Two weeks later:
''How are you feeling after our talk Santana?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks smiling slightly, Santana takes a deep breath and smiles.
''Much better, thank you so much for all the tips you gave me they really helped me settle my mind. I am not as jumpy around Brittany as I was before and what happened that night she asked me to be her girlfriend didn't happen again.''
''It's finally looking up for you.'' Mrs Pillsbury mentions smiling lovingly, she looks down at the notepad in her hand and tilts her head. ''Do you have any plans for your birthday tomorrow?''
Santana shrugs her shoulders and bites her lip. ''No not really but I am sure Brittany planned something, she was quite secretive this week.''
''And you are okay with that?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks, Santana nods her head and smiles slightly.
''I trust her so I know she won't do anything that will set me off.'' She looks down at her hands and gulps. ''Thank to you asking Brittany to use her contacts at the army, we also found mi Abuela.''
''Really?! Did you talk to her?''
Santana slowly nods her head taking a sip of her water and gulps, she picks her nails thinking back to the phone call with her Abuela and takes a deep breath.''Yeah we agreed to meet up soon.''
Flashback three days ago
''Ola?'' Santana freezes as she hears her abuela's voice and bites her lip. ''Hello?'' She hears again.
''Ola Abuelita.'' Santana breaths out nervously
''Santanita, is that really you?!'' Alma Lopez exclaims shocked
''Si Abuelita, it's me.'' Santana murmurs through the phone closing the door of her bedroom after watching Brittany and Puck play dolls with Bella, she sits down on her bed and sniffles. ''How are you?''
''I am doing fine Santanita, how are you?'' Santana closes her eyes as she pauses and bites her lip as she hears her sigh softly. ''I heard what happened with them, why didn't you tell me querida?''
''I didn't know how to Abuelita, they told me not to tell everyone and well I didn't.''
''Oh Santanita, you could have told me. I would've helped you and you could've moved in with me with your daughter.''
Santana bites her lip and sniffles. ''I was scared Abuelita, still am but I am going through therapy to get over everything that happened.''
''Where are you living now Santanita?''
''Still in Lima until graduation Abuelita.''
''Your daughter too?''
''Yes she is with me.''
''Still in their house?''
Santana bites her lip and slowly shakes her head. ''Um no.'' She breaths out nervously.
''Are you safe Santanita?'' Santana hears her ask, hearing the concern in her voice.
''Si I am Abuelita, I am um.'' Santana takes a deep breath and gulps. ''Living with my girlfriend.'' She rushes out.
''Your girlfriend huh?'' She hears her grandmother ask teasingly, Santana hums looking down at her hands and smiles slightly as she hears her grandmothers affectionate chuckle. ''Why so nervous querida? Love is love right? What is she like?''
Santana bites her lip and smiles lovingly as she hears her daughters giggles reach her ears. ''She is amazing Abuelita, she is so loving and caring with Bella and she supports me the whole time. She doesn't force me to do anything and she is the one who found your phone number, or well more like her job did.''
''Her job found me? What? She is a teen and already works?'' Santana runs a hand through her hair and gulps.
''No she is not a teen Abuelita.''
''How old is she querida?''
''She will turn twenty-one soon.'' Santana breaths out.
''Do you love her?''
Santana gulps tears filling her eyes as she hears no disapproval and bites her lip. ''I do.'' She pauses and smiles slightly. ''But she doesn't know that yet.''
''Why?'' Santana shrugs her shoulders hearing the confusion in her voice and sighs.
''We are dating for almost two weeks now, I think it's to early to drop that bomb Abuelita. But watching her interact with Bella makes me fall in love with her all over again, she worships mi hija and mi hija worships her.''
''She sounds amazing Santanita.''
''She really is Abuelita.''
End of flashback.
Santana shakes herself out of the flashback and looks up at Mrs Pillsbury smiling slightly. ''We talked for three hours about everything that happened and about Brittany, we agreed to meet up soon and Brittany offered to drive me down to Santa Maria.''
''Will you do it?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks, Santana nods her head and bites her lip.
''Yeah I really want to see her again and I want my daughter to get to know her great grandmother.''
''Will you introduce her to Brittany?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks smiling, Santana nods her head again and gulps.
''Yeah I think I will.''
''How are you feeling with your relationship now Santana? Do you still have those doubts?''
Santana slowly shakes her head and smiles slightly. ''No they are getting lesser every day, sometimes I still think that Britt it too good for me and that she deserves someone else but somehow she always feels things like that and just takes me in her arms kisses my cheek and continues doing what she did.''
''And that works?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks, she smiles as Santana nods her head and hums. ''That is amazing and Brittany sounds really nice, how are the nightmares going?''
''Barely there, once in a while I have one and write it down as soon as I woke up but currently I am sleeping more in Britt's bed as in mine and whenever I fall asleep in her arms the nightmares stay away.''
Mrs Pillsbury leans back folding her hands in her lap and raises an eyebrow. ''Did you…''
Santana shakes her head blushing slightly knowing where the question is going and gulps. ''No I am not really ready for that yet.''
''What is holding you back?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks as she notices the nervous flicker in her eyes, Santana shrugs her shoulders and sighs.
''The doubts?''
''What doubts?''
''What if I am not good enough, what if she notices that she doesn't like me that way, what if it sucks, what if when it happens our dynamic changes and she starts changing.''
Mrs Pillsbury holds her hand up hearing the angst she wanted to hear and leans forward. ''What do you mean with changing?''
''Our relationship is close to perfect at the moment, we wake up, eat breakfast with Bella and Puck, after school she plays with Bella while I do my homework and cooks for us. I am afraid that the bubble will burst soon and that something will change.''
''That she will be aggressive too?'' Mrs Pillsbury asks, Santana shakes her head and bites her lip.
''No I don't think she will be aggressive, I know she has a temper but she never let that out around any of us but I don't know.''
''You are feeling like you are living in a dream and that taking the next step will change it.'' Mrs Pillsbury states, she sighs softly as Santana nods her head smiling nervously and folds her hands in her lap. ''Well I can't assure you that nothing will change but you are coming for me for about a month now, everything you told me and the progress I can see that you make is amazing Santana. There might be a slight change in your relationship as soon as you take the next step but I don't think that it will be bad, the only advice I can give you is that you just go with the flow and look where it brings you but don't force yourself.''
Santana nods her head and smiles slightly. ''No I won't force myself and Brittany helps with that too, she doesn't force me to anything and whenever I break a make out session off she just pulls me in her arms kisses my head and turns the TV on not once mentioning something about leaving her hanging or something like that.''
Mrs Pillsbury nods her head and smiles. ''That is one of the perks of dating someone who is older than you and her experience in my field is helping that too, due to everything she experienced overseas she knows how to handle certain situations and she doesn't want you to feel like you did the first time when you had that meltdown.'' She places her notepad on the table and smiles. ''Do you have any more questions Santana?''
Santana bites her lip rolling her shoulders and gulps. ''Only one.''
''Which is?''
''Is there a time where the angst will be completely gone, where I won't feel like a nightmare will haunt me down whenever I speak of this subject?''
''You are slowly reaching that point, you are making great progress Santana and I think that it will definitely change the second you graduate and can get out of town.''
Santana nods her head and smiles. ''Yeah I think so too, thank you Mrs Pillsbury.''
''There is no need to thank me Santana.'' Mrs Pillsbury flips through the pages of her calendar and smiles. ''Your next appointment will be next Friday afternoon, is that alright with you?''
Santana nods her head and smiles. ''Yes that is perfect.'' She slowly stands up after saving the appointment in her phone and shakes Mrs Pillsbury's hand thanking her again, she walks out of the room after slipping her jacket on and runs a hand through her hair looking down at her phone.
She selects Brittany's chat and sends her a message.
Hey just finished the session, want me to bring dinner?
She steps into the elevator zipping her jacket up and looks down at her phone as it buzzes.
Hey babe, we just got back from the park. Yeah dinner sounds good, just bring me whatever.
Santana smiles lovingly at the term of endearment and slides into Brittany's car, she connects it to the radio playing the playlist Brittany made for her and types a reply.
Will do, see you in a few.
She pulls out of the parking lot leaning back in her seat and strums her fingers on the steering wheel humming softly to the music, she bites her lip repeating the conversation she had with Mrs Pillsbury in her head and gulps.
Just go with the flow Santana, you will know when the time is right.
Ten minutes later.
After a quick stop at their favorite Chinese restaurant, Santana parks the car in front of their apartment building and jumps out. She jogs into the building after locking it and steps into the elevator leaning back against the back wall, she pulls out her phone as it buzzes and opens Quinn's text smiling as she reads it.
Hey San, Em and I are in desperate need to spend some time with our goddaughter can we take her with us tomorrow evening and bring her back home Sunday?
She steps off of the elevator typing out her reply and chuckles.
Why tomorrow evening? Got something planned in the afternoon?
She unlocks the front door chuckling as she reads her immediate reply and shakes her head.
I am not telling you anything Lopez, forget it! So is that a yes?
She kicks off her shoes and quickly replies.
Yes you can, love ya girls.
''Mija, Britt-Britt, Puck, I am home!''
''Always saving the best for last Lopez.'' Puck says laughing as she walks into the kitchen, Santana rolls her eyes quickly hugging him and smirks.
''In your dreams Puck.''
''I will kick you butt if your dreams are about my girlfriend, Noah.'' Brittany murmurs as she walks into the kitchen carrying Bella, she leans down pecking her girlfriend on the lips and smiles. ''Hey babe.''
''Mami!'' Bella squeaks out smiling brightly, Santana chuckles taking her from Brittany and kisses her head.
''Ola mija.''
Puck laughs raising his hand in surrender as he sees his best friends eyebrow raise teasingly and smirks. ''No worries Britt, my dreams are about someone else.''
Santana turns to him and raises an eyebrow. ''Yes? About who?''
Brittany snickers as her best friend stutters and smirks turning to her girlfriend. ''Someone who's name starts with R and ends with Ight hand.'' She burst out laughing as a beer cap flies towards her head and easily catches it smiling as her girlfriend laughs loudly, Puck shakes his head and grumbles.
''Why the hell do I still live here?''
''Because you loooove us.'' Brittany sing songs skipping over to him, she kisses his cheek and chuckles. ''And I know that you got the hots for Marley.'' She stage whispers.
Santana snickers in amusement watching the blush cover Puck's cheek as his head snaps up to look at Brittany and looks down at her daughter cuddled into her arms. ''They are crazy huh?''
Bella nods her head and giggles. ''Si, but amo that.''
Santana nods her head in agreement and smiles lovingly. ''Yeah we love that.'' She kisses the top of her head and hums softly the smell of love and the typical smell of her daughter filling her nostrils. ''How was you day mija?'' She asks as she sits down with her in her lap thanking Brittany softly as she places a plate with food in front of her.
''Fun, played wif B and Puck!'' Bella exclaims smiling brightly.
''Oh yeah? What did you play?'' She asks as she places her in her high chair beside her, Bella smiles thanking Brittany as she places a cup with juice in front of her and turns back to her mami.
''Played wif dolls wif B and princesa wif Puck.''
''You played princess?'' Santana asks intertwining her hand with Brittany's as soon as she sits down beside her, she smiles as Bella nods her head with a bright smile and bites her lip. ''Was Puck a beautiful princess?''
Brittany chokes on the sip of beer she just took and covers her mouth laughing as she sees Puck's face and Bella's big smile, Bella nods her head and giggles. ''Puck, Elsa.''
Santana sucks in her lips as she sees the blush covering Puck's cheek and turns to her girlfriend. ''Please tell me you got pictures.''
''Hey, I thought that was our secret princess.'' Puck exclaims pouting, Bella turns to him and smiles cutely.
''Lo siento.''
Brittany turns to her girlfriend and chuckles. ''No sadly I wasn't around when that happened, but I am sure it will happen again.'' She turns to her best friend and raises an eyebrow. ''Did you at least shave or did Elsa look like the beast from beauty and the beast?'' She asks smirking.
Santana burst out laughing and shakes her head as she sees Puck's face. ''Oh god Puck you have to see your face!'' She exclaims laughing louder as her daughter joins into her giggling, Brittany and Puck both exchange a small knowing smile both realizing the session wasn't that bad this time and slightly nod their heads silently telling each other that San will be alright with the surprise they organized for her birthday.
''B, we play after dinner?'' Bella asks cutely as she cuddles into her mami's lap after finishing her dinner, Brittany turns to her and smiles lovingly.
''I thought you wanted to watch a movie and cuddle with your mami.''
''Si! You join?'' Bella asks with big blue eyes, Brittany exchanges a glance with Puck smiling as he nods his head silently telling her that he can prepare the last part of the surprise alone and turns back to Bella smiling lovingly.
''Yes I will little B.''
Santana smiles kissing the top of her daughters head as she squeals and turns to look at her girlfriend as Puck stands up to clear the table. ''I noticed the exchanged glance with Puck, if you have something else planned you can do that too you know that right?'' She asks softly.
Brittany pulls her closer kissing her temple and smiles lovingly. ''I know but there is no better place for me tonight babe.'' She looks down at the little girl cuddled into Santana's arms and leans down kissing the top of her head. ''You want to go freshen up with you mami and put on your pj's? I will start the movie.''
''Elsa?'' Bella asks wrapping her arms tightly around her mami's shoulder as she stands up, Santana kisses the top of her head and chuckles.
''Again?'' She asks, she smiles as she nods her head smiling brightly and rubs her back. ''Want to wear your Elsa pj's?''
''Si!'' Bella squeaks out in excitement, Santana laughs and hums softly.
''Alright then, come on mi corazón.'' She turns on her heels after Bella wished Puck a good night and walks down the hallway into their or well more like Bella's room, she places her daughter down on her bed and runs her hand through her hair. ''Quick shower before movie mija?''
She smiles as she nods her head smiling brightly and carries her into the bathroom, she quickly strips them both out of their clothes and steps under the warm water spray smiling lovingly as her daughter cuddles into her relaxing under the streaming water.
''Mami?'' Bella asks softly looking up at her, Santana hums looking down at her and smiles lovingly.
''Yes mija?''
''You birfday tomorrow?''
Santana nods her head and smiles slightly. ''Yes it's my birthday tomorrow.'' She murmurs as she places her down to wash both of their hairs.
''We party togetha?'' Bella asks cutely looking up at her mami with a cute smile, Santana runs her fingers through her dark locks massaging her scalp and smiles lovingly as she relaxes back against her with her eyes closed.
''Mh we will celebrate together mija.''
''Wif cake?'' Bella asks curiously, Santana chuckles stepping out of the shower wrapping a towel about the both of them and kicks their door closed sitting down on Bella's bed humming softly.
''Yes I think B ordered cake mija.''
''We party wif B?'' Bella asks smiling brightly, Santana places her down to put on a diaper and smiles lovingly.
''You really like B don't ya?''
''Love B, B fun and B safe.''
''You feel safe when she is around?'' Santana asks smiling lovingly helping her put on her Frozen onesie, she kisses the top of her head as she squeals out her reply with a big smile and hums. ''I do too mija.''
''Mami, amo B.'' Bella mumbles through a yawn.
''I love the both of you so much.'' Santana murmurs picking her up after slipping on a pair of shorts and a tank top, Bella wraps her arms around her shoulders and sloppily kisses her cheek.
''Amo mami mucho.''
''To the moon and back mija, now and forever.'' Santana tells her smiling lovingly as they walk into Brittany's bedroom, she looks up at the blonde as her daughter nuzzles her face in her neck and chuckles. ''You powered her out, I don't think she will watch long.''
Brittany chuckles pulling the blanket back for her to slide in and runs her hand down Bella's back as she reaches out to pull her arm around her. ''Yeah she didn't want to nap today, so we lounged in my bed and played with dolls.''
''And you played at the park again?'' Santana asks smiling lovingly as her daughter turns in her arms to look at the movie, Brittany nods her head and hums.
''Yeah Puck watched her for half an hour because I had an appointment but after that I took her out to the park and we did some groceries.''
''Did you use my card?'' Santana ask softly having left her card at home for the groceries they needed for the weekend, Brittany nods her head and smiles.
''Yes I did, I placed it back into your purse after we came back home.''
''Thank you.'' Santana murmurs softly as she cuddles into her, she kisses the top of her daughters head as she cuddles into both of their arms and smiles lovingly feeling her fight against sleep. ''Go to sleep mija.''
Bella shakes her head and yawns. ''Watch Elsa, cuddle wif mami and B.''
Brittany kisses Santana's temple noticing the little girl fight against the exhaustion and squeezes her hand placed on Bella's stomach softly. ''Want to have her sleep in here?'' She whispers into her ear.
''Is that okay with you?'' Santana asks softly, Brittany hums sliding down the bed so she is laying flat on her back and lifts her arm turning her head to look at her girlfriend, Santana smiles lovingly sliding down after placing her daughter on Brittany's chest and cuddles into her side pulling her daughter against her own chest. She nuzzles her face in Brittany's shoulder after kissing the top of her daughters head once again and sighs contently feeling Britt's arms around her and Bella. ''What do you have planned for tomorrow Britt-Britt?''
Brittany turns her head to look at her running her hand down Bella's back as she feels her slowly drift off to sleep and chuckles softly. ''I am not spoiling anything San, just wait.'' She murmurs.
''Will I like it?'' Santana asks smiling slightly, Brittany slowly nods her head and smiles.
''Yeah I think you will.'' She kisses her forehead lovingly as she feels her yawn and chuckles. ''Go to sleep babe, you will have an excited day tomorrow.''
Santana hums softly her eyes closing on her own accord as Brittany starts scratching her nails over her scalp and tightens her hold on her daughter, she gives up fighting against sleep the second Let it Go filters through the speakers of the TV and hums on the verge of sleep as Brittany kisses her head once again. ''Te amo.'' She breaths out not noticing she murmured it out loud and the blonde tensing as she hears it loud and clear.
Brittany bites her lip noticing Santana fell asleep and blinks slowly, she bites her lip as she feels her heart almost beating out of her chest and places her lips on top of her head closing her eyes as she feels the love surrounding her completely. ''I love you too.'' She whispers smiling lovingly.