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I spent the whole weekend thinking about him. No matter how much I try, sleep eludes me. Shit! What the hell was I thinking? I knew that lifestyle wasn't for me, I don't understand why I ever agreed to that.

Sigh…

With the stress of my finals, finding a job, and moving to Seattle, I just gave in on

his advances. He was also different from anyone I have ever met. He was mature,

smart, and no matter what he says he did care, cared enough to fly to Georgia.

I smile thinking about when we went soaring. I feel bad for lashing out at him and leaving like that. He was always upfront with me about what he wanted from this relationship. I was the one who asked him to show me the worse and after that, in the moment of vulnerability I told him I love him; I am not sure if I do love him. How do you even know if you love someone? I was always on edge and intimidated by him when we were together. I am sure that's not how you are supposed to feel when you are with someone you love. Maybe I was more in love with the idea of being in love.

Releasing another long sigh, I pushed the sheets aside and make my way to the bathroom.

Today is my first day at SIP. I am going to be an assistant for Jake Hyde. He

did give me creeps during the interview but I am excited to be finally working

on my dream job. I am hoping to make some good friends there.

I quickly showered and put on my black and white striped shirt and tucked it in my black trousers. I stand in front of the mirror and stared at my reflection.

I look pale, more pale than usual. My eyes have big bags underneath them and I have lost weight. Sigh...

I quickly put on a little sunscreen and compact. After that, I applied black eyeliner and a little gloss. I leave my hair open. There, much better. Nothing can drown my spirits today.

I quickly put my flip phone in my bag. I have already returned the blackberry

that Christian gave me along with other stuff, it was the right thing to do.

Stop thinking about him Ana and focus on your job. The first thing I am going

to buy with my first paycheck is a new phone. Till then this will do.

I am eating a banana for my breakfast as the doorbell chimes.

As I opened the door, a delivery man is standing with a huge box.

I sign for the package and take it inside. The box is surprisingly light. Inside

are two dozen long-stemmed roses. Who would send me flowers? Maybe Oliver or

Amelia congratulating me on my graduation and my new job. Although we do talk

often, I haven't seen them in months as Amelia is still in New York and Oliver

has been swamped with work lately. I miss my friends.

I bring flowers to the kitchen and looked for the card

Congratulations on your

first day at work. I hope it went well. And thank you for the glider. That was

very thoughtful. It has pride of place on my desk.

Christian

I stared at the typed card, pain in my chest I am getting too familiar with

starts again. No doubt, his assistant sent this. Christian probably had very

little to do with it. I examine the roses; they are too beautiful but I couldn't bring myself to look at them. I put them in the cupboard of my room. I am never going to see him again; I just want to forget this Christian Grey chapter of my life. I wish Amelia or Oliver was with me right now. I haven't told them about him and I don't think I will. Now that I am in Seattle, we can finally hang out like we used to. He will pick me up today after my job for dinner.

I grabbed my bag and put on my heels; I am glad my mother took me shopping in Georgia. I hope today goes well.

Today went well. Although Jack did make me uncomfortable few times, everyone else was

nice and welcoming. I even had a good talk with Ellie in the cafeteria during lunch hours. She is a sweet girl with a quick smile and knows how to make you comfortable. She is also an Editor's Assistant in the poetry department but unlike mine, her boss is a sweet old lady. And finally, I'll get to see Oliver.

I just received a text from him that he is already outside. I make my way to Jack's office

"Mr. Hyde do you need anything else"

"Ana, it's Jack for you and no, I'll see you tomorrow"

He gave me his malicious smile, his eyes penetrating as he could see through my clothes.

"Goodbye Jack"

I grabbed my bag and dash out of there as fast as I could.

Oliver is leaning against his Volkswagen, hands in pocket. He is in a blue suit, it's

quite weird seeing him like this. It's not often that I get to see him in formals. I couldn't help but giggle a little. He does look good though. He smiles and wraps me in a tight hug.

"Ana banana, how are you?"

"Oh god. I can't believe you are here."

We both couldn't keep the smile off our faces.

"You have lost weight"

"Aww… you know how to charm a girl"

"Come on, get inside before this wind blows you away"

"shush..."

I laughingly slapped his hand.

It's so good to see him again. It's comfortable, known, and feels like home. He and Amelia are the only ones who know what happened with Stephan, my mother's third husband. I shivered a bit and pushed back the memories

"You okay?"

"Yeah, it was just quite overwhelming. Zoey joining us?"

"No, she's stuck at work. She said she would come later if she could"

Zoey is his girlfriend and one of my closest friends. They met in college and moved in together after graduation. We all went to WU but since they are all one year older than me, they graduated a year ahead.

"So how are things with you two?"

"Couldn't be better. Tell me about your job"

"I love it. You know I have always wanted to work in publishing. Everyone was SOOO

nice. Although my boss is an arsehole but nothing I couldn't handle."

I gave him my biggest smile.

"I am proud of you Ana. Open the glove compartment"

I complied and inside was a new iPhone

"For Zoey?"

"For you from all of us. Congratulations"

I stare dumbfounded at his face

"Oliver"

"Just take it"

"Oh god, thank you. I don't know what to say. Thank you"

I was shocked, happy, emotional, excited all at the same time.

"No seriously, thank you"

He laughs.

"You are still an idiot"

I started to check out my new phone and transfer my stuff. The first thing I do

is sent a thank you text to both Amelia and Zoey. They both reply congratulations. I couldn't keep the smile off my face. It's weird how just simply being with some people can make you better.