Without Me

Prologue

Kara gasped heavily as she lay on the floor of her apartment. That had been so real. Lena's eyes so cold, not even the angry glint that had been present at the fortress, just dead, lifeless. Then the Kryptonite in her chest, the pain, the agony and seeing the completely unaffected visage on the face she loved so much, it left her reeling. Every interaction between her and Lena coming to the forefront of her mind. It was impossible, hopeless even.

Kara shook her head and got up feeling lost and confused and even a little angry, at herself? At Mxy? At Lena? She didn't even know now. All she knew was that even if she tried over and over again, as long as Lena and Kara remained on the same planet, they each would suffer...

That train of thought gave her pause and she looked contemplatively off into the distance ignoring the fifth dimension imp who was skipping through alternate possibilities on the TV and muttering to her about how he can still fix it.

"Yes. You can," she said, still processing what she was contemplating. It would look like the most selfless act she could do, but it was very selfish. If she could give her friends and family the safest world possible, could she do it if it meant she would be in that world?

Before she could overthink it she looked at Mxy excited. This could actually fix it. This could fix it all, not only her and Lena but everything. She could give back Lena her brother, she could give back Alex her father! Everyone and everything that had been affected by her presence on earth would no longer have happened.

"Mxy, what if I don't leave Krypton when it explodes?"

He was already shaking his head. "What? Kara you know you can't ask me to kill you! The whole point of this it to help you thats my orders, if I help you kill yourself than I would be in even hotter water with the council!"

Kara was shaking her head a smile still present on her face as she thought of the possibilities. "But don't you see? I won't die!" she said jumping in place at her brilliance. "Argo was protected by my Dad, he didn't thing the failsafe would work so he sent me away with Kal! But it did work and Argo was saved. Mxy don't you see?!" she asked him breathlessly. "If you can make sure that mine and Kals pod don't leave Krypton then Kal won't become Clark Kent on earth and ultimately cause Lex to go insane! If I don't get stuck in the Phantom Zone, then Fort Rozz doesn't follow me to earth. Earth doesn't have any Aliens and that means there's no reason for Cadmus to exist and ruin Alex's or Lena's life. It's perfect!"

Mxy frowned. "Perfect for them," he agreed slowly. "But what about you?"

Kara scoffed. "What about me? Who cares about me? Lena hates me and if it wasn't for me Alex would probably be a successful doctor somewhere with a great career not filled with the danger that comes from trying to protect an Alien sister. Trust me Mxy, they would be all better off without me."

The frown was still there. "Well first, I care about you, whether the humans do or they don't," he said firmly and Kara couldn't help but tear up. It had been a while since she had been told that someone cared about her. Ever since Lena turned against her everything just seemed like work for her. Game and sister nights were few and far between and she was either sitting at a job she now hated or she was Supergirl and supergirl didn't have time for emotions when the world was at stake.

"And second," Mxy continued. "They might be, might be, better off without you. But what about you? What would you do without them?" he asked gently and watched as Kara's smile dimmed slightly at the thought before perking back up.

"I will be fine!" she insisted. "They'll get their life back as intended and so will I. I was supposed to live my life on Krypton remember? The science guild? I would probably be paired of with an influential house when I reach maturity and eventually have children and help keep the spirit of Rao alive." Kara tried not to think of the fact that most of her family, she had now found out, were either terrorists or xenophobic but that was beside the point. This wasn't about her. It's because of her that her friends and family suffered. It would be better if they just never had met her.

The thought causes her heart to constrict but she shakes it off. This was her chance to right some wrongs. Fix things. Will she miss Alex? Sure. And Eliza? And Nia and Kelly and Win. And Brainy and James? Sure. She was already missing Lena so that would be nothing new. But Kara was sure that a few years growing up in Argo and she would get used to it and be able to deal with it, just like she had gotten used to dealing with the loss of Krypton here in earth.

It took a while to convince Mxy but eventually with a whole lot of pouting and guilt trips he agreed and before she even knew it Kara was back at Thirteen years of age being sent off to Earth with Kals pod just beside her his baby blanket that would no longer become her cape wrapped around him.

She looked back at Alura and Zor-El for some reason no longer thinking of them as mom and dad and smiled sadly as they put in the launch codes and the pods started to hum with energy before something clanged from below and all the lights inside the pods went dark.

Even as Alura and Zor-El along with Jor and Lara weeped in despair Kara closed her eyes and thanked the Imp for coming through as tears fell from her eyes as it sank in finally that she would never see her real family ever again.

What Kara and even Mxy didn't take into account was that there weren't only two pods that left Krypton on that day. And that third pod still winged its way unimpeded towards the small blue green planet where the pods occupant was promised to be destined to Reign.

Sigh. I can't seem to stop with the angst. So I needed to put this down on paper because the bunny just wouldn't quit.

Don't worry it's not a sobfest throughout but it takes a while do get out of the angst.

This is also a pairing that wi eventually evolve from Lena/Alex to Lena/Alex/Kara then possibly evolve even more to Lena/Alex/Kara/Sam.

It might put some of you off but if you think about it Alex and Kara are less closely related to each other than Barry and Iris and yet their relationship evolved from foster siblings into a marriage. Alex and Kara aren't even the same species so...

Anyways as always leave a review if you want this to go anywhere. Cheers!