A/N: Season 2, woohoo :)

IN MY TIME OF DYING

Dean's POV

I'd woken up to a nightmare and confusion having some kind of out of body experience finding my body lying still on a hospital bed and no one could see me or tell me where Sam, Dad and Eve was but finally I saw Sammy walk into my room and he looked good despite what we just went through, I remember the crash but nothing after until waking up here.

"Sammy" I said with a smile since if anyone would see me I'd be him with his psychic wonder. "You look good…considering…"

"Oh no" he mumbled to himself staring at my still form on the bed then slowly walked towards it so I went around the other side hoping and praying he'd look up and see me.

"Man tell me you can hear me" I said but he didn't acknowledge me. "How's Dad?" I asked but still no response. "Evie is she okay?" I continued since I had to know she was okay because it had been on her side. "Come on you're the psychic, give me some ghost whispering or something"

"Your father's awake" a doctor said appearing in the doorway looking at Sam. "You can go see him if you'd like"

"Oh thank god" I said but realised he hadn't said anything about Evie.

"What about my brothers girlfriend?" Sam asked and I thanked him quietly.

"She was awake when she arrived but is resting, she suffered a contusion to the head and abdomen from the crash but the most concerning was the damage the baby could have suffered an ultrasound is scheduled as soon as she wakes up" the doc replied and I panicked the entire time until he said baby.

"What?" Sam asked turning back to him with surprise while I stood silent watching the doctor comprehend Sam's confusion.

"I'm sorry I thought you knew" Sam looked down at me with shock that I matched since I'd had no idea but couldn't help thinking that it was what was bothering Eve and what she wanted to talk about.

"Doc, what about my brother?" Sam asked making me frown since I wanted to know more about Eve, she was all I cared about.

"Well he sustained serious injury, blood loss, contusions to his liver and kidney but it's the head trauma I'm worried about, there's early signs of cerebral edema" I looked down at myself in a little bit of worry since none of that sounded good and I had to wake up so I could give Evie a piece of my mind about keeping her being pregnant from me.

"Well what can we do?" Sam asked him.

"Well we won't know his full condition until he wakes up…if…he wakes up" the doc replied.

"If?" Sam asked and I looked up.

"I have to be honest with you-"

"Screw you doc I'm waking up, my girl needs me" I cut him off but they didn't hear me obviously.

"…most people with this degree of injury wouldn't have survived this long, he's fighting very hard but you need to have realistic expectations son"

"Come on Sam, go find some hoodoo priest to lay some mojo on me" I said looking at him. "I'll be fine but make sure Evelyn's okay"

"Sammy" my head snapped up and saw Eve walking in looking weak.

"Thank god" I walked towards her but she didn't even glance my way, she couldn't see me either.

"Miss you should be resting" the doc warned her in disapproval.

"I'll rest when my boyfriend's awake" she walked over to my bed and grabbed my hand but I didn't feel it and looked down at my hand but nothing was there, not the familiar warmth when we held hands or the current I always got from her touch.

"Let's leave them" Sam said and despite the doctors protests Sam got him to leave and once they were gone Eve broke down.

"I don't…I don't know if you can hear me but you have to fight Dean Winchester, you can't leave me in this messed up world by myself" I smiled moving behind her leaning down.

"I promise because you and I need to have a serious talk about keeping things from each other"

Evie's POV

After Sam talked to John he came and got me saying that I'd be dismissed after a short meeting with the doctor who revealed that he'd told Sam about the baby which made me mad but in the end it wasn't his fault that I hadn't told them and relented into an ultrasound and he cleared me and the baby saying that because I was early the baby withstanded the force of the crash but that I had to take it easy to make sure we both remained healthy despites the cuts and bruises covering my body and I got discharged so I left the hospital with Sam to get stuff from the Impala and to see what condition it was in.

As soon as we arrived I was pulled into a hug by my Dad who practically refused to let go so I looked over at Sam and made a zip motion of my mouth telling him not to say a word about the baby especially to my Dad, his and Dean when he wakes up, we found the wreak and I stared at 'Baby' in shock since there was almost nothing left of her.

"Oh man" I breathed out staring at the once beautiful car. "Dean is gonna be pissed"

"Look Evie, Sam…it's…" Dad trailed off shaking his head at the wreak. "This just ain't worth the tow" he opened the hood before closing it and it broke off. "I say we empty the trunk and sell the rest for scrap" I turned back to glare at my father because there was no way in hell I was letting this car become scrap metal, Dean could fix her and he will want to as soon as he wakes up.

"No" Sam shook his head pulling out his laptop which had been smashed in the crash.

"Dean would kill us if we did that" I added inspecting the car myself. "When he get's better he's gonna wanna fix her"

"There's nothing to fix" Dad argued walking around the car. "Frame's a pretzel, the engines ruined there's barely any parts worth salvaging"

"Dad listen to me, I know Dean and if there's only one working part that's enough, were not just gonna give up on it" I replied not sure if I was still talking about the car or Dean but either way I wasn't giving up on either of them.

"Okay" Dad nodded after staring at me for a few seconds. "You got it" I nodded looking down at the car and frowned before leaned in and picked up Dean's necklace holding it up seeing the rope was broken meaning it must have snapped off in the crash so I put it in my pocket looking up meeting Sam's smile before he pulled out a piece of paper and handed it to my Dad.

"Here, Dad asked if you could get this stuff for him"

"What John want with this?" Dad asked after looking at the list.

"Protection from the demon" Sam replied but when my Dad looked up at him I knew that wasn't what the ingredients were for. "What?" Sam asked seeing it too.

"Oh nothing it's just…"

"Bobby" Sam cut him off. "What's going on?" he asked him and he told us what the ingredients were actually for…it was used to summon a demon not protection against one.

Dad got the stuff for us and we returned to the hospital going straight to John's room barely looking at him because he honestly didn't give a crap about Dean and I was tired of this obsession for this damn demon and disregard for everyone but himself and killing the damn thing.

"You're quiet" John commented looking between us and Sam turned to face him then marched up and threw the bag onto the bed.

"Think we wouldn't find out!?"

"What are you talking about?" John asked playing dumb.

"That stuff from my Dad, you don't use it to ward of a demon you use it to summon one!" I spat at him and he stared at me blatantly.

"Your planning on bringing the demon here, having some stupid macho showdown"

"I have a plan Sam…Evelyn" John argued but all he was doing was pissing me off more than I already was.

"That's exactly my point!" Sam exclaimed. "Dean is dying and you have a plan, you know what you care more about killing this demon than saving your own son!"

"Do not tell me how to feel!" John yelled back pointing a finger at Sam. "I am doing this for Dean!"

"How?!" I yelled cutting in again. "How is revenge going to help him?!" I'd never yelled at John like this, hell not even my own father but he'd crossed a line with me and there was no coming back.

"You're not thinking about anybody but yourself!" Sam added when I stopped to take a deep breath reminding myself that I had to take it easy and not stress but that was easier said than done with this son of bitch. "It's the same selfish obsession!"

"I thought this was your obsession too, this demon killed your mother killed your girlfriend, you begged me to be part of this hunt, now if you'd killed that damn thing when you had the chance none of this would've happened!" John yelled back.

"It was possessing you Dad I would've killed you too!"

"Yeah and your brother would be awake right now!" I clenched my fist feeling the need to punch something as these two continued to yell at each other.

"Go to hell" Sam said and I frowned feeling the anger dissipate because that was a bit much.

"I should have never taken you along in the first place, I knew it was a mistake" John yelled right before a glass that had been on the table flew off and smashed and we all looked up shocked since no one had even been near it to knock it off but before we could think more on it a code went through the hospital and nurses ran past. "Somethings going on out there" John said then motioned us to go so Sam and I left rushing to Dean's room and my heart sank seeing him being resuscitated by doctors and nurses with the paddles.

"Dean!" I went to run in but a nurse pushed me back so I could do nothing but watch listening to the doctors trying to bring life back into him. "No…no…please"

"We got a pulse!" I heard a nurse call out and looked back at Dean crying in shock and relief.

"I can't lose him Sammy, not now" I said placing a hand on my stomach.

"You won't" he replied then looked around. "Stay here with him, I'll be back" I nodded since I wasn't leaving him again and once the nurses and doctors cleared out and allowed me back in I went over and sat in the chair by his bed and grabbed his hand.

"Don't you dare die on me you son of a…I can't lose you" I frowned laying my head on the bed to try and stop the tears. "I love you Dean so you have to hold on, we're trying but you have to fight"

I don't know when I fell asleep but I woke up when I heard the door open and saw Sam walking in carrying a brown paper bag in his hand as he looked at Dean with a frown seeing there was still no change as he approached the bed taking a deep sigh.

"Hey" he said looking down at Dean. "I think maybe your around and if you are…you'll make fun of me for this" he said confusing me but then he pulled out a Ouija board. "But there's one way we can talk"

"What are you doing?" I asked curiously as he walked towards the end of the bed and followed him.

"I think I heard Dean earlier when he was flatlined, I think he's here with us" he replied and I found myself looking around before looking back down at Sam and sat down when he did setting up the board.

"Okay" I nodded sitting next to him.

"Dean?" he asked looking around too. "Dean are you here?" he placed the board down and put his hands on the planchette so I followed and did the same and we waited for a few seconds before it started to move stopping over 'Yes'.

"Did you move it?" I asked looking over at Sam and he shook his head then laughed.

"Oh it's good to hear from you man, it hasn't been the same without you Dean" Sam said talking to Dean but I was more hesitant since who knows if this was really him but then the planchette started to move again. 'H-U-N-T' "Hunt?" Sam asked but I knew this was him now.

"He's hunting" I stated then looked around. "Dean what are you hunting, do you know what it is?" I asked him. "What is it?" I asked him again and the planchette moved. 'R-E-A-P-E-R'

"A reaper" Sam muttered after Dean was finished. "Dean…is it after you?" he asked and my mouth went dry staring down at the planchette waiting for Dean's answer nearly jumping when it moved not sure I wanted the answer but it moved to 'Yes' making me look up going teary eyed again.

"If it's here naturally…there's no way to stop it" I replied looking up at Sam.

"Man you're…" Sam trailed off and somehow I knew Dean had finished his sentence. "No, no, no um…there's got to be a way, oh there's got to be a way" Sam suddenly said standing up. "Dad will know what to do" he left the room and I turned back to the board.

"Dean?" I asked seeing if he was still here and it moved to 'Yes' making me smile. "Could you hear me?" I asked and it moved to 'Yes' again making my smile widen. "Then listen okay, we're gonna bring you back your just have to hang on…please" I replied about to take my hands off to go and help Sam but the planchette started moving again making me look down. "B-A-B-Y" I read then looked up shocked. "You heard that?" it moved to 'Yes'. "I was going to tell you after we found your Dad, I never meant for you to find out like this…I'm sorry" I replied feeling the tears run down my face and the planchette started to move again. 'D-O-N-T' I smiled despite it knowing he was telling me not to cry then it moved again. 'I-L-U' I smiled feeling an all knew set of tears start but for a different reason. "I love you too" I replied just as Sam came back into the room so I stood up and moved towards him as he sat on Dean's bed looking down at his body.

"Hey so Dad wasn't in his room…but I got Dad's journal so who knows maybe there's something in here" I smiled moving to sit on the other side of Dean's bed and we looked at the journal as he flipped through it finally finding a page on Reapers again but found nothing about stopping them since no one had ever had to in this circumstance. "Dean are you here?" Sam asked then looked around but Dean either couldn't move anything or he wasn't here. "I couldn't find anything in the book" he added and I frowned looking down at Dean's body taking his hand in mine.

"We don't know how to help you but we'll keep trying alright as long as you keep fighting" I cut in once again feeling tears roll down my cheeks, I hadn't stopped crying and have cried more in the last 12 hours then I have in my whole life.

"I mean come on…you can't…you can't leave me all alone with Dad, we'll kill each other you know that" Sam said attempting to make a joke. "Dean you gotta hold on" I frowned reaching over and took Sam's hand to comfort him as well. "You can't go man, not now" he was starting to cry now too which made me feel a little better about myself not being a total cry baby. "We were just starting to be brothers again…can you hear me?" there was no response from Dean and Sam continued to cry so I stood and wrapped my arms around him hugging his and he hugged me back taking comfort in each other.

Dean's POV

Once I figured it out that the girl from earlier was actually the reaper I left Sam and Eve to find her and confronted her only for her to try and talk me into buying into the peace crap but I couldn't leave, not when the demon was still alive and not now Eve was pregnant.

"Look I'm sure you've heard this before but you gotta make an exception, you gotta cut me a break" I said looking out the window instead of at the reaper.

"Stage 3, bargaining" she replied so I turned to her.

"I'm serious" I told her honestly. "My family's in danger, see were kind of in the middle of this…war and they need me"

"The fights over"

"No it isn't" I argued.

"It is for you" she replied. "Dean your not the first soldier I've plucked from the field, they all feel the same they can't leave, victory hangs in the balance but they're wrong the battle goes on without them"

"My brother, he could die without me…my girlfriend she's pregnant with my kid and she won't survive my death"

"Maybe they will, maybe they won't nothing you can do about it" she replied and I knew it was futile arguing so I started to walk away. "It's an honorable death, a warriors death"

"I think I'll pass of the 72 virgins thanks…I'm not that into prude chicks anyway" I joked poorly.

"That's funny" she replied flatly. "You're very cute"

"There's no such thing as an honorable death, my corpse is gonna rot in the ground, my family is going to die" I argued again then shook my head refusing to accept this. "No…I'm not going with you I don't care what you do"

"Well like you said…there's always a choice, I can't make you come with me but you're not getting back in your body and that's just facts, so yes you can stay you'll stay here for years disembodied, scared and over decades it'll probably drive you mad maybe you'll even get violent"

"What are you saying?" I asked her.

"Dean…how do you think angry spirits are born?" she replied and I stared at her. "They can't let go and the can't move on and you're about to become one, the same thing you hunt"

Evie's POV

Sam and I were still standing beside Dean's bedside consoling each other when we heard a gasp and separated to see Dean awake choking on the tube in his throat so Sam called out for help and pretty soon nurses and doctors had him off the life support machines we told him everything but he didn't seem to remember any of it including that of me being pregnant given he hadn't said anything about it and before I could tell him his doctor came back his results while Sam and I stood beside his bedside with my hand tightly clasped in Dean's not daring to let go for a second.

"I can't explain it, the edema's vanished, the internal contusions healed…your vitals are good, you gotta have some kind of angel watching over you" the doctor explained before closing his clip board.

"Thanks doc" Dean said before the doctor left. "You said a reaper was after me?" Dean asked turning to us as soon as he was gone.

"Yeah" Sam replied.

"How'd I ditch it?" he asked but we had absolutely no idea.

"You got us" I shrugged looking down at him. "Dean you really don't remember anything?" I asked him.

"No" he replied making me frown since it broke my heart that he didn't remember our Ouija board conversation or that I was pregnant meaning I actually had to tell him. "Except this pit in my stomach…somethings wrong" he replied looking up at us but before either Sam or I could answer there was a knock on the door and we all looked up seeing John.

"How you feeling dude?"

"Fine I guess" Dean replied smiling a little. "I'm alive"

"That's what matters" john smiled.

"Where were you last night?" Sam asked him making me frown since now was not the time for them to get into another heated argument.

"I had some things to take care of" John replied vaguely and I stared up at him pinching my eyebrows together.

"Well that's specific" Sam shot back.

"Come on Sam" Dean warned.

"Did you go after the demon?" Sam asked him ignoring Dean.

"No" John replied shaking his head but even I doubted him since something just didn't add up right.

"You know why don't I believe you right now?" Sam asked him again and John walked into the room more.

"Can we not fight?" John asked looking at Sam and I was surprised given he'd always bite back at Sam and fight. "You know half the time I don't even know what we're fighting about we're just butting heads, Sammy I've…I've made some mistakes but I've always done the best I could I just don't want to fight anymore, okay?"

"Dad are you alright?" Sam asked sensing the same thing I was, their Dad wouldn't say this on normal circumstances and I was actually thinking he might be possessed again.

"Yeah" John nodded with a smile playing at his lips. "Yeah I'm just little tired" he added. "Hey Sammy, would you mind…do you mind getting me a cup of caffeine?"

"Yeah, yeah sure" Sam replied looking down at Dean quickly before leaving the room and John watched him leave before letting out a deep sigh.

"What is it?" Dean asked seeing it too.

"You know when you were a kid…I'd come home from a hunt and after what I'd seen I'd be…I'd be wreaked and you…you'd come up to me and you'd put your hand on my shoulder and you'd look me in the eye and you'd…" he trialed off choking on his words a bit. "You'd say 'It's okay Dad'…Dean I'm sorry" I frowned since this definitely wasn't right.

"What?" Dean asked him again.

"You shouldn't have had to say that to me, I should've been saying that to you" John was close to tears. "You know I put…I put too much on your shoulders, I made you grow up too fast you took care of Sam and you took care of me, you did that and you didn't complain not once" Dean shrugged just a bit. "I just want you to know…that I am so proud of you" a single tear rolled out of his eye.

"This really you talking?" Dean asked and it was horrible that he had to ask his Dad that when he told his son he was proud.

"Yeah" John replied barely above a whisper. "Yeah its really me"

"Why are you saying this stuff?" Dean asked him and John's response was to move closer to Dean putting his hand on his shoulder.

"I want you to watch out for Sammy and each other" he added looking up at me with a smile.

"Yeah Dad, you know I will" Dean replied and I could hear how shaken his voice was sensing how off John was. "Your scaring me"

"Don't be scared Dean" John replied then leaned down and whispered something into Dean's ear that I couldn't hear having moved away a bit intending on giving them privacy until I noted how weird John's behavior was.

When John pulled back the moment I saw Dean's look I knew whatever John had told him wasn't good and so when he walked out I followed calling out to him and he stopped and I stood in front of him.

"What'd you tell him?" I asked almost with a glare.

"You'll know when the times right Evelyn" I frowned not liking that.

"What's really going on Uncle John?" I asked and he looked around before turning back to me.

"Just take care of my sons and yourself and of course my grandchild" my eyes widened in shock wondering how on earth he knew but he pulled me into a hug. "If Dean can't do what's right when the times is right then you have to do it" he whispered before leaning back and pressed a kiss to my forehead before he walked away leaving me stunned and confused but I didn't follow him and instead returned to Dean who immediately opened his arms and I moved climbing up on the bed with him laying my head against his shoulder.

"I'm getting tired of you almost dying on me asshole" I whispered and felt his smile as he pressed his lips onto the top of my head before I looked up knowing I had to re-tell him out the pregnancy and it was now or never. "Dean I have to tell you something"

"Okay?" he replied cautiously.

"I'm-"

"Help!" we heard Sam yell cutting me off and we looked at each other before getting up and I helped him out into the hall following the commotion seeing Sam and when we looked into a room we saw doctors and nurses around John trying to resuscitate him.

"You'll have to wait outside" a nurse warned us when we tried to enter the room.

"No it's our Dad, its our Dad!" Dean yelled when she kept forcing him back and she finally backed off leaving us to watch their attempts to bring John back. "Come on, come on" Dean begged but I knew it was futile as I made the connection there and there, Dean's miraculous recovery plus John's strange behavior and now flatlining all leads to a deal with a devil…probably the devil to save Dean's life in exchange of his own.

"Okay that's it everybody" the doctor called. "I'll call it, time of death 10:41am"

A/N: Hope you all enjoyed this very emotional chapter, please review.