I know I am extremely bad at updating, but I am going to try to get better. I have written other stuff since this was first posted, so check those stories out as well! Also, I realize some of this may be out of character but just go with it.

The question IAB asks Olivia is the question that was originally in the promo for the episode "Philadelphia", but asked by Rebecca Hendrix.

"Do you have any romantic feelings for Detective Stabler?"

Standing at the door to the cribs, seeing no one else in the room, they closed the door and sat down on one of the beds facing each other.

"Casey, how can he be getting back with her?"

"I don't know Liv. I know you love him, but maybe Kathy and Elliot are supposed to be together. I mean he keeps going back to her. It's just causing you pain dealing with it."

At that point, Olivia broke down in tears. "I..I just can't do this anymore Casey." Olivia sobbed, her face in her hands,

"I know honey, believe me, I know," Casey said, rubbing Olivia's back as she cried.

After she was finished crying, Olivia cleaned her face, took a deep breath, and looked at Casey, unsure of what to do next.

"Why don't we go back downstairs before the guys come up here. We can do something tonight and talk more about this," Casey suggested to Olivia.

Nodding, she got up and followed Casey out the door back to her desk.

Concerned, Elliot asked "Olivia are you okay? Is everything alright?"

"I'm fine El, I just need to talk to Casey."

"You know if you ever need to talk, I am here for you. We are partners."

"Yeah, I know and I appreciate it." Turning to Casey, she asked, "Hey, do you wanna come over tonight, we can watch a couple of movies and have some wine?"

"Sounds like fun, why not. I'll grab some ice cream too and we can watch some comedies, get out of our heads for a bit."

Hearing the captain's door open, they turned just as he yelled, "Benson, Stabler in my office now!"

"What did you two do now?" Casey asked muffling her chuckle. Elliot and Olivia just rolled their eyes and walked into Cragen's office not knowing what they were in trouble for.

"Sit" was all Cragen said when they came through the doors of his office.

Knowing better to argue, at least till they found out why he was mad, they both took a seat across from Cragen.

"IAB got the results of your review Olivia. They want to suspend you. Do you know why they want to suspend one of my best detectives? How about you Stabler, do you know why?"

Shaking his head, Elliot looked between Olivia and the captain and said, "No, I have no idea what is going on."

Sighing, Olivia glanced at Elliot before looking back at her captain.

"No sir, I don't know why they want to suspend me," Olivia said knowing this was a lie. They wanted to suspend her because she walked out during one of the questions.

"You walked out Olivia. You walked out of an official IAB investigation. Do you know how bad that looks?" He questioned her, wondering what would possess her to leave something that important.

"Yes, and I understand it looks bad, but I just couldn't answer the question they asked me."

"I know what they asked you, Benson. Was is it that your answer was yes, or you just decided to walk out for fun. Maybe you got a kick out of it?"

"Don, with all due respect, you know me. You know why I couldn't answer that. If you don't know why then you don't know me at all. I don't want to be suspended, but if you have to then fine," Olivia said as she gave him a sad smile turned and walked out of the room closing the door behind her.

"Olivia, what happened in there?" Casey asked, seeing Olivia leave the office, annoyed.

"IAB wants to suspend me. I refused to answer one question that they shouldn't have even asked, so they want me to suspend me. Let them. I'm done." She said, grabbing her coat from the back of her chair and putting it on.

"How come you didn't answer it? Even if you lied, it would have got you off the hook."

"I was going to be guilty either way, Casey. I say yes, they separate us. I say no, given our history, they will think I am lying. I was screwed either way. This way, at least no one has to know my real answer."

"What did they ask anyway?"

"They asked if I had romantic feelings for Elliot."

"What is your real answer?"

"You know what my answer is Casey. Yes, of course, I do," Olivia said sighing, feeling both mentally and physically exhausted.

What Olivia didn't know, was that Elliot had stepped out of Cragen's office and heard her entire confession.

Realizing that Elliot was there, Casey's eyes widened, seeing him staring at Liv shocked.

"Liv…"

Hearing this, Olivia turned and saw Elliot standing by the door, shocked.

Realizing Elliot heard her confession, Olivia shook her head and walked out of the squad room, hearing Casey call for her to come back.