Hi everyone! Today's chapter is a special one you want to know why?
*starts making drumming sounds* It's an original song that I wrote!
So backstory for this song. I'm asexual. Like everyone, I dated, and gotten close to having sex, but the idea of it just never sat well with me, as I hate being touched. And the more I went through my high school and now even in my twenties, I'm just now realizing what I am. I never told my family and friends as they figured because I dated in the past I'm "straight" and that my asexuality "isn't real." Or worst that I just need to be "fixed" by having sex.
I'm just now discovering the Ace Spectrum and I feel like I finally belong to somewhere after years of confusion.
What really helped me understand was the Gender and Sexuality video by Kaleido Quail on Youtube. I highly recommend this everyone. It's really good and it helped me understand what I identify as. Since the video, I started to write my own song due to this video and to help everyone else who is confused and need some validation.
Also...Belated Pride Month and coming out gift! So enjoy and thank you!
Chapter 7: The Sexuality Song (Original)
Alastor was taking a casual stroll, enjoy the evening as he had finished his paperwork at the hotel, and all of his other work. He was humming one of his favorite jazz tunes. He always loved going on walks. It helped clear his mind and others kept out of his way. Though being the feared Radio Demon had it's perks. He knew that there was a big commotion over this "Pride Month" but he had no interest in something he couldn't identify with. Even his studio was being bombarded with requests of songs, and he tried to accommodate and be neutral. He kept his comments brief, not sure what to really say about the music. He knew everyone was making a buzz about it at the hotel. Another reason why he had taken the walk. Charlie asking him earlier about his flag and he claim that he didn't have one, immediately after saying that he was going for a walk to get some fresh air.
This is where he had the misfortune of running into some demons that apparently missed the memo that he was the Radio Demon. These Sinners had seem to gotten into their heads that he was one to their supposed "good time." This repulsed the deer demon. He had no desire for sex. Never saw the reason for it. And such thoughts and actions just didn't sit well with him. So the unexpected slap on his rear instantly caused him to turn and shove the demon against the nearest wall. Dials appeared in his eyes.
"Little doe likes it rough!" The demon flirted, some ferret or weasel looking thing.
Alastor inwardly cringed. He was going to love ripping him apart. He raised his hand to claw out the demon's intestines. Before he had the pleasure of doing so, the second demon, a Bison, grabbed and turned to where the red sinner was against the wall. Alastor felt a thin pulse of fear course through him. The bison's eyes leering over his thin frame. He growled, his lip curling.
"Nothing like a fine venison for lunch." The bison smirked.
"I'll agree to that." The third, more human than the others, agreed. "Heard he was a virgin. What fun this will be. Time to fix that."
"Even better! Don't worry deerling. We'll make sure not to treat you too rough. Don't want your first time to leave a bad impression on you."
Alastor chuckled lowly. Shadow trendlis raising out the ground and wrapping around them.
"I think I'll say the same to you." He looked up at them, antlers cracking as they grew, static getting louder. "I believe it'll be you who will be for lunch. More perferbly, my lunch."
Rage filled him as he happily went into tearing the demons apart. He wasted no effort in torturing them. How dare they think they would treat him like some sort of object! To think they had the right to violate his body! That he even would even allow the disgusted action! Or to think they were strong enough to get to force themselves on him! Static crackling around him at a defening shrill. Anger. Fury. Wrath. Hatred. Swirling around him as he continued to maim and shred the three. He hardly took notice of the blood splattering on and around him.
He was feeling other things, but he refused to acknowledge them. He just wanted to make those lowlifes pay. Reality was distorted at the moment. Time had meshed with the static. Unable to tell how long the slaughter was going. Static buzzing. Though there was something that was trying to push through. He couldn't make it out. He tried to focus on the odd sound.
"-sor."
It was coming clearer. A voice.
"-stor. ...okay?"
It was saying something to him.
"Alastor!"
He snapped back to see Vaggie in front of him. She actually looked concerned for him. He couldn't understand why though. Anger and distrust was her most used emotions around him. He actually made it his own personal mission to get a smile on her face. And they were very few and inbetween. He blinked, his grin widening at her.
"Miss Vagatha! What a surprise! What are you doing here?"
"Charlie sent me to look for you."
"Ah! So sorry to keep you darling! I guess I lost track of time!" He laughed, noticing that he was drenched in blood. "I apologize for my unflattering look! I'll be sure to clean up!"
He turned to head back to the hotel, but what she said next to him caught him off gaurd.
"It's alright. I get why you did it. I saw everything."
He stopped in midstep. His ears perked at up at what she said. He looked back at her, flashing her a smile.
"I'm sure I don't quite know what you're talking about dear."
She frowned, moving to where she was in front of him.
"Don't pull that bullshit with me. I saw those assholes cornering you. I heard what they said to you." Her gaze soften at him. "And I don't blame you for lashing out like you did. They deserved it. And you don't need to be fixed."
"It's hard to be fixed when you don't know if there's something wrong with you." He started to walk off when she surprised him once again.
"I know, the world has always said that being straight is great. And else is nothing but a disgrace."
He looked back at her. She had a small smile on her face, holding her hand out to him.
"But don't you worry, don't you fret. Don't be ashame of your sex!" She took a hold of his hand and started pulling him towards the city. "Because it's time you heard of the Sexuality Song!"
Alastor tilted his head in curiousity. If anything, he was actually a bit excited. Vaggie hardly smiled. Let alone sing. What a rare treat indeed! He wasn't going to waste this delightful change! She motioned around to the modern life around them.
"Nothing's the same. Times have changed. Sexuality is no longer a straight game!"
She smiled at his as she lead him between a busy marketplace full of the more modern day sinners like herself.
"There's no reason for you to feel wrong!" She motioned to a female sinner that was flirting with both male and female demons. "Let me give you some advice! If you're bi, then you're the type to play both sides."
She pointed to a male couple that was walking pass them.
"And being gay means that same sex is okay!"
A male sinner wearing a blouse and women jeans sauntered past them.
"And being Trans is just grand!"
Alastor was genuinely surprised to see how passionate she was getting. He was thrilled! And she was actually smiling and wanting to be in his company! She spun onto a chair and on top of a table, her arms outstretched.
"This is the Sexuality Song! Nothing you feel is ever wrong!" She jumped down, taking his hands. "So just take pride in yourself. There's nothing wrong with how you feel. Don't let anyone tell you else!"
The Overlord continued to follow the moth as she pulled him down the street.
"You're sexuality is your own deal. Always know that you belong!" She had stopped where she was standing in front of a rainbow flag. She grinned at him. "This is the Sexuality song!"
Alastor gave her a small smile. Even though he appreciated what she was trying to do for him, it wasn't really make an effort.
"You're heart is in the right place darling. But I feel as though none of them applies to me."
He moved to head towards the hotel. As he entered to a dim lighted area of the city, she managed to get in front of him.
"I know it's scary, when you feel like you don't have a voice."
His ears lowered a bit. It was true that he did feel that without being able to label what his lack of desire for sex was. He had always been an outcast on some level. More so with this. It truly made him feel like he was in his own version of solitude.
"That you're alone in the world, and no one will ever understand you." She offered him a kind smile. "But know that whatever you are that it's your choice."
She lead him out of the dreary area and more to a viberant location. An street full of vendors for the pride month that was going on. She turned to him, moving backwards so her attention on the taller demon.
"So here we are in the modern day, where you can toss away those fears!" She dodged a couple that was heading towards them. "Where when you're queer you can cheer! As a Cis you know that you're feelings will never be dismissed!"
She handed him a pamphlet.
"So don't feel bad for who you are. Know deep inside, that you're always a shining star. So what you feel is never wrong. So come embrace the Sexuality Song!"
Alastor gave a small sigh. Even though he was enjoying his time, what she was saying wasn't really appealing to him. He know's he's not straight. Or Bi. Gay, queer, transgendered, or Cis. ...whatever that meant. He didn't have feelings for anyone. He was content with spending his life, well afterlife, alone. He gave her an apologetic smile.
"Vagatha dear. I know you're doing your best to cheer me up with the earlier mishap that happened. But I'm not seeing where I apply." He handed her the pamphlet back.
She gave a soft frown at him.
"Yes I know there are times when you feel you're out of of place. That no one will accept you. That you're nothing but a disgrace. And it's hard to feel like anyone cares." She gently took his hands. "But believe me that we are all on your side. After all, if you take things in stride, there's no reason for you to hide." She released his hands and pulled him into a side hug. "It's time to reclaim your pride!"
She pulled him up to a stand.
"This is the Sexuality Song. Nothing you feel is ever wrong. So take pride in yourself, there's nothing wrong with how you feel. Don't let anyone tell you else." She placed a pride hat on his head. "Your sexuality is your deal. Always know that you belong! Yes this is the Sexuality Song!"
Alastor took the hat off. Looking at it with a conflicted look.
"I understand that one should to themselves be true. But what exactly and I suppose to do?" He handed the hat back. He gestured towards the couples that were around them. "I"m not one who longed for a romance. Never seen a reason to ever take the chance."
He took hold of a rose, handing it over to her.
"Every physical act leaves me in complete and utter disgust. I just don't understand all of the fuss. I just don't know where I belong. How can I be included in this sexuality song?"
Vaggie hummed to herself as she thought.
"You don't find being straight is great. And being bi isn't your slice of pie."
She looked over the couples that were in the area.
"For you gay is not okay. Being Trans isn't grand. And being Cis you gladly dismiss." Her eye lit up and she turned to him, a pleased grin on her face. "So that means you do have a place! Alastor, welcome to being Ace!"
"Ace?" He echoed, confusioned.
"Yes Asexual! Known as Ace! That is your place!" She opened the pamphet and showed him where the asexuality part was. "You are not alone! Asexuality is known! There's no reason to feel disgraced. This is the time for you to embrace!"
Alastor felt his smile get bigger. Asexual. That's what he was. He finally knew what he was after all these years of unconfused!
"That is where you belong!" Vaggie grinned at him. "Welcome to the Sexuality Song!"
Alastor grabbed hold of the tempermental demoness hand and spun her, the two dancing together.
"Yes, this is the Sexuality Song. Nothing you feel is wrong!" Vaggie placed the hat back on his head and he wrapped a rainbow scarf around her neck. "So take pride in yourself! There's nothing wrong with how you feel. Don't let anyone tell you else, your sexuality is your deal! Always know that you belong!"
The two went to different couples. The flags of each sexuality behind each.
"Straight is great! Bi is fly! Gay's okay! Trans is grand! Queers can cheer! Cis is bliss! Aces embrace!"
The two stopped in front of the giant Pride Flag that was hanging up in the middle of the street. They wrapped their arms around each other.
"Everyone has a place! Yes this is where we all belong!" Alastor grabbed Vagge and spun her. Releasing her as they had their backs to each other. "This is the Sexuality Song!"
Alastor smiled at the moth demon.
"Thank you dear. For helping me understand."
"You're welcome." She took notice of the vendor behind them. She excused herself for a quick second. A moment later she came back and held up a flag to him. "Here. Now you have a Flag for the Pride Parade."
The Overlord took hold of the flag. Going in order the stripes where green, a limish yellow, white, gray, black, gray, white and finally purple.
"What does it mean?" He asked.
"It's the AroAce Flag. Welcome to the LGBTQ+ club shitlord."
Alastor's grin widen at her, and he pulled her into a side hug.
"Thank you darling. I appreaciate everything you have done for me today."
"Don't get used to it." She told him as they headed back to the hotel.
"You honestly do have a lovely smile. You should do it more often."
"Not with you around."
"How about another song? You have quite the voice!"
"Nope. Not happening."
As the two went back and forth, both had to agree on one thing. It did feel nice to know that you belonged somewhere. And that you were accepted for who they are.
I hope you all enjoyed my song! As I was coming up with it, I couldn't get the duet out of mind. And who else was better for it than Vaggie and Alastor?
While those two certianly clash, I do like to think as the series goes on Alastor would make it his own personal mission to get Vaggie to smile around him for any reason. The rarer the smile, the more geninue it is in Alastor's book. Which makes it all the more reason why he wants to see her do it. Or for her to let her guard down and have some fun with him.
Thank you all for reading and don't forget to review! I would love to hear your thoughts on my original songs! Until next time!