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DAMN THEM!!!!! We both roar in our heads as we are engulfed by red light feeling Jasper's power magnified between the three of us as we are engulfed in a furious rage unlike any that we have ever encountered.

As Bella's rage mixes with that of mine and Emmett's our minds explode; all three of us see thousands of stars encase our psyche then images of black female panthers, male elks and grizzly bears converge mixing.

The images continue to flash until stopping embedded and superimposed on top of each other as the red light fades to be replaced by a deep blue glow that blinds our minds.

Our rage and fury fade to be replaced by calmness as peaceful as the ocean in the eye of a storm, and we all float in that calmness as we come back into ourselves kneeling wrapped in each other's arms, our foreheads pressed together.

Bella POV

I felt like I was floating on air, I am so comfortable and then I realize that I am not at home on the floor but lying on a down mattress.

I thought I was dreaming and as I open my eyes to look around the room I realize that I am in an unknown room.

I am wrapped securely in incredibly comforting arms – cold hard arms that tighten when I attempt to move.

Keeping my eyes closed I try to reign in the joy that courses through me from the feel of not one but two sets of cold strong arms around me - their coolness reminds me of the family that left me and makes the whole in my heart fill up again. Their scents remind me of who they are – the two oddballs out, Emmett and Jasper, the only reasons I fit in so well that stupid family that didn't want me.

"Where are we? Why are you two here? You should have left me to die, I'm not worth your time or effort, everyone I touch or that comes into my life, I put in danger. Edward was right to leave me, no matter that his reasoning was based on a bullshitted lie."

"YOU are worth it," Jasper says as Emmett finishes, "and so much more."

I ignore their comments continuing on with my rant because I need to get it out and I feel myself getting angrier again.

"WHY DID YOU COME BACK? Just tell me that you didn't come back on his behalf? Although it would be like him to send someone else since he couldn't take time from fucking someone else to care enough about what happened to me? After all I wasn't good enough for him to begin with."

I finally open my eyes refusing to look at either of them as I pull myself from their grasp and sit back against the head board.

Emmett releases me as does Jasper, and without their hand on me my rage starts to build up again. I can feel it as it comes from somewhere deep inside my soul where it has festered ever since he left me.

They look at each other wincing as if they can both feel what I am feeling but I ignore that and continue on.

I wince in pain because without their touch I feel lost again, like I did before they showed up but I was not going to say that out loud for fear that they are just here to check up on me before leaving me alone again.

"You never answered my original question? Where are we?"

"We're in a guest bedroom at the Cullen house" Emmett says quietly.

"Why now? All this time you had to come back, why now? Why not when I really needed someone to be here for me?" I ask seething in anger.

I turn my head to the right and see Emmett watching me with cautious eyes as if I might disappear or start cursing him out since the last time I saw him was when Jasper was struggling to get out of his arms and attack me.

Reaching out to grasp my hand again I frown as Emmett's eyes turn sad when I flinch back.

"Bella, I'm sorry for what happened and just so you know, I didn't want to leave with the rest of the family. I should have at least stopped by to say goodbye or to give you my number so you would have someone to stay in contact with in case anything happened."

Emmett lowers his head and gazes at his hands quietly saying, "Everything inside of me is ripping apart because I wasn't here to protect you when you needed me the most. Family doesn't abandon family, no matter what. I am truly sorry and I hope that you can forgive me in time."

I sit quietly for a moment in anger taking in his words and realizing that I should never have blamed him because he is not the one at fault here, just another victim of the circumstances surrounding me.

"I forgive you Emmett because it wasn't your fault, they forced you to leave. I just needed to hear you say it out loud. But I am still angry."

I turn my head to the left and see Jasper watching me with fear in his eyes, fear of how I will react to being wrapped up in the arms of the vampire who tried to kill me the last time I saw him.

"Jasper, it was never your fault and don't attempt to apologize for something that is in your nature, you were a victim just like we were. I was the clumsy one, Edward was the jackass for throwing me into the glass plates, and Alice was the dumbass for having glass plates at the birthday party of a klutz."

"You were not responsible for what happened that night; in any way, shape or form so if you are going to apologize, let it be for something other than what you are."

"Plus if you really think about it you had more than just your bloodlust to contend with, and Edward's was doubled because I am his singer so that gave you a little extra pull as well. I've had a lot of time to think about the events from my birthday party and in all honestly that's probably what pushed you over the edge."

"Bella what are you talking about?" asks Jasper as Emmett realizes the truth.

Emmett looks at me while talking to Jasper, "You had to deal with ALL of our bloodlust, except for maybe Carlisle's. Every one of us was lusting, even if just a little for Bella's blood that night, more so Edward. Then he made it worse when he threw Bella into the glass plates and made her slice her arm open."

Jasper looks like he's about to say something then closes his eyes contemplating the words that Emmett and I have spoken.

"That incident was minimal compared to all the other dangerous incidents that have happened since meeting you guys and becoming involve with your family. I mean I thought you guys really wanted me as part of the family and I felt so abandoned when you all left without saying anything. Alice was supposed to be my best friend and she didn't even bother to come say goodbye."

I give him the time he needs and turn my head to Emmett saying, "You did the right thing by holding Jasper back, things would have gotten out of hand if he had attacked me and he would have been blamed for something that was not his fault at all."

Finally I feel Jasper move closer as he whispers, "Thank you Bella, but I am truly, beyond a doubt, sorry that I was forced to leave without having the opportunity to come and speak with you."

"I'm more disappointed and hurt because you guys didn't even come back for Charlie's funeral, because even if Edward told Alice not to look I'm sure she would have anyway. If she didn't say anything it could be either because she didn't want to say anything or because Edward told her not to."

"Bella, Alice never say anything, she would have…" Jasper starts.

"Yeah, riiiigggghhhttt" I snort derisively, "I'm pretty sure she had other things or people on her mind."

"Bella…" Emmett starts

"I knew" I whisper brokenly, "I knew right from the beginning but I didn't say anything because I AM the wronged person here, not them. I blame them both – him, "I sneer softly, "because he said he loved me and would never hurt me, and her," I snarl, "for faking a friendship – our friendship, she used as a cover for her lies."

I take a deep breath tears falling silently down my face as I continue in fury, "I would have walked away and let them be together because that's how giving I am. But now because of their lies," I snarl as my fury escalates to match exactly how it was last night when they found me.

"Bella" they both caution quietly as they each grab one of my hands calming me down considerably before I can erupt again.

I scream as my back arches off the bed and they both hiss in pain as more of our essence is transferred between each of us – Emmett and I get more of Jasper's empathic ability as Jasper and I get more of Emmett's strength while Emmett and Jasper get more of my humanity and soul.

I open my eyes floating again on the lake of calmness in the eye of the storm as they both breathe in as well feeling the calmness.

Jasper POV

I frown in amazement as I realize that I don't need to push calmness at Bella because just as Emmett and I touch her we are both able to calm her down from the rage that was about to erupt.

"Bella, I'm curious, when we touched you last night right before…um….and now your rage immediately disappeared. Last night I saw and felt something that I have never felt or experienced before."

"You were so angry and filled with so much rage and pain, it was overwhelming and I should honestly have been having a hard time holding on to my calm, but I'm not."

Bella interrupts, "I don't think the rage is all mine. I felt both of your angers and rage as well. That was after this flash of red light that engulfed me when both of you were touching me."

Looking out the window at the night sky she continues quietly, "There were also stars and images of panthers, tigers, elks, deer and bears. Then all of the rage was replaced by calmness like I've never felt before in all my life."

"I felt like I was floating on a raft in the middle of an ocean at the eye of a storm. I never felt that calmness while taking care of Renee, not while living with Charlie and definitely and definitely not while dating the douche bag."

I sit up with Bella's hand still in mine excited about the possibilities of what we are discussing, but mostly excited because I had the same experience when Emmett blurts out, "DUDE!!! I experienced the exact same thing, but I'm just a little confused about what it all means. I mean I know what the bear means, or at least I think I do. But as for the other images I'm not sure, I was hoping one of you might be able to explain that."

"Emmett, didn't I hear once that the grizzly bear is your favorite animal to hunt" Bella asks quietly.

"Yes" Emmett says thinking about it.

"If you think about it, the bear also represents who you are – strength to be reckoned with. You have always been the muscle in the family, the protector, the strongest member that everyone goes to in case of fights."

"Hmm, you're right Bella, but what about the other images?" Emmett asks.

I sit up more saying, "I think the elks represent me because they are so strategic in their thinking patterns as well as extremely courageous. The deer could be either of us because we are always hunting them. As for panther I think I'm kind of stuck on that one."

Bella POV

"I think the panther and tigers represent me – they appeared to be female – at least that's the impression I got. Female panthers and tigers are the heart of the pride, they take care of everyone else making sure that their mates are well taken care of, hunted for, they watch over the cubs to make sure nothing happens to them, etc."

"Hmmm, that makes sense." Jasper says, "But what about the stars and the red light? The calmness at the end and the eye in the middle of the storm, what do you think that means?"

Emmett clears his throat, "I think the red light represents all three of our angers and rage, we are all angry for some reason or another, Bella for us abandoning her and whatever has happened since we left, me at for Rosalie taking advantage of our marriage and not caring about me at all, you for Alice and Edward's betrayal. The both of us for Carlisle and Esme, you know…."

"What happened after you guys left…" I start to ask before I am engulfed by a vision from both of them.

Jasper POV

"How could you do this to me, Alice? What happened to love, honor and cherish? Were our vows nothing but a farce EVERY FUCKING TIME you said them?"

"Jazz" Alice begins to plead.

"DO NOT FUCKING CALL ME THAT!!! YOU LOST THAT RIGHT!! YOU LOST IT when you started FUCKING HIM!!! Did EITHER of you even care what this would do to Bella?"

Then it dawns on him as he sees the evidence on their faces, "You were never going to tell her were you? You used the birthday party as an excuse to hide the truth you couldn't tell her about."

Jasper turns to Carlisle and Esme asking, "How long have you known about their affair?"

But upon feeling their shame closes his eyes and turns away in disgust shutting out their feelings of regret as he runs up to his room and slams the door.

The only thing coming from his room is a roaring unlike any other as he tears apart the room in his fury, "I can't believe you people, and how could you treat Bella this way?"

"Sign the papers or not Alice, there's nothing left to say" I say my voice lacking any emotions since I have long suppressed them some time ago. "My name has already been changed back to Whitlock and my finances, those you know about, have been separated from you and this fucked up family."

Emmett's POV

"BELLA BELLA BELLA!! That's all I hear from you. What happened to our life before she came along? Emmett you're not listening to me!" Rosalie shrieks as she snatches my game from my hands throwing it against the wall to smash into pieces.

I stand up snarling at Rose as the family rushes in to see what is happening. Jasper sends me a much needed dose of calmness as I close my eyes and turn away from her in disgust.

"You know why it's all about Bella Rosalie" I sneer, "because she accepts me for who I am and does not force me to love someone who is more concerned about her beauty than someone else's feelings. Our whole relationship has been about YOU and what YOU want; you never ask me what I want to do, where I want to go, what interests me. NOTHING!!! NOTHING about me, everything is all about you, ALWAYS. Bella talked to me it was about my interests, she listened to me."

"I've had it with this farce of a marriage, Bella is my friend and we left her there because Edward and Alice are whores who can't keep their private parts private and separate."

"As for you two, our supposed 'parental units' neither one of you stuck up for Bella, who gave up everything for this family. She put herself in danger time and time again and the second Mr. Douche decided he couldn't hack it enough to tell her the truth, we up and left her."

"Neither of you discussed it with the rest of us, neither of you asked for the opinions of anyone else. We didn't have a family meeting to get everyone's thoughts on the subject; you just caved to the two whores in the family. What kind of family are we that we didn't discuss how everyone felt about leaving Forks? What kind of parents are you" I sneer, "When the only two people you are listening to are the ones who are doing the most damage to this family?"

"Some family we are, well I've had enough, and I'm going back for my friend, praying that she'll forgive me and still want to be my friend. God help you all if anything has happened to her you will all be sorry. Jasper, are you coming with me?" I ask heading upstairs to pack as the others are left in silence.

"Yes, Emmett, I'm with you" Jasper says going to his room and packing the minimum of clothes before waiting for me at the garage door. As I make my way down I toss some papers on the couch.


"WOW!" Emmett and Jasper gasp and I inhale sharply asking, "WHAT! Was that?"

"I think that was a vision of what happened after we left. You asked and it just showed you?"

"Has that ever happened before Bella?" Jasper asks as Emmett struggles to calm down.

"Emmett" I say soothingly placing a hand on his cheek to caress it lightly, "she can't hurt you anymore. We're here for you, precious."

"Precious?" Emmett looks up grinning.

"Yes, because you are precious to me – everything about you is precious Emmett and don't let anyone tell you differently."

Just then my stomach growls and I place my hand on it rubbing it softly.

"Bella, how long has it been since you've eaten?"

"I haven't eaten since Charlie's funeral. I just…I went into a catatonic state after…." I struggle to breathe as the memories of what happened come back to haunt me. Emmett and Jasper scoot closer and swallow me in their arms offering comfort.

"Bella" Jasper asks softly, "what happened when we left? What happened to Charlie?"

"Victoria….she came back…the police think it was an animal attack but I knew better, the pack knew better. Then I found this, it was the final straw" I said pulling the note out of my pocket and showing it to them.

Dearest Bella,

When I showed up at your house I had every intention of killing you, but then your father answered the door and I thought what better way to cause you as much pain as I am in than to kill the one you love the most. Now you truly know what it's like to suffer as I have suffered.

Farewell until next time,

Victoria

"Bella is that blood?!!!" Emmett gasps in shock and growls in anger.

"Charlie and Jacob's blood" I say as my stomach grumbles again.

"Emmett, let's get her some food. I think there might be something edible left in the house, if not we need to head further out."

"Please can't we all go together, I-I-I d-d-d-don't w-w-want to b-b-b-be alone right now, I can't…I can't be alone right now. Please."

With my head down and my eyes closed I didn't see the look exchanged between the two of them as they sense my extreme feelings of abandonment.

They grip each of my hands tighter as they both Emmett says, "Look at us Bella."

I look up distraught with tears in my eyes as Jasper says softly, "Bella we will never leave you, and you can count on us. Together forever, okay precious, we are going to be here for you as long as you want us to be."

"Together forever" I whisper quietly as they each wipe they tears from my eyes and I take a deep breath.

"Jasper, since when can you be this close to me?" I ask quietly as they both get off of the bed.

"I think it's because of whatever happened between us last night at your house, but we'll talk more about it after you shower and we get you fed, ok?" Jasper says as they help me off the bed.

As I head towards the bathroom in the guest bedroom that we were currently in, I don't see them exchange glances nor Emmett hold up the note that Victoria left.

I do sense their anger but could not understand why they were angry so I figured I would talk to them about it after I showered.

Turning on the shower I purposely fail to look in the mirror, afraid of how I would look and unsure of whether or not I really wanted to see myself right now.

As I am standing in the shower with the feel of the hot water pounding down on my back I start thinking about what will happen now, where I would go, what I would do, I can't bring myself to go back to Charlie's house because I just might attempt to kill myself again.

Jasper POV

"Emmett, what are we going to do now? We can't let her go back to her house, she might try and finish the job she started before we got there."

"Well, I refuse to go back to that fucked up family. Maybe we should leave the state and go somewhere where the family has not moved before and start over. I think the three of us could use some down time to get our heads together and figure out what we want to do, instead of what others want us to do."

"Think Bella would come with us?" I ask softly

I feel a wave of lust and embarrassment coming from the doorway then I hear Bella reply softly, "I would love to."

Turning I watch her shake her head as if to clear it as she looks down at the floor before continuing "but can we go somewhere deep in the mountains that's hard to get to? I can help out Charlie's will left me all his money and he had a nice sizable pension as well as some good investments."

"Bella, we have enough money to purchase anything we would need" Emmett says huskily as I feel his desire spike from nothing seeing her only in a towel.

"I know Emmett, but I need to take care of someone, it's in my nature and I just want to help."

I have been quiet this whole time just lost in the sight of Bella in nothing but a towel while I am trying to control my hunger for Bella then I feel a wave emanating from Emmett. His lust magnifies mine at the sight of all her bare skin just asking to be kissed and caressed that I feel an uncontrollable urge to take her on the counter right now.

I shake my head to clear it wondering where these feelings are coming from and cough low enough for him to hear as I say, "Bella I brought some of your clothes over from the house; maybe you should go change into them before you catch cold."

'Thanks Jasper" Bella says quietly turning to walk away, "Thank you both for everything."

"Emmett!" I hiss, "What was that?!"

Emmett POV

I've never really looked at Bella before and realized how beautiful she is, she doesn't have that look at me beauty that Rosalie or Alice have, it's more subtle and suits her better.

I continue to stare at her taking in her long creamy legs and her pert breasts that would fit in the palm of my hands, just enough. I am overcome by so much lust that I can't think or hear what we are discussing until Jasper hisses at me.

SHIT!! FUCK!!!

I shake my head as if to remove the clouds filling it as I realize I was just thinking that about Bella. I wish she was my Bella, no our Bella.

Jasper growls too low for Bella to hear as he sends me a wave of calm as I watch Bella walk away.

DAMMIT!!!!

"Jasper, you felt that too, didn't you? What the fuck is happening between the three of us?"

"I don't know Emmett, but I think I know someone who may have some idea. I'll call him on our way to get something to eat and discuss it with him" Jasper says.

"Do you think Bella felt it?"

Bella POV

After I got out of the shower I realized that I did not have anything to put on so I grabbed a large towel wrapping it around my body before heading down the stairs to ask them about borrowing some clothing.

I found them in the kitchen standing at the counter talking, I take in their appearance and I am immediately consumed by lust seeing Emmett in his tight jeans and muscle shirt while Jasper is simply in low rider jeans with no t-shirt and barefoot.

I am taken aback by the sight and can't think of anything but dropping to my knees in front of the two of them and doing extremely dirty naughty things to them.

I wish they were mine, my Jasper and my Emmett, I could call them Ella's Boys. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!

My face flushes red in embarrassment as I realize exactly what I am thinking about, then gets redder because FUCK! Jasper can feel my lust.

"Think Bella would come with us?" I hear Jasper ask softly.

Trying to drown my lust with embarrassment I reply softly, "I would love to."

I shake my head to clear it of such naughty thoughts right now, mainly because I know they could never think of me in that way as I look down at the floor before continuing "but can we go somewhere deep in the mountains that's hard to get to? I can help out Charlie's will left me all his money and he had a nice sizable pension as well as some good investments."

"Bella, we have enough money to purchase anything we would need" Emmett says roughly and I look up to see him looking at me with desire radiating from his eyes.

The thought that he might actually feel desire towards me gives me a little confidence and brings me pleasure.

"I know Emmett, but I need to take care of someone, it's in my nature and I just want to help."

I turn to look at Jasper who has the same look on his face as well and my confidence soars as I realize that maybe, just maybe, they feel something for me. Something more than brotherly love, but before that can happen we need to get out of here.

As I finish getting dressed, thankfully in the comfortable jeans and t-shirt Jasper picked out I walk downstairs to sit on the couch and flick on the TV waiting for them to come join me.

I turn to the news and see my face plastered on it saying that I have gone missing and there is blood on what was left of the truck.

I'm starting to get confused as they show a blackened hulk of what's left of my truck as it sits smoldering crashed into a ravine a few miles south of the school.

"We thought you might want to make a clean break of it, Bella. You mentioned that you didn't want to return to your house and we had to make sure that we tied up loose ends so that no one would come looking for you" Jasper says quietly from the living room doorway.

"Look at it this way, we will never have to come back here again and no one will look for you" Emmett says coming to stand behind the couch.

"You're right, this might even fool Billy and the pack" I reply quietly as I turn off the TV and stand up to face them.

"You mentioned the pack before Bella? What did you mean when you said that?" asks Jasper as Emmett tenses.

"The pack is the Ouellette tribe of wolves that live on the reservation, Jacob would have turned had Victoria not killed him when she did. Billy said it was just a matter of time before his change would have happened. I believe it was his great-grandfather that made the original treaty with Carlisle."

"However, I am hungry and I need to eat so let's get this show on the road. Is there anything here that you guys want to take with you? Pack it up now because the sooner we leave here the better."

A few hours later

I am sitting in a hotel room in Seattle finally eating and surfing the internet for potential plots of land in Colorado, Nevada, Utah and Wyoming, leaning towards Colorado because I would love the mountain air up there.

Just as I am finishing my breakfast I hear the hotel door open and my two beautiful men walk in laughing and joking. I turn around in silence and smile as I stare at them saying, "I love the sound of your laughter. It brings joy and happiness to my heart."

They both stop, smiling because they realize they have not laughed since they left Forks the first time.

"Why don't you go and take a shower while I pull up what I've found so far."

As I watch them walk towards the bathrooms in the suite we are renting for the day I am again overcome by so much lust that I have to take several deep breaths before I can return my concentration back to the important business at hand.

By the time they have finished their showers and gotten dress I have narrowed our choices down to three states that I know the Cullen family has not visited – Colorado, North Dakota and Wyoming.

Colorado because of the many mountains we could choose from, North Dakota because of the amount of space we could have, and Wyoming because many trails and mountain hideaways.

I put the three states in a bowl and was going to draw one and that would be our destination. I was swirling the bowl around when they came to sit down at the table with me.

"Our choices are Colorado, North Dakota or Wyoming. Who wants to choose?"

"Wherever you want to go is fine with us, Bella" Emmett says as Jasper takes the bowl from my hands saying, "So pick away."

I close my eyes and put my hand in the bowl pulling out a slip of paper.

Opening it up, I smile and say, "Colorado it is."

It's not until we're on the road that Jasper realizes that he hasn't called his friend Peter to find out what is going on between the three of us.