jake nods his head and smiles slightly.
''I think it fits perfectly San, come on let's go in before they all get too worried.''
Santana nods her head trusting his judgment and slides out of the truck, she smiles as Emily and Quinn both pull her in the middle of them wrapping an arm around her waist and lets them lead her inside and towards the choir room.
''You are finally here!'' Rachel exclaims jumping up to look at the four who just walked into the choir room, she glances at the time and huffs. ''Only ten minutes too late!''
''Ugh shut it hobbit, be glad we came.'' Quinn exclaims rolling her eyes as she leads Santana up to the chairs, she leans down to hug Brittany and smiles as she hears her chuckle softly. ''Hey B.''
Santana laughs softly as she hears Rachel grumble and hugs Mercedes, Puck and Brittany before sitting down in the empty chair beside Brittany with the girls next to her and Jake next to Puck.
''That was not necessary Quinn! Glee is still a lesson so you have to be on time!'' Rachel grumbles turning to look at them, Santana turns to her and sighs.
''We are here now dwarf so let it be.''
''Nice to have you back here Santana, how are you doing?'' Mr Schue asks interrupting Rachel's reply, Santana turns to him and smiles.
''Much better Mr Schue, I will probably be back next week.''
Brittany turns to her best friends and snickers. ''Their annoyance for Rachel is the same as what we feel around Jack.''
Mercedes nods her head in agreement and laughs. ''Yeah but it looks like Rachel is the same, always trying to stand in the center of attention and they aren't allowing that either.''
''I really think that it's a Berry trait, they are both annoying as fuck.'' Puck murmurs smirking.
''Alright guys, who wants to sing?'' Mr Schue asks, Santana raises her hand the same time Rachel does and glances to the side smiling as she sees Jake and Mercedes raise their hands too.
''Santana.'' Mr Schue exclaims smiling brightly, Santana smiles nervously slowly standing up after Emily and Quinn both squeezed her hand and walks to the middle.
She locks eyes with Jake and calls him over. ''Jake join me?''
''You know it.'' Jake murmurs jumping up, Santana smiles as he pulls Puck with him and pulls herself up onto the piano.
Jake joins her at the piano after grabbing a guitar and leans against it looking at the group with a small smile. ''So Santana and I decided to do something different this time, I have a song in mind which I will play on the guitar with Puck and Santana will sing it even though she doesn't know what song I am about to play.''
''He thinks that I know the song and he told me that it fits the current situation I am in, so here goes nothing.'' Santana continues smirking slightly, she turns to both boys standing beside her and nods her head. ''Go for it.''
She closes her eyes as they start strumming after Jake whispered the song to Puck and smiles slightly as she recognizes the tune, she clears her throat folding her hands in her lap and exhales softly.
Some nerve you have
To break up my lonely
And tell me you want me
How dare you march into my heart
Brittany turns to look at Mercedes not noticing Santana slowly opening her eyes and bites her lip. ''Is that?'' Mercedes shrugs her shoulders smiling knowingly and nods her head to the girl sitting on the piano.
Oh how rude of you
To ruin my miserable
And tell me I'm beautiful
'Cause I wasn't looking for love no
Nobody asked you to get me attached to you
In fact you tricked me
And I wasn't trying to fall in love
But girl you pushed me
Santana smiles nervously as Brittany turns back to look at her after asking Mercedes something and locks eyes with her trying to convey what she is feeling with her eyes, she places her hand on her stomach as she feels her hands start trembling and licks her lips.
So all that I'm asking
Is that you handle me with caution
'Cause I don't give myself often
But I guess I'll try today
She keeps their eyes locked placing her hand on Jake's shoulder as he leans into her as soon as he hears the nervous crack in her voice and snaps her finger to the melody.
'Cause I've had my heart
Broken before
And I promised I would never
Let me hurt anymore
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I'm yours
She turns to look at the boys standing beside her trying to not make it too obvious that she is singing for Brittany and nods her head to the beat as they both continue strumming while leaning into her, she ruffles their hairs snickering as they both look up at her with a frown and shoots them a wink.
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So baby I'm yours
She looks back up at the girls sitting in the back and shoots her best friends a wink as they look at her smiling proudly, she smiles slightly as Mercedes sends her two thumbs up and locks eyes with Brittany once again seeing her blue eyes glisten.
I'm mad at you
For being so cute
And changing my mood
And altering my rude
What's wrong with you
You make me sick
For being so perfect
She smiles slightly as she sees her eyebrow raise and licks her lips, she looks around the group smiling as she sees everyone moving in their seats and looks down at her hands in her lap.
What did I do
What can I do, oh
And I wasn't trying
To melt this heart of iron
But the way you hold me
Makes the old me pass away
And I would be lying
If I said I wasn't scared to fall again
But if you promise me you'll catch me
Then it's okay
She slides off of the piano as the boys stop playing and hugs Puck softly thanking him, she turns to Jake pulling him in a hug and kisses his cheek. ''You were right it really fits, thank you Jake.''
''Any time San, your voice really fits the song it was beautiful.''
Santana thanks him once again and walks back to her seat, she sits down beside Brittany smiling as Mercedes, Quinn and Emily compliment her voice and thanks them softly.
''Wow Santana that was beautiful, I would say the both of you won the challenge you put up for yourself.'' Mr Schue exclaims with a bright smile, Santana smiles high fiving Jake and nods her head in agreement.
''Yeah I think so too, thank you Mr Schue.''
''It was really beautiful sweetie.'' Brittany whispers softly as she leans in close to not interrupt Mr Schue talking about an assignment, Santana turns to look at her also leaning closer so they can whisper and bites her lip.
''Thank you, but it was to gather a bit more courage.''
''Courage for what?'' Brittany asks in confusion, Santana nervously bites her lip and gulps as she locks eyes with her.
She slowly reaches out to squeeze her hand and smiles nervously. ''For this.'' She turns in her seat to face her keeping their hands intertwined knowing everyone's attention is on Schue as he drowns on about sectionals and gulps. ''Will you go on a date with me?''