Here is another chapter and I'd have to say its a good one yet it's pretty dark. This chapter focuses a bit more on black and will have a big twist that will play a big roll later on or maybe not... Also their will be a little more info on Black's past that pretty interesting. Anyway's thanks to everyone who reviews I appreciate it and thanks again to anyone who supports this story in anyway I really appreciate it and your all awesome! Enjoy the chapter.

Chapter 34: Who are you?

Point of View Black

I was now walking along the beach far away from my supposed friends. They were now long out of sight. At the moment and I just wanted somewhere to be alone and let out some stress. Once I checked back to make sure no one was behind me or in sight I then sat down on the sand and looked off into the horizon towards the ocean. The view went on forever and there wasn't a sign of land in sight.

All I could think of while sitting down was that persistent charmander "Asshole" I said out loud to myself as I thought about the inconsiderate prick. Memories of our conversation continued to haunt my mind and I could feel my anger continuing to grow inside of me. After a few more seconds I then couldn't take it anymore and I let out a loud scream of anger and I began punching the sandy ground repeatedly, sadly for me the sand wasn't satisfying to punch since it wasn't a hard surface and it just moved away from each hit.

Once I finished taking my anger out on the sand I then looked back towards the direction I came from to see if someone was looking for me. Thankfully the coast was clear for now and I wasn't going to have to listen to someone lecture me about how I'm supposed to act.

"Why do I even stay with them" I asked myself as I questioned my friendship with everyone around me. All they ever did was ask me things I didn't want to remember and in the end they'd all probably be drove away by my psychotic behaviors, if not die miserable death's.

"Don't you stay with them because they fill that empty void in your heart" I heard a familiar voice that I hated call out from behind me. I then turned my head just enough to see that illusionary jolteon that always haunted me.

"Stop talking like you know me" I scowled towards my illusionary brother who was dead.

"I do know you though" the jolteon said as he got up into my face and stared into my eyes with his soul piercing blue eyes "Stop living a lie Ryder, your only hurting yourself in the end" the jolteon said as I took a few steps away from him and looked away and avoided any form of eye contact.

"A lie" I asked in a confused voice "How am I living a lie?"

"Lying to everyone around you, acting like you deserve sympathy when you are right where you belong. Your no saint Ryder, you neglect that we were ever your family and try and you try to suppress your memories of us" the jolteon said in an upset voice.

I turned around and looked at the jolteon who was still staring at me with his piercing eyes "What am I supposed to do then" I shouted at the illusion.

The mirage then quickly let out a toothy smile "Where all dead because of you… we died because we were related to you… the least you can do is not act like we never existed" the jolteon said.

"It's not my fault…" I said in a faint voice "I've relived that night through my head at least a million times and in the end I… I honestly hardly understand what happened" I said in a depressed voice.

"In the end your death is simply because I'm an umbreon that's cursed" I said as a tear escaped my eye. I honestly hated being an umbreon. It was the crucible of all my pain. From what I've gathered in the past my family was killed because I was an umbreon that had an evolutionary disorder. I could never put together why they wanted me for it though, but I've lost everything because of what I am.

"That may be true, but in the end were all dead and my point is that you need to do something besides just feeling bad for yourself and acting like everyone should understand you. Your different, your hated, this world rejects you and what are you going to do" the jolteon asked as he got closer to me.

"What do you mean what am I going to do" I asked in a frustrated voice.

"Well the charmander had a point, are you just going to wait for them to come for you or are you going to fight for your right to live. If not may as well kill yourself here and save everyone around you while you can. Their all dead now if you don't grow up and stop pretending this isn't happening" the jolteon said as he stared me down with a pair of cold blue eyes.

"Stop them… For mew's sake last time I fought them I almost died, even with help" I yelled in frustration.

"You are not alone though" The jolteon said with an untrusting smile "There is more pokemon who wish to help you than you think, many who can help you survive" the jolteon said as his smile became bigger and gave him a demonic look.

"Who, and how do you know… you're an illusion right" I asked in confusion as I then considered the fact that this jolteon was possible something other than a hallucination of my dead brother.

"When the time come's you'll learn more" the jolteon said as his body began to slowly dematerialize into a black dust like substance that was blowing away in the wind.

This jolteon felt very different from my brother every time I saw him, he was not the loving gentle brother I loved "Who are you… your nothing like my brother" I growled towards him.

The jolteon was still slowly dematerializing and he then gave out a small laugh "Maybe I am your brother or maybe I'm something bigger" he said in a taunting voice "Regardless I'll contact you when times are better. Until then know that the Crimson Dawn will be coming soon and if you want your friends to live you better become stronger or there won't be a next time" he said as he completely dematerialized into black dust and blew away.

"Hey who are you!" I yelled at the top of my lungs despite the fact the imposter was gone. I then looked in every direction for a sign of the jolteon. I then actually had to ask myself how crazy I was and whether I imagined that or if it was actually supposed to mean something.

"Who are you" I asked again out loud as a heavy breeze blew and stopped the dead silence "Who are the other's that want to help me."

After a few minutes of pondering those thoughts I then decided it was time for me to head back to my group, despite the fact that I was better off not being with them and that I'd probably be the cause of all their deaths one day.

After around fifteen minutes of walking I finally came back to the rest area which we stopped at earlier. Although to my surprise everyone was gone and I was alone. I looked around and saw all the tables were unoccupied and that the concession stand was unattended. The area around me was completely deserted and I was alone.

'Did they just leave me behind' I thought to myself. The idea honestly wouldn't have surprised me at all though honestly since I was nothing but a bad luck charm for them. I then let out a deep sigh as thoughts of them giving up on me entered my head.

"Black" I heard a confused familiar voice call out from behind me. I then turned around and saw Kana staring at me with nervous eyes. For a second I actually thought the previous jolteon from before was back to harass me some more.

"Oh you guys are still here… Where is everybody?" I asked.

Kana then took a step back from me as if she was scared "Their all out looking for you" she said in a shaky voice. I could obviously tell she was scared of me after I snapped on that charmander earlier.

"Why are you acting this way" I said in a slightly upset voice.

"Acting like what" Kana said in an attempt to play dumb.

I then let out a big sigh of annoyance that showed my stress and that I was not in a good mood "I get it now, you are afraid of me to" I said as I looked her dead in the eyes.

The jolteon then tilted her head a little in confusion "I'm not afraid of you, I'm just worried about you after your little breakdown and you are honestly making us question your mental stability" the jolteon said in a nervous voice.

"Just say it" I said in a serious voice.

"Say what" Kana asked in a nervous voice.

"I know what you are all thinking…" I said.

"What do we all think then" Kana asked.

"You all think I'm some psychotic umbreon that's mentally unstable and that I'm a danger to have around" I said as I looked her with my blood red eyes that scarred many pokemon away.

Kana then held her head high and began walking towards me "It's no secret that you're a hard pokemon to understand. I also know that you are injured mentally, but no one can even understand you since you are not opening up to us. So we are just left to fill in the blanks on our own and then when someone like that charmander mention's something you completely snap and threaten to kill him. Everyone including myself doesn't understand you" Kana said in a very long speech and I just sat there and thought about what she was saying. In the end she was right. I couldn't just expect them to understand something they don't have a clue about. 'Would it be a bad idea to tell her' I thought to myself.

I then let out a groan "I'll tell you if you promise to never speak of it" I said in a serious voice.

"I'll take it to my grave" Kana said in a trusting voice.

I then sat there for a few seconds of thinking of how to word things for her and whether it was too late to go back on telling her or ask Celebi the guardian of time to undo those few words I said "I…" I said as I failed to say words that were going to make sense. "I'll start from the beginning I guess since everyone always wants every single detail of my suffering.

"I'm not getting no joy out of this" Kana said as if I offended her.

"Well I guess it starts mainly four years back when I originally evolved into an umbreon when I was younger" I said as Kana sat there and looked at me and didn't take her gaze off me for even a second.

"As you may know umbreon's are one of the most hated species on the planet. Alex may not bring it up but I'm sure he too knows why" I said as I got slightly off topic. "The moment I evolved into an umbreon I was so excited that I evolved finally since when you are young everyone is in a big hurry to grow up. But when my mom found out she acted like she was happy but now I know today that she was scared that I was going to live in a world that would discriminate me for what I am" I said as I took a second to get some air in my lungs so I could continue my story. "Well she was right everyone that did love me shunned me and iced me out. My friends I spent every day with were now my enemies and I was constantly bullied by them. Everyone around me always looked at me funny or avoided eye contact with me or I'd hear racist thing's said behind my back and sometime pokemon would even say hateful thing's to my face" I said as I reflected back on those dark days.

"I'm sorry that you were treated that way, but how does this relate to what you never wanted to talk about" Kana said in an attempt to speed up my story.

"Well I guess I want to just get some stuff off my shoulders and this will lead up to something" I said.

"Anyways from the time I first evolved I basically gave up on making friends, I gave up on socializing with anyone outside my family. My family was the only ones who accepted me" I said as my voice got fainter. "After two years of being discriminated something happened that I'll never forget" I said as my tongue became numb and I just wanted to stop talking.

"Is this the part you don't ever want to talk about" Kana interrupted, I then gave a nod to say yes without talking.

"Around two years from this day my entire family was slaughtered right in front of me" I said as Kana's face went from entertained to shocked as her jaw fell and her eyes widened" I still remember it all happening, the screams of my sister, my brother and my mother… I can't get the images of their blood everywhere out of my head it's all I see when I dream at night" I said as my eyes grew heavy from the tears that were beginning to form.

Kana just stared at me with shocked eyes as her jaw was cracked open "I'm… I'm so sorry… I had no idea" Kana said very quickly in an attempt to apologize for bringing up memories.

"It's was a traumatic experience… I wake up screaming some nights from nightmares I have about that night" I said.

"But the thing that made the mass murder worse was that one of the pokemon that helped was my own brother… Vincent" I said in a spiteful voice.

"Why would he do that" Kana said out loud in a shaky voice as I noticed a tear falling from her eye.

"Are you crying" I then asked her in slight shock of her reaction to my story.

"It's just horrible that things like that ever happen and every time we tried prying about that night all we did was remind you of that… I'm so sorry" Kana said as more tears flushed down her face. I just stood there shocked. No one has ever cried for me and for some reason now I felt guilty.

"Thanks…" I said quietly.

Kana then looked up after I said that "For what" she then asked.

"I know I've always iced others out. But thanks for listening" I said as I showed a hardly visible smile on my face.

"It's no problem and if you ever need to talk or just need someone to try and help you, I'd like to help if possible" she then said with a caring voice.

"Sure" I said as I considered her kindness.

"Well everyone should be back soon, so why don't we change the subject since we don't want them to see either of us depressed.

"That works for me" I said as I became happy that we were done with that subject "Just one more thing kana" I then said in a serious voice.

"What is it" The jolteon asked.

"I know it only sound's fair that everyone knows but I really don't want them knowing, so it'd mean a lot if we kept this between the two of us"

"Yeah sure I understand" Kana said in a trusting voice.

I then all of a suddenly felt tired and I let out a small yawn and I then lied down on the ground and curled up into a ball to make myself comfortable. I tried to fall asleep but all I could think about was that night two years ago and how horrifying it was.

Black's point of view two years ago.

Everything was so cold and dark. I was now lying on the cold snowy ground outside of the moment I was just terrified and I've completely lost motivation to move or run for my life from the danger nearby. It was only a few minutes ago that I watched my mother die and it was about ten minutes ago that I watched my brother and sister die by the hands of cold blooded murderer's.

Snow was now gently falling on me as I lied on the ground in despair. Everything seemed so peaceful until ten minutes ago. I then looked to left and looked at the hill me and my family lived on, at the top was a really big tree that would usually provide shade during the nice warm summer days. My gaze then focused on my paws and the bit of my body I could see, I was covered in the blood of my family and I instantly felt disgusted and I just wanted the blood off of me right away.

My head then began to feel like it was spinning and I then felt myself slowly drifting off into unconsciousness as I struggled to keep my eyes open. Every few seconds I could feel myself black out until I eventually gave in and passed out on the cold snowy ground.

"So this is the umbreon then huh" I heard a deep voice call out. I could hear the voices even though I was blacked out and all I could think of is who they were and why they cared about me.

"Yes sir this is my brother" I heard the familiar sound of my brother say towards the first individual who spoke.

"How does it feel to play the role of a traitor" the anonymous voice asked.

There was a moment of silence before Vincent even responded "I don't know, I guess in the end I'm not a traitor since this is for the future" my brother said to the unknown pokemon.

"This is how things have to be, you and your brother's sacrifice will one day change the world" the voice said.

"I know… Do we apprehend him from here then sir" Vincent asked.

"Not yet, it's still too early he's not yet ready. But in two or three years the time will come if we manipulate some things to go in our favor" the anonymous voice said. "Once the time passes we can then initiate phase two of project Kurokami" the voice said.

My eyes then began to slowly open but I could only make out blurs for a few seconds and eventually my vision stabilized and I saw my brother Vincent looking down at me. Standing right next to the white espeon was a quilava who had his back turned to me and a greninja that had a sword on his back.

"He's awake, what do we do" Vincent asked.

"Leave him he's too weak to even move" I heard the anonymous voice say from behind me. I tried to look to see who was talking but my body refused to move. I then heard the anonymous figure walking away from me and the other three pokemon followed behind the unknown pokemon.

"Vincent" I called out in a weak voice. The white espeon then stopped and looked back at me but said nothing.

"Why" was all I could get the strength to say towards my traitor brother.

"For a tomorrow" Vincent then said as he walked away and looked forward.

I lied in the cold snow for around an hour before I could even think of moving off the cold ground. Eventually though my body felt like it had a little energy and I rolled over with very weak muscles and forced myself to stand up. Once I was up on all four's I then took a step forward on one of my weak paws and I then looked towards the hill I lived on and started making my way up the hill.

After a few minutes of forcing myself to climb up a snowy hill I was at the top. The snow was gently falling from the sky and coating the world around me in its pure white coat. Far off in the distance I could see a town and in the other direction's I could see the world going on as far as the eye could see.

After I was done observing the world around me I then looked towards the tree on the hill. Next to the tree was a lifeless leafeon that lied on the ground with a giant gash in her jugular. Tears began to submerge from my eyes and they flowed down my face as I looked at my dead mother.

"Why… why…" I asked myself as I sobbed at the sight of my dead mother. I then walked up to her corpse and gave her a nudge in an attempt to make her show some sign of life.

"Please… wake up… Mom… please" I said as tears gushed down my face and I continued to sob at the sight of my dead mother. I just wanted to wake up and find out this was all some horrible nightmare, but no matter how hard I tried I still remained in this hell.

"I never even got to say bye" I said in between my sobs as I lied down next to my mother's corpse and grabbed her paw and put it over me as if she was hugging me. I then curled into a ball and closed my eyes and tried to act like this wasn't happening as I continued to sob out loud. I was now covered in even more of my mother's blood, but I didn't care I just wanted to be with her as long as possible, dead or alive.

Chapter End

Author Note: Well that was a dark chapter. Well I guess I'll start this author not with the jolteon mirage black always see's. Obviously something is up with that hallucination and It will not be the last time Black see's him. I'm actually curious to here what everyone think's about him and what he is. Now onto Black and Kana's conversation. I thought it was good that Black finally got to get some off the stuff he's been keeping a secret for years off his chest, after all he's hasn't told anyone about that beside's Flare and now Kana is the second pokemon to know. Now onto the flash back I put in at the end of the chapter. First off I hope I did a good job on that since it was an emotional chapter. Anyways I know I only showed what happened after the murder but their will be more info on it later on down the road. Obviously though he was traumatized. Anyways it'd be cool if some of you could give some feed back but if not no problem.

Thanks for reading and supporting the story!